Death is on your heels, baby, and sooner or later it’s gonna catch you. And part of you wants it… not only to stop the fear and uncertainty, but because you’re just a little bit in love with it. Death is your art. You make it with your hands, day after day. That final gasp. That look of peace. Part of you is desperate to know, what’s it like? Where does it lead you? And now you see, that’s the secret. Not the punch you didn’t throw or the kicks you didn’t land. She merely wanted it. Every Slayer… has a death wish. Even you.
This little line melts my heart…I didn’t even realize until the second time through the series that she was talking about Buffy. Can you imagine what is going through Spike’s mind? He is probably like “who and what is she talking about?” It could be anything. I am sure he wants it to be Buffy saying he loves him, but he knows that she would never say that to him; hence, the look of confusion on his face. It is so sweet because it shows us just how far back Buffy’s love for Spike goes.