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She felt him stir as he propped himself up, off her lap and the floor. Her eyes flew open in panic as she feared the worst.
Instead, he chuckled, planting a kiss on her forehead before gathering her up into his arms.
“In this moment; right here, right now, do you think we are uncertain?”
It all still felt so surreal, to say the least. In many ways, she still felt inadequate to him. His sisters were right. Everyone was right - she didn’t deserve him. She didn’t deserve his affection, his thoughtfulness.
When she didn’t respond right away, he followed it up with another. “Do you believe we could spontaneously combust tomorrow?”
A smile tugged at the corner of her lips. Leave it to him to introduce humour into the situation. “Highly unlikely,” she responded.
“What about fate - do you believe in fate?”
“Do you believe everything happens for a reason?”
“Where are you going with this line of questioning?” Despite herself, she smiled.
was out 15 minutes away pet sitting some huskies and it’s closer to my horse and I just decided spontaneously to go riding . went to get supper at BK and - bad construction there - but got out and ate on the road and went riding! even tho it was 90 degrees and I was wearing shorts. not too bad. she listened in the ring– got kinda crazy out of the ring- went around the soybean field we never went before- a little naughty–turned around the ‘scary corner’ and she got better- trotted some way back in the dusk, faint glow of sunset, cool breeze
EXO reaction to their girlfriend being in pain (tired) after working too hard
~ 사랑해 <3 Chas
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Yeol: “Arcade date? What a great idea! And while we are walking there, I can play Pokemon Go while enjoying your beautiful company.”
You: “I didn’t-”
Yeol: “Shhhhh….Arcade date.”
*You come home and face plant the couch with a groan. Your hands rubbing your lower back*
Fan: *Walks in from the shower and is glad to see that your home but upset at the fact that you’ve been working too much overtime and knows that you must be in pain and extremely tired* “Hey baby. Let me get those knots out for you okay?”
*Personal Male masseuse who is also sexy?! You’re definitely down for that right?*
*You walk in to see Sehun cleaning up the kitchen*
You: “Uh…babe? What ya up to?”
Hun: “Just cleaning to help you out around the house. Just clean up and go to sleep. You need it.”
*You back hug him and he turns around and places kiss to your forehead before you left to take a shower and get a goodnight’s rest…finally*
*Worried since you’ve been spending more time at work recently and decided to pamper you when you got home*
Tao: “Come here babe and let’s watch a movie. Just one okay?” *You slowly walks over and snuggles all up in his side and you immediately fall asleep like he knew you would. He leaned down and placed a kiss to your cheek while continuing to watch the movie.*
Nini: “My children needs to go on a walk. Wanna go with me? We can stop by Han River and just talk. Sounds good?”
You: “I love you so much Nini.”
*You come in after a LONG day of work and Minseok was quick to pick you up and take you to the couch and put on your favorite show from Netflix and a box of pizza and soda on the coffee table*
Minnie: “Movie night okay? Forget about all of your troubles because your with me and your favorite show.”
You: “I really needed this.” *Grabs a slice of pizza and starts eating your worries away*
Baek: “You look like you could use a break.”
You: “I NEED a break.”
Baek: “That’s why I got manager to let you go with us on tour. How about that?”
You: “OH MY GOD! I love you. I need to thank Manager when I see him!”
*Luhan was immediately coming to you when he seen the tired expression on your face. He was proud that you were working hard but upset that you’ve been working too hard*
Han: “Let me get your things while you go take a shower and go to sleep okay?”
You: “I love you.”
Dae: “Guess what? I got you two weeks off.”
You: “WHAT?!?! Do you have any idea how much work I have to do? And what are we going to do during those two weeks?”
Dae: “I planned a trip to Paris. Start packing up because we leave tomorrow morning!”
*Spontaneous trip anyone??*
Soo: “We are going to go to a dinner date and have an amazing night and I will take you with me to watch our practice and the go to Barbecue with all of us and have a good time.”
You: “Sounds like a plan.”
*Comes and visits you at work to make sure you’re eating well (brings you food) and makes sure you’re not overworking yourself like last time your job got busy. He doesn’t want you to make the same mistake again*
Xing: *Walks into your small office* “I brought your favorite babe!”
