“We were together for nine years. I was completely dependent on him. He was a strong and powerful man and he expected obedience. If he called me at 4 AM, and told me to meet him in Moscow, I was expected to go to the train station. He had a very strong energy. It was hard to argue with him. In the beginning of the relationship, I obeyed because of the pressure. But then the pressure just became a habit. It got worse as time went on. Eventually he stopped listening to me completely. I became so lonely. When you’re with someone who doesn’t care about your views, and has no desire to understand you, it’s worse than being alone. I still loved him though. I knew that he’d had a hard life. I told myself that I had to make sacrifices to build a family. But one morning I woke up and decided that I couldn’t do it anymore. If I stayed in the relationship, I would lose myself completely. I remember it was raining that morning. There was mud in the streets. And something told me: ‘Today is the day.’ That was two years ago. I’ve spent these last two years learning to be alone. I’m realizing the things that I like to do. I feel better, I look better, and I’ve been sharing more of myself with others. I feel like I’m finally learning who I am.”
SNK Character Song Series 06: Levi (Image song & monologue translations)
Heeeyyy, Tumblr! Long time, no see :’) Did y'all enjoy SNK Season 2?
Levi and Erwin’s image song CDs were just released and I enjoyed listening to them a lot! ♡ So, I decided to pop back in for a bit and take on a new translation endeavor, something I haven’t really done in a while.
First up, this post is Levi’s image song and monologue! For the song, I included the original Japanese as well as romaji for karaoke purposes, if you’re so inclined ;) I also made a transcript of the monologue in the original Japanese, which you can read here (feel free to use it to translate into other languages.)
This should be obvious but keep in mind these are spoilers for the song & monologue, in case you wanted to experience them for yourself first. I definitely encourage supporting the official release & ordering the CDs if you haven’t already ♡
Konna sekai wo ima Sakasa ni shite futte mitemo Tashika na koto hitotsu Detekiyashinē¹ darō?
Kabe no soto wa jigoku Naka wa giman afureteru Sore mo awase nonde Ninmu wo hatasu dake
Kanjō nagasare shinigami kuwareru ka Tarinai atama wo mawashite miru ka
※Hikari ataranu tsuki no ura Tsukisusumu tame ni wa Motto hayaku toki ni wa Chūcho naki hijōsa wo Machigai ja nai yaritakya yare Koko ni kotae nante nai Tada kōkai nokosanu Mizukara no ketsudan wo
Koko de ikinuku nara Kotoba de suru kyōiku yori Itami no kioku toku Kyōkun ga hitsuyō darō?
Gisei mo kiken mo sakete wa Seika nado Erarenu mono da to Hara wo kukure yo
Kakusarete iru tsuki no ura Itsuka abaku tame ni Midasareru na wameku na Jōkyō wo mikiwamero Kekka ga nakya seikai mo nai Dakara saigo dake wa Tada kōkai nokosanu Mizukara no ikikata wo
Haigo de chitta yūkan na heishi tachi ga Nokoshita omoi chikara wo ataeru Kanarazu itsu no hi ni ka mezawari na Kabe mo kowashi Jiyū ni naru tame kono inochi sasagu
This kind of world now
Even if we try shaking it upside down There isn’t one thing that comes out
Which is certain, is there?
Outside the walls, it is hell
Inside, it is brimming with deceit
What’s more, we have to swallow it down
We can only fulfill our duty
Will we lose control of emotion and be consumed by a god of death? Or will we try to use our dim-witted heads?
The dark side of the moon, untouched by light
For the sake of pushing forward
We have to be faster and at times
Be heartless without hesitation It’s not a mistake if it’s what you want to do, so do it
There are no right answers here
Just being without regrets
Is my own decision
If were to I survive here
Rather than education with words
Isn’t persuasion by memories of pain
An essential lesson?
