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So this episode...

In my house, we have this board thing for a laptop. I use it as a desk for drawing and writing, and in that last scene, I was genuinely crying and shaking and hiding myself behind the board. That is twice in a motherflooping row that Supernatural has made me cry. My mom was telling me “It’s okay, Ash, he’s not dead!” Because I was hiding behind the thing so I didn’t have to watch Dean kill Castiel. It isn’t even the fact that he didn’t kill Cas that hurts so much, it’s the fact that he wanted to. I’m still shaking.