i can’t stop thinking about what kind of criers dan and phil would be. i feel like dan’s crying would be a slow build up. his eyes just get watery at first, and he tries so hard to keep it in, but eventually the tears start cascading down his cheeks. he’d get a runny nose and his forehead would crease out of frustration because he hates crying, but he does it all the time. when his crying hits its peak, he’d be a blubbering mess, wiping furiously at his tears and constantly blowing his nose. he doesn’t like to be comforted while he’s crying, but when he’s finished and all that’s left is tear stained cheeks, he’d cling to the closest thing, preferably another person that would play with his hair, rub his back, and comfort him quietly.
phil on the other hand is a quiet crier. it happens really suddenly because he’s not afraid to be emotional and soft. his tears build up and he doesn’t try to hold them back. his eyes get red and puffy, and he tries to wipe away the tears quickly with his sleeve. he gets sniffly, but hides it by taking deep breaths through his mouth. his eyes are glossy and doe-like when his crying reaches the climax. he likes to be held the whole way through, even if it’s just someone holding his hand or resting a hand on his knee. physical contact calms him down and helps him feel more real. his favorite thing is when people rub their fingers up and down his arm, it nearly lulls him to sleep, but it distracts him from whatever it is he’s crying about.
Being a self aware borderline is awful, because you know your symptoms are about to flip the fuck out. The Jaws theme is playing and going too fast to stop. You’re about to break down, lash out, hurt and destroy your relationships, and you’re aware of it, but you can’t do a thing for it.
It’s like being trapped inside a glass house with soundproof walls. You can beat on the glass and shout as much as you want that you don’t want to do this, that you know it’s upsetting both yourself and everyone around you, but you can’t stop it.
Are you mad? Are you mad? Are you mad? Are you mad? Are you mad? Are you mad? Are you mad? Are you mad? Are you mad? Are you mad? Are you mad? Are you mad? Are you mad? Are you mad? Are you mad? Are you mad? Are you mad? Are you mad? Are you mad? Are you mad?
“Are you gay?” You blurted out to your best friend Carl. You had gotten just outside the walls of Alexandria so you could have some privacy but still be safe. You didn’t really need privacy though, you were both just reading, until you opened your mouth.
“No, why would you think that?” He blushed, trying hs best to focus on the comic he had in his hands.
“You always eye up Ron whenever he’s around and when Enid tries to flirt with you, you completely patch her. I’m not judging you if thats what you’re worried about, I’m just wondering"
“I eye Ron up because i don’t trust him. I ignore Enid’s flirting because its awkward. I’m not gay, and I wouldn’t want you of all people to think that i was.” He realised what he had said too late and quickly turned his head back to his comic
“Why me of all people?” You smirked, hopping he would reply with what you were expecting. You liked Carl, that much was true, and for all many people told you he liked you, you couldn’t truly be sure.
Carl simply sighed and, in a desperate attempt to avoid the question, turned back to intently reading his comic.
“Well?” You poked his arm with your shoulder. No answer. “Fine then, don’t tell me,” you sighed and turned back to the book Carl had found for you. However, before you could read the first sentence, Carl had taken the book from you and closed it, bookmark still in place. You didn’t have time to question what he was doing before his lips were firmly attached to yours.
You wished you could stay in that single moment forever. Freeze the second that Carl kissed you and live in it for the rest of your life. However, reality called as he pulled away.
1020. Snape was quite distraught over Lily's death- a little too distraught, in fact, over someone who he supposedly hadn't spoken to in nearly 3 years. A great deal of his anguish actually stemmed from him and Lily having been engaged in an affair, and Lily having been pregnant with his child.