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Mixed Black African Girl (Cameroonian/French)

I’m a mixed black african girl who grew up and lived most of her life in Cameroon, in Central Africa. My dad is half-white (french) and half-black (cameroonian), and my mom is 100% cameroonian. There’s little to no black african characters in popular fiction, which has always bothered me, and it would be so nice to read about someone like me for once.

  • Culture and food

Cameroon is a country created during colonization, with borders defined by europeans. Because of that, Cameroon is actually made of 200 ethnic groups, each of them having their own language and culture. So the culture and daily habits vary a lot depending on which region of Cameroon you are in. In the big cities, though, everyone is mingled no matter where they’re from. However, so many different ethnic groups cohabiting together often causes tension. There are also a lot of stereotypes about every ethnic group.

I grew up in the central and coastal areas of the country, and I’m Bassa. The Bassa are one of the main ethnic groups in Cameroon. If your parents are from two different ethnic groups, it is decided that you officially belong to your father’s ethnic group. My mother is Bakoko but my father is Bassa, so I’m the latter. When I meet another Cameroonian, two of the first questions we usually ask each other are : What are you (meaning, what’s your ethnic group) ? and Where is you village ?

Villages are very important in the Cameroonian culture. Your village is where your father’s ancestors were born. Even if you’re not born there, you usually have grandparents or great-uncles or family friends living there, and if you have enough money to do so you must regularly visit your village. And usually, when people earn enough money, they send money to their village so that people living there can have a better life, build more houses and schools etc.

Cameroonian food is very diverse, and varies depending on the region. The national dish is Ndolé, a dish made with ndolé leaves, stewed nuts, and meat (fish, beef or shrimps). Other common foods are bobolo and miondo (food made out of fermented manioc), soya (spicy grilled meat on skewers), and plantain. My dad is half-french though, so at home we eat almost as much french food as cameroonian food (crème brûlée, shepherd’s pie, beef bourguignon, A LOT of bread and cheese).

  • Language

There are hundreds of different languages, but the official languages are French and English. Cameroon was colonized by France and England so Northern Cameroon mainly speaks english and central/southern Cameroon mainly speaks french. Most people also speak their ethnic group’s language. I don’t know how to speak Bassa, though, because neither do my parents. When me and my siblings were kids, our dad asked our baby-sitter to teach us, but she could only do so much and I only remember a few words.

  • Beauty Standards

Like most countries, there is a lot of colorism in Cameroon based on European beauty standards. When you’re a woman, the lighter you are, the prettier and more desirable you are considered. Dark skinned women are often mocked and considered not as pretty. A lot of people, mainly women but also men, use dangerous products to lighten their skin. Internalized racism and white beauty standards are very insidious, and a lot of people want to look like white people, including me when I was younger. As a kid I remember wishing i was a pretty blonde-haired blue-eyed white girl like the heroines of the books i was reading. Growing up I stopped wishing that, but I relaxed and straightened my hair a lot, wanting to have long straight hair without realizing that it was still an attempt to look like the ideal version of a white girl. I’m sure that if I had more black female characters to relate to when I was growing up, I wouldn’t have spend so many years hating myself without even realizing I was doing it.

Also, Cameroonians usually consider thick, curvy women to be the ideal beauty standard. But being thin is still an ideal broadcast by the media (especially that american and european media are heavily broadcast and consumed in Cameroon) so most women still diet a lot and go to the gym to lose weight.

  • Clothing

Women wear a lot of skirts and dresses, be it casual or for work. Most cameroonian schools have uniforms and mandatory hairstyles (either cornrows or short shaved hair).

Elderly people often wear more traditional clothes and outfits. The most prominent traditional item of clothing is the Kaba. The Kaba is a long dress made of wax fabric and other materials and is owned by pretty much every woman. The dress looks different depending on the situation : the Kaba you wear when you stay at home is usually very long and very loose, the Kaba you wear during official/formal events is more tight-fitting and stylized, etc.

  • Dating and Relationships

I’ve never dated anyone, but when I was in high school none of my friends ever told their parents they were seeing someone. Having your parents know about and meet the person you’re dating after only a few weeks or months is something that just doesn’t happen (unless someone gets pregnant). It’s when things get serious that you introduce them to your family. Also, a lot of parents would prefer their children to marry someone from the same ethnic group.

