still-in-recovery

Update:

First I would like to say THANK YOU to all of the overwhelming love and support you guys have shown this blog. I hit 8K followers the other day and that’s absolutely INSANE to me. I’m glad I’m able to foster a place that people can come to and just enjoy themselves in a way that’s beneficial to them. ❤️ If you’re interested, don’t forget to follow my main blog at http://learningtoembracemymadness.tumblr.com

Second, I would like to update you all on something a little bit personal…

I have struggled with mental health issues for several years now, and in recent months I have experienced a new level of low I never knew I could hit. In December, I spent some time in a hospital for these issues. I’m still in recovery from this, and recently started a new partial program that takes up most of my day. So in addition to my regular responsibilities/job, I now have to spend 25 hours per week in this program.

Because of this, it’s become increasingly more stressful to try and get all of the things I need to accomplish completed - including fulfilling your requests. Because of this, and as a part of my personal self-care, I’m going to start limiting requests.

Don’t get me wrong - it brings me absolute joy being able to post content that you guys specifically ask for. But at the moment it’s just a little too much to handle. I will complete all of the requests I have left in my inbox right now, but after that I’m not going to answer them for a bit - or, if I do feel up to responding, I will only post one video per request instead of multiple like I usually do.

I know this is a very selfish thing for me to do right now, but I hope you all will understand why it’s important that I do it. I promise I will open requests back up again as soon as I possibly can. Until then, I thank you so much for your patience and support of me on my journey to recovery ❤️

I hope you all are having lovely evenings (or days, depending on where you live), and I want you to know how much you all mean to me. Lots of love ❤️❤️❤️

I wanna post “before and after” pics in the #gainingweightiscool tag, but I know my motivation is to get validation for how sick I was, and I don’t need that in my Healthy Life™.
Instead, I’ll just say this:
Gaining weight is cool when it’s necessary for your body. Gaining weight is cool when your body is changing. Gaining weight is cool when it brings the light back into your eyes. Gaining weight is cool when it brings you back to life. Gaining weight is cool when it comes with renewed passion for life. Gaining weight is cool when it brings you back to the things that really matter. Gaining weight is cool because, for me, it means a second (or a third) chance at being the Real Me.
Gaining weight does not have to mean just going to the gym and making muscle gains. Gaining weight can mean restoring fat to your body because that’s what it desperately needs. Gaining weight can mean gaining a pudgy (and cute!) tummy. Gaining weight can mean thighs that touch and bigger boobs and arms. Gaining weight can mean letting go of what you perceive to be the “ideal” body.
Gaining weight can be scary. And necessary. And worth it.

❤️ They’re here!! Don’t forget, 50% of the proceeds from the pink patches will be donated to #plannedparenthood ❤️ The quickest and easiest way to get your hands on one of these is to come by @yellowrosetattoos but they are also available online at ohashleylove.etsy.com ❤️

🌸Things To Do When You Are Feeling Down🌸

NURTURE YOURSELF

  • drink a cup of hot tea
  • wear soft comfortable clothing

  • bubble bath

  • long shower

  • get a manicure

  • wash your hair

  • wrap up in a blanket

  • color in a coloring book

  • play with play dough

  • blow bubbles

  • light candles

  • take a nap

  • sing/listen to music

  • sit in the sun

  • watch a good movie

  • play with a pet

dimensionhoppingrose  asked:

Thomas has such a big purr! He's such a cutie, praying he continues to recover well

He is doing so well, and we are so relieved.  He’s still in recovery, although honestly, I don’t think I’d be jumping three feet straight into the air two weeks after major abdominal surgery.

Cats are amazing.

MAY I HAVE YOUR ATTENTION PLEASE.

Anyone who reblogs this is telling you that you aren’t alone and that they personally are willing to talk to you. Don’t be discouraged if the person you reach out to doesn’t say the right thing but please smile in knowing that the person you follow does care about you and is willing to listen to and or try to help you. Sometimes venting is a good start. 

When you reblog this please add something to it that is positive, like something that makes you happy. 

At night when I’m sad I play Peter Pan and it helps me calm down,

When I was a kid I told myself I would be published by my 20s. In my head I always wanted it to happen before I turned 21. I don’t know why. In my nine year old mind that was an “adult”, and at the time there was a lot of hype around younger authors such as Christopher Paolini (who I adored and admired, btw). It was an achievable goal. But when I started college I was diagnosed with clinical depression and generalized anxiety disorder. I veered off course. The only thing on my mind was getting through each day; inch by inch, one day at a time. It was the only thing I had the energy, focus, and general capacity to do. I missed my goal of publishing by the time I turned 21. In fact, I barely wrote for years. Like I said, survival became my number one thought. At 23 I am still in recovery, but I’m happier than I’ve been in years. And I met my goal. I published my first book in my twenties. And now I get to hold that book, which documents, through poetry, my journey of growing with and in spite of my depression and anxiety. To everyone who has ever felt like tomorrow isn’t worth meeting: it is; I promise you, it is.

Perhaps we spent so long in the dark because we were supposed to learn how to make our own light.

You can read the title poem on my writing blog and you can buy the full collection here! I want to take a moment to thank all of my amazing Tumblr friends for all of their encouragement and support. You guys are incredible.