spreading a plague of love

I try to expand
explode my mind
to canvass all that I can.

I try to explore
seeking deep and new truths
and bring them back
for all of you,

but ignorance is a balloon
crowding me out
of my own room
infringing upon
the brilliance I spawned.
Till, breaths become yawns,
and then I am gone.

The earth becomes flat.
Evolution ends now.
Truths become lies
and lies become alternative facts.

Till I take my last gasp
and my chest collapses
with the agony
of being me,

The balloon does not burst,
but hurts worse
as it spreads like a plague,
plans to invade,
conquers the day,
making love and peace
flee before thee,
and celebrating the bombing
of too many cities.

Death tolls do not close
like bad polls
they grow
till no one knows
what truth even sounds like
and I become
the last man alive
in a zombie flick.















“If you cut yourself, you are not emulating me, because I stopped.

If you commit suicide, you are not emulating me, because I failed

If you care for yourself and LIVE, you are emulating me, because that is what I am doing now.”

A beautiful message from EA. <3 

Feel free to reblog, add your thoughts & spread the plague love. ;)

I think this was her way of saying dont blame me. Bcuz she medicates and her music is her new way of coping with her pain. And shes encouraging others to find better ways to survive besides cutting and suicide. Its beautiful bcuz she replaced painful remedies to problems like cutting and suicide with other methods like her music, medication, and friends and new family the plague rats. I hope others can find the strength through their own passion like art, music dance or anything else to heal or survive in better ways like emilie has

Ditto all the way!

I guess, from the beginning, Emilie’s message has always been: I survived. I’m a survivor. And if she can, then so the hell can I. <3 xx

For anyone I know that ever gave Emilie hate, or questioned why I’m so obsessed. Hello, here’s your reason. I had my dark times, and better than anyone else her music and beliefs was my light and my way out.

Thank you for sharing that! She was my light too. She’s been a great help to many people! 

A must read for the idiots who believe she romanticizes mental illness.

^ THIS. 

I need to find an outlet that I am passionate about, like she has, to survive this disease. Which is hard because I have no motivation. I need creativity!!!! Fuck.

I hope you find this outlet you need! For me, anything artsy works: playing piano, writing, drawing (even though I suck at those three lol). But, hey, if you ever need anything, feel free to message me. I’m a good listener, and I will do anything in my power to help. 

Yeah, I actually really like her. Yeah she says and does a lot of things I don’t agree with, but she’s still pretty cool

I know what you mean… There is a lot I don’t agree with as well, but I remember even she herself said in an interview that it’s not healthy to agree with everything one says… Still, she is someone I admire very much. :3 

1. The forest, she swallows.

2. The Sea gives back what the Machinery doesn’t.

3. A young man without a father’s guidance is like a crow with a corpse: madly in love and twice as angry.

4. Three eyes in the washbasin keep the taxman at bay, seven ward off the princes of air, and one will invite the witch’s tooth.

5. The earth burns when the sky does not.

6. Emerald blood is not worth the attention of the metal figures in the pillar forest.

7. Breathe until the sand fills your lungs, then become a mountain.

8. Love is like a plague: spread by wine, ending in fire.

9. Small cuts do more than a thousand Harvest gods

10. Paint an unstrung mandolin black and fill with rock salt; only then will your children know lightning.

—  Observations from The deck of a sinking Realization

Am I the only Emilie Autumn fan that’s seriously freaking excited for FLAG?

Some days I feel like I’m the only Plague Rat that doesn’t have some weird problem with her.

I keep seeing blogs of people complaining about how she’s completely changing her style, or she’s selling out, or how Enchant was better, or that her show is too sexual, or that she’s lying about this, that, and the other.

I’ve got news for you: Emilie Autumn is human.

She grows, she changes, she makes mistakes, sometimes she can’t finish all her projects, and sometimes there’s things she can’t tell you, or there are reasons for the things that she does that she can’t speak about. She’s also busy, very busy.

Of course her style is going to change, do you wear the same exact clothes for 10+ years? I hear people going on about how ‘oh well I don’t like ea because she’s all sparkly and pink now.’ Seriously? If you really paid attention you’d notice that she only wears the sparkly pink outfit for like 1/3 of the show. She does costume changes into the grey rat outfit and the white 'opheliac’ outfit through the show. She also tends to wear it for magazine shoots. Its honestly not that important. Given, I do like the early Opheliac era costume more, I’m not going to complain at her for her costume choices.

The same goes for her music, and stage show changes. People are complaining that her show is too sexual, and that its more about the sex than the asylum. If you pay attention to her interviews she gives her reasons about why she chose to do this. When she first started out, her crumpets and her show didn’t really have a script, it was random. Given there’s still room for improv but she found a formula and a set of characters that best conveyed the message she’s trying to get across. Dozens of times she’s stated that she is a parody, a satire, and her show is a burlesque. Go look up the original meaning of that word.