Homosexuality is still illegal there, and you can go to jail for being gay.

  • Home/Family life

My parents are still happily married, and I have 3 siblings. My parents are both close to their siblings, and I’m close to mine. Me and my siblings grew up with our cousins, we were always at each other’s houses. I pretty much consider most of my cousins as extra siblings. We have a very big extended family and every day I discover new distant cousins, aunts, great-uncles etc. My dad being half-french, when I was growing up we sometimes went to France during summer to visit his relatives living there.

In Cameroon, most people who have enough money to do so send their children to study abroad once they’ve graduated high school. I’m currently living in France for my studies, and most of my high school friends are also going to college in France, England, Canada, Brussels, South Africa etc.

  • Identity issues

Despite being only ¼ white, I’m very light-skinned. My siblings being much darker skinned, when I was a kid I thought I was adopted (i’m not, it’s just genetics). Cameroon being a black country, when someone is visibly mixed and light-skinned as i am, most people just label them “white”. A lot of people would refer to me as “the white” and it always really hurt me. My family wouldn’t understand why i was so angry and hurt, they’d say “they don’t mean anything by it, it’s just that you’re light” but the fact is it made me feel like i don’t belong. I’m cameroonian, i’ve lived in Cameroon almost my entire life, i’m black, and still some people see me as “other”, they see me as white. And so for a long time, I didn’t dare to call myself black, I’d say “I’m biracial” or “I’m mixed” instead because I somehow felt like a fraud. But I’m black and not white-passing at all, and I still experience racism abroad (but I’m aware I have a lot more privilege than dark skinned people).

  • Daily struggles

So I’m currently living in France. On one hand, sometimes white people are racist toward me, or just totally obnoxious and ignorant, trying to touch my natural hair and thinking that people in Cameroon don’t have computers or whatever. On the other hand, when I randomly meet other cameroonians and we start talking, they always assume that because i’m mixed i’ve lived my entire life in France and i don’t know anything about Cameroon. And there’s nothing wrong with being a child of immigrants and not knowing the country your parents or grandparents came from, but i know that if i wasn’t visibly mixed they wouldn’t question the fact that i know Cameroon and lived there my entire life.

  • Misconceptions

Because of how the media depict African countries, a lot of people think that everyone in Africa is extremely poor and starving, that we don’t have electricity and internet and that everyone lives in huts. Which is so false. We have rich people and poor people, we have huge modern cities and regular cities and small villages with huts, almost everyone has access to a tv and internet, etc.

  • Things I’d like to see less of

Cameroon and other african countries being depicted as poor unfortunate countries where everyone is starving and illiterate and waiting for the generous white people to save us. What we need is for people to see us as the humans we are, and to allow us to grow in peace.

  • Things I’d like to see more of

Black african characters being written as the complex human beings we are. Shy black african characters. Nerdy and hella smart black african characters. Mixed black african characters who struggle with their identity. LGBTQ black african characters.

  • Tropes/Stereotypes I’m tired of seeing.

The “savage”, “uncivilized” african. African characters who are aggressive, dumb and shout all the time. The poor africans in need of saving by white people.

Check, Please! 2017 Big Bang

Hi, y’all! This is @ontologicalprior at @omgcpbigbang bringing you the 2017 Check, Please! Big Bang. In case you aren’t familiar with the term, a Big Bang is a fandom event where authors write fanfic of a certain minimum length and then artists collaborate with them to make art based on their fic. For this Bang, the minimum requirements will be 20,000 words for authors and 2 pieces of art for artists. All participants will be invited to a chat room on Slack where they can talk, plan, and commiserate with each other. Announcements and deadline reminders will be made on the Slack and using the Tumblr tag #omgcpbigbang. The schedule is as follows:

May 12: Sign-ups open for authors, artists, beta readers, and pinch-hitters.

June 16: Author sign-ups close.

July 1: First author check-in.  

August 1: Second author check-in. Fics should be at least 50% completed, with an outline for the rest.

September 1: Fic summaries and drafts are due. Drafts must be at least 80% completed. This is the last day an author can drop out.

