learn to live right
To call Neil ‘stoic’ is such an understatement as to almost be funny.
Then again, how applicable it is to someone like him - who has never been allowed to slow down for anything, including pain, and never had the opportunity for anything else - is debatable. He isn’t like Andrew, whose feelings are dulled grey anyway by the complicated chemistry of his brain. He was just never taught the intricacies of it, or maybe instead taught the intricacies of acting rather than the simplicity of emotion.
The thing is - Neil can learn. He’s been studying since he crash landed in Fox Tower, even if he didn’t realise that’s what he was doing. Laughing at a joke from Nicky, smiling at Andrew in the cool autumn afternoon, affection towards Matt and Dan in the guise of a hug or a warm greeting in the morning - they’re all things he’s learned.
It’s a hill he’s been rolling down, and with the momentum he’s been building - his mouth to Andrew’s, the light in his expression sometimes, his devotion - it’s only so long before he collides with something that hurts.
No one can run from anything forever.