I’m my own worst enemy and it pains me to say so. I can blame others for all the hurt, but in the end, the fault lies on me. I try to see the best in myself but instead I discover the worst. Honestly, it’s so tiring and it’s the kind of tired that no amount of time can ever fix. I’m slowly destroying myself and for some odd reason, I never seem to stop myself from doing so. I just stare at myself and keep wondering when the pieces will fall back in place.
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I need to put Henry on a hiatus. I think I’ve figured out why i keep coming on and off hiatus with him; and it’s the show. The way I play Henry is pretty different from how he is on the show, and seeing people talk about him in the tags in a way that is not him at all kinda kills my muse. I know I could just stay out of the tags, but for some reason I’ve been unable to stop myself from doing that. So a hiatus is best.
I still love Henry. I might come back to him once the show is over and things have calmed down a bit. But for now, I need to give him a break.
If you still want to roleplay with me, head over to @whenxyouxwishxuponxthexstars. That’s my disney multimuse and I’d be more than happy to interact with you over there!
“Despite all the pain, I want people to ask if I’m okay, I want to give up and just let myself lose to the depression… and yet, I always end up being the one who stops myself from doing so…”
It's All About You - Joe Sugg Imagine (Part Three)
Your heart stopped as your eyes met his blue ones. His mouth was slightly ajar and he was staring directly at you and was dressed in a dashing suit. The music began to play and your palms grew sweaty. Jim noticed Joe was in a trance and followed his gaze to you, as he nudged Joe and suddenly the four boys started singing while Joe snapped back into reality and began catching up with the words. “It’s all about you..It’s all about you baby..” They sang softly into their microphones as the music blasted. All of the boys were singing beautifully and every time you heard Joe’s voice being louder than the other boys, your heart did backflips and fluttered crazily like a butterfly in the summer but it also shattered like glass as you thought about how mad you were at him and how mad you still are.
Everybody was cheering the guys on and Zoe, Tanya and Niomi were squealing and clapping for their boyfriends on stage while you laughed and smiled at the sight of the girls, seeing how proud they were of their boyfriends which honestly made you so happy because you were so happy to see your best friends happy. You were enjoying all of the boys vocals and swayed with the girls, you turned to look back to the stage when your heart suddenly leaped to your throat and instantly sped up as you watched Joe jump off the stage and walk towards you and the dancing girls. He flashed you a soft smile, yet you could see the fear in those eyes of his and the nervousness in his smile as he suddenly stood possibly five steps in front of you and everyone watched before they immediately started to take pictures. Your eyes were locked on Joes and he placed the microphone close to his lips and sang. “Yeah, I would answer all your wishes..If you asked me to..” He grinned before his hand grasped yours and he pulled you closely into his chest and stared deeply into your (your/eye/colour) eyes that widened with shock.
“But if you denied me one of your kisses..I don’t know what I’d do…” He smiled and placed a delicate kiss on the back of your hand before he stood back nervously and gave you a hopeful and happy but sad look and walked back to the stage as you stared at the back of his head feeling everything overwhelm you. What. Just. Happened!? You asked yourself as you suddenly released the breath you didn’t realise you were holding until now. You didn’t know how to feel. Why did he sing that to you? Why did he kiss the back of your hand? What’s going on? Why did he look so happy but sad? You suddenly became lightheaded and excused yourself and you managed to wander out of the building and up a few flight of stairs until you were on the roof of the building.
You wrapped your arms around yourself feeling a cool breeze blow by you. Your head was spinning with curiosity, confusion and a feeling you couldn’t quite place. You didn’t want to leave the performance, you just couldn’t look at him. You felt so strongly for him that your heart ached and cried and broke. You’ve been fighting with him for the last few weeks because he’s been ignoring you and then you decide to show up at the event and manage to make eye contact with him and get serenaded with his heart melting voice and now you stood on top of the thirty storey building roof top, looking out over the city of London.