September 15: Fic summaries posted. Artist signups close.

September 18: Artist claims open at 12:00 PM Central Standard time.

October 6: First artist check-in. Final fics are due and must be 100% completed.

October 20: Artist drafts are due.

November: Posting begins.

All deadlines are midnight Central Time.

You can sign up as an author, artist, beta, or pinch hitter right here. If you have any questions, please ask at @omgcpbigbang or email omgcpbigbang@gmail.com. 

Preparation for Thomas’ Birthday

So as you may know, Thomas Sanders’ birthday is coming up (April 24), and I was hoping that we could all sing happy birthday to him, so I wanted to make a video of as many people as possible singing happy birthday to him, along with fanart to put into the video.

So, if you want to contribute, you can either send a video or sound file of yourself singing happy birthday if you want to sing, or you can send an image file of artwork (as long as it’s your own, I will be reverse image searching) to ‘happybirthdaythomassanders@gmail.com’. Please also make sure to include your tumblr username so I can tag you.

I will be accepting things until the 22nd of April at 11:59pm Australian Eastern Standard Time (1:59pm UTC, 7:59am American Central Standard Time); this will give me all of the next day to compile everything ready for Thomas’ birthday.  Thanks if you contribute, and even if you can’t, please share this, and also the video so that Thomas sees it.

Charity Stream Times!!

This is just for reference, in vase anyone doesn’t know for certain when Marks stream will start in their area!

10:00 am PST (Pacific Standard - N.A.)

1:00 pm EST (Eastern Standard - N.A.)

6:00 pm GMT (Greenwich Mean Time)

12:00 pm CST (Central Standard Time - N.A.)

7:00 pm (1900) CET (Central Europe)

6:00 pm (1800) IST/WET (Western Europe)

7:00 am NZDT/NZT (New Zealand)

4:30 am ACDT (Australia Central)

5:00 am AET (Australia East)

2:00 am AWT (Australia West)

9:00 pm (2100) AST (Arabia Standard)

10:00 pm (2200) GST (Gulf Standard)

1:00 am ICT (Indochina Time)

2:00 am Singapore Time

8:00 pm (2000) CAT (Central Africa)

9:00 pm (2100) EAT (Eastern Africa)

7:00 pm (1900) WAT (West Africa)

If y'all want any specific times on here, just lemme know! Hope this is useful!!

( @markiplier @lum1natrix you guys have bigger followings, so might as well tag you.)

okay, okay, okay, OKAY, honestly, i was gonna make a more serious banner, but i stay a headass, so…yeah, nvm, i guess…

that aside, i honestly don’t think any word in any language can depict how excited, how surprised, and how HONORED i am to have made it this far in 1.5 months. 1,018. there are 1,018 of you following me on this day may 23, 2017 at 4:28 pm central standard time.

without a doubt, the fact that this blog is a revamp of the one i ran ~1-2 years ago contributes to how boosted i’ve become in such a short span of time, but that alone does not dampen my surprise; I seriously wasn’t expecting to have received this much attention considering how slow and, if not that, RIDICULOUS i am ( fr, so many of y’all are way too familiar with the shenanigans i get involved in )…but hey, all in all, i’m not complaining. again, i’m beyond overjoyed that you guys are still here to put up with me and whatever the fuck i do, smh——

——BUT WAIT, THERE’S MORE. the joy does not stop there. in addition to all of the amazing people who have stayed with me thus far, i’ve also actually managed to make good friends / meet eager RP partners here. even though i can be timid asf and the absolute worst at the DM game, lots and lots of you guys are still willing to talk to / get to know me and my raven!! the fact that so many of you enjoy interacting with us and are capable of making us smile ( yes, us…raven seriously fux with some of y’all’s muses ) and feel is surreal. i’ve enjoyed it just as much as you guys have and, as a matter of fact, find myself thinking about this a lot even when i’m offline. it’s amazing, isn’t it? the impact that all of you have had on me despite my being here for less than two months——

——just imagine how phenomenal things will be after four months, six months, one year…

anyway, in case you couldn’t tell, i’m really not the best at expressing myself…so, if everything i’ve said so far has been incoherent or ???weird???, then i apologize…but to sum everything up, just know that I’m legitimately GRATEFUL for each and every one of you. thank you. thank you for making my experience on tumblr an unforgettable one so far. it really means a lot.

