steins;gate spoiler

Okay, so let me tell you why I admire Okabe Rintarou.

Number one: What a good man, I mean, what a good man. I mean, yeah, he’s a hipster tsundere chunnibyou shit, but he changed his identity on a dime to keep his best friend from succumbing to despair and fading away because he loved her just so much.

Number two: When this girl he loves so, so much is killed by Moeka, he puts himself through the wringer to save her life. What does this involve? Sending his memory back in time (which, in the VN, is revealed to be an agonizing process in itself) and watching her die again and again, but he never gives up, no matter how badly it hurts or how far he has to push himself

Number three: oh god, and he agonizes, and kills himself and blames himself over all he has to do to save Mayuri, including but not limited to basically killing Feyris’s dad and restoring Rukako to a life of gender dysphoria and he feels so bad about it, oh god, these poor children

Number four: When he finally gets the opportunity to kill Moeka, the woman who killed the most important person in his life, (in the VN Makise flat-out tells him to kill her if he has to) despite all his hate and anger he cannot bring himself to kill her. he just can’t.

Number five: when Moeka lies dying (anime: shot by Mr. Braun/ VN: stabbed by Nae), in the VN (and maybe in the anime too, its been a while since I’ve seen it) he forgives her.  He wonders in his head if he really means it or if he’s just saying it to make her feel better, but he says it. he forgives her and lets her die in relative peace, this woman who killed the most important person in his life to keep the most important person in hers, and I could go on forever about Okabe and Moeka’s parallels, but I’ll just leave it by saying that Okabe is such a better person than I am, because I would have killed her with my own two hands and held that festering hate from the womb to the tomb

Number five: he realizes that he loves Makise, and he still sacrifices her for Mayuri because Oh God it hurts and this is such a horrible decision and in the VN it was so hard to watch him realize and debate with himself, because fate has dictated that he can’t have them both and oh my god my son my beanpole son

Number six: He does it and she dies and he tries to move on, but he gets a chance to save her. And he tries and he fails and he almost gives up for the guilt, but Mayuri helps him. And he is broken and sad and traumatized, but he picks himself up with Mayuri’s help and he tries again

Number seven: this new attempt ends up with himself getting stabbed. and he is standing there with a knife in his stomach and the woman he loves alive and well- and he stuns her, and digs into his own wound to provide enough blood to fool his past self and save them all and oh god then he waits around to make sure it worked when he’s bleeding out and in agonizing pain

Number eight: after all this happens, he has pins made and invites all his friends to be parts of the lab- even Moeka. He has been through so much and caused them all such pain, but he’s doing his best to make it right with the tools he has been given, and oh my son I die

Number nine: AND CAN WE TALK ABOUT THE SCENE WHERE HE’S WALKING DOWN THE STREET TALKING ABOUT HOW HE’S HAPPY JUST KNOWING KURISU IS ALIVE EVEN IF HE CAN’T BE WITH HER PERSONALLY OH MY GOD

Number ten: the movie, ok, when he says that all he ever wanted was for kurisu and mayuri to be safe and it really doesn’t matter whether he fades from existence or not now i’m crying help

I just love Okabe Rintarou ok, he’s such a good and forgiving man

Reimei no Lyra ~ Okabe Rintaro
Rintaro Okabe (CV: Mamoru Miyano)

How much time have I lived through? How many worlds have I traveled through? More skies and stars have passed by than I can count. But, in the midst of that, you were always there. Your smile was there. “I’m okay.” The words you said that day, with a gentle smile. Even now, when a terribly long, long span of time has passed, those words have never disappeared. I knew it was a compassionate lie. A far too compassionate lie, so that I could move forward. But even so, at that time, I clung to that lie of yours. I relied on your compassion.

There were nights when I was overwhelmed with sorrow. There were winters when I suffered badly.  No matter how many seasons passed, no matter how much kindness I received, I had feelings of regret I couldn’t get rid of. Of course, I knew that you would never blame me. Even so, within the repeating time, my guilt never went away. But after journeying through a multitude of worlds, I’ve finally realized.

The ones who were always by my side on my journey through the darkness, where I didn’t know where I was or where I was going, were my dear friends, and you. My undying love for you. Because my friends were there for me, because she gave me a push, and because you were always within me, I’m now able to start moving again. Your living presence in me gives me courage. “What on earth are you doing?” That’s probably what you would say. I don’t blame you. I think the same thing. But my love for you was the only thing that never disappeared. All the tears, and even all the blood I’ve shed were never enough to wash away my feelings for you. That’s why I’m now able to aim for that door once again.

