My first reaction to this was pretty much to scream, “WELL, GOODBYE” because, holy shit, canon confirmation that Obi-Wan would leave the Jedi Order for Anakin, I’m going to revel in these feelings about my ship, go on without me.
But even beyond that I think it’s really spot-on characterization because Obi-Wan really and truly fully dedicated himself to Anakin, by this point he is 100% going to devote his life to guiding Anakin, wherever that takes him. He would never force Anakin into a choice that wasn’t truly his own, he thinks Anakin belongs with the Jedi (he’s too young, he’s not ready, being part of the Jedi means being part of something bigger/stronger–in other words, Anakin needs that structure in his life), but if Anakin truly wants to go, then Obi-Wan will go with him.
At the same time, one of the central points about Obi-Wan’s character is that one of his greatest flaws (if you want to call it that) is the same as Anakin’s: attachment.
Yoda began to pace the small chamber, the tapping of his gimer stick loud in its silence. "Know do you, Obi-Wan, why reluctant I was for Skywalker to become your apprentice?“
he know? Not for certain. And once he and Qui-Gon had prevailed over
the Council, and Anakin had been made his Padawan, Yoda’s objections had
no longer mattered.
"Ah … no, Master,” he said cautiously.Yoda
flicked him a skeptical glance.
“Hmmm. Then tell you I will. Reluctant I
was because the same flaw you share, Obi-Wan. The flaw of attachment.” –Wild Space, by Karen Miller
The above moment is about Obi-Wan’s dedication to his vow to see Anakin trained, but that moment doesn’t exist in a vacuum, it exists alongside Obi-Wan’s tendency to become attached to that which he loves–and loves Anakin he does. (Revenge of the Sith, Obi-Wan directly tells Anakin that he loved him.)
This is why I say that Anakin Skywalker is the great love of Obi-Wan Kenobi’s life. It doesn’t matter if I mean it romantically or platonically or in a more familial sense, because he’s attached to Anakin, he loves Anakin, he’s chosen to dedicate his life to Anakin, he would leave the Jedi Order for Anakin, he spends the last 20 years of his life watching over Anakin’s child.
He’s not the only person Obi-Wan has loved, there have been many, in various forms. Qui-Gon Jinn, Siri Tachi, Satine Kryze, the Jedi Order as a whole. But his dedication to and love for Anakin are greater than all of them.
I’m still super invested in the ROGUE ONE characters, I both want SO MUCH FIXING THINGS FOR ALL OF THEM but also I want background fic that breaks my heart further and there have been some lovely gems coming out so here I sit and go through the usual cycle of Star Wars fic reading: This fic makes me feel better! This fic makes it worse! Now this one fixed things! Oh, no, now that one made it the worst ever! Oh, this one is much happier! OH SHIT FEELINGS. OH YAY PORN.
WELCOME TO STAR WARS HELL. (Fic recs every Wednesday.)
STAR WARS - ROGUE ONE FIC RECS: ✦ all the rest by tomorrowsrain, cassian/jyn, aftermath of torture, 8.3k Cassian and Jyn survive Scarif. Most days, she wishes they hadn’t. It’s never easy to keep on living after you expected to die. ✦ A Man Should Strengthen Himself by Annie D (scaramouche), baze/chirrut, 4.5k It’s only after the Jedi Purge that Chirrut Imwe gets to know the great Baze Malbus. ✦ Strongest Stars by Elfpen, obi-wan & qui-gon & chirrut & cast, 2.6k The Force works in mysterious ways. A few quiet moments in the dark create a touchstone spanning across three generations, two orthodoxies, a war, time, space, and the galaxy. A maverick meets