staring them in the eyes and TELLING them that they love them

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Lauren talking with a fan 10.25.13 +

Now that’s how being a role model is done.

anonymous asked:

Ever thought about a pregnant!tranquil!inquisitor and cullen fic? :')

… not until just now, anon. 

Ah man, how hard would that be though. She stares straight ahead, not even caring as her belly begins to swell. And Cullen wants to be there for her. He wants to comfort her and rub her back and sing to his unborn child but she brushes it off, telling him that his time would be better spent elsewhere. 

So Cullen tries to love the child for both of them. He watches her constantly because it doesn’t occur to her to be careful of the baby. He sets guards around her to keep her safe, assigns the cook with specific meals to keep both her and the baby healthy and strong. 

Cullen tells them that he loves them every day, smiling through his tears just in case there’s some small part of her that’s still in there. And she doesn’t return the words, her eyes remaining dull and straight ahead as always. I love you, too he whispers to himself when he’s stepped away, praying with all his heart that he’ll hear her say it again one day. 

BUT THEN CASSANDRA SWOOPS IN WITH WHATEVER SPIRIT IS REQUIRED AND BAM! SHE’S NO LONGER TRANQUIL AND SHE AND CULLEN GO RIDING OFF INTO THE SUNSET WITH THEIR NEWBORN BABY AND THEY LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER, GOD DAMMIT! 

“I hate you.” He said quietly as he stared at them before he narrowed his eyes. “I fucking hate you, you did this to me. You know my ex keeps asking me why I won’t call them back. And I can’t tell them why, I can’t explain to someone I’ve been friends with for four years why I can’t call them back. And you’re just here, you’re here taking over everything in my life. You make every little single thought about you—.. and I don’t know how to stop it.”

anonymous asked:

How do you get over feeling depressed?

This is good for me to vocalize because it’s something that holds me back a lot. I don’t know if you truly get over it but you can make yourself better.

Embrace simplicity.
Clean your room and get rid of anything you don’t truly need.
Read a lot.
Get perspective.
Text or call someone you haven’t spoken to in a while and tell them you love them. Tell them what they mean to you. You’ll get it back tenfold.
Think of anything you need to get done and don’t sleep until you take care of it.
Then sleep way longer than you need to.
Go lay in the grass, close your eyes and stare at the sun. See that pinkish orange color. Feel the warmth and the sensation of the grass and twigs. Think of the sun as all the love in the world washing over you.
Drink a lot of water.
Drink a lot of coffee.
Smoke a lot of cigarrettes.
Don’t get on this site for a whole day. Or the Internet at all really.
There’s a lot of negativity. A lot of news. That may sound selfish but you need to focus on feeling good and feeling bad for someone else out of empathy is still destructive. You need to fix yourself before the world.
The most important thing to remember is to be a transmitter for everything you want to see in the world. Focus directly on feeling good. Love is abundant, wealth is abundant, knowledge is abundant. Fill yourself up with it mentally then spread it to everyone. Especially when you’re feeling unloved or irritated. If you’re feeling broke, give money. Find ways outside of your job to make more. You’re unlimited in everything.
Be someone you look up to.

If you don’t feel like anyone loves you, know that I do. And you can always message me off anon, I never publish those. I’ll give you my number. Friends are always good.