And as far as the “lying” thing goes, she is an entertainer. Since we don’t know EA personally, you never know what is the character and what is the person. She’s often said that her onstage persona is what the 'inner EA’ is. And often, in the music business there are things you can’t do, and you can’t say because of the sort of microscope you’re under. Or due to contracts and the like. I seriously doubt that EA would specifically schedule an 18+ show just to get at her young plague rats. Its most likely the venues have to mark certain shows as 18+ just because of the nature of the performance. Each venue and each state/country has its own laws on this subject, and we can’t expect EA to be able to have complete control given the variability of that.

As much as we love her, as much as she loves her fans, and as big as this community feels, it really isn’t. Most people don’t even know who EA is. So there’s only so much she can do and get away with. We’re lucky to even have shows here at all. If she were with a bigger record label, or had millions of fans then things would be different.

Also, I think people tend to not realize when EA is being sarcastic. If you watch, she tends to do this a lot. Like in interviews she’ll say “And I’m not wearing makeup, we don’t believe in makeup in the asylum.” while being completely covered in eyeliner and glitter. That’s humor folks, learn how to recognize it.

A lot of times I see people being downright cruel to EA. From throwing a fit when she doesn’t hug them first at a meet and greet, to being impatient or ungrateful when she takes time out of her day to say hi or reply to tweets, or even becoming offended that she didn’t post that link or that song at the very second she said she would.

And yes, I’m aware that EA makes a lot of promises, and often it takes a long time for her to follow through with them, but she always comes through eventually. There’s only so much EA and her small team of tech rats and the like can accomplish. We have no idea how many things she’s working on right now.

Reblog, or at least like this if you accept that EA is a human being who can only do so much. She is fallible, and sometimes she makes mistakes. She also has feelings that can be hurt, and often are by the people who are supposed to be her fans. Sometimes I may not agree with her, but I will always, always support her as a fan. I accept that things are not always what they seem.

Plague Rat Forever.


For all of you still going on about how I’m an evil bully against EA and the Crumpets.

I’ve started two months with a psychward stay. Right now I’m waiting to get transfered to a better hospital, but I’m at the closest because I had to drink some charcol and sleep for a full day.

It’s not the only reason, but it’s a big one. EACArcives is staying up.


Happy early book birthday to three books coming out this week! I’m definitely looking forward to reading Shadowshaper, which looks like ten kinds of amazing. What’s on your to-read list?

Storm (Paper Gods #3) by Amanda Sun

After almost a year in Japan, Katie Greene has finally unearthed the terrible secret behind her boyfriend Tomohiro’s deadly ability to bring drawings to life—not only is he descended from Kami, the ancient Japanese gods, but he is the heir to a tragedy that occurred long ago, a tragedy that is about to repeat.

Even as the blood of a vengeful god rages inside Tomo, Katie is determined to put his dark powers to sleep. In order to do so, she and Tomo must journey to find the three Imperial Treasures of Japan. Gifts from the goddess Amaterasu herself, these treasures could unlock all of the secrets about Tomo’s volatile ancestry and quell the ink’s lust for destruction. But in order to complete their quest, Tomo and Katie must confront out-of-control Kami and former friend Jun, who has begun his own quest of revenge against those he believes have wronged him. To save the world, and themselves, Katie and Tomo will be up against one of the darkest Kami creations they’ve ever encountered—and they may not make it out alive. [Image and summary via Goodreads]

Shadowshaper by Daniel José Older

Sierra Santiago was looking forward to a fun summer of making art, hanging out with her friends, and skating around Brooklyn. But then a weird zombie guy crashes the first party of the season. Sierra’s near-comatose abuelo begins to say “No importa” over and over. And when the graffiti murals in Bed-Stuy start to weep…. Well, something stranger than the usual New York mayhem is going on.

Sierra soon discovers a supernatural order called the Shadowshapers, who connect with spirits via paintings, music, and stories. Her grandfather once shared the order’s secrets with an anthropologist, Dr. Jonathan Wick, who turned the Caribbean magic to his own foul ends. Now Wick wants to become the ultimate Shadowshaper by killing all the others, one by one. With the help of her friends and the hot graffiti artist Robbie, Sierra must dodge Wick’s supernatural creations, harness her own Shadowshaping abilities, and save her family’s past, present, and future. [Image and summary via Goodreads]

Frail Mortal Heart by Zoë Marriott

In the thrilling final installment of Zoë Marriott’s epic, Japanese-inspired urban fantasy trilogy, Mio has succeeded in banishing the Goddess of Death’s plague-spreading monsters – by making the most terrible sacrifice. Now Mio’s love Shinobu is lost forever, the Goddess is rising from the underworld, and hell is literally breaking loose in London.

To save the city from the catastrophic war between gods, Mio must journey into the perilous dream realm to learn the final secret of the katana’s origins, and its true powers. With secrets from her own family’s past emerging, and more impossible choices to be made, she will need every bit of help available from her remaining friends and her allies in the Kitsune Kingdom just to escape her quest alive. Because in the end, the only thing standing between the human world and the apocalypse… is Mio. And her sword. [Image and summary via Goodreads]