it is okay try your best to stop revisiting the past your mistakes, your regrets however big or small, drop them on your feet where they should be do not hurt yourself anymore, you’ve been through so much you deserve life, you deserve love you deserve chances, you deserve you have you met you, dear? i bet not yet but i’m sure you’ll love them life is not a race, leave that to the horses
you, you skip through the meadows
you feel the sun on your skin, the breeze on your cheek,
you give yourself another chance
the pain has been great lately that you stopped what you loved doing draw again, dance again, try again, something new again, but leave your critic behind you are your harshest critic but not anymore choose to heal always choose to heal
but it’s like- the night throbs in my veins sometimes and i don’t know what to do with this energy? it isn’t my heart, no, not that, not anything known, but it flows like blood would and i want to leap out of the window- i want to meet the stars / i want to tell them that the night isn’t the darkest place that i’ve been but even when i’m there somehow starlight still guides me.
I love Shale, I just can’t draw them worth a damn. But I wanted to comic some bonding anyway because Finn and Shale are bffs and after Zevran’s panic over their deepening relationship, no one else was really awake.
maybe you’re having a panic attack, maybe you’re dissociating or maybe you’re just stressing.
here is something i found really helps in those moments:
Move from the place you are in right now, take a step back and find a more comfortable position
be patient, and be mindful that it will not go away with the snap of a finger. this is a wave, and you have to ride it
close your eyes, focus first on your breath, and the beatings of your heart. count to 10 very slowly
now open your eyes, don’t let the fear stop you, take ten seconds to notice the world around you, name the first things that you see, or just try to memorize where it is and how it looks
now close your eyes again, Count to 10 and slowly breathe, let your thoughts flow and don’t cling on to them, they will still be on your mind, but they have to flow freely
open your eyes again, look at the same object that your saw before, notice it is still on the same place, nobody moved it, it is the same color.
notice more things around you, notice how everything is ok, and you are not going through an extreme situation, count another slow 10
Close your eyes again and keep repeating this, keep noticing and naming more things, notice the sounds, the smells and the textures around you. Ground yourself in the reality of the moment.
After a while of doing this you will probably eventually have ridden the wave into a more calm state. Don’t be fooled, the waves can and will come again. but it’s all about learning how to grab a surfboard and ride them. It’s about taking comfort in the spaces of time they are not there, and get busy, get active, so you can regain, in time, the opportunity to a good life that was given to you.
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Summary: The One is the one who stays, and above all else, The One is the one who wins the game.
Warnings: choking on fluff, and the word fuck
Word Count: 7K of I hope I made it back up to you
“Shut the fuck up, you fucking asshole!”
Oh my fucking god.
I’m going to fucking throw up.
You see Tom’s back, shaking in anger, then Haz and Jacob come out of nowhere, holding his arms and pulling him back, “Yo, dude, chill, chill!”
There’s an awed hush, and the nameless guy gets up, rubbing his cheek, and promptly exits the party in shocked shame, his heavy steps the only other sound besides the music. Everyone has their jaw dropped, but cheer when the door slams back shut, it’s not a good party unless there’s a fight and somebody is crying, am I right?
“God, Tom, what the fuck happened?” you heard Harrison’s voice, a muffled buzz against your blossoming headache, “You alright, man?”
Em was next to you, holding your arm, and you felt another presence beside you, “Babe?” You couldn’t focus on her words. You didn’t feel great, you really didn’t, the colors, shapes and sounds were overpowering your senses right now.
“Hey, hey! Are you okay?” that was a different voice, one that you didn’t know, you didn’t recognize right away, “Guys? She looks pale…”
And then you did it.
You felt like you were going to throw up, and then you fucking did.