That door where past and future, miracles and fate intersect. In order to reach it, I might need to live through another mind-boggling span of time. I might have to travel through a great number of worlds. Even so, I won’t lose my way again. As I am now, no matter how long it takes, and no matter how many worlds I cross, I should be able to reach it. I should be able to start again. Because that’s the path I— we—chose. So I no longer need any compassionate lies. Wait for me, until that day when we meet again. Until that day when a new past and a new future will begin.

(Kurisu’s track here)

Reasons that Makise Kurisu is a precious sweet raisin muffin and deserves to be protected

Number One: Her adherence to the girl code. I mean, when she heard that Mayuri was a “hostage?” Hell no. She’s calling the cops. Okabe does that moronic thing where he grabs Rukako’s crotch (which is totally uncool even if the person is the same gender as you?)- Kurisu whacks him with a book, making it emphatically clear that she will not put up with this shit. And in the movie, when she suspects that Daru may be misleading or otherwise bamboozling Amane Yuki? WHAT HAVE YOU DONE DARU. She makes it a point to defend other chicks from gross dudes and I wholeheartedly applaud.

Number Two: How generally kind she is in general. I mean, she gives what she gets when Okabe teases her or Daru cracks a dirty joke, and she doesn’t take any crap, and she’s a hopeless tsundere, but her interactions with Mayuri are liquid gold. She never looks down on Mayuri for her more simple-minded nature (not that I am implying that Mayuri is stupid, because she is not), and always takes the time to calmly and patiently explain things in Mayushii’s terms. Also, every “sweetie” that passes between those two makes me glow ok

Number Three: When it all goes south and Moeka raids the lab for the first time, in the VN Makise is stated to be wearing the Time Leap Headset before Okabe even gets to the machine. He then takes it off of her head and places it on his own. Makise barely knows Mayuri, and she is still willing to take on the responsibility of leaping to save her life. Just. Just.

Number Four: During this same scene, Kurisu asks Okabe several times if he is sure about this decision. Now, at the time when I was reading the VN, I was screaming at her to just “push the goddamned button already,” but in hindsight, I realize- Makise doesn’t know what’s going to happen when she presses that button. Okabe is emotionally distraught. He may not be thinking clearly. (In the VN, when Mayuri is first shot, he goes into this brief sort of shock where he just goes blank, and then goes into this blind rage- he has already exhibited signs of being extremely unbalanced, and I don’t blame him.) Therefore, Kurisu stands there and asks, again and again, until she is shot.

Number Five: How supportive in general she is during this expedition to save Mayuri? Again, Makise just met these people a few weeks ago, and she is still a pillar of strength and support to Okabe during this ordeal. She helps in any way she can, and can we just talk about that impression of Okabe’s Hououin act? She acts like she completely despises this whole mad scientist act, and yet she does it in an attempt to cheer him up. She’s just. My girl.

Number Six: When she goes with Mayuri to Comima knowing that she is going to have to watch her die, so Okabe can have more time to look for Moeka? It kills me. Especially since you can actually hear the pain in that woman’s voice in both the VN and the anime. She cares. So much. Just. I cry. Help.

Number Seven: I know I’m giving a lot of reasons from the VN, but goddamnit, the Visual Novel is so good, and gives us such great character expansion, 10/10 recommend. Anyhow, when Okabe is about to throw down with Moeka in her apartment, Makise advises Okabe to kill Moeka if he needs to. Now, this would not seem like something that one should love her for- but the way she handles it is sublime. She tells Okabe that he can’t be afraid to kill her if he needs to- but that he is always going to have to carry the guilt and burden of his actions along with him. It is not okay, and she’s not saying that it is- but sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do, and that’s exactly what he needed to hear right then. (Of course, ultimately, Okabe couldn’t find it in him to kill her, but that’s beside the point.)

Number Eight: Ok, I don’t even know how to touch that scene where they kiss. Basically, Kurisu now knows that in order for Mayuri to live, she is going to have to die- and she accepts this. She tells Okarin to do this. Because she has figured out that Okabe pretty much can’t live without Mayuri, and she wants them both to be happy- so she decides that this is the right thing to do. She even attempts to comfort Okabe afterward, saying things such as “think of me as alive in another worldline, like I am in America-”. This girl is literally about to give her life, and she is comforting the man who will essentially be her murderer.

Number Nine: Oh, God, when her father is trying to kill her, she doesn’t even look angry, just scared and confused and hurt- and please can my ot3 be canon so this woman can have twice the love? She needs it? Help her??