a visionary and listens for a song. Spoilers for Rogue One, sort of? ✦ heart in a headlock by andromeda3116, cassian/jyn & bodhi & cast, 12.3k wip They say that, when in doubt, you should always choose to live. But, as Jyn is learning, it’s much harder to live for a cause than to die for one. ✦ Burn It Down by GreyMichaela, baze/chirrut, NSFW, 2.3k Baze can’t figure out what it is about Chirrut Îmwe that sets him so on edge. Chirrut’s running out of patience. ✦ Beinahe by guineapiggie, cassian/jyn & bodhi, 7k (If she had to chose a word for Cassian Andor, it’s almost.) ✦ close quarters by iwritesometimes, chirrut/baze, 4.8k a jaunt, a fight, and a shared bunk: three times baze and chirrut got up close and personal. pre-empire era. ✦ Stay in Motion by ignitesthestars, nymja, starforged, cassian/jyn & baze/chirrut & bodhi & cast, 5.1k wip Short stories set in a universe where the Rogue One crewmembers survive. ✦ Tastefully Arranged by nymja, cassian/jyn & bodhi & k-2so, 1.4k For the prompt: K-2SO interrupts Jyn and Cassian’s attempts at a first date. ✦ every memory adds another piece by indoissetep, baze/chirrut, 1.5k Scenes from a lifetime spent together. ✦ Another Word for Hope by inkandpaperhowl, cassian/jyn & baze/chirrut & bodhi, 1.9k maybe (adv): 1. perhaps, possibly; 2. neither yes nor no; 3. allowing for hope where ‘yes’ or ‘no’ would deny it ✦ Kyber Hearts by crowleyshouseplant, cassian/jyn & bodhi & baze & chirrut & cast, 1.2k After death, Rogue One lives on through the Force to see the end of their mission. ✦ Meditations by roselightsaber, baze/chirrut, ~1k There are so many stories of Baze watching Chirrut train and meditate. It’s Chirrut’s turn. ✦ firefly by peradi, r2-d2 & bb-8 & rey & finn & poe & luke & k-2so, 4.4k Humanity is infectious, Finn makes friends with droids, and K2 cannot get any rest: the story of how Rogue One flies again. ✦ Horizon Bright With Light by rosaxx50, cassian/jyn, 2.8k (Five times Cassian makes up or changes his mind about Jyn Erso, and one he doesn’t.)
Here it is– Finn and Rey at their wedding for @finnreyfridays. This is, after all, in the future, so Finn’s grown his hair out a little bit and Rey’s put her hair down. Finn’s in a snow-white wedding gown, and Rey’s in a good set of wedding robes. The softest of fluff ; u ;
I just really love the STAR WARS prequels a lot, that they may be flawed in a lot of ways, but the sheer amount of potential there and the things they did right are so good and I care about these characters so much and I love the world that was built around them and the myriad of ways that I suffer because of them and because of fic that makes everything worse in the best ways, and I just really need to share my feelings about them.
I LOVE THESE JERKS SO MUCH, JOIN ME IN CRYING ABOUT THEM. (Fic recs every Wednesday.)
STAR WARS FIC RECS: ✦ Seed by bell (bellaboo), obi-wan/anakin & anakin/padme, NSFW, 41.9k wip When Anakin falls prey to a lethal poison, Obi-Wan has no choice but use all his resources to heal him– no matter how reluctant he is in administering the antidote. ✦ Negotiation by Glare, obi-wan/anakin & ahsoka & cast, nsfw, modern au, serial killer au, 45.1k wip Over a year ago, Coruscant Police Detective Anakin Skywalker vanished without a trace while hunting the prolific serial killer known within the media as “The Negotiator”. ✦ it comes to me, as of a dream by xpityx, obi-wan/anakin/padme, NSFW, 3.9k Padme watches uneasily as her husband wanders around her rooms, picking up and examining trinkets seemingly without order, before putting them back just far enough away