stop gaining weight

“My first time was October 18th, 2013. I was a freshman in college. I was alone in my dorm room and I’d just eaten a bunch of Halloween candy. So I purged it. I felt great afterward. I thought I’d discovered a new tool. It seemed like a way to stop gaining weight. But it became very powerful, very quickly. My second time was two days later. Soon it became most meals. I became addicted to watching the numbers drop. I lost all power over it. I was dizzy and depressed all the time. I couldn’t focus in class or go out with friends. For five months, I lost all control. Then I finally got help. I started talking about it. And the more I talked about it, the more control I got back. The eating disorder lost its power when it stopped being a secret. I’m much better now, but I’ll always be recovering. A few weeks ago I had a relapse. It was the first time in months. Even though I was disappointed, I reminded myself that it wasn’t the end of the world. I haven’t lost all the progress I’ve made over the past four years. I just need to stay positive. And keep talking about it.”

please reblog if you are overweight/obese and you can’t seem to find a couple bc of that simple reason.

Am I the only one who is too self conscious to have sex with someone?

Am I the only one who is ashamed of every single strech mark in their body?

Am I the only one who thinks “I am disgusting just because of my weight”?

Am I the only one who is ashamed of not being able to walk a short distance without sweating way too much and running out of breath?

Am I the only one who is completely embarrassed of looking at their own genitals because guess what?, they get fat if you get fat

Am I the only one who felt confident for a while but not anymore for what people say, maybe not directly to you but what they say of fat people in general?

Am I the only one who gets told to just change it and go to the gym if I hate my fat so much?

sorry guys just feeling emotional

I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY ABOUT THIS. @samcybercat and i had an idea, where Rei and Nagisa split up after a fight and meet up with each other 3 years later AND THIS IS HOW THEY BOTH TURNED OUT. Wild

He sucked in his tummy as he looked into the mirror and saw his shirt buttons relax slightly. He posed then gave up and let his belly push against his too small shirt like it had been doing all night. He cursed himself for letting himself get into this position, the shirt was only a few months old and he assumed it had still fit okay, well that was until he tried it on and it didnt and he didn’t have anything else suitable to wear out. He really needed to stop himself gaining weight, was getting ridiculous.

Eating Disorder recovery isn't as easy as Tumblr says.

Sometimes it takes more than lifting weights, going vegan and making huge green smoothies.

Sometimes it’s ugly. It takes bingeing and junk food to teach you how not to restrict. It takes lazy days and Netflix and Pjs to teach you it’s OK NOT to go to the gym.

Sometimes progress stops. You gain weight. You lose weight. Its ok. What’s not ok is to stop fighting.

anonymous asked:

hey! I used to work out a lot about a year ago but stopped & gained some belly weight & my legs gained weight too. I'm starting to work out again but I take garcinia cambogia & I've been taking it for about 3 days & started working out today , what are good workouts to do for my stomach , legs & butt ?! thanks so so much ! it means so much to me.

Hi there!




cobains-apologies  asked:

