Ez date (part 2)
(this is the part about ewe)
(Hmm, I don’t know how, but I would like to talk about Ewelein…)
E : Do you want to talk about Ewelein ?
G : (I jumped, completely caught off guard.)
You’re reading my mind ?
E : No, Ewelein told me that you had talked about us… I figured that someday, you would like to bring up the subject.
G : Yes… but you don’t have to talk about it you know.
E : I don’t mind… Everything Ewelein has told you is true. She is a good woman and a very good friend or so I hope still.
Even if I made it very clear that I didn’t have any feelings for her, I still feel like I’ve broken her heart. I think my biggest mistake was not to end our relationship sooner. I thought that by telling her I had no feelings for her, she would stop getting attached and that we would continue to see each other like before.
E : But I just pretended not to see a thing.
G : Did you always tell her about how you felt or didn’t feel for her ?
E : Of course, I never lied to her.
G : And did you ask for forgiveness for all of that ?
Thousand of times, and it’s not an overstatement.
E : In any case, I’m surprised.
G : About what ?
E : You’re not calling me a cur/lout*, a womanizer or any other insults that I’ve heard from Ewelein’s friends.
G : It’s your affair, I’m not here to judge… She made it clear that you’ve been honest from the beginning and despite all this, you’re feeling remorse. I’m not going to kick a man when he’s down. I’m better than this, I hope.
*(yeah idk how to translate that lol)
E : You’re a much better person than I am, in any case !
G : (I saw him look away.)
It’ll be fine. You’re making a lot of effort to make up for your mistakes. It’ll surely take time, but it’ll be done little by little.
(By saying that to Ezarel, I almost have the impression that I’m convincing myself to move on. I know it may take a while, but I don’t want to live in fear, bitterness and hate.)