〈 r e f l e c t i v i t y .
“this is.. so weird.”
he remarks softly, settling down onto the couch beside yixing.
the survival show was clearly a hot topic amongst trainees and a buzz within the media so it’s no surprise that fellow trainees of opposite companies (or the same) would watch this. hell, people jonghyun called friends were on this show.
it’s nice to have his friend around his place. jonghyun doesn’t have many male friends— or many he can emotionally bond with— so this is.. cathartic. especially when you’re watching a group of friends (and associates) on television.
“i mean— i’m happy for them, don’t get me wrong.” clearly he thought he was coming off a little rude or jealous, but that wasn’t the case. it’s more-so the switch between other companies at a chance to debut at royal. “but it’s.. loyalty? why would you leave a company knowing that there is a legal and emotional trust among the head? i mean, imagine telling baek jiyong that.” he pulls a face at the idea.
jonghyun understands on one hand. the idea of being ‘ignored’ in a company you feel the need to /stand out/ and say something. anything, really. but you can’t. so you rely on actions. on the other hand, he finds that.. petulant. nobody said this path was being easy, yet here he is, watching people give up that loyalty.
“ah, sorry i don’t.. have many drinks. i don’t really drink alcohol and i’ve been living off juice, milk and water.” the elder musters up an apologetic smile while gesturing to the bottle of water.