When did you started thinking yourself asexual? It's something I kind of struggle with every now and then...
I’ve always known that I wasn’t sexually attracted to people…. that was the easy part, I already know me.
The problem was that all of the people I had to go off of from an early age, to learn about that sort of thing, were really… they made it all seem forced? I guess. Or just tolerated?
I thought that sexual attraction was just some kind of joke that I wasn’t in on, for the longest time.
So it took me a while to figure out that what I felt was different, is all.
((And to actually answer your question, I think I was 19, when it really hit me.
I had just joined the Army, and I was sitting out from the run because I’d injured my leg.
My friends were watching the Marines training/running with their weighted vests on, and being very colorful about what they’d let those Marines do to them. It seemed like… a genuine interest on their part.
And all that was in my head was that I wished I hadn’t injured my leg so that I could run and try weighted vests too.
And I knew at that point that that was exactly how I wanted to be anyways.))
But if you ever need to talk… I might not be able to -help-, because it’s more self-validation/acceptance, but I am definitely willing to listen, lovely.