“You were always one for views..” Your breath caught and you turned around to meet the eyes you fell in love with. Joe was standing there, with a guilty look on his face and his hands buried deeply in his pockets. You somehow managed to forget how to talk and your mind was so muddled you didn’t even know what to say if you could talk so you turned back to the view and closed your eyes. “It’s quite a sight, isn’t it?” Joe asked while he moved towards you. “You look gorgeous tonight..” Joe whispered and you could feels his eyes burn into your skin as your cheeks heated up with a blush as you swallowed the lump in your throat and managed to build up the courage in you to ask. “Joe..Why have you been ignoring me?” You breathed out feeling your shoulders tense as he turned to look at you with sad puppy dog eyes. “(Y/N)..If I tell you..You’ll hate me. You’ll laugh in my face and walk away. You won’t want anything to do with me..And I can’t lose you..” He said quietly and you could hear his voice shake. You were fuming and your blood was boiling.
You instantly turned on your heels and frowned. “I’ll hate you!? Joseph Graham Sugg! For the last five weeks, you’ve been ignoring me! You’ve been ignoring my calls, texts, e-mails, tweets, messages, absolutely god damn everything! And you think if you don’t give me an explanation that I’ll hate you? No Joe. That’s not how it works. I’m absolutely furious! Your my best friend Joe! I was there for you when your goldfish died and I helped make a funeral for him when we were four. I was there when we tried to stay awake for Santa Claus when we we’re seven. I was there for you when you let your stick insects escape and I helped you try and find them! You helped me learn to ride my bike! You helped me with my maths homework! You showed me how to be more confident in myself! I’ve been there for you for everything Joe! And you’ve always been there for me up until five weeks ago when you completely shut me out! You’ve made me feel terrible Joe! You’ve made me feel sh*t! And now your telling me that if you tell me why you’ve been ignoring me, then I’ll hate you?” You ranted out furiously, angrily letting your hands fly everywhere and every now and then hit Joe. You felt tears of frustration hit your eyes while your heart broke into pieces of jagged glass for at least the one hundredth time, you opened your mouth, about to continue when suddenly Joe cupped your cheeks and you could see that tears were flying down his cheeks.
“I love you (y/n). I love you so f*cking much. I couldn’t be around you because every time we were together, Jesus I was falling for you harder each second. I love how you always make me happy. I love how every time you laugh, your head always falls back and you’ve got the biggest smile on your face and your eyes crinkle. I love how you always laugh at horror films. I love how when someone compliments you, you always go pink and look down. You always say thank you but you never believe any of the compliments. Your so beautiful (y/n). You’ve got a heart of pure gold and you’ve made me fall for you. I’ve been ignoring you because every time I saw you, you made my heart do this..” Joe whispered quietly keeping his gaze directly with yours, he took your hand and placed it over his heart which made you gasp because you could feel how fast it was beating. It was beating insanely fast that you couldn’t even count the beats. “And every time I see you..I always have to stop myself from doing so many things..I want to be that guy that holds your hand when you go for walks. I want to be that guy to hold all your shopping bags and wait endless hours in a cramped dressing room area and wait for you to try on clothes after clothes. I want to be that guy you come crying to when your angry or sad. I want to be that guy to watch you walk down the aisle one day and I want to watch you walk up the aisle and I want to be that lucky guy, that gets to change your last name and make you mine by saying I do..don’t you see (y/n)? It’s all about you..It’s always been all about you..I want to show you off to my friends and call you my girl and I want to have a family with you..I’m in love with you (Y/N)..I love you so much..So much so that it would kill me to see you with someone else..“Joe whispered as tears flooded down both of your cheeks.