Number Ten: AND AFTER SHE HAS ACCIDENTALLY BEEN STABBED BY OKABE AND SHE IS LYING THERE DYING IN HIS ARMS SHE APOLOGIZES FOR DRAGGING HIM INTO THIS PLEASE GOD NO HELP HER SOMEONE

Number Eleven: After Okabe actually saves her this time, and is standing there with a stab wound, she is immediately concerned and trying to help. And yeah, he saved her life, but I also seem to recall him threatening her piece-of-shit father with disembowelment and that is a bit scary ok

Number Twelve: How in the OVA she runs off into the desert after Okabe without even pausing to fill her gas tank because she was worried that she had hurt him so badly that he ran off into the wild blue yonder? Help?

Number Thirteen: the movie fucked my Kurisu feels all up, ya’ll. Just, how she’s so distraught and upset by Okabe’s disappearance (despite all this bullshit about hating him and him being annoying- which he is, but girl you so gone, please), that she time leaps- and then ends up attempting to respect his final wishes by not doing it again or changing the past. But then she realizes that LOL NOPE everyone is pretty much miserable and feeling that something is missing, so she brings him back- with flair, and after a beastmode impression of his Hououin Act- again.

Number Thirteen: The movie, ya’ll, that part in the movie where Mayuri starts crying because she can’t really remember Okarin but she knows that something she loves is missing, and Kurisu just, like, gently embraces her and says she’ll make it right? Help? These? Girls?

Wow, this ended up even longer than Okabe’s- someone help me my children are making my eyes water who is cutting onions in here

Time Loop Trials: A Crossover Skit

(Spoilers for Steins;Gate, Higurashi: When they Cry, Puella Magi Madoka Magica and The Future Diary appear below - all of them related to which characters loop through time AND how many times they do so.)

*The Scene: Time Loopers’ Club, a basement bar that’s nearing closing time on a foggy Saturday night*

*Four people sit at the bar, with one seated quite a distance from the others.*

Rintaro Okabe: And with every trip back I made, I only ever seemed to make the situation worse.

Homura Akemi: Of course. All of us had the same experience: Multiple attempts to fix a seemingly inescapable disaster.

Rika Furude: *slamming back her sixth glass of wine* You don’t gotta tell me about it. I survived over 1,000 loops before I hit paydirt.

Okabe: Miss Furude, aren’t you… rather young?

Homura: Exactly. You shouldn’t be drinking so-

Rika: Fuck off, teen witch. I relived the same month for more than 100 years. I’m older than both of you put together!

Okabe: Mm. Point taken, I suppose. How many loops did you endure, Miss Akemi?

Homura: Around 100 total… by the end. Each was less than a month but still difficult to endure.

Okabe: It would seem that it took all of us quite a few attempts to achieve our “happy endings,” as it were.

Rika: You can’t even imagine. I gave up all hope multiple times, cosigned myself to an existence of never seeing beyond June of 1983. Even with all those shitty memories, I’m still happier than a pig in shit to be here today.

Homura: I’m not. I guess my ending was happy for most, but I feel… personally unsatisfied.

Rika: Cry me a river, Sparkle Motion.

Homura: *ignoring her* Okabe, how many loops did you experience before you achieved your goal?

Okabe: I can’t rightly say. I lost count after 60.

Rika: Sounds like you were efficient, at least. Both of you. At least you reached your goal in a fraction of the time I took.

*Okabe turns and looks to the other end of the bar, where Yuno Gasai is slowly nursing a beer.

Okabe: And what about you?

Yuno Gasai: Hm?

Okabe: Miss Gasai, isn’t it? How many time loops did you endure before you reached your goal?

*Yuno flashes him a cocky, trollish grin as she slowly raises her hand and holds up just three fingers.*

*The three on the other end of the bar go slack-jawed.*

Homura: You’re kidding. You have to be.

Yuno: I don’t kid

Rika: *slurred* Motherfucking… hell-shit!

Okabe: How on Earth did you unravel all of the disparate strands of the disastrous timeline you started in and arrive at your ideal destination so quickly?! 

*Yuno shrugs and winks gleefully at the trio*

Yuno: ‘Git gud,’ scrubs.

anonymous asked:

noob question here... I only recently got into Steins;Gate. I watched the first season, but I see other things like Steins;Gate 0 and something about a movie, and now this new thing thats coming out. Can you possibly explain what each thing is and how they all come together? Is the movie part of the series, does it come after, and what is the new thing coming out, exactly? I'm just trying to put all the pieces together since I've only watched the show so far! Thank you!!

Well, the movie takes place after the series. Steins;Gate 0 takes place after Okabe goes back in time with Suzuha the first time and fails to save Kurisu, only no video mail comes from himself in the future, so he just has to continue living in that world line.

The World Line Project is basically just the Steins;Gate 0 anime (as well as some other adaptions).

I hope that helps!

me, like five episodes ago: Daru and Suzuha have the same dumb haircut therefore Daru is Suzuha’s dad confirmed.
me, now on episode 16: wait. fuck. wait. wait hang on fuck.