I'm confused about this initiation process? What exactly is it? How did you get into it? What is it for? If you don't want to answer, I understand, but I would love to know (not because I want to do it as it sounds painful and unpleasant, but just to know I guess, I don't know how to explain it...)
I’m making a big post, but I’ll try to give some basic points.
Spirit initiation is the process when the spirits of a tradition fully bring someone to walk their path.
It is in essence a destruction of the old to pave the way for what will be.
I’m specifically talking about witch initiation, so we’ll go from that.
This is not something found in modern witchcraft. It is a folkloric concept found in traditional witchcraft.
Spirits clear out the bits of you that keep you from walking the Crooked Way. Some say that these are the most ‘human’ or civilized bits.
They chew you up and spit you out a witch.
The initiation is often led by the Devil, though he is not the only one who can initiate. Dead witches, ancestors, spirits of the Land, and a handful of deities can do it as well.
It is after this process, in folklore anyway, that someone is a properly a witch. They gain their familiar and their power, or in the case of those with the witch-blood, their powers are awakened from slumber.
The witch is also bound to the path and the spirits that initiated them. No, it’s not selling one’s soul (though I’m sure the spirits wouldn’t refuse it if you offered), but they become a part of you and vice versa.