spring shopping,

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.

the one who made it out - a playlist highlighting the talents of women of color in musical theatre

aquarius - hair // america - west side story // waiting for life - once on this island // breathe - in the heights // i speak six languages - the 25th annual putnam county spelling bee // prologue / little shop of horrors - little shop of horrors // that’s rich - newsies // we ain’t no cheerleaders - bring it on // eleven days - here lies love // helpless - hamilton // satisfied - hamilton // 911! emergency - bare: a pop opera // we’re okay - rent // the dark i know well - spring awakening // learn your lessons well - godspell // simple joys - pippin // the witch - big fish // i wonder where our love has gone - lady day at emerson’s bare and grill // sal tlay ka siti - the book of mormon // something wonderful - the king and i // i loves you, porgy - porgy and bess // it won’t be long now - in the heights // out tonight - rent // letterbomb - american idiot // the party goes with you - 35mm: a musical exhibition // i got four kids - caroline or change // where you are - kiss of the spider woman // by my side - godspell // your daddy’s son - ragtime // colored woman - memphis //

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