You didn’t know what to say. You were stuck in your own little world, lost within your thoughts. He loved you. Joe Sugg is in love with you. You’ve been dreaming of this and waiting for this moment practically forever and now it was all coming true. You couldn’t control your rapidly beating heart and the dizziness that overwhelmed you until suddenly a pair of warm, lips pushed against yours. You kept your hand over Joes heart while your other hand moved over Joes hands that were holding your cheeks. Joe managed to slip his tongue into your mouth and you both were kissing. Craving one another’s touch and getting lost within the magical kiss. You’ve been waiting for this moment for so long and it felt so amazing, so perfect. You felt like you were floating away into your dream but this was your dream. When you both pulled back, you looked up to Joes eyes and smiled. “Joe Sugg..You may have been ignoring me for the last few weeks and you may have really angered me but I’ve got a secret..” You whispered quietly looking up to his blue eyes deeply and pushed a strand of his hair away from his face and smiled widely up to him and intertwined your fingers with his. “I love you too..”
Here’s part three which is the ending of this imagine! I hope you enjoyed reading this imagine as much as I really loved writing it! I have another Joe imagine that’s a four part imagine and ready to post and is completed! If you’d like me to post it then I’d have no problem posting it! I also have many more imagines to come if you’d like them! Don’t be afraid to message me and tell me! Thank you so much for your lovely comments! It seriously means the world to me that you all enjoy my writing! All of your messages put a massive smile on my face! So thank you, thank you so so so much! Lots and lots of love! Xxx
p.s If you’ve got any ideas, don’t be afraid to send them in and I could always try my best to write them! All the love xxx
I hate having meltdowns because when I do my brain thinks that’s it’s a good idea to be completely still even though I feel like kicking and screaming. Like I’m low functioning enough to have meltdowns and want to do something like that. But high functioning enough to stop myself from doing that so it kinda just looks like I’m crying for no reason when I have a meltdown cause I can’t speak when that happens either so, I’m kinda just in my own personal hell. :))))))))
Since the quote and the ship was too gorgeous for words, I couldn’t stop myself from doing an inspired design, so here you go: Impossibility is a kiss away from reality, now available on my Redbubble account in 3 different versions! Check them out here:)
“I had an epiphany one day. I was listening to Gwen Stefani’s song ‘What You Waiting For,’ and it spurred this epiphany that I was the one stopping myself from doing so much just because other people didn’t take me seriously.” —Zahira Gutierrez, singer/songwriter/keyboard player for Wild Moccasins
Watch their new video, “Emergency Broadcast,” here.
Kayla you need to call your father and organize what’s happening on Christmas day with him” I stated as I wiped down the bench from dinner as she sat across from me on her phone.
“Isn’t that your job?” she snapped in return before pushing herself out of her chair and stomping up to her room. I sighed as I placed my hands on the bench top as I dropped my head and let out a loud sigh.
Before I had the chance to try and relax myself I heard a bang and piercing screams from the staircase. As a mother you learn what your childs’ cry sounds like when they’re desperately hurt and this was one of them. As I turned the corner I found my six year old in a heap at the bottom of the stairs as he clutched onto his forehead and cried.
“What happened baby?” I questioned as I knelt down next to him and gently placed my hands over his as he continued to scream.
“Kayla knocked me down” he cried as I sighed to myself and tried to pry his hands apart. “Don’t touch it” he cried as his hands started to shake and I could tell he was going into shock.
"I’m not going to touch it baby, I just want to have a look” I soothed, gently rubbing his back as I guided his hands down from his head to see a large gash on his hairline.
“Is it bad?” he questioned up at me as his tears fell off of his chin and onto his shirt.
I swallowed the lump in my throat before forcing a smile. There was no worse feeling than when your child was hurt. “Nothing that can’t be fixed honey” I assured him before sweeping down and lifting him off the ground. “You’re getting to old for this” I tried to joke as his sobs were beginning to quieten.
“Not funny” he chocked back as I set him down on one of the stools at the bench.
I grabbed an ice bag from the freezer and placed it inside a clean tea towel as I picked up my phone and gently held it against Will’s head. “Hold that there baby” I said as I scanned through my phone until I found my Mum’s number. I placed a kiss on the side of his head as I made my way up the stairs to grab shoes for myself and Will.
