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Blue. the sky, the ocean, all the world’s unexplored vastness. untouchable beauty and a powerful tide. her dress on the first night out, jumping into a lake at night. the sight of the entire universe before you. calm.

Green. the land, the growth, all that’s known. stability for the seas. the street light as you’re driving out of town. the feeling of grass beneath your feet in a new place. freedom to belong.

Yellow. the brightness of the sun, shining on. a new awakening.  a field of flowers after a wrong turn, a signal to slow down. a warning sign. cautionary happiness.

Orange. a fiery passion, an expansion. a phoenix, rising from ashes and becoming again. the sky after a long, never ending day. a vast canyon, reaching for miles. the neon vacancy sign welcomes you. hope.

Pink. a delicacy, the balance between power and reserve. the morning sky and a new beginning, every day. the lipstick that you borrowed from a friend and your beloved pet’s nose. love.

Gray. a looming sadness and a forlorn sky. the moments before the storm and the feelings after. a vibrancy and ethereal peace. the long, empty road reaching for miles. a world of possibility. risk.

It's impossible to go grocery shopping with any kind of emotional stability now that Civil War products are popping up everywhere.

I just want cereal, dammit. Not cereal that makes me pick a side depending on which way the box is facing. Oh, look! Civil War fruit snacks! Pick a flavor! Hey, there’s Cap on a can of soup, but Iron Man is giving him an evil look from the Mac and Cheese across the aisle…

Bucky’s backpack strap meta...

Okay, so there’s a lot of “Bucky is a muffin who clips his backpack chest strap” posts floating around. I’ve reblogged several myself, because there is an element of adorableness about it and at least for me, thinking about Bucky in terms of adorability keeps sorrow from utterly crushing my soul.

But.

Consider the reasons for sternum straps on backpacks:

- they stabilize the shoulder straps so the pack doesn’t shift during activity, ie, when Bucky’s running.

- they keep the shoulder straps in place for comfort. Bucky’s already dealing with a ton of pain emotionally and probably a lot of phantom limb pain and back pain from the mismatched weight of a heavy metal prosthetic arm. Additionally, who knows what sort of withdrawal he has gone through/is going through now that he’s away from HYDRA and whatever drugs they may have used on him. I… can’t really giggle any more about Bucky using something that will actually be helpful in keeping him comfortable.

- a sternum strap makes the backpack nearly impossible to remove from behind. Bucky’s obviously been living on the run, probably on the streets a lot of the time, and that strap means that no one can steal that backpack by pulling it off from behind, nor yank it down to use the shoulder straps to restrain his arms.

Buckling that sternum strap is a matter of survival.

Also… just to add some more heartbreak, consider these two shots:

Notice that the strap on his backpack mimics the sternum strap of his Skorpion machine pistol holster. The sternum strap on his backpack might be a little too high, and he really needs an additional hip belt to fully distribute the weight of the pack from his shoulders/back to his hips, but he’s probably not in a position to make sure he has a perfectly fitted backpack. It’s my headcanon is that he picked it up in a dumpster or at a Goodwill store or somewhere. At any rate, back to the photos: he has sternum straps in both instances. I’m no expert on PTSD, but seeing that backpack sternum strap makes me wonder if there’s more going on here than just practicality in securing his pack or holster. What if there’s also some sort of twisted feeling of security in feeling that strap across his chest, because as Winter Soldier, feeling the tension and weight of the strap and the gun between his shoulder blades assured him he had yet another weapon to rely on in his arsenal? We don’t know what Bucky keeps in the backpack–maybe a gun, maybe his knives, maybe just food and a sap made from some washers stuffed in a sock. All we really know is that whatever he’s got in there, he doesn’t want to lose it.

Given how much he has lost already, who can blame him.

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i hate unsolicited critique blogs especially when all they do is give negative crits as well as bias ones like your not helping someone by just telling them whats wrong with it, you have to give positive feedback too…also i saw a blog say on a pic of someone i know “why does this have so many notes the lines are all broken and shaky use a stabilizer” like not having crisp clean lines makes the picture bad and ugly like………can you go mind your own business or what 

-Ever since your last suicide attempt, you are made of pills. Prozac in the morning , mood stabilizers at night.
-Getting manic and destructive but swearing that you are chill. Death on your mind, it’ll be alright.
-Who am I? is an everyday question for you, but the answer is never really clear.
-Ruining yourself over when they’ll leave, instead of appreciating them while they are here.
-casual morbidity slipped into conversations, God is dead; Death is near.
-I love you oh my god. Oh my god I fucking love you.
-What the fuck I hate you. How could you do that?
-Self destructive and unproductive. My body is a battleground
-They’ll all leave, I’m not good enough to be around
-Passionate or crazy?
-Depressed or fucking lazy?
-Borderline insane, but borderline okay, I’ve given up trying, waiting for my body to finish dying.
—  Borderline Personality Disaster

It’s easy to criticize Christians of the past for failing to follow Jesus in the midst of history’s darkest moments, but today’s Christians will also be judged according to their actions. Here are four monumental moral questions future generations will evaluate modern Westernized Christianity on:

In the midst of a historically horrible refugee crisis, why didn’t you actively pursue helping the poor, the destitute, and those in desperate need?

