“we had a lot of conversations with a lot of people who like listening to music or using music to get through tough times. if anything, I think josh and i learned… everyone’s the same, everyone feels the same issues. so it’s kind of a way of getting on the same level as these people and telling them, in a sense, we understand what you’re going through.” -Tyler Joseph
so let me explain why I got this tattooed on me (no one ever asks why so I’m just gonna write it here so people can choose to ignore my story if they want to)—
This is one of my most meaningful tattoos, at least to me. When I was in 7th grade I began cutting myself in hopes that I would kill myself. Later that year I discovered Pandora, which introduced me to a band called Mayday Parade. I began to discover artist after artist that wrote music that actually described how I felt on a day to day basis. I discovered that I wasn’t alone in hating myself, feeling constantly miserable, and not wanting to go on in life.
music became my life. when I had no friends, I could connect to my music. after having a bad day, music was always there for me. music gave me hope that things would get better. music let me lean on it the way I had never leaned on another person. while I was suffering in silence, music knew what was happening and what I was going through. music didn’t judge me. music lifted me up in a way no other person has ever been able to do.
so in 2013 when I discovered twenty one pilots I knew they understood me. their music describes my suffering in such a way that it gives me more hope for the future and it gives me hope that even though I’m broken, I can still be like every other normal person. they quickly became my favourite band.
so I got their logo as a window looking onto a sunrise because as they say in truce, “the sun will rise and we will try again.” around the outside of the circle are the lyrics from lane boy, “if it wasn’t for this music I don’t know how I would have fought this.” because if it wasn’t for music, I would have forever thought I was alone. I never would have understood that this perpetual feeling that lingers in my mind occurs in others minds. and I never would have known that it’s not my fault for being broken, it’s just my brain chemistry.