special artwork

since so many ppl are asking hjhkjlklffrgh

the chance of anyone seeing me at cons is 0.001%
becauseeeee –

- im too busy dying at work to attend
- im too busy dying at work to make merch
- idk where/how to get merch made ((too busy dying at work to do research))
- i don’t know anything about conventions ((too busy dying at work to find out))
- can’t afford / no budget for these stuff ((too busy dying at work to live))
- no friends (here in NY; but i have like… 2.. back home… that talk to me regularly…haha…)
- shy
- tired 24/7
- im jaehee

I am actually pretty nervous to post this… May I introduce you to Raúl Esparza drawing Nr. 151: Raúl at the Joyful Heart Gala 2017. ❤️

There’s hardly a drawing I had more fun to work on. I loved every second of it. If I may be so free to say, I think this is my new pride. The first time I saw the photo, I knew I had to turn it into art.
So many of asked me to draw this and I hope it is just the way you expected it to be.

May it bring you as much joy as it brought to me while drawing! 💕😘

Help me


The day flees from the city fast
It drinks from the shadows
And reveals its true nature
The puddles already gleam like ice

In the sky a silver streak is shining
The evening turns dew into frost
The bloodnessless on our cheeks makes us as beautiful as angels
They should bend down to their knees
And pray that the moon stays covered

We are like iceflowers, the blossom at the night
We are like iceflowers, much too beautiful for the day
We are like iceflowers, cold and black is our power
Iceflowers blossom at night

The morning turns frost into dew
The day turns everything light and gray
We dress in sadness
But when the day fades away, our time comes
The one who wants to glow, flees from the light
He bravely faces the night

Subway to sally - Eisblumen

(The lyrics are only translated, it is originally a German language song ;))



Badam, I originally wanted to make a Flower-Power Takizawa… in the end it is a Flower-Power-Juuzou ^^; haha. I like him anyway. I love trees so much! I have a tattoo on my arm and yeah, they helped me in the worst time of my life A LOT!! They gave me strength and I felt like home when I did sit under my favourite tree-friend (who is now dead… I wanted to kill the people, who decided to fall him Òó!!!). Soooooo… yeah. And my favourite seasons are spring and fall :D ~


I love to do colored drawings, but I know many of you really like the b&w with colored eyes or highlights.
His eyes are my fave thing to draw, along with his hands. So I decided to put some of them together for you. 💞 I also made up my mind about Raúl drawing 126, but I guess I’ll just make various sketches later, to see what I like most. So prepare yourself for a little sketch inferno later lol.