Neurodiversity advocates … suggest that, instead of investing millions of dollars a year to uncover the causes of autism in the future, we should be helping autistic people and their families live happier, healthier, more productive, and more secure lives in the present.
This process has barely begun. Imagine if society had put off the issue of civil rights until the genetics of race were sorted out, or denied wheelchair users access to public buildings while insisting that someday, with the help of science, everyone will be able to walk.
Steve Silberman, NeuroTribes: The Legacy of Autism and the Future of Neurodiversity
Note: I decided to write a longer version of the Halloween Story Featuring the Current Generation of Howling Commandos.
Imagine that you are eleven years
old and it’s Halloween.
You’re not too old for trick or
treat - in fact, this is just the right age for it to be fun.
You’re old enough to be trusted to run around the neighborhood with your
friends and go trick or treating. You get the safety lecture from your
Ma, chapter and verse. Don’t eat anything if you can’t tell what it is -
there’s all these posts going around on Tumblr right now about weird candy
looking things that are actually drugs and there’s always those old stories
about razors in apples and poison in Pixy Stix.
You know how to Google. The
Pixy Stix douchecanoe was really a guy who wanted to kill his own kid for the
life insurance money but parents will still freak out anyway. So you nod
and say “Yes, Ma” and you promise over and over that you won’t do anything
stupid. You will be careful.
And after that, you can all go
back to the all important business of making your costumes.
Imagine the team finding out Steve and Thor are dating (they are one of my favorite rare pairs)
Clint finds out first, actually, though Natasha claims she already knew. But Clint is the first one to actually walk into them. Not that they’re doing anything scandalous, but they’re curled up on the couch, Thor trying to figure out why his Starkpad is so laggy, and Steve napping with his head in Thor’s lap.
Not even that that’s so damning, either, because they’ve found out Steve will nap on just about anyone he trusts. But it’s the way Thor’s thumb absently traces the shell of Steve’s ear, thoughtlessly intimate. It’s the way Steve nuzzles closer to him and Thor just shifts to accommodate him, like they’ve done this before.
“Uh.” Clint wishes he could shove his whole foot in his mouth. Uh, really, Barton?
“Hello, Clint,” Thor says, looking up with a smile.
“How long have you two been…?” Clint gestures.
“Oh,” Thor looks down and runs a hand through Steve’s hair. “I believe it’s been three of your months.”
“How did we not know?!” Clint demands and then wants the ground to swallow him again. Thor just chuckles.
“We have been keeping it…low key,” he says, trying the phrase out. Then he looks stern. “I trust you have no problems with it?”
Clint shakes his head frantically. “Nope, no problems, definitely not.” He pauses. “Um. I hope you’re both happy,” he says lamely and then heads back out.
Just before he closes the door, he hears a sleepy, “Thor?”
“Hush, little godling,” Thor says back to him. “Go to sleep.”
Imagine that you are eleven years old and it’s Halloween.
You’re not too old for trick or treat - in fact, this is just the right age for it to be fun. You’re old enough to be trusted to run around the neighborhood with your friends and go trick or treating. You get the safety lecture from your Ma, chapter and verse. Don’t eat anything if you can’t tell what it is - there’s all these posts going around on Tumblr right now about weird candy looking things that are actually Drugs and there’s always those old stories about razors in apples and poison in Pixy Stixx.
You know how to Google. The Pixy Stixx douchecanoe was really a guy who wanted to kill his own kid for the life insurance money but parents will still freak out anyway. So you nod and say “Yes, Ma” and you promise over and over that you won’t do anything stupid. You will be careful.
And after that, you can all go back to the all important business of making your costumes.
It’s gonna be special this year.
Your entire group’s going as the Howling Commandos. Which is pretty freakin’ awesome, since you’re all, technically speaking, their great-grandkids. Except for baby Sophie, because Bucky Barnes is actually her great-great-uncle. But Gabe Jones is your Great-Grandpappy and he’s still around, getting close to a hundred years. He got to laughing when he heard you were going to go as him.
“Never mind if you’re a girl, sweet pea - Agent Carter was a lady and she’s a Commando too. Don’t let ‘em tell you different.”
So that’s why baby Sophie is going as her Great Uncle Bucky. Her Ma even got her hair to look all slicked up like Bucky’s in his pictures and she’s even got a tiny version of that famous blue peacoat.