from their original positions to make her frown slightly in annoyance. ✦ Soldier, Poet, King by Glare, obi-wan/anakin & qui-gon & mace & dooku & palpatine & cast, 88.3k wip Second chances are very rarely given, but the Force smiles upon two of its favorite children and returns them to a time before their actions have met their consequences. Anakin Skywalker, also known as Darth Vader, seeks redemption while Obi-Wan “Ben” Kenobi, disillusioned with the Jedi Order and its Code, falls to the Darkness. ✦ The Hot Santa Hunt by anecdotalist, obi-wan/anakin & padme & ahsoka, 3.9k In which Anakin, Padme, and Ahsoka embark on a quest to find the hottest mall Santa at the Corcuscant mall and Obi-Wan may just be actual Santa Claus. ✦ Obi-Wan and the Terrible Horrible No Good Very Bad (Life) Day by wreckageofstars, obi-wan & anakin & ahsoka & padme, 7.8k It’s Obi-Wan Kenobi’s life day, but good luck telling the galaxy that. ✦ Just a Tooka by Rocket_Sith, obi-wan & anakin & ahsoka & qui-gon & cast, 12k A peculiar tooka seems to have adopted Qui-Gon’s entire lineage. The Living Force is a mysterious thing, and there’s a pretty good chance the Jedi Code is entirely full of shit. ✦ The Beginning After the End by notbecauseofvictories, padme & cast (some anakin/padme & obi-wan & palpatine & luke & leia), padme lives, 7k Padmé wakes to the back of Obi-Wan’s head, his hair mussed and his arms spread, outstretched over her knees as though to shield her from all that would come. ✦ Celestial Navigation by victoria_p (musesfool), anakin & finn/rey & cast, 23.3k Finn and Rey’s epic space road trip adventure, featuring pirates, kittens, and the Force ghost of Anakin Skywalker. ✦ Talking to Strangers by Miri1984, kana/hera & ezra & luke & han & obi-wan, 21.2k wip The crew of the Ghost have to take a trip to Tatooine for a pick up. Predictably, they run into trouble. And a few other things besides. ✦ A Walking Shadow by lilyconrad, obi-wan & anakin & luke & leia & ahsoka, 61.8k wip It is five years into the Empire’s ascension, an order built on the blood and bodies of the Jedi. ✦ Random Drabbles: Caleb Dume and the Grey Sith by dogmatix, kanan & depa & cast, 1.8k Caleb Dume discovers that stowing away to go on Seriously Dangerous Missions can be hazardous to your worldview. ✦ Punishment by lovelykenobi, obi-wan/anakin, NSFW, d/s, toys, 3.7k Anakin had disobeyed two orders: the Council’s and Obi-Wan’s, which meant two punishments. ✦ The Fallout of Anakin Skywalker’s Knighting by anecdotalist, obi-wan & anakin & some anakin/padme & cast, 9.6k Anakin is Knighted and decides to give his Padawan braid to Padme instead of to Obi-Wan after his Knighting. Then he learns that there’s a lot more meaning to that Tradition than he had realized but is it too late to fix things with Obi-Wan? ✦ Trinity by calmersky, obi-wan/anakin/padme, NSFW, 2.4k You’ve noticed the tension between them. They think you haven’t, but you have.
I postponed this set for a bit because I just couldn’t yesterday. And these recs aren’t technically new, but I’m not quite ready for a new set and I’ve been meaning to gather these up and organize them into better lists, so here’s the start of that. These are some of my STAR WARS comfort fics, the ones that soothe me or make me feel better or just engross me enough that it takes my mind off of things. These are some of ones that capture my imagination or I will come back and reread over and over again! I figure I’m probably not the only one who could really use some comfort right about now, so here have some of my favorites! (Fic recs–mostly–every Wednesday.)