Are followers of Jesus supposed to forsake compassion, sacrificial hospitality, and love in favor of a political policy, national security, financial stability, and personal comfort? God is perfectly clear what the mandate is for helping those in need, and yet Christians continue to remain apathetic, passive, and even aggressively hostile to the notion of aiding such victims.

Additionally, how could you promote a gospel of hope, peace, joy, and love while simultaneously supporting restrictive policies preventing people from possibly obtaining these exact things by denying them entrance into a safe space, while also punitively deporting others back into circumstances of poverty and violence?

Why didn’t you recognize and fight systemic racism and inequality?

For a faith that promotes the virtues of justice, equality, and fairness—especially for those that are ostracized and mistreated—why didn’t you help the victims of systemic racism, abuse, and oppression?

How could you ignore—or even criticize—a large segment of humanity that’s being victimized by authorities, institutionally incarcerated, professionally repressed, governmentally mistreated, educationally stifled, financially subjugated, and socially rejected?

Massive abuse on an epic scale was being systemically waged against people simply based on their race and gender, and what did you do? You had a chance to be on the forefront of a civil rights movement—fueled by a righteous and holy God who despises corruption, unjust scales, exploitation, bigotry, and racism. Why didn’t you desperately and passionately call upon God in such times, why didn’t you publically condemn such evil, and why didn’t you act to right such blatant wrongs?

Why were you so supportive of national agendas associated with violence, destruction, and death?

Since you represent a God that died for humanity, how could you actively participate in national agendas that so actively killed humanity? You destroyed hundreds of thousands of lives through militaristic actions and wars that offered little peace, resolution, or stability.

You watched—and even turned a blind eye—as your governments violently intervened throughout the world and selfishly, fearfully, and hatefully supplied weapons, technology, and the means to miserably end hundreds of thousands of lives and create humanitarian tragedies across the globe on an unparalleled scale.

What moral gain was won? What vital need necessitated such outrageous and rampant death? Church, Christians living in the year 2016, please answer these questions and explain yourselves.

Why did you crave martial, economic, and political power when God has already warned you against putting faith in such foolish and temporary things?

Do you not trust in God’s sovereignty that you must devote all of your time, energy, and resources into supporting a candidate, a political party, and making sure you’re pursuing more wealth, fortune, protection, and influence?

You boasted of a countercultural gospel and yet fell into the same pitfalls of countless civilizations before you: a desire for carnal power, personal safety, comfort, luxury, fame, and wealth.

You divisively judged, shamed, alienated, hurt, slandered, and attacked others under the banner of “Christian morals,” all in an effort to gain additional political clout and control.

Have you lost so must faith in God’s promises that you’ve abandoned the ways of Jesus for the ways of a worldly empire? Are you ashamed of identifying with a Divine God who died on a cross so much that you would rather align yourselves with the oppressors themselves?

The good news is that these questions are still in the process of being answered, and God can still be greatly glorified by how we serve the world around us. By focusing on Christ and refusing to become co-opted by ulterior motives, modern Christianity can leave a mark on history that will show what millions of believers can do together in the name of Jesus—helping, serving, protecting, and loving everyone!

Our world isn’t without hope because Jesus is alive, and the Holy Spirit can empower us to be the change we’re so desperately in need of.

anonymous asked:

I think honestly normie chose career over finding love. It is not that he's given up but his track record is pretty shoddy and no one is to blame. I think the last two gals were tough cuz they were long distance. His TV work I think is more valuable to him brings him fame and money and stability for him to retire, do art, do projects. And if needs nookie I do think he does have fwbs. Nothing wrong as long as all parties understand.

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confessional

1. I AM STILL IN LOVE WITH ALL OF MY EXES. I OFTEN WONDER HOW IT IS POSSIBLE TO BREAK SOMETHING THAT WAS NEVER COMPLETE TO BEGIN WITH ANYWAYS.

2. THE OTHER DAY A WOMAN ON THE SUBWAY WAS READING A BOOK CALLED, “THE OPPOSITE OF LONELINESS” SO I STARTED CRYING. I COULDN’T TELL IF I WAS MORE TOUCHED BY THE TITLE OR HER HONESTY.