Can you give me iwadai hcs with muscly iwa and chubby daichi

Please share more iwadai hcs i’m in love with them


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  • First off, Iwaizumi loves Daichi’s chub. He loves to kiss, squish, pinch all of it. And it FRUSTRATES Daichi to no end because it makes him sosososo embarrassed. Iwaizumi sometimes gets smacked because of it.
  • Iwaizumi has always liked using Daichi as a pillow. Now he has an even softer pillow
  • Iwaizumi isn’t usually a biter but he does it more often now that Daichi is chubby. There’s just something fun about it. Maybe its because he thinks Daichi’s chub is cute or maybe because it makes Daichi blush a darker shade of red than usual or both. Its both.
  • I already hc Iwaizumi as touchier than Daichi but he’s now 10x touchier. He wants to hug Daichi all the timeeee because he’s just so soft and comfortable to hug. He wants to feel Daichi being squishy in his arms. Daichi swears the other squishes him like he’s a human stress ball
  • While Daichi often gets angry because of Iwaizumi’s teasing and all too frequent “love” pinches, he secretly enjoys it because it makes him feel better and less self-conscious of his fat. He’s so thankful that Iwaizumi loves him as he is and falls more in love with him ;;v;;
  • They share a lot of their clothes so Daichi gets upset when he realizes he can’t fit into Iwaizumi’s clothes anymore. Iwaizumi comforts him with kisses and tells him that he’ll start wearing bigger sized shirts/jackets so they could at least still share those
  • Daichi asks Iwaizumi to be his personal trainer. Iwaizumi takes it very seriously with the occasional flirting
  • The joint workout is very lax compared to Iwaizumi’s personal regimen. During Iwaizumi’s own workout sessions, he sometimes jokingly uses Daichi as his weights. At first Daichi refused because he was scared that he was too heavy, but Iwaizumi showed how easy it was for him to lift him and it made his heart get the dokidoks. PLEASE IMAGINE DAICHI BEAR HUGGIN IWA AS HE DOES SQUATS OR DAICHI HUGGING HIS BACK AS HE DOES PUSH UPS LIKE HOT DAMN. DAICHI IS SWEATIN AND HES NOT EVEN THE ONE DOING THE WORK
    • also Iwaizumi getting distracted because Daichi spoils him with kisses to his cheeks. Or actually it motivates him to do more. Depends. If Daichi kisses him enough, he’ll stop the workout to return all the kisses he received on his cheeks to Daichi’s smiling lips.
  • Despite Daichi’s attempts to lose weight by working out with Iwaizumi, he doesn’t really lose much (but he manages to stop gaining weight). And this is all because Iwaizumi continues to spoil Daichi by feeding all his cravings. He’s such an enabler. Daichi gets an inkling that Iwaizumi secretly wants him to stay chubby forever (he’s right)

Why I think Lizzie has BPD

@artianaiolanthe sure!!!

She changed her personality to what she thought Ciel wanted her to be and became very protective over that image. When the fight on the Campania happened and she had to show the less cute side, she was devastated and begged him not to hate her. While she still kept up her facade (which it is, a facade. She is acting how she thinks he would like) she was a little more relaxed afterwards.

She has an incredibly rocky and unstable picture of herself, and again, changes herself to what she thinks people want her to be like. She is incredibly fixated on how people see her and if they like her or not.

She feels things at the extreme and does get swings. She can quicky go from extremely happy to upset, and this has been shown multiple times. While it could just be a teenager thing, the amount of times it happens and the fact that every emotion she has is an extreme, makes me see it as a bpd thing.

She does become incredibly attached to people and I’m pretty sure Ciel would be her fp, because again, how he sees her is the most important to her and she goes to extremes for him (ignoring the whole its the wrong person thing. I’ll get to that in a second) and what she thinks could possibly cheer him up, even if it puts herself in danger. Most of the time when others are in the room she only focuses on him, and even Bravet described her devotion to him as an obsession.

She doesn’t care when she gets cut and cannonly has little scars on her hands and does stop herself eating a lot, probably due to Sebastian saying she should stop or she’ll gain weight (she looks underweight Sebastian stfu, even then you don’t say that), and again, puts herself in dangerous situations.

She is also incredibly scared of people hating and leaving her (especially Ciel), and if she thinks they will, she becomes incredibly emotional, and even begged Ciel not to hate her.

With the twin reveal, her personality has done a complete flip and Lizzie is, to be blunt, destroyed. The person she devoted herself to has been lying to her about something incredibly important for 3 years, and after the Campania and she started to rebuild herself, all of that effort has been destroyed. She doesn’t want to see anything that reminds her of that. Could be a split, or, our!Ciel could be an fp and she feels betrayed and feels like she herself betrayed Ciel.