AND WITHOUT FURTHER ADO, HERE ARE THE L( OSERS )OML…THE FIRE OF MY LOINS…THE REASONS I SMILE WHEN THERE IS NOTHING TO SMILE ABOUT…


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The High German languages or High German dialects (Hochdeutsche Dialekte) comprise the varieties of German spoken south of the Benrath and Uerdingen isoglosses in central and southern Germany, Austria, Liechtenstein, Switzerland, and Luxembourg as well as in neighboring portions of Belgium (Eupen-Malmedy) and the Netherlands (Southeast Limburg), France (Alsace and northern Lorraine), Italy (South Tyrol), and Poland (Upper Silesia). They are also spoken in diaspora in RomaniaRussia, the USA, Brazil, Argentina, Mexico, Chile, and Namibia. The High German languages are marked by the High German consonant shift, separating them from Low German and Low Franconian (Dutch) within the continental West Germanic dialect continuum.

As a technical term, the “high” in High German is a geographical reference to the group of dialects that forms “High German” (i.e. “Highland” German), out of which developed Standard German, Yiddish, and Luxembourgish. It refers to the Central Uplands (Mittelgebirge) and Alpine areas of central and southern Germany, it also includes Luxembourg, Austria, Liechtenstein, and most of Switzerland. This is opposed to Low German, which is spoken on the lowlands and along the flat sea coasts of the North German Plain. High German in this broader sense can be subdivided into Upper German (Oberdeutsch, this includes Austrian and Swiss German dialects), Central German (Mitteldeutsch, this includes Luxembourgish, which itself is now a standard language), and High Franconian which is a transitional dialect between the two. High German (in the broader sense) is distinguished from other West Germanic varieties in that it took part in the High German consonant shift (c. AD 500). To see this, compare English/Low German (Low Saxon) pan/Pann with Standard German Pfanne ([p] to [p͡f]), English/Low German two/twee with Standard German zwei ([t] to [t͡s]), English/Low German make/maken with Standard German machen ([k] to [x]). In the southernmost High Alemannic dialects, there is a further shift; Sack (like English/Low German “sack/Sack”) is pronounced [z̥ak͡x] ([k] to [k͡x]).

Old High German evolved from about 500 AD, around 1200 the Swabian and East Franconian varieties of Middle High German became dominant as a court and poetry language (Minnesang) under the rule of the House of Hohenstaufen. The term “High German” as spoken in central and southern Germany (Upper Saxony, Franconia, Swabia, Bavaria) and Austria was first documented in the 15th century. Gradually driving back Low German variants since the Early modern period, the Early New High German varieties, especially the East Central German of the Luther Bible, formed an important basis for the development of Standard German.

Family tree

Divisions between subfamilies within Germanic are rarely precisely defined, because most form continuous clines, with adjacent dialects being mutually intelligible and more separated ones not. In particular, there has never been an original “Proto-High German”. For this and other reasons, the idea of representing the relationships between West Germanic language forms in a tree diagram at all is controversial among linguists. What follows should be used with care in the light of this caveat.

Facts about the Italian language

* Its family is: Indo-European » Italic » Romance » Italian.

* Italian is the 5th-most taught non-native language, after English, French, Spanish, and German.

* Italian is spoken by 60-65 million people.

* It's regulated by “Accademia della Crusca”.

* Italian is ranked 19th on the “List of Languages by number of native speakers”.

* Mostly spoken in Italy, but also in communities in Switzerland, Austria, Slovenia, Croatia, Argentina, Brazil, the USA, Australia, Luxembourg, and some places in Africa.

* It is not uncommon for Italian-speakers to also speak a dialect particular to the region where they live.

