To be honest, I didn’t really feel as insecure about my physical traits until after high school. I always thought when we were taught that media can distort our perception on natural beauty, it wouldn’t affect me personally. I thought I would be one of the girls who didn’t care about what the media says about beauty.
Post high school, I spent more time on the internet. I’ve seen so many pictures (selfies) of people, especially celebrities, and always thought to myself, oh my goodness, how are they literally flawless??
I know that about at least 95% of the time, pictures posted (especially celebrities) are retouched/photoshopped. But still! I kept making myself think that it was all natural.
There are days where I am completely confident and satisfied with myself. But there are days where I literally can’t stand looking at myself in the mirror because of my disproportionate body, my flabby “small” arms, my thunder thighs, my cellulite, my stretch marks, my acne, my moles, etc.
Overall, I think the media negatively affects me as well as many girls.
But you know what, this week, I’ve realized, whether you have extra body fat, not enough fat, acne, freckles, cellulite, stretch marks, etc, you are you. Knowing that most celebrities paid thousands of dollars to look “flawless” makes me feel like I don’t look as bad as I think I do because I don’t have to spend thousands of dollars to feel good and look better. I mean, it’d probably would be nice, but it’s unnecessary.
All those imperfections can make me feel self-conscious and insecure, but it’s what makes me, me.
Now, every time I look at a picture of someone who looks flawless, I remind myself that:
-the image is probably photoshopped
-the person has a gang load of make up
-the person had plastic surgery
I’m working on having more confidence and accepting me as the way I am and as the way God has specifically designed me. I really hope anyone on the same boat as I am realizes they are fine the way they are and that you should just embrace what you have!