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15 Day Books Challenge - Day 5

Day 5: Guilty pleasure book

I generally hate calling books guilty pleasures, because you should never feel ashamed to read something… especially if you enjoy it! And truth be told, most of the booklr/booktube/Goodreads world already knows about the books that I read that could be “embarrassing.”

But. There is one series that I think I’ve only mentioned once on here, and mayyybe once on my channel that I tend to hesitate telling people I’ve read:

I do believe I’ve read this series 4 times in total. And I’ve never read just one of the books at a time… ohhhh no. When I read one, I read them all. I freaking devour all of the books in like a day and a half at most.

I first started reading the Gallagher Girls series when only the first 4 books were out