So, I started reading the novelized version of the first AOS
movie by Alan Dean Foster yesterday and so far I’ve learned things and
confirmed* headcanons about characters.
One, Jim was borderline suicidal. When he was about to drive
his dad’s corvette into the quarry, it’s stated:
“No vehicle and no driver could survive such a plunge. And
easy way and a convenient place for a distraught child to put an end to anger,
confusion, uncertainty, and disparity. All Kirk had to do was keep going and
gravity would do the rest. Keep going and…
“At the last possible instant he jammed his right foot down
on the brake.” (p. 38)
I dunno about you, but stating that it would be an easy
place to put an end to things sounds pretty damn suicidal to me. And I don’t
think it’s ever explicitly stated how old he is then, but he’s young.
Two, before Spock meets with the Vulcan High Counsel regarding his
acceptance to the Vulcan Science Academy, he was in the bathroom vomiting.
As Amanda is trying to reassure him that he’ll do fine, he walks out of the
bathroom giving “no indication that he had just spent several minutes violently
upchucking his most recent meal.” (p. 42)
Three, Jim’s cocky demeanor is very much an act. When he meets
with Chris Pike and is asked “’do you feel like you might be meant for
something better. That maybe you’re supposed to do something special?’“ it’s stated that it hit a
nerve. Then it’s stated that “Whenever [Jim] was uncomfortable he covered it
with bravado…” (p. 52) So, sure, Jim’s cocky attitude is partially just his
personality, but it’s also a defense mechanism. (This is the one that fulfills
the “confirming a headcanon of mine” statement.)
Four, Jim can and/or does have a pretty shitty self-esteem. This
kind of plays into the “his cocky demeanor is an act.” When he’s looking at the
Enterprise being constructed, considering actually joining Starfleet, this is
his internal dialogue.
“What the hell do you
think you’re doing? he asked himself. You
sleep on a starship, not with it. Why
are you wasting your time here? What makes you think they’d accept an overage
delinquent like yourself? Because one slumming Starfleet captain said so? You
haven’t even completed filling out the necessary forms, let alone making formal
application. Get away, get going, get gone.” (p. 56)
That sounds like pretty shitty self-esteem to me.
*I don’t know how much of this book that is not explicitly
also stated in the movie is considered canon. But I’m at least going to pretend
it is if it isn’t considered canon.
Ok, and moment of humor because a lot of that was pretty
intense. Foster describes one of the older students that bullies Spock at the
Learning Center in the most fantastic and hilarious way. He’s described as “the
second lump of insensitive bipedal protein” and I just think it awesome. (p.
(I may have more thoughts on what I’ve read so far later, or thoughts on what I read later in the book, so stay tuned.)
McCoy/Jim Kirk: I’ve
officially been dragged into the McKirk trashcan, thanks a lot guys (okay, so I
went willingly, whatever, it’s nice here)
1150 or something like
It’s a lil angsty, a lil
fluffy, also my first time writing McKirk so please bear with me here. Some
swears as usual because I literally cannot help myself and these two have no
note: As previously
stated, I’ve fallen headfirst into the trashcan and wanted to try my hand at a
little McKirk fic because they’re so damn cute. Features one of Len’s infamous
nightmares and a very sweet Jim.
Also, I’m thinking of making a taglist so if anyone wants to be on it let me know!