spn 3.16

Liar, Liar - Part 3

Author: Skylar
Characters: Reader (Y/N), Dean Winchester
Paring(s): Reader (Y/N) × Dean Winchester
Word Count: 633 
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: heartbreak, regret, angst, mild language, alcohol abuse, poor self image
Inspired by “Let Her Go” by Passenger

A/N: I got a lot of comments on Tumblr and on Wattpad for a part trois Sorry the story is kind of depressing…
Guess which potato decided it would be a good idea to start a 16 part Mini-series… That’s right— this potato.

PART 1 | PART 2

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*Dean’s P.O.V.*

I woke up in the morning, feeling something was wrong. Feeling around the bed I notice that something, or someone for that matter, was missing. Where the hell is Y/N? I sit up and look around the room, but there’s no sign of her. “Y/N?” No answer. Now I’m starting to panic. I look back to where Y/N had previously been sleeping in my arms. A note rested on the pillow.

Only know you love her when you let her go

‘Dean,
I know things have been rough on you lately… it’s been hard on me too. But recently, things have changed, and not for the better. I know it’s not your fault, and I know something’s bothering you, but you could’ve just talked to me. You should have. I’m tired of being treated like a rag doll. I can’t stay around and continue to lend my heart to someone who can’t love me back. I just hurts to much… I’m sorry. It’s time I move on. I hope you’re happy again someday.
Goodbye,
Y/N’

And you let her go

She left. I can’t belive she actually left.

Staring at the bottom of your glass
Hoping one day you’ll make a dream last
But dreams come slow and they go so fast

It took me five glasses of whiskey before I realized how stupid I’ve been. I was trying to protect her. I wanted— no, I needed her to leave me so she wouldn’t get hurt. How could I not have realized I was breaking her this whole time. I thought if I ignored her, she’d get mad and run away, before her heart became sore.

You see her when you close your eyes
Maybe one day you’ll understand why
Everything you touch surely dies

I needed her to leave so she wouldn’t be hurt by me… not because she got hurt. I’m… I’m dangerous. Why did she stay with me for so long? Why didn’t she get angry at the beginning? How could I let this happen.

Staring at the ceiling in the dark
Same old empty feeling in your heart
‘Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast

I just feel empty without her here. Maybe I should have talked to her. Maybe she was right. I didn’t think this through. I let her down. Why do I keep letting everyone I care about down?

Well you see her when you fall asleep
But never to touch and never to keep
‘Cause you loved her too much
And you dived too deep

I dream of her every night now. What I wouldn’t give to have her in my poisoned arms again… No. I can’t think about that. She’s safe now. She’s safe from me.

Well you only need the light when it’s burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

I didn’t know I would miss her so much. I didn’t know anyone could miss anything so much. I thought I could handle her leaving, but now I feel as if I’m breaking inside.

Only know you’ve been high when you’re feeling low
Only hate the road when you’re missin’ home

How could I not have seen how happy she truly made me. I should’ve just said something. How could I let this happen? How could I be so naïve?

Only know you love her when you let her go

I didn’t see how much she cared for me, or how much she was hurting. I hurt her. And I love her. I love her so much.

And you let her go, oh
And you let her go, oh no
Will you let her go?

I love her… and now she’s gone…

And you let her go