(And I self project)

[TRANS] ‘WINGS’ - J-hope Thanks To

It’s our 2nd full album!!!!!! I’ll write down the names of people whom I love and am grateful to the most in the world!!!!! (caution: a lot)

First, my dear family!! Dad, mom, sis, Mickey the pig
Seems like I’m being pretty filial lately so I’m in a good mood, thank you for giving birth to your son.
Sis, I hope you’ll do well at what you’re doing. Mickey, stop gaining weight~

And to people who make BTS become singers with the 2nd full album
Bang Shihyuk PD-nim, vice-president Choi Yoojung, director Kim Shinkyu, director Yoon Seokjoon, I’ll always be grateful even if time passes.
Bighit’s employees who went through a lot and put blood, sweat and tears into us, into J-hope
Director Lee Hyuk, director Chaeeun
World’s coolest big team, Sunghyunie-hyung, teacher Sungdeuk, Hyunjoo-noona, Sunkyung-noona, Gabriel-hyung
Contents Communication team who deserves applause for your brains, Woojung-noona, Surin-noona, Hyunji-noona, Bunhong-noona
Business Management team who went through the most, Heesun-hyungnim, Hayan-noona, Jinah-noona, Kyungjin-nim, Sungho-nim, Hyeyoung-nim
My dear Fan Marketing, Iseul-noona, Nayeob-noona, Yoori-noona
Rookie Development team who’s responsible for the company’s future, Sunjung-noona, Mijung-noona, Yeonhee-noona, Seungwoo-nim, Hyunryung-nim, Hyewon-nim
The most important in the company!!!!!!!!! My life’s energizer, Management Support team, Hyukki-hyung, Jaehoonie-hyung, Eunjung-noona, Eunsangie-hyung
Media Relations team’s Seolhee-noona who suffers the most
The company’s pillar A&R team, Changwonie-hyung, Jooyoungie-hyung, Bosungie-hyung, Wooyoung-hyungnim, HR team’s Jaedong-hyungnim

Pdogg-hyung, Slow Rabbit, Supreme Boy, Joonsangie who are responsible for this full album’s music
Our managers who always look after us like family, Hobeomie-hyung, Sejinie-hyung, Sungseokie-hyung, Jungilie-hyung, Yoonjae-hyung, Soonhakie-hyung, Minhyukie-hyung, Kwangtaekie-hyung
Thank you so much our family members, it’s a hit, hit!!!!!

Now, the people who turn Jung Hoseok into celebrity J-hope
Hair, makeup, stylist team, Head of Department Naejoo, Jinyoung-nim, Head of Department Jihye, Head of Department Dareum, Hyunah-nim, Head of Department Hajung, Hyesoo-nim, Chaewon-nim, Seoyeon-nim, Yeonhwa-nim
And other staffs as well, I won’t forget my gratitude towards you guys.

And BTS’ reliable allies, Puma!!!!!!!!! BBQ!!!!!!!!! Smart!!!!!!!!!!
I love you a lot~

And my dear friends, our Jinwoo-hyung, Hyunok-noona, Jingoo-hyung
Kwangju Go Dance, forever NEURON!!
Dongwoo-hyung, Byungeunie-hyung, Mishika Kingz-hyung, and many other hyungs and noonas
Kwangju Joy Dance family members, including president Park Daehong, thank you!

There are so many others I’m grateful to

Our dance team, Live Section band hyungnims who always work hard from behind.
Thank our Junsoo-hyung and many other staffs for filming Bon Voyage with fun
DYLAN MAYORAL who made cool choreography for INTRO/Boy Meets Evil, thank u so much!
Thank you for MAMA’s beat, Primary-hyungnim, I’ll greet you later.

Director Lumpens, director GDW who filmed the MV of our life more coolly than anyone else, I love you
Head of Department Kim Rinyong who took cool photos for our 2nd album jacket, thank you too~

It seems to be longer as I write down each and everyone.

Lastly, our ARMY!!!!!!!!!!
You are the main character of this THANKS TO. I love ya, my love~

And our members!!
You know it even if I don’t say right???
Whom I know well than anyone else, whom I cherish more than anyone else, whom I love more than anyone else
Rapmon, Jin-hyung, Suga-hyung, Jiminie, Taehyungie, Jungkookie
I’ll love you till I die
What has already started, let’s fly until we reach that acme!! Hwaiting

Thank you!!!

