still so many feels to process i cannot

yall keep asking me about why silver chose to put the *vague possibility* that thomas is alive into flint’s head so.. [takes deep breath] 

this could mean so many things and its still early days believe it or not so i cant be sure. but the way i see it is that silver truly cares for flint and doesnt want this war to be the end of him. he doesnt want it to get to the point where he has to choose between him and madi “it is some kind of hell to be forced to choose one irreplaceable thing over another” like !!!! if there is ANYTHING that could stop him from going down that path john will use it. he cares about flint /so much/ thats why he didnt outright say what max told him because if he did he knew flint would do something reckless. so instead, he just asked him ‘what if’. because i do believe that /john/ believes its a possibility, you could see it in his face when max mentioned it. like he /WANTS/ flint to be happy, and he cant bare the thought of eventually leaving him. he is his only friend, hes the /only/ reason flint is still alive, flint is literally /living/ for john at this point and john knows this.. “thank you for opening that door” he /KNOWS/ this. the only reason flint keeps on going is because of him, and he knows that if he is forced to leave him in the end that it would mean james loses the last person in the world that he cares about, and that with that loss he would then give up everything 

so yes, this is a Very Sensitive Subject™ >:) he chose to only vaguely hint it to him because he is still /FULL/ of questions about thomas. he doesnt know if james would even want thomas to see him as he is now if he were alive. LOTS of midnight chats about gay feelings by the fire are still to be had!!! and who knows, if they’ve jumped onto the unrequited love train john might know about flints feelings for him, after all he knows he is at least bi so like..?? he doesnt want to break flints heart. it has been broken SO MANY TIMES. this being said if they /both/ had feelings for each other that would be the greatest motive for john wanting flint to be happy. flint had miranda and thomas like john now has madi, but now flint has no one but john. hes got no one to /live for/ no one he wants to /protect/ but john. so if there is even the slightest chance that thomas is still alive.. wouldnt john do everything he could to seek it out?? to see if thomas could end flint instead of himself having to do it? to let thomas mend his heart instead of him being forced to break it again?? like i said there are SO MANY THINGS this could mean, but when it comes down to it i truly believe everything john is doing, his motives, they are all driven by his love for those closest to him, and there is no one closer to flint in the world right now than john silver

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「hello guys! welcome to my first follow forever! Today my blog became 6 months old and I also reached 1.6k+! which is really way more than I deserve. I never imagined that my blog will grow like this and honestly I’m still in the process of learning as I make new things and I’m really grateful to all my followers and mutuals for keeping up with me. I cannot thank you all enough for giving me so much love and making me feel so much at home in this short period of time. I’ve met here some awesome people and made many amazing friends who are no less important than my real life ones. Thank you for the sweet messages, asks, liking & reblogging my post and thank you so much for following me! You have no idea how much it all means to me. THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH (ಥ‿ಥ)

So here are some blogs that I follow. They are all amazing people with quality blogs that fill my dash with wonderful contents! You must follow them:

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A-G

@a-ogiri @a-sakuras @ackermanss @aeselyn @aizawah @aizawashoutta @akahshi @akiteru @akutagawaas @akutagawah @allenswalkers @anjizu @atsushisnakajima @ayaarin @ayumiko @daburupurei @daiizume @dazaiosamu @dazushi @dazzai @de-k-u @decretio @ekubou @fairytailwitch @flamefly @fujiiwara @gamon-yuuta @gay-swimmers @genosus @genoza

H-K

@hanae-ichihara @horitsuba @ichimatsus @ieyasus @iosakisaka @itsclowreedsfault @jetzui @juminss @kaeveeoh @kagariis @kahgeyamas @kamiiyamas @kamuisyato @kawarou @kazune @keitsukishima @kenmai @kikuuchitouma @killuah @kirei-na-jinsei @kirschtein @kkatsuki @kojiiro @komaedas @kryoutas @kudous @kurooa @kurorolucilfer @kurummi

L-O

@lahviis @lametooru @larimii @littlebratciel @lyricalstep @makotozz @mazusu @meruis @mikotoray @mitsukamis @miukari @miuroko @miyakox @nanzse @naruzumake @nichinoya @nickiforov @nikifforovs @nikifohov @nikiforv @nimylu @ntasume @odazais @ohreigen @oiivkawa @oikawaii @oikawastooru @okita-senpai

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@pliestsky @plisetski @plisetsking @plisetskis @plisetsukih @preciousghouls @priincessyona @ranpohedogawa @ranppo@reishikiz @reizakis @rinsuokah @s-eita @sakamotoz @sakusa-chan @sawtsuki @sdaishou @seihanndas @sesukes @sexpai @shgieo @shiiemis @shirayukii @shizukku @shotous @shouyeo @skeptic-manila @somasyukihira @sukerokus

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@tachibana–chan @taehhv @tartatail @tobioskageyama @tobjo@todorokii @toqioblues @tsukiko-ciah @tsukis @ucitavanje @uzurume @viknikifolov @viktorfuckingkissedyuuri @vikutoru @vixuuri @vvictor @yamazekis @yonaks @yumisekki @yushiyuki @yuuris @yuuyaas @zakuras

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Hope you all have a wonderful day and an amazing 2017 and wishing you in advance

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR (ㆁᴗㆁ✿)