STAR WARS RECS: ✦ starbird by imaginarykat, obi-wan/anakin, 8.8k Anakin thinks he knows everything about Obi-Wan but doesn’t. Anakin thinks a lot of things, actually, and he’s wrong about most of them. Anakin’s whole world view is turned upside down. Obi-Wan is having the time of his life. ✦ Some Things Are Certain by cupiscent, obi-wan/anakin, NSFW, 7.3k Detained far from where he should be by random chance, Obi-Wan meets an unusual slave. ✦ Another Universe by skywalkersamidala, obi-wan/anakin/padme (obi-wan/anakin + anakin/padme + obi-wan/anakin/padme), NSFW, 12.1k Perhaps in another universe, the three of them would have been forever ripped from each other and from their children. But in this universe there was peace, and in this universe the Amidala-Skywalker-Kenobi family lived happily ever after. ✦ you knock me out, i fall apart by pdotschuy, obi-wan/anakin/padme + han/luke/leia + ahsoka, 47.1k wip ( aka: the one where anakin was a sith lord for literally an hour, everyone is alive, and they’re actually happy ) ✦ Fever Mate by generale_kenobi, obi-wan/anakin & anakin/padme & obi-wan/anakin/padme, NSFW, fuck-or-die, soul bond, 14.7k Het! Anakin helps Het! Obi-Wan during a moment of need, but it leads to unexpected complications. ✦ First Watch by amarielah, obi-wan/anakin, NSFW, 1k Missing scene from the episode “In Search of the Crystal”. After Obi-Wan goes to sleep following their awkward fire-side chat, Anakin broods on all the things he wants but cannot have. ✦ Pointless sex by themoosejthm, obi-wan/anakin/padme, NSFW, ~1k She watches as Anakin rises and falls on Obi-Wan’s cock, as Obi-Wan groans and grips Anakin’s hands tight, as Anakin throws his head back to moan high and sweet. ✦ On Whose Authority by Mithrigil, obi-wan/anakin, NSFW, 33.1k After seven years training as Qui-Gon’s Padawan, Anakin finally has questions that his Master can’t answer. A specialist in force-user initiation and the erotic mysteries might be just what Anakin needs–but Kenobi is almost too good at his job. ✦ Fire and Ice by Yesac, obi-wan & anakin + padme & luke & leia & cast, 111.9k Anakin wins the duel on Mustafar, but doesn’t kill Obi-Wan. Along with Padme, Obi-Wan finds himself living in a chaotic world where the man he thought he knew has become the thing he swore to destroy. Can Anakin be turned back? If so, what then? ✦ Lost Reflections by esama, obi-wan & ben, 30.k wip Obi-Wan didn’t become Qui-Gon Jinn’s apprentice, and Ben didn’t exile himself to Tatooine. On Bandomeer the two meet. ✦ Shadows of the Future by stormqueen873, obi-wan & anakin & qui-gon & cast, 129.3k ObiWan lost the duel on Mustafar, but instead of dying, he finds himself on a ship leaving Tatooine, with his old Master and a familiar young boy. As events begin to unfold, can he stop the future he knows from occuring? ✦ Admire The Foliage by TheAngryAssassin (GetOutOFMyTreeNovice), obi-wan/anakin + anakin/tentacle plant, NSFW, 1.6k Anakin is left to his own devices on an unknown planet and naturally, he gets himself into trouble. Obi-Wan helps him out. ✦ Don’t Apologize For Your Pleasure by KeeperofSeeds, obi-wan/anakin, NSFW, 1.5k Anakin always comes too soon, but Obi Wan doesn’t mind. ✦ Teacups and Droid Repair by Rocket_Sith, obi-wan/anakin, some bondage, 5.5k Written for a kink meme prompt: Anakin/Obi-Wan. Arguing and bantering as foreplay. That’s it. That’s the prompt. Anakin is being an obnoxious little kriff trying to get Obi-Wan’s attention. He definitely gets it, but not exactly how he had in mind. ✦ Seed by bell (bellaboo), obi-wan/anakin & anakin/padme & cast, NSFW, 34.5k wip When Anakin falls prey to a lethal poison, Obi-Wan has no choice but use all his resources to heal him– no matter how reluctant he is in administering the antidote. ✦ Soldier, Poet, King by Glare, obi-wan/anakin & qui-gon & cast, NSFW, sith!obi-wan, time travel, 65.2k wip Second chances are very rarely given, but the Force smiles upon two of its favorite children and returns them to a time before their actions have met their consequences. Anakin Skywalker, also known as Darth Vader, seeks redemption while Obi-Wan “Ben” Kenobi, disillusioned with the Jedi Order and its Code, falls to the Darkness. ✦ wicked thing by imaginarykat, obi-wan/anakin & ventress & dooku, nsfw, sith!obi-wan, 84.5k wip There are rumours of yet another Sith Lord hiding among the Separatists. The Council sends Anakin to investigate. Anakin has a bad feeling about this. or, the story of how Anakin exists in a perpetual state of intense embarrassment, Obi-Wan is enjoying it a little too much, and everything is, generally speaking, a gigantic mess.