Jin | Suga | Rap Monster | Jimin | V | Jungkook

Creepypasta #1005: I Already Broke My New Year’s Resolution

Length: Long

I’m not fat. Not even a little. Actually, I’m pretty underweight for my height, which is a constant battle with my primary physician who worries about eating disorders, despite the fact that I most certainly do not have one.

No, not fat. But there is a word for what I am. They call it “skinny fat.”

Okay, so what’s skinny fat? Well, it’s when someone is skinny like me, and doesn’t gain weight no matter how terribly they eat, but in return they are wildly unhealthy because they eat so poorly. That’s where I was sitting at the beginning of the year.

I’m not stupid – I KNOW that my lifestyles and habits are unhealthy. I don’t exercise. I eat like shit. And, in turn, I’m always sick. I’m always having stomach problems and feeling faint and dizzy. Physically, my life is kind of a nightmare, and I have no one to blame but myself.

So, this year, like many other people, I decided things would be different. I was going to get healthy, goddamn it. I was going to work out. I was going to eat right. And hopefully I’d see an improvement in my health.

So, I did what any other poor sucker does when their life is a mess that they have no idea how to fix it. I made it my New Year’s resolution.

I was in luck, because a new gym had just opened up in my neighborhood and they were giving out discounted memberships for the first hundred or so members. Of course, I signed up immediately. “This is perfect!” I said to myself. “If I’m spending money on a gym membership, it means that I’ll definitely go!” As if that’s ever worked for anyone.

I went to their website to sign up, and as I was perusing their options, I saw something interesting. Personal trainers.

You know, I’d never given much thought to a personal trainer before. I just assumed I wouldn’t need one – it’s not like I was going to be training for the Olympics or anything. I didn’t need to get super buff. I just wanted to feel better.

But it was an ad for their trainers that caught my eye. It read: Not sure where to start? Get tips and tools for beginners from our specially-trained personal trainers!

Well, that definitely applied to me. Now that I was thinking about it, I really didn’t know where to start. What was I going to be doing, anyway? Cardio? Weightlifting? I didn’t know how much I should be doing or how fast or anything like that. As for healthy eating, I had no idea how I was going to tackle that colossal problem. Hey, maybe a trainer could help.

And the best part was that the gym website guaranteed the first month would be free.

Well, in that case, there’s nothing to lose, I thought as I signed myself up for a trainer named George.

I wasn’t really sure what I was getting myself into when I walked into the gym on January first. To be honest, I was already feeling kind of defeated. After all, most people never keep their New Year’s resolutions. Actually, I myself rarely keep them. Wasn’t this all just an exercise in futility? Maybe I should just go home and give up before I embarrassed myself.

But no, I decided. I was going to try. At least for this first day. I had to.

First, I had to sign in at the front desk. The receptionist was a woman who was skinny like I was but had some definite musculature, and she looked… wow, she looked so happy. And my heart ached because I wanted to be like that.

“First time in a gym?” She asked as she was rummaging through her drawer looking for a card for me.

“Um… yeah,” I admitted, feeling a little foolish.

“Don’t worry,” she beamed at me, handing me my gym membership card. “I used to be just like you, actually. But then I started working out with this gym company and, believe me, everything got SO much better for me. You’re working with a trainer, right? Which one?”

“Someone named George.”

“Oh, I worked with George! You’re in for a real treat, he’s amazing and he won’t let you quit!” She smiled even wider, if that were possible, and waved me on through the doors.

That made me feel a lot better and I walked into the gym with a little more confidence, feeling as though, yes, I could actually do this.

That feeling flew out the window when I saw George.

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holdingcoldhands-deactivated201  asked:

Hi Amalie! I was just wondering how you split up your calories/meals in recovery? Thanks so much!

Hi! In recovery I ate like more or less like this;

Breakfast 08:00; 600-700 calories
Most oftenly; oats w/topping (my favorite was/is chia seeds and berries), bread, cripsbreads, fruits (both fresh and dried, often 1 apple and some dried figs) and chococoffee with milk and chocolate covered nuts. Yes, often all of these in one meal.

