and then people try to guilt you for wanting to say stuff like that or that it’s hurtful that I feel like no one cares and the person who specefically says you’re pushing people away is also a person who doesn’t even talk to you or interact with you or try and i just hate that i have to feel bad for wanting to vent on the internet bc i have NO ONE who listens to me, everyone talks over me and i am so tired of needing money just to try and exist, not having anything to do for myself in general (like band practice and a job) while being issolated is taking such a toll on me but idk what to do