I'm having an incredibly difficult time accepting the fact that I can't fix everyone, no matter how close we may be.
I’ve been in a constant state of panic since I woke up this morning, and I feel like this feeling is ruining my life and anchoring me to depression- it’s not in the least bit foreign to me.
I cannot fix everyone, I cannot expect everyone to suddenly be fixed after drastic and hurtful life changes just because it makes me uncomfortable and anxious. Everyone goes through their own shit, and handles it in their own way, even if it isn’t the most healthy or progressive, and I have to learn to accept that.
I need to focus more on myself and what personally makes me happy and occupied because whether it be my mom or anyone else, they aren’t going to be around forever or when I need them, and I have to learn to depend on myself.
I don’t know how to go about this or what to do, or even if I’ll ever get to the point of truly accepting that I can’t be everyone’s saviour, but I think this is a start. This can’t continue to be my life, I’m only hurting myself.