Some may remember, a while back I asked for examples of your favorite Destiel episodes of SPN (this open response survey was done during the hiatus between 12x08 and 12x09 - so BEFORE SPN came back. It did not include 12x09, 12x10, 12x11, or 12x12, though I’m sure that almost every one of them would probably also be on the list now… haha)
My main reason for doing this was to see which episodes people MOST associated as Destiel episodes, and then compare the writers and directors of those episodes, to see if there was a trend in who was more likely to write or direct an episode that we deem as a “destiel episode”.
The criteria for it being a “destiel episode” was literally just… any episode that, when you thought of destiel, THOSE episodes were screaming out to you. Any and all of them.
Ok, now that I’ve slept on it, I wanted to mention that part of why I liked “Regarding Dean” so much was because of how the memory loss was written and Jensen’s performance of it. It directly reflects my experience with dementia sufferers.
Lots of memory loss in stories is written very cut and dry, black and white. The character forgets something initially, then that memory is 100% inaccessible until the memory loss conflict is resolved. And the person is constantly panicking about how they don’t remember things. And some how, through all of it, they remain themself.
But that’s not what it’s like. Your brain will always do its best to protect you, even if it’s failing. It will search for words it can’t find, not just straight up admit it can’t find them. A dementia patient’s brain at certain times will do exactly what Dean’s did with the lamp–find a close approximation (or completely wrong) substitute word and congratulate itself for filling in the blank.
Dementia patients often forget they have dementia, just like Dean did. They will react to people they should know with unexpected hostility or unexpected friendliness, just like Dean did. Sometimes they will forget how to do basic human things, and be baffled when someone insists they know how to use a thing (real world case: a tooth brush. Episode example: Dean being surprised he knows how to shoot a gun).
And then there are times of complete breakdown, when they realize they’re missing something–like with Dean’s mirror scene–or when they realize they’ve forgotten a life-changing event and have to relive it all over again because now it’s brand new information (a loved one’s death, for instance).
*Real* gradual memory loss is not linear. The dominos don’t topple over in clean succession. Pieces fall and are put back up again. Others are taken off the table. Others are mangled.
It’s a surreal experience from the outside, one I pray I never have to experience from the inside.
All this is to say, I suspect Meredith Glynn has first hand experience with a dementia sufferer. She did an excellent job of portraying the disease from Sam’s perspective, and I’m looking forward to more episodes from her in the future.
1. Dean canonically loves bunnies, and should have one with him at all times.
Add it to the list of bunker animals, along with Sam’s dog and Cas’s guinea pig.
It also helps that the bunny sort of looks like him.
Like, come on. Tell me you don’t see the resemblance.
2. He’s also taking steps towards being more open about who and what he loves.
Baby steps, Dean. Baby steps.
3. This is not a sentence I ever expected to hear come out of Dean’s mouth, but I am insanely glad that it did.
4. Nor was this one, though honestly it’s just as good.
5. Honestly, this whole exchange was just pure, bisexual gold.
*Cough* As soon as you walked in, you had the hots for Larry. *Cough*
6. Dean needs and deserves to use a grenade launcher, and I am shocked and enraged that he hasn’t.
Look at the anguish on his face. Just let him shoot the damn grenades, you monsters.
7. Rowena, like any sane person, loves giving Dean nose boops.
Get it, gurl! LOL, this is honestly such a cute, fun episode. :)
8. …Okay, maybe it’s not so fun.
9. I TAKE IT BACK, THIS EPISODE IS THE PERSONIFICATION OF EMOTIONAL ANGUISH.
DEAN, BABY, PLEASE DON’T CRY. I’LL TAKE YOU IN MY ARMS AND CUDDLE YOU AND TELL YOU YOUR NAME UNTIL EVERYTHING’S ALRIGHT AGAIN.
10. Dean is a raging bisexual, and everyone just needs to come to terms with that.
Come on, SPN writers: show me one heterosexual man who derives that much enjoyment from riding a mechanical bull. Point one out to me. I’ll wait. Never mind the fact that he’s way too good at riding things for someone who’s never shown much interest in horses.
Jesus fucking Christ.
Overall rating: 9/10 for cuteness, Larry, and making me cry like a little bitch. One point redacted for forced heterosexuality, but otherwise an amazing and very memorable ep from a solid season. Honorable mention for the perennially patient Sammy.
<b>Writers:</b> Oh Misha, happy the 100th episode.<p/><b>Misha:</b> Oh thanks.<p/><b>Writers:</b> Here, an angel blade in the chest.<p/><b>Misha:</b> ...um thanks?<p/><b>Me and probably the whole fandom:</b> What the...*starts silently swearing to the writers*<p/></p>