Drowning In Yourself or Drowning In The Water?
“I honestly feel like I can’t breathe…
It’s like you’re at the bottom of a pool, staring up at the surface. Beyond that, the sky; sometimes it’s filled with an iridescent blue. Other times, desolate greys and blacks or lightning flashes. Through it all you just sit at the bottom with nothing but content. Then you realize you’re running out of air, so, you frantically kick towards the surface. Just like that, the sky changes. Rolling grey storm clouds settle in, bringing with them a tremendous rain.
Every time your lips graze the edge of the water, it rises an inch. But you’re so desperate for air that you keep trying, not even stopping to see the pattern. With every near success another droplet slaps the pool and the water rises.
You’re left with no other choice than the play this perpetual game; knowing there’s never a guarantee you’ll taste the sweetness of oxygen. So everyday you watch more air bubbles ride through the water, everyday you lose a bit more hope and a bit more energy. While your body, it just slowly sinks back to the bottom of the pool.
And here’s the thing; you could’ve continued on just watching the sky from the deep below. You would’ve never have had to fear reaching the top or losing air…
Because the minute you believed yourself to be drowning, is the minute it became true.
Choose your reality carefully”