Tim’s got his Great-Grandpop’s famous bowler hat on and Etienne’s got some stuff that you’re hoping are just firecrackers. He’s already chomping on something that looks like dynamite but is really candy. Katie’s got what looks like a version of her Grandpa Jim’s medkit (on closer inspection, she’s even got band-aids and clean wipes in there). Neville’s doing an exaggerated English accent…. except he’s beginning to sound more like Captain Jack Sparrow than his Great-Grandpa Monty.
You take Sophie’s little hand in your own - she’s the baby of your group but all of you dote on her because she’s pretty cute and easy to look after. Your Ma reminds you to be careful with Sophie - for the nth time.
And then, you’re off.
Sure enough, it’s a blast - you guys get a lot of compliments on your costumes, along with your candy and okay, maybe little Sophie lisping “trick or treat” and beaming all sunny and bright kinda helped with the cute factor. So you guys got extra candy.
And it was all going great until you run into Buddy Langton and his asshole friends. Of course, Buddy wants you guys to give over a share of the candy and says “girls can’t be Howling Commandos.”
The thing is, the toy gun that Sophie’s carrying is a water gun.
And maybe she’s four years old but there’s nothing wrong with her aim.
Tim grabs Sophie after you guys let Buddy and his friends have it with your own water guns and you run.
“WA-HOO!!!!!” Tim and Sophie holler.
The pack of you end up running into this apartment building, trying to stealth your way upstairs - you guys lost sight of Buddy and his goons some few minutes back. There’s a few doors that’s got Halloween decorations on and maybe you guys can do some last minute trick or treating before you finally all head home.
“Sophie, we’re supposed to say trick or treat, not shoot them, okay?” Tim reminds her, as he lifts her up so she can knock on the door.
The Power of Sophie compels you.
The door opens and it’s Captain America himself, with a pail of Halloween candy at the ready.
“Twick or tweat?” Sophie’s the only one with the presence of mind to speak up. All of you are absolutely gobsmacked. There’s no way you guys can mistake him - you’ve only all just grown up with the family stories, right?
Captain America beams at all of you, because he recognizes the costumes, of course. And then, he wasn’t done yet. “Hey, Buck? Look who’s come to visit!”
Your parents end up forgiving you all for staying out late - you all had the two best possible people in the entire world to vouch for your whereabouts on Halloween. And they had the absolute best candy and treats too.
The picture you took of Sophie in costume with her Great-Uncle Bucky and posted to Instagram went viral too. The Power of Sophie compels you indeed.
peggy wanting so desperately to be like steve, to be the shield, but thinking she has to do it alone. believing she has to distance herself from everyone, in order to prevent those closest to her from getting hurt.
peggy learning that she can share the weight with others, that protecting everyone is more successful when she has help.
may going into bahrain and trying to be the whole solution but failing, trying to protect and save everyone but being unable to. locking herself away to prevent anyone else from getting close, to stop them from getting hurt.
may learning that she can let people in again, learning that her presence isn’t enough to get them hurt, but it’s sure as hell enough to help stop that from happening.
jemma leaving shield to infiltrate hydra and protect her friends, believing she can help fitz recover more fully by removing herself from the situation. keeping all her emotions and trauma tightly reined in, to prevent her friends from having to bear that weight. blaming herself for not being able to save trip.
it’s jemma’s turn to learn the lesson now. it’s may’s turn to help her understand this truth.
shield ladies learning that they don’t have to carry the weight of the world alone, and that they can protect people better when they have support.
hey guess what!! hydra!cap still isn’t cool! hydra!cap still isn’t okay!! hydra!cap is still disrespectful as hell, even if marvel busted ass to try to excuse their bullshit. don’t let marvel get away with this crap just because you got complacent and decided that your aesthetic posts are more important than the legacy of steve rogers’ jewish creators.
When I say I am in Stevebucky hell after civil war, I am not exaggerating. Any mention of Bucky literally destroys Steve, he loses all focus. Just thinking about the level of sacrifice that Steve had for Bucky is enough for me. Steve destroyed his legacy, his reputation, and every single connection he had to save Bucky. He fought his own friends, and asked others to risk it all for Bucky. Even when all the evidence was against him, Steve didn’t give up, he kept fighting for Bucky. Two lines was really all it took for Steve to believe in Bucky. AND HE GAVE UP THE SHIELD FOR BUCKY. Like I am sorry that Shield is an extension of himself, it is so important to him, a symbol of what he transformed into, and Steve didn’t hesitate again to drop it, and leave with Bucky. The parallel to the hellicarrier was intense, like Steve had no second thoughts, he dropped and left with Bucky.