To avert sacrifice as well as danger
Things like results
Cannot be obtained
Steel yourself for it
The dark side of the moon is concealed
For the sake of someday being revealed
Do not get agitated, do not scream
Be certain of the circumstances
Without results, there are no right answers
Therefore only in the end
Just being without regrets
Is my way of living
Brave soldiers who died noble deaths² before us The hopes they left behind give us power
Without fail, one of these days
We will demolish the obstructive walls as well
For the sake of freedom, we devote this life
¹ It appears that Levi’s gruff style of speaking is present even in the lyrics of his song. The standard form of the verb here would be detekiyashinai (出てきやしない). ² The verb in the original Japanese, chiru/散る (or in this case, the past tense form chitta/散った) in the literal sense means “to fall” (in the context of leaves or blossoms from a tree). However, it also has the figurative meaning of “to die a noble death”. Even though we also say “fallen soldiers” in English, I worried that translating the lyric as, “fallen before us” or “fallen behind us” could both be misinterpreted, I decided to go with the more figurative meaning;;
Levi Monologue English Translation
Seriously now, I’ve had enough of this. This world is perpetual shit, and humanity is still toothless prey.
Those ugly titans are always going to take a bite out of us, and so we die a meaningless death.
Humanity is powerless.
When we won against the titans for the first time, the time when we sealed the wall in Trost district with a boulder, we could do it because of Eren’s power– a titan’s power.
The weak ones die quickly. How much power they use up doesn’t matter.
Eventually all of humanity, every single person will end up in the stinking maw of a titan, and while we experience the worst feeling there is, perhaps our miserable lives will end.
I realized it a few years ago. The stench of the gutters fills the inside of these walls. It’s been like this for over 100 years. It’s the way things are now.
Because I’ve had to breathe in this foul air ever since I was born, because I had no choice but to live crawling around in piles of trash, I thought that it was normal.
But when I went outside the walls for the first time, I realized how much I didn’t know about anything. It hit home for me, how much I had hated it.
The world outside the walls was like hell with titans wandering around, but the air I breathed there was completely different from the one inside the walls.
I realized, out there is what freedom is.
Freedom is something that absolutely cannot be obtained within the walls.
So I made a choice. I will continue to kill all of the titans.
If you want to confront the titans, information is never enough. So in order to survive, I learned how to live.
Quick action and callous decisions by assuming the worst is a necessary endeavor.
A moment’s hesitation, surrendering yourself to emotions, and you will be nothing but Titan bait.
If you don’t want to die, you have to always continue to keep this in mind.
And small choices will accumulate.
That is the way of living I have learned.
Risking no danger, making no sacrifices– there is no such easy discussion.
Even if there was, it’s all make-believe.
So far, I have lost numerous subordinates.
Whether my choice was correct at those times, I do not know. It’s always been like that.
Even if I believe in my own power, even if I believe in my comrades whom I fully trust, none of us will know the outcome.
Afterward, all that’s left is reality.
In that case, What can I do except make a desperate effort?
What can I do except doggedly press on?
If I have time to think about the bygone past, like if I were to have made a different choice back then, I will kill as many titans as possible within my power.
In that time, in that moment, a sudden, ridiculously strong power boils up from inside my body, and then I know what to do.
When that moment comes, I can no longer go back to my old self.
With these blood-stained hands, I accept my new self, I steel myself, and I only do what I must.
Was I correct? Or did I make a mistake? That’s the sort of thing no one knows, so it’s not worth worrying about.
All you can do is keep your mouth shut and make a choice without regrets.
Not understanding things about this world is true for everyone.
So I choose the guy whom I want to put my faith in.
Erwin is like that, too. No one knows what he is really thinking deep down.
But I trust his judgement.
He may be inviting the worst outcome, but he’s not afraid of that, he is able to choose something. That’s the kind of guy he is.
That’s why I chose to follow him. And I chose to fight.
In order to fight against this shit world, with this hand I’ll grab hold of the freedom of going beyond the walls for the first time.