* Dialects of Italian are regional varieties (Tuscan, Central Italian) which are closely related to Standard Italian, while the terms Dialects of Italy is suggested for those idioms, such as Neapolitan, Sicilian, and Gallo-Italian languages which show considerable differences in grammar, syntax and vocabulary. The dialects of Italian identified by the Ethnologue (an encyclopedic reference work cataloging all of the world’s 6,912 known living languages) are: Piedmontese, Valdôtain (Valdoten), Lombard, Ticinese, Venetian, Talian, Emiliano-Romagnolo, Ligurian, Tuscan (the base of modern Standard Italian), Corsican, Central Italian dialects (like Umbrian, Marchigiano, Romanesco, Laziale, Abruzzese, Molisano), Inner Southern Italian dialects, Pugliese, Neapolitan, Sicilian, Calabrian. 

* Many of the so-called dialects of Italian spoken around the country are different enough from standard Italian to be considered separate languages by most linguists.

Ritual Purity in Hellenism

Ritual purity featured heavily in worship in ancient Greece, with water basins called perorrhanteria, established near the entrances to temples; and stoas found bearing inscriptions that command visitors to cleanse themselves before entering the sanctuary. The nature of ritual purity changed over time and location, as with most aspects of worship in ancient Greece, but the ritual act of purification remained an important one.

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2k Followers

Okay, so I wanted to do something special, so here it is!

Rules:

Must be following me (obviously)

That’s about it

Prizes:

The first through sixth place winners will get:

  • A follow (if I’m not following you already)
  • Personalized imagine! Your name, your character, your plot, etc
  • Seventh through tenth places will get the first two and their name as a side character

How to enter:

  • Reblog this post (every reblog gets you an entry)
  • Put in the tags your favorite imagine of mine

Contest ends April 2, 2017, at 9:00 AM Central Standard Time

I will take each user who reblogged this and choose the winner randomly. If you have any questions, don’t hesitate to message me.

Good luck!

Listen

If you’ve been following me for a while, you might remember that on May 4th last year I released a ton of audio posts that I had saved up but hadn’t recorded yet. I’d love to do something like that for you again, but this year, I don’t have that kind of backlog.

What I can offer you is this: if there’s a Star Wars post from anywhere on this website that you might want me to record for you, send it my way through an Ask, Private Message, or Submission on my blog, and I’ll get the audio out to you as fast as I can. It usually takes me a day or two to get the time to record, but today is all about you guys; you make every day Star Wars Day for me, and I want to give back to you.

I’ll be taking requests until 8pm Central Standard Time, and I can’t wait to see what you guys send me!

HAPPY STAR WARS DAY!

(I’ll be reblogging this every hour or so so that nobody misses it, sorry if it seems like I’m spamming your dash!)

Title: In Need of Comfort - Pt. 4 

Characters:Dean x Reader

Warning: Angst

Word Count: 550

A/N: Gif Blurb Mini Series Part 12 & 3.  I will be accepting gifs in my submit box (or whatever) of gifs you would like to see as a part of this series. They have to be gifs in which Dean is need in need of obvious comfort. That’s what this gif blurb series is about. Sorry there won’t be any tagging for this series, but it will be scheduled for 7-8 Central/Standard Time daily.

So without further ado… Enjoy.

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I was tagged by @thevampireparadingkilljoy

Rules: Answer the questions then tag 10 people

A - Age: 20
B - Biggest fear: I don’t have just one
C - Current time: 12:46 AM (Central Standard Time)
D - Drink you last hade: water
E - every day starts with: Tumblr, that’s literally the first thing I do when I wake up
F - Favorite song - I have like a million
G - Ghosts, are they real: I’ve never seen one, but I’m an open-minded person.
H - Hometown: Shawnee, Kansas, USA
I - In love with: Cats, always cats (you didn’t say it had to be a person)
J - Jealous of: Cats, they’ve got like the easiest lives in the world
K - Killed someone: Even if I have, why the fuck would I admit to that?
L - Last time you cried: last night
M - Middle name: Lee
N - Number of siblings: 3
O - One wish: to be able to eat as much as I want without exceeding the ideal weight for someone of my age/height/build
P - Person you last called/texted: Myself because I still can’t figure out how airdrop works
Q - Questions you’ve always asked: What?
R - Reasons to smile: This blog and cats
S - Song last sang - A Change in Me from Beauty and the Beast
T - Time you woke up: Around 10 something I think
U - Underwear color: At the moment I’m wearing Star Wars underwear so it’s like a dark blue with white stars
V - Vacation destination: Somewhere with no light pollution
W - Worst habit: I can be very condescending when I talk to people I find intellectually inferior
X - X-Rays you’ve had: I had a lot of kidney infections as a kid so most of the x-rays I’ve had were of my kidneys, and I also had an x-ray when I dislocated my knee a few years ago
Y - Your favorite food: Pizza (it’s so diverse)
Z - Zodiac sign: Pisces

I tag: Anyone who feels like sharing!