“Hey sweetheart” my Mum’s cherry voice answered.
“Hey Ma, can you come watch the kids please? Kayla knocked Will down the stairs and he’s split his head open” I stated which caused her to gasp.
“Sure baby, I’ll be right there” she replied quickly as I grabbed Will’s jacket and his slippers.
“Thank you” I sighed in reply as I headed to my room, stopping at Kayla’s on the way. “I do not have time to argue with you right now so we will discuss a punishment later. Grandma is on her way and you are to look after your sister until she gets here. Got it?” I questioned and her mouth dropped open.
“But I’m supposed to be going out” she complained.
“You just split you brothers head open Kayla! You aren’t going anywhere” I ragged and she slumped back into her bed. I quickly headed down to Scarlet’s room and knocked gently before going in. “Hey sweetie, I have to take your brother to the hospital. Grandma is on her way so please be good” I stated quickly and she nodded her head.
“I love you” she called as I left and I quickly said a love you back as I ran down the stairs.
“How’s my wee man doing?” I questioned as I slipped his slippers onto his feet before looking up to see his tears mixing with snot.
“Sore” he cried.
“Awh, baby” I sighed as I grabbed some tissues and gently wiped his nose before hoisting him up onto my hip and taking him out to the car. “Watch your head sweetie” I soothed as I manouvered him into his car seat. I made sure everything was tightly buckled before getting into the drivers side and backing out.
I dialled Justin’s number as I plugged my phone into my hands free and he quickly answered with an arrogant “What?”
“Kayla pushed WIll down the stairs and he split his head open. I’m taking him to the hospital now; I just thought you’d want to know” I replied in exasperation.
“Is he okay?” he questioned immediately.
"Was he knocked out?” he questioned and the questions were doing my head in.
“I don’t know Justin okay? I have two other kids at home that I have to deal with as well alright? I haven’t had the opportunity to ask those questions” I fired back which only made WIll cry more. I reached my hand back and rested it on his knee gently as I shot him an apologetic look “I’m sorry baby, I didn’t mean to yell”
“Sorry buddy” Justin added as I sighed again. “I’ll meet you there” he stated before hanging up.
“We’re almost there sweetie” I said as I felt him hold onto my hand with one of his.
“It hurts really bad Mummy” he cried as I finally pulled into a park.
“I know it does honey” I replied sympathetically as I quickly hopped out of the car and pulled him onto my hip before quickly making my way into the hospital and over to the receptions.
“Hi there, how can I help” The receptionist questioned as she smiled at me.
“This little guy cracked his head open” I said as Will rested his head on my shoulder and let the tea towel fall across his face.
“Can I have a look sweetie?” she questioned and he shook his head.
“COme on baby, show the lady your head” I encouraged but he shook his head adamantly.
“It’s okay” she replied with a small smile obviously having dealt with these situations before. “What was the name there?” she questioned as she tapped away on her key board.
“William Bieber” I stated and she typed it in before reading our address out to which I nodded.
“Is he allergic to any medication?” she questioned and I shook my head. “Was he knocked unconscious?”
“I’m not sure, I don’t think so” I replied hesitantly and she nodded her head.
“How did it happen?” she questioned as she went through and filled out the file.
“He got knocked down the stairs” I replied as I gently swayed from side to side as his weight was getting really heavy.
“And how many stairs did he fall down?”
“Where were you standing on the stairs baby?” I questioned as I looked down at him.
“Halfway kind of” he replied and I turned back to the receptionist.
“Eight or nine, I’d say” I replied and she nodded her head.
“Take a seat and I will get the next available Doctor to come and see you” she smiled and I nodded my head trying to find a seat.
“Can I take the ice off?” he asked quietly as he sniffled against my shirt and I shook my head.
“You gotta leave it on Will” I replied as I took a seat with him on my lap.
