He didn’t know how to feel. You were like Tris, but different. What he did know, was that he needed you; there and then. And for once, he didn’t imagine it was Tris he was talking to, he saw you, and only you…
Imagine: Being in love with Four, and
comforting him after Tris’ death.
life you’ve lived outside the fence, watching the lives of members of the
factions in Chicago. At age 15, you joined your parents as a worker in the
control room of the Bureau, one person in particular caught your eye during
your shifts. Your heart hurt at the sight of poor little Tobias Eaton being
beaten by his father in his home in Abnegation. You watched the change happen
in Tobias over the one and half years before he transferred, it almost seems
that he was preparing himself to transfer. You were surprised when he had
chosen Dauntless, however this made you even more attracted to him, you had
never met this guy, but you watched his life, you watched him go from Tobias, a
timid, beaten, Abnegation boy, to Four, a strong man, who was one of the most
courageous people you’d ever seen. In all honesty, you had fallen in love with
Tobias, and you had fallen hard. So hard, that you were completely heartbroken
when you had to watch him and Tris share their first kiss, when you had to
watch him fall in love with another girl.
Now he stood
in front of you, alongside Tris, Christina, Peter, and a few others, and you
didn’t know whether to feel excited that he was here, in front of you, or to be
jealous that he was here with Tris.
course of a few months, you and Tobias became close friends, since you already
knew him so well, he wasn’t afraid to open up to you. Tris clearly didn’t like
that you spent time with her boyfriend, but you could see how much they loved
each other, you never had the intention of getting between the two of them.
Sometimes it really hurt seeing them together, but you were happy because
Tobias was happy.
death of Uriah, Tobias had gone back inside the fence, along with Peter, in
order to execute some sort of plan with his mother and father. Here, Caleb was
supposed to go into the weapons lab, however, Tris decided to go in his place. Tris
survived the death serum, but was shot my David. Once Tobias came back, he was
A year has
passed since Tris’ death. Tobias decided to continue living outside the fence
with frequent visits inside. You currently sit with him on the balcony of your
apartment. A month ago you and Tobias had shared your first kiss on this
balcony, you were madly in love with Tobias, and he really did like you, but he
obviously still had a large place in his heart for Tris, and no matter how much
he wanted to be with you, he couldn’t help but feel guilty. Though she was
gone, he still felt like he was betraying her.
You take his
hand and both of you just stare off into the distance, watching the sunset for
a while; it is actually quite peaceful, you finally decided to break the
silence, “You thinking about her?”
not,” He lies, you sigh.
know you still miss her, you don’t need to lie to me.”
Y/N, but I really can’t stop thinking about her,” He looks down, unable to make
eye contact with you.
Tobias. I want you to know that I’m still the same Y/N that I was when you
first came here, you can still open up to me and talk to me. I know you miss
her Tobias, I know that you’ll always have a special place in your heart for
Tris, I understand that,” He still refuses to look at you and you sigh, “I also
know that I will never be Tris, but
that doesn’t mean that I don’t love
you. This is something that I didn’t tell you. The first time I saw you were
when you were 15, I instantly wanted to get to know you better, and at some
point within the time that I started working to the time that you transferred,
I fell in love with you. I’ve been in love with you for the past three and a
looks up to you, “W-what, I know you had feelings for me, but I never thought
they were that deep?”
“I know I
sound dumb, but I really love and care about you, all that I ever want is for
you to be happy. I know Tris is gone, and I know that you’ll never forget her,
but would she too have wanted you to move on? How do you think she would feel
seeing you mope around like this? Even if I’m not the one that you make you the
happiest, I don’t care if moving on means being with someone else. I love you
Tobias, and that means that I want you to be happy.” Tobias instantly leans in
and kisses you passionately.
“I love you
to Y/N, and I want to be with you, I just need a little more time,” You move
closer to him and he wraps his arms around you.
Toby, I know, and I’ll always be here if you need me.”
“The wind stings my eyes but I force them open, and in my moment of blind panic I understand why she did it this way, face-first - It was because it made her feel like she was flying, like she was a bird.”
Thoughts about ALLEGIANCE from a Japanese-American
(No spoilers) Really emotional about Allegiance right now… I knew it was going to be really personal to me, but I didn’t know exactly HOW personal. Even though I barely knew anything about the Japanese internment camps before college and didn’t have any family in the US until the 1980s, I related to so much of it. It really felt like a show for me, and I’ve never felt like this for a form of media ever. The Japanese language and other cultural items was utilized very effectively. I saw my own younger brother in Sammy (more American than Japanese) and myself in Kei (equally Japanese and American). I saw my parents in Tatsuo and Ojiichan (which made some scenes so much more powerful for me). I’ve also NEVER cried this much at a musical. (As much as I love sad musicals, I never cry at them.) I still find myself crying thinking about Allegiance. I’m so sad it had a short life on Broadway, but I’m so glad George Takei got a chance to tell his story, and I hope this show has a long life after Broadway.