Title: In Need of Comfort - Pt. 2

Characters: Dean x Reader

Warning: Angst, Smut

Word Count: 800

A/N: Gif Blurb Mini Series that all start HERE. Technically this is all @chaos-and-the-calm67 and @thing-you-do-with-that-thing‘s  fault. You can blame them for what is coming once an evening for the next few days. I will be accepting gifs in my submit box (or whatever) of gifs you would like to see as a part of this series. They have to be gifs in which Dean is need in need of obvious comfort. That’s what this gif blurb series is about. Sorry there won’t be any tagging for this series, but it will be scheduled for 7-8 Central/Standard Time daily.

So without further ado… Enjoy.

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Two bits of blog business

Hello buddy pals, two brief things:

Switching to posts at ~6:30pm Central Standard Time

I tallied all the results from when I asked for opinions, and I’ll be switching to generally one-post-daily tomorrow. Based on the responses I got, 6:30pm CST is when they’ll go up. (If you don’t know what that is in local time, just google “Chicago Time” because that’s what it matches.)

(This doesn’t, of course, mean there will always be only one post, but at least one post.)

If you tagged me in a post in the past, like, month and a half, please message it to me

I did install xkit and I’m figuring it out, but the new issue is that my computer can’t handle a whole lot of, well, anything, much less scrolling through much of Tumblr, so I’ve missed basically all tags for a while.

Something that really bugs me is when… art is presented, especially in recent years, in the context of each other, despite being fairly incomparable. The best examples I have of this are of video games, especially indie games.

I don’t mean game devs talking about what games inspired them to make their own or the like; I mean the journalists, youtubers, and just fans who talk about video games as “this new game is like this old game ON DRUGS?!” which not only is a boring way of describing any type of art (saying that because of its creativity someone must have been on drugs), but often they are, as I said before, fairly incomparable. See: The Know’s report on Space Funeral, calling it an UNDERTALE on Acid. (Space Funeral precedes UNDERTALE by five years, to boot.) Or the people who claim, in the wake of MOTHER 4’s rebranding to remove the MOTHER elements, making it an independent game, will lose its charm and value, because it’s not “a” MOTHER game anymore.

I don’t know, I just don’t see why games have to exist within the context of each other. I don’t see why we need to have this centralized standard of what a game needs to be. I don’t see why we need to compare every weird, surreal RPG to UNDERTALE, no matter how detached from UNDERTALE it is, and the only thing they have in common being… well, an RPG. I don’t see why MOTHER 4 immediately loses any charm, and isn’t worth anyone’s time, the minute it’s not a MOTHER fangame anymore. The people behind these games put so much love, and work, and effort into it all. Holding them to weird and incomprehensible standards isn’t going to make a market of good games, it’s going to make a bunch of unsuccessful snowclones with a shaky grasp of what fans want.

Like, call me a hardass if you want, but just let games exist within their own context, with their own styles and your own experiences playing with them and having fun and enjoying them for what they are. They don’t have to be anything more than that– what they are.

~You Are All Cordial Invited~

To My “400 Followers Celebratory Ball”.

*Fancy music begins to play*

Ladies and Gentlemen, This Saturday, at 6:00.P.M. Central Standard Time, I shall be hosting a delightful Masquerade Ball for all my good Friends and Followers!

Dress is Formal, and please RSVP if you can with yours and your dates names, and join me for an extraordinary evening.

