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Something I’m super self-conscious about is my inability to remember names.

I’ve heard about Autistic people not able to recognize faces (propoagnosia…I think I misspelled it…) but I have a really hard time recalling names of people I’ve met before. I’ve had friends or casual acquaintances where I’ve gone weeks or months without knowing their names, because I get too embarrassed to ask them to tell me! And it’s so frustrating, because obviously I know who they are, but I just can’t remember their name. 

I don’t know why, maybe it’s an association issue. Like the same way I know PLACES, but I can’t remember street signs or names of familiar boulevards/neighborhoods.etc, despite having lived in a place for years. That’s super embarrassing too, because then I think people will think I’m stupid and treat me like I’m a toddler when I’m not, I just cannot remember the name of the person/place I’m trying to describe.

If anyone else out there has this issue, please know you are not alone! I know how frustrating and alienating it can feel, but please know that you are not “stupid” or “infantile” for these issues! 

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