stop erin

You keep leaving me. You leave me longing for you again and again when I would give anything for you to stay, and it’s killing me.
—  The night circus, Erin Morgenstern


Right? Cold beer. Grown men on skates. What’s not to love?

Holtzmann doesn’t date. It never works out for her. There are women, sure. She craves touch. Loves feeling wanted. Loves flirting so much. But she learned early on that when she lets a girl into her life - that girl very quickly wants to change her. Calm her down. Make her start using safety lights. And so after a few tries that end in sleepless nights and broken hearts - whirlwind weeks of sex that bleed slowly and horribly into “do you have to be so loud?” “Can’t you calm down?” “My friends are going to think your so weird ugh.” “Don’t say anything to my parents. Just sit next to me and enjoy this free dinner they’re buying. Please.” “Holtzmann, please.” She stops trying. She just stops.

But Erin Gilbert. Erin Gilbert watches her hands fly from tool to tool as she works and it’s not because she knows they can make her feel good. Jillian knows this because they haven’t even touched. She doesn’t know if Erin wants her but she knows Erin watches, and she is scared. So scared that she is in love.

Until she notices Erin laughing, beaming at her when she dances. Not even scolding her when she hangs upside down from her bed, nearly cracks her head wide open. Erin Gilbert brings her snacks and bandages her up and watches Star Wars with her. Even though - she confesses - she doesn’t like the movies that much. Erin blushes when she acts shocked. Erin asks her about her music. Erin brushes purposely against her bare arms when she wears tank tops. Makes her shiver and duck her head and hope. And hope.

When Erin Gilbert finally kisses her - her overalls covered in grease, a blowtorch still active in her hand- Jillian Holtzmann feels more like herself than she has ever been. She feels like the sun.


LINDSAY AND HALSTEAD IN EVERY EPISODE || An Agent of the Machine (5x12) 

I work for Hank Voight so I can handle a little attitude, Chief.

“Holtzbert Wicked AU” just flitted through my synapses and I had so many conflicting emotions about it thAT I HAD TO SIT DOWN 💦

So there you got Abby and Erin, the core relationship of the movie with Erin literally jumping on the other side for Abby. But you also have Holtz and Abby who’ve known each other for a while and worked together all these years and Abby was Holtz’s family as stated in her final speech. BUT you also got Patty and Holtz, always being the dynamic and fun duo, the Baby™ petnames and having each other’s backs. BUT ALSO you got the heavy gay subtext on literally every scenes with Holtz and Erin, The Wink ™, The Dance™, The Bickering™, The Swiss Army Knife™   and so on..

SO what I mean to say here is: every ships in Ghostbusters (2016) are wonderful and whatever pairing you’re shipping, it is good and pure so please enjoy

Jfc a lesbian isnt a terf just because they don’t like dick. Saying trans women are not “real women” or assuming any trans woman has/ has not transitioned is shitty and makes you a terf. Not wanting to date any trans women is shitty and makes you a terf. Not wanting to have sex with masculine-presenting individuals (cis or trans) or being penis-repulsed does not make you a terf. Just because someone identifies as female doesn’t mean lesbians are obligated to be sexually attracted to them. You can respect a person and legitimize their identity without wanting to have sex with them.


Pairing: Linstead
Timeline: Sometime after 4.18
Genre: Angst/Comfort

A/N: I hope you didn’t forget me yet. I hope you like this, it just sort of poured out. As always you can thank @allenting​ for encouraging my headcanons (what would I do without you to feed my giant ego).

I think this was the hardest thing for me to write. I really wanted to get the conversation and the reasons right. I hope I managed to keep it in character.

I’ll appreciate any feedback!!

For the longest time, Erin’s favourite part of the day was coming home and snuggling into Jay’s chest after a tough day at work. Now, she has to be satisfied with a long-awaited beer at her favourite bar. The added bonus is that Jay is also there at the moment, and she can at least stare at him longingly, if nothing else.

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