But like that’s not even taking into account everything about Bucky. Like Bucky remembers, the good and the bad. The fact he can remember the bad, and more importantly the bad is still chasing him, makes him stay away. He knows Steve and he knows that he would fight heaven and hell for him, and he doesn’t think he is worth it, he tells Steve as much right then and their. Moreover he admits to Tony that he remembers every bad thing he did. Every murder, act of terror and all the destruction, he wants to keep that away from Steve. But the second Steve is in danger, Bucky fights with everything he has. The entire movie we see Bucky hold back, when he is in control, but he doesn’t hold back in the final fight because Steve really did get hurt. Bucky after he gets out of the Hydra control, his first words are asking for Steve, he only cares about one man.
Like jesus christ these two guys love each other so much
so much has already been said on this subject but because i am both incredibly disappointed and saddened by this, i would like to say my piece.
i realize now that my optimism yesterday had been misguided. in an attempt to remain hopeful about something i’ve been looking forward to for almost four years (ie: someone else writing steve who isn’t rick remender), i gave people the benefit of the doubt who did not deserve it. while this is deeply personal, it will never be as personal for me as it is for those affected by anti-semitism.
after nick spencer wrote the 75th annual issue of samcap, i truly felt like we found the right guy for the job. he seemed to understand steve and cap’s legacy better than rick remender who had done his best to drive cap into the dirt. however, one of the variant covers for that issue was a throwback to the first issue of captain america. in it, instead of steve or sam punching hitler. steve WAS in the place of hitler. i realize now, i should have taken this as a larger warning sign than i had. so, please forgive me for my misguided optimism. i can promise you it was coming from a place of deep love for this character and desperation to see him written well.
the thing i love most about captain america is his inextinguishable will. he is someone who can endure the hardest of which life has to throw at him and still come out with his head held high. he will still have hope. this is what i hated most about remender’s run – that he made steve hopeless. now spencer has taken that a step further and turned steve’s core values into a farce. and in doing so, he has taken the hope i had about this run and the future of my favorite character and turned it into utter disappointment. although ed brubaker has his issues, for me he is still the last writer of captain america until someone else comes along who is more capable.
captain america was created by two jewish men to be the figurehead of their anger about nazi germany and nazi sentiment in the united states. this should never be forgotten or ignored. there is no bigger way to spit on their legacy than to turn him into everything they stood against. oh, there is a bigger way – to say he had been that way all along and is doing it of his own volition.
this was the only way i could’ve been on board with this. if it wasn’t steve. if he was brainwashed or mind controlled or something had gone horribly wrong when he got his body back, but the writers insist that this is steve. and that is not something i can look to with any kind of hopefulness. this is not my steve rogers. it is not anyone’s steve rogers.
i have tried to remain tight lipped about this because i know, in the rp community this is a popular subject, but i want to say it loud and clear now: hydra/evil steve is a terrible concept which should not be indulged. it is taking a character who is built on goodness, honesty, bravery, conviction, and hope and turning all of that into a joke for a cheap thrill.
there is nothing cheap about hope. and just the same, there is nothing thrilling about evil.
this is not just steve being a bad guy. it is not just him doing deplorable things. it is not even him only being a sympathizer. it is him being actively and enthusiastically involved with the worst of the worst. and the worst thing, to me, is that this is a subject which has been touched on before by previous writers. it would have been so EASY to take the big blond blue eyed ubermensch and turn him into a big bad nazi. i can’t think of a single plot line which is easier to toss out than that. and that is the point. steve is supposed to be the person who squashes out everything which is expected of him. he was written purposely to be the “perfect man” just so he can prove that there is no such thing and if there is, he is not what people like the nazis wanted. nor is he what people like trump want.
i hope nick spencer looks at WHO is on his side with this because i can assure you, they are not the kind of people that self-admitted loud liberal nick spencer wants on his side.
in ultimates, they ran with this a little bit. they asked, what would someone who runs around with a flag on his chest and has been frozen for 50-so years really act like? they made him an asshole. he’s a little backwards. but in the end, he’s still a good person who has those core values i’ve mentioned above. ultimates isn’t a perfect run – far from it. but it played with this idea already and did it so much better than this ham-fisted half-assed storyline.
now i don’t even have ultimates to fall back on and i think that’s what hurts the worst. the cap trilogy is over. there aren’t any more books coming out with a different version of cap i can cling to. this is all i have. and i am severely broken hearted about this.
i held onto my hope and in many ways, i still am. i am hoping this is all a ruse. maybe steve is being a double agent. maybe this is some bad dream i’ll wake up from. either way, nothing will remedy the deep sadness i feel.
still, i will remain hopeful because i learned from the best. the real captain america, wherever you are, i miss you and i will be here when you come back.