It feels like when its only with her as my partner that I start to feel like a person. That I don’t feel like a mindless drone. I don’t feel like have to pretend or act to have this connection.. and maybe its just her–she might be a glorious actress who has me toiling around thinking that we are having a moment.. and not.. another line in some pre-thought up script.
“Now you’re looking for the secret. But you won’t find it, of course, you’re not really looking. You don’t really want to work it out. You want to be fooled.”
It starts with a tragedy. You lose everything, you hit rock bottom, you’re alone and you have nothing to speak for and nothing to lose. That’s when Red Debt finds you, and you realize you have an opportunity. A new life. You have meaning again. So who are you to say no?
How could you have possibly known you were signing up for an all-out war?
We didn’t force you into this life. We didn’t blackmail you or threaten you. You chose this life and now you have the reddest of debts.
Red Debt isn’t just a roleplay, it’s an experience. You know only as much as your character knows, you’re sent on missions you don’t know the outcome of, and you’re the ones that control your character’s fate and the outcome of the roleplay. You have to find the killers, you have to decide what orders to follow, and you choose who you trust.
When the snow starts it brings upon a different man. The holidays reminds him of the love he has for the only one. Maybe its something about his childhood, the way his parents would look at one another and smiled with love.
It’s hard to realize what you have until it is gone. The warm nights.. the shared breaths and smiles. I didn’t know what love was until she was gone. I didn’t realize how happy she could make me until it was wiped from my life. I don’t want to leave my bed. I don’t want to eat.. I try to smell her scent in my pillows.. I hardly want to work and sleep doesn’t happen most nights.