Also, a few “Special Friends” of mine might show up, but you’ll pay extra attention if you want to find them~

@skeletorific, @iloy-imagines, @sewbergamzee, @lollipoplover221, @skelltales, @socanonitsreal, @robindaspoopy, @elvanimagines, @undertale-imagine-that, @lets-have-a-mediocre-time, @letshavepunsoffun, @letshaveskeletonsoffun, @underthoughts, @echoimagines, @under-imagination,

Yours Truly,

-Mod Zoey

wolfiejinn  asked:

To the anon who was going through a rough time and wanted the depressed dice, if you need someone to talk to I'm available to talk to in the evenings Central Standard Time. My therapist actually has me avoiding the angst stories due to triggers for my depression and anxiety. I'd love to talk Stucky with you. We're a community!

That’s so sweet! We are a community and it’s great to reach out to others!

french-malagasy-central african

Hi! I’m a a malagasy/central african girl. My dad is central african a physically typical tall black man, and my mom is malagasy. She is very light skin and has long curly hair who goes under her back. I’m almost 20 and live in France (3h from Paris) and was born and raised there. French is my first and only language. I was raised in a mostly white community and I never had POC friends before second year of high school. 

Beauty standards: During my childhood, in my town (2000 inhabitants), I’m pretty sure we were the only black family. But even though most people were white, I never wanted to be one. Maybe because I’m light skin (my mother’s side). I used to think absolute beauty was to be mixed and have curly black hair. I also remember wasting time in the bathroom looking at the mirror trying to see how would I’d look if I had thinner lips (Not really proud of that).

Growing up, I started straightening my hair almost every day and was so envious of girls who had straight hair and could wake up in the morning not brushing their hair and still look good. My hair was and still is a big deal for me. On my mother’s side they mostly have straight hair so she’d always do our hair with simple hairstyles for straight haired people. We never knew exactly what to do with my hair : they weren’t too nappy nor straight enough to choose a suited hairstyle due to being mixed. And to this day she still does my hair.

Also every time I was in the same room of another black girl nobody could figure out who is who.

Culture: My parents divorced when I was little, and my mom made her best to impose her culture even before he left. So to be honest, I never felt central african. I don’t know their language nor could I recognise it. We only visit family from my mother’s side and went to Madagascar about four times for one time 10 months and the other times two months. Lucky for us, french is widely spoken there.I don’t speak malagasy. My mom said that when we were little we didn’t want to (which I think was really stupid). I only know some expression and words.

Our name sound very weird for non-malagasy. Like I have to repeat my name at least twice when I introduce myself. and I don’t even count the number of people who have mispronounced my name. 

At home we use a bunch of malagasy tools, I’m glad they exist, and other african styled objects.

Food : Malagasy food is based on rice. Every meal we eat has rice, we use rice flour. I knew it was “odd” when I went to a friend house and they would just eat vegetables. Or worse : pasta and vegatbles. At home, it was vegetable+rice (and meat) and other meals were for special occasion and pasta is always spaghetti bolognese or with carbonara sauce. Also goose is for family gathering and very special occasions.

Home/Family life/Friendships: Home was my favourite place to be because there I could be who I was without being judged. Where things made sense. Like I said earlier my friend were almost all white so I never in the “black community”. Moreover, they would always lowkey make fun of my culture so depending with who I was with I would always sort of repress my culture. My best friend told that I wasn’t like the other black people (she’s upper class white) and I didn’t realise how problematic what she said was. 

And my mom always says that french people are very racist so I must always on my best behaviour.

Speaking of behaviour, I’m very introverted, hate being late and pretty good at maths. My friend asked once if I did this to unfit the stereotype but I guess that’s just me?

Identity issues: I always felt french as share french pop culture references and media with most people here but of course I’ll always be seen as an foreigner in France. But at home I don’t really have any idea how do they do things. Like I discovered when I was ten that here they put their kitchen towel  in sort of wood bracelet like it was normal and necessary.

And  of  course the fact that we have no clue of what our dad culture is. We would always sort of hide the fact we’re central african like it was shameful.

religion : We’re christians protestants. The only big difference it made was when I went to a catholic church  it was always soo boring, but at the temple people were singing and debating it was way more fun. My mom had never wanted to pressure us into religion so we had the choice to be what we wanted to. But I’m still religious.

Things I’d like to see less of:

When people want to be as correct as possible so they write the most non stereotypical boring POC. 

 Things I’d like to see more of:

Author who focused their POC character on their personality because gender/race/sexuality isn’t one