I jogged into the reception area and before I could say anything the receptionist pointed over to the far corner where I found Will curled up in Selena’s lap as she gently rocked him back and forth.
“Hey” I said as I quickly acknowledged Selena before taking a seat and turning my attention to Will. “How’s your head lil man?” I questioned as he peered out at me from Selena’s shirt.
“Sore” he replied simply which made me chuckle a little.
“We’ll get you all fixed up and you’ll be running around again in no time” I assured him as I looked down at his shirt to see it covered in blood.
It fell silent between Selena and I before she let out a small sigh, “What are we going to do with her?” she whispered to me quietly and I shook my head gently.
“I have no idea but it needs to be reinforced by the both of us” I stated and she nodded her head.
“It’s a bit hard to do that though isn’t it” she stated sarcastically.
I was about to bite back but stopped myself from doing so since Will complained he was feeling sick. I quickly dived across the couch to grab the rubbish bin and got it beneath him just in time for him to be sick in it.
“William Bieber” the Doctor called out and I stood up and grabbed Will out of Selena’s lap before following the doctor with Selena closely following.
“What have we got here?” the Doctor questioned as Selena took a seat and I sat on the bed with Will on my knee.
“He got knocked down about eight stairs and split his head open. I don’t think he went unconscious” Selena trailed off as the Doctor nodded and pulled out a small torch.
“How about we get Dad to take that off of your head?” he questioned and I gently placed my hand on top of the ice pack as Will let his drop.
“Don’t touch it” Will pleaded and the Doctor nodded.
“I won’t. Promise” he stated as he got a look of the gash across his head before nodding at me to put the towel and ice pack back on it. “Follow my finger” he stated as he shined the light in his eyes and moved his finger in all directions before he clicked it off and wrote some stuff down. “Where are you sore?"
"My head” Will replied quietly as he leaned into my chest.
“Just your head?” the doctor questioned and Will simply nodded in return which caused him to turn around and face Selena. “He has a concussion by the looks, sore head, vomiting, he seems a bit fatigued and is pupils are sensitive to the light so you will need to keep a close eye on him. Wake him every quater hour for the first two hours, every half hour for the following two and then hourly. Ask him some simple questions like where he is and his name and when he was born and if anything gets worse or he doesn’t wake up then call an ambulance immediately” he stated as Selena gently nodded her head.
“Medication?” she questioned as the Doctor quickly took a seat at his desk.
“I will prescribe some pain relief and that should do the trick. Also it is your lucky day because it looks like there won’t be any stitches. We should be able to glue it as it’s right on the hairline” he informed us and I sighed in relief. The last thing I wanted to do was hold him down while a nurse stitched up the side of his head. “Here is your prescription and I will send a nurse in to bandage him up” he smiled as he handed Selena the prescription.
“Thank you” Selena said as she shook his hand and he nodded before turning to Will.
“You get better eh buddy” he smiled and Will gently nodded his head.
“What do you say?” I reminded him and he whispered a small thank you to the Doctor who gave a small smile before leaving.
“I wanna go to Daddy’s” Will said quietly as I walked them over to Selena’s car.
“It’s my week next week buddy. You can spend the whole week at my place” I informed him but he shook his head.
“I don’t wanna be with Kayla” he cried which caused Selena to sigh and look down.
I gently brushed hhis hair that wasn’t bandaged out of his face as I looked at Selena. “I think Mummy and Daddy need to talk to Kayla so if it’s okay with Mum, I may stay in the spare room and you can sleep in there with me” I reasoned as Selena offered a small nod. “Okay, I’ll see you at home” I replied as I gave him a kiss and jogged over to my car.
This is the new short story and you’re probably looking at between 5 and 10 parts. If this has 25 notes by the time I wake up I will also post a one shot for you tomorrow and I’m posting WOS on the 1st at this stage.
Please leave me some feedback on whether or not you want it to be continued!