*Okay, let’s be real here. Junmyeon is watching 8 kids and you’re working your ass off to complete your work. You’re both working hard and is tired by the end of the day. So, the boys books a surprise trip for just the two of you. Sweet guys aren’t they?*
Colors blind the eye.
Sounds deafen the ear.
Flavors numb the taste.
Thoughts weaken the mind.
Desires wither the heart.
The Master observes the world
but trusts his inner vision.
He allows things to come and go.
His heart is open as the sky.
Lao Tzu - (Tao Te Ching, chapter 12, translation by Stephen Mitchell)
Yesterday’s chapter was a whole lot of nothing. Today, Lao Tzu
counters that with the dangers of excess. If we want to avoid the
dangers of excess, we need to learn how to trust our inner vision. It
always keeps things in balance.
He begins by talking about the finite and temporal reality we
perceive with our senses. Colors dazzle our eyes. But, you can have
too much of a good thing. Those same colors can blind us to the
infinite and eternal reality. Sounds, too, in excess will deafen our
ears. You can even over-do flavors, and numb your sense of taste.
We talked, a couple of chapters ago, about the importance of
reining our minds, so prone to wandering, in. Lao Tzu asked, “Can
you coax your mind from its wandering and keep to the original
oneness?” Too many thoughts, weaken the mind. We need to realize
when it is time to coax it back from its wandering.
Desires, the problem we have been talking about all along, wither
our hearts. “I want, I want, I want.” We postpone contentment,
when it could be ours today.
This is what it is like being a captive in a finite and temporal
reality. It is a limited and limiting reality. Only what we can
perceive with our senses, and nothing more. Try to take these to some
extreme, and you only prove just how finite and temporal this reality
How do we escape this prison? How do we tap into the infinite and
eternal reality, which Lao Tzu insists is right there, always
present, inside each of us? Wise and virtuous persons observe the
finite and temporal world around themselves. But they don’t limit
themselves to that reality. They trust their inner vision.
Lao Tzu talked about our inner vision a couple of chapters ago, as
well. He asked, “Can you cleanse your inner vision until you see
nothing but the light?” Now, I am going to be so bold as to suggest
that Lao Tzu wasn’t setting us up for failure. He didn’t ask if I
could coax my mind back from its wandering, or cleanse my inner
vision until I see nothing but the light, knowing I most certainly
cannot. We have the infinite and eternal reality always present
inside of us. It is hidden in the core of our being. And, we can
access it, and use it, in anyway we want.
So, how do we do that? How do we tap into it? Because this sounds
really hard. But Lao Tzu will still insist it is easy. Only we, make
So, here is the key. Are you ready?
Let it happen. Don’t try to make it happen. Let it happen. Allow
things to come and go. Don’t resist them when they come. Don’t reach
for them before they arrive. And, don’t try to cling to them when
they leave. Open your heart. What does that mean? Desires have been
withering it. But like the petals of a flower, we need to let it open
up again. How? By letting go of desires. Open up your heart, until it
is as open as the sky.
How open is the sky? I got a message from one of my followers,
after my commentary on yesterday’s chapter. He apparently does a lot
of flying in airplanes, and talked to me about the emptiness he sees
when he looks out a plane’s window. The sky is so empty that it can
be filled with thousands of planes, in-flight, every day. That is a
whole lot of emptiness which can be filled. Open your heart like
that. You will be amazed how much your heart can be filled, with
still room to spare.
By not resisting, and welcoming all things, you access the
infinite and eternal inside of you. You can trust your inner vision.
It will show you the Way, intuitively and spontaneously.
Tomorrow, we will see that our ideas of what constitutes success
and failure are equally dangerous. And, we will discover that hope
and fear are equally hollow. We will be challenged to look at self in
a whole new way. And when we do, we will experience the infinite and
eternal reality within ourselves.
“Tony, is there something you’d like to tell me? I checked my schedule this morning and by some untraceable, unknown way, my meeting for eight a.m. tomorrow, was spontaneously canceled. The only other person besides myself to have done this, would be you. Or am I wrong?”
“A plant is not thinking: Tomorrow I will put a new leaf to the north and then next week when it rains I will grow a meter taller. Its existence is just unfolding out of itself spontaneously…We cannot breathe tomorrows breath today. Therefore, knowing this, leave your existence to existence and start enjoying your cosmic play. Best of all, don’t try to be anything at all. This is a secret few recognize.“ - Mooji