Snack 11.30; 500-600 calories
Most oftenly; nutrition drink or ½ liter full fat milk, nuts (yoghurt nuts or almonds) and banana OR a smoothie of bananas, pb, chocolate powder, milk, chia seeds,

Lunch 14.30; 600 calories
Here I varied more, but it was often cereal w/raisins and milk (obviously), bread, crispbreads, nuts, fruits (often mango or grapes), some dark chocolate, a glass of full fat milk or smoothie etc.

Dinner around 17-00-17.30; 600 calories
In most cases ½ plate with rice/pasta/potatoes, ¼ vegetables, ¼ proteins (seafood, Quorn vegetarian ”meat”, beans, chickpeas etc) and some sauce or dressing on the side, often ketchup, quark, butter or soy sauce. After dinner I usually had a snack of hot chocolate w/milk and some dried figs/a microwaved banana with cinnamon.

Supper around 20.00-21.00; 600 calories
Lots of rice cakes with all kinds of spreads (avocado, butter, salmon, pb, macerel, jam etc), dates, 1-2 eggs, fruits. 

= 3000 calories

I ate like this because it was simple and fit with my schedule. Sometimes I ate 700 calories for breakfast and 500 calories for snack, for example, but always 3000 in total. Oh, and obviously no exercise, I stayed mostly sedentary.

I planned all my meals the day before, but they were usually pretty much the same. I needed a very strict and detailed plan here because I was underweight and my main priority was to gain weight because so many of my symptoms, especially the extreme rigidity and obsessive behavior, were side effects of being underweight and undernourished. I was scared that I would make it a habit to be so obsessive around my meals, but I gradually got less rigid and obsessive the more I ate and gained. 

In the beginning I weighed everything, even cucumber. Awkward but true. I gradually stopped weighing and counting down to every single digit. For example, one week my goal was to stop weighing vegetables. Then I stopped weighing oats, and measured it by tbsp or dl instead. Then I stopped weighing bread etc.

So when did I stop eating after a 3000 calorie meal plan, and how? My psychologist wanted me to keep on eating this way until I reached bmi 20, and then gradually start eating after hunger cues. She said that a bmi of 20 or above made the risk of a relapse lower. Just like so many in recovery I had this little period where I though I could maintain bmi 17-18 and be ”healthy”. Yeah right. At that bmi I was still obsessed with food and body, I was extremely rigid and disordered in every way. No period and no wish to do anything besides analyzing my body and counting macros. It was hard to let go of my ED, and I kind of wanted to choose a ”lifestyle” where I could stay obsessed with food and body. I was actually close falling into the *scary music* .. Fitness trap!!!! Luckily I was surronded by a psychologist and family members who convinced me to recover. This could have gone so wrong, as society sees orthorexia and fitness as healthy. 

I gradually started eating after hunger cues at bmi 19. Risky indeed, but I was so close to mentally recovered as possible and my period was back. I did not made a goal of ”cutting down my intake”. I started to eat one meal on hunger cues, for example I followed my 3000 plan except for lunch, where I ate xxx calories. Then I did this with more and more meals, and suddenly I ate freely. It was amazing! Such a relief. What happened to my weight? I gained around 2 kg by eating after hunger cues, and then the gain stopped. I dont weight myself anymore, but I see that my weight is pretty much the same as half a year ago. If I had started eating after hunger cues early in recovery, I would probably not have recovered (I did not have much appetite) unless I got hit by extreme hunger.

A common mistake is that people think that when they are recovered they have to stop eating 3000 calories. Some days I eat way more than 3000 calories, and that is ok. That is normal. We are not machines who need exactly xxxx calories a day. If I sit on my ass all day I tend to eat less than if I move around a lot, not because I think ”gosh I dont need much food today, I dont move”, but because my body does not crave as much food as if I was active because I dont need it. And lets not forget my ovulation-extreme hunger! 2 weeks before my period (though my impression is that some get it right before- or during their period) I get extreme hunger that lasts for 1-3 days. It is scary, but I follow it because I know my body needs extra energy then. The EH passes. Everytime. My body does not magically change. My body is smart and I will listen to it.

Now I probably answered more than you asked for, but we get so many questions about when and how to eat after hunger cues etc, that I decided to write a longer post about it.

- Amalie