okay hi i’m back i listened to a playlist of the softer songs from the 2009 and STID soundtracks on my headphones white making dinner and i am quite calm now something about the star trek soundtracks calm me down so much i seriously just want to write michael giacchino a thank you letter for how many anxiety attacks and dark thoughts the song “labor of love” has gotten me through
it’s my most played song because no matter what, it has the needed effect. if i need to calm down, it calms me down. if i’m feeling trapped and empty, it can make me cry. if i want to feel loved, i can hear the love and self-sacrifice in that song. i never get sick of it. i know that’s so cheesy but that song has become such an integral part of me and it’s one of my biggest anchors.
so yeah doing something methodical and productive + blocking the world out with headphones really helped UvU my mind isn’t racing anymore
thank you for all of your patience and kind words i would be lost without you