I see so many fics about Garak and Bashir that are sweet or sexy, and they’re tons of fun, but what I don’t see enough of is the most compelling aspect of their relationship: the fact that Garak is a deeply damaged individual. He is much older than Julian, a different species, and from a totally different background. Where Bashir’s parents risked everything to enhance him and give him a fighting chance in the world, Garak’s father denied their relationship and turned Garak into an efficient wreck. He’s a liar, a murderer, a spy and a torturer, and even his good guy progression can’t change some of that. His charm and good-naturedness is a mask, and if he ever only showed Julian his beaming sarcasm and witty banter in the bedroom (as most fanfics would have us believe), then their relationship was never real. Even the TV episodes show more than that! In The Wire alone, we see Garak scream at and attack Bashir, lie to him repeatedly, and communicate his need for help through strategically placed clues. It’s the closest he can come to revealing himself, because that IS him. It’s all true, “especially the lies,” because that is what Garak consists of. His groanings about sartorial choices and human rituals are characteristic, but they don’t compose his character. I want to see more of the REAL Garak; and, if he can’t give that, more of Bashir’s real frustration at not receiving it.
They meet at a bar on Hikaru’s 26th birthday. Jim’s the one who introduces them, though Pavel swears they’ve met before. He is only 19, and he seems exotic to Hikaru- fascinating and foreign with his accent and his intelligence. To his surprise, Pavel seems equally interested in him, and so Hikaru asks him back to his apartment. Pavel accepts, but appears to grow increasingly nervous throughout the cab ride there- changing his mind at the last minute and asking to be dropped back home. The next time Hikaru sees Pavel, Pavel is jogging down his street, caught in a sudden rain storm. Though conscious of the way he’d previously been rebuffed, he asks Pavel if he’d like to stay with him until the storm passes, puzzled when Pavel accepts with no hesitation. Dressed in Hikaru’s clothes, he explains that he had rejected him only because he was afraid Hikaru would get emotionally involved. Pavel is sick, and it is terminal….
aka the fic that i’ve been drabbling bits of forever, and someday hope to complete in full
☆ Niall Horan debuted his solo single, which lead to his debut as a solo artist at No. 1. ☆ Hayley Kiyoko (No. 8) switches lists from Celeb to Music with arrival of her new EP. ☆ Solange (No. 10) bestowed us with the gift of two new music videos and we are forever grateful.
Celebrities: These One Direction boys are all over the place.
☆ Harry Styles (No. 1) is an easy, breezy, beautiful cover boy for Another Man. ☆ Rob Kardashian’s debut is fueled entirely by getting revenge on Kylie. Find him at No. 4. ☆ Emma Watson comes back at No. 16 after photos of her as Belle leak.