3. WHY ARE THERE SO MANY MOVIES ABOUT THE END OF THE WORLD? THIS HABIT WE HAVE DEVELOPED FOR AESTHETICIZING ARMAGEDDON INSTEAD OF STOPPING IT (HINT: WATCH THE NEWS INSTEAD)

4. I AM TOO CYNICAL TO HAVE A THERAPIST. I AM TOO JEALOUS TO HAVE CLOSURE. I AM TOO STUBBORN TO GROW UP. I AM TOO ANXIOUS TO HAVE STABILITY. I AM TOO JADED TO BELIEVE IN SOMETHING ELSE.

5. I WISH I COULD “LOVE MYSELF” OUT OF SYSTEMIC OPPRESSION. TRAUMA IS A STRUCTURE, NOT A FEELING.

6. HOW MANY BIG WORDS HAVE WE DEVELOPED TO KEEP US FROM SAYING “I AM SCARED.”

7. I HAVE WRITTEN THE SAME POEM MY ENTIRE LIFE. IT BEGINS WITH “BODY” AND IT ENDS WITH “I’M SORRY.”

8. WHICH CAME FIRST: THE ‘BOY’ OR ‘THE POEM ABOUT THE BOY?’ ‘LOVE,’ OR, THE IDEA OF IT?

9. I WRITE THEORY TO MAKE MY FEELINGS SEEM MORE LEGITIMATE.

10. I DO NOT BELIEVE WE WILL WIN. I DO NOT BELIEVE HOPE SHOULD BE A PREREQUISITE FOR TRYING ANYWAYS.

I feel like Justin hasn’t been happy in a long time……… And that makes me sad 😔 because regardless of everything that has happend he Is a great guy and wonderful human being and deserves all the love and happiness in the world

I feel like he has been to busy trying to make others happy he forgot about himself…….. I think he has lost so much of the years……. The love of his life, his mom, parts of his family, friends hell how many times people have probably fucked him over and used him………. And I’m so scared we r heading right for 2013/2014 again and it scares the shit out of me that he could have a mental break or something. I think he needs stability back in his life whether it be his mom, old friends or even Selena, because I’ve realized scooter can only do so much

how do you explain to people that you’re actually not interested in recovery for certain aspects of your mental illnesses without getting shit for it

i can’t imagine not being the way i am re: schizophrenia… but on the other hand, i most definitely want stability with regard to my mood episodes

treatment for bipolar-type schizoaffective consists of medication meant to target both the schizophrenia and bipolar in one shot; you have latuda and abilify, for example, which are prescribed to both bipolar people and schizophrenics. this is why treatment is not that different between these groups and why treatment for schizoaffective disorder is similar, if not the same

it’s difficult to voice this concern because of that: because bipolar disorder and schizophrenia are very much related to one another in terms of brain chemistry (if i remember correctly), prescription medication always targets both in the schizoaffective patient

i don’t want to lose my way of thinking because i’ve been thinking and behaving like this for years, going unnoticed because i didn’t see it as part of my mental illnesses until i got hospitalized. it’s terrifying to imagine a world very unlike my own–the neurotypical world. i don’t envy non-schizophrenic people for this reason. i have gifts which are inextricably connected to schizophrenia and i don’t want to lose them because a life without them is completely unfathomable

so… i do want to get better, i really do, especially when i experience psychosis in the context of a mood episode which makes the psychosis extremely dangerous and life-threatening. but i would never want to not be schizophrenic. take the bipolar as far away from me as possible, though

Now it seems that all our lives are precarious – even when, for the moment, our pockets are lined. In contrast to the mid-twentieth century, when poets and philosophers of the global north felt caged by too much stability, now many of us, north and south, confront the condition of trouble without end.
—  Anna Lowenhaupt Tsing, The Mushroom at the End of the World

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anonymous asked:

I have NEVER witnessed a situation where an incestuous relationship was stable psychologically. This is coming from: a.) online research and collective data provided by the Public-Med; b.) surveyed information from known people. c.) actual people I've met in private interviews who've committed incest; d.) my own experiences with someone I know at acquaintance level or personal level. Sure, they may say they're perfectly fine, but the results come back positive for mental vulnerability. -Ashlyn

It could be because of how you’ve found them. The simple fact is, most of the people who are CONSENSUALLY involved keep quiet about it. Some psychologists or police officers will say something like what you said, but who is going to call a cop or a shrink and tell them, “Hey, I just wanted to tell you that I’m in love with my brother and  everything is great!” Those professionals encounter people who are having trouble.

There would be a lot more stability if there wasn’t prejudice, especially enshrined in law, against such relationships and the people in them.

Rather than repeat myself more, I’ll direct people here: http://marriage-equality.blogspot.com/2014/10/not-good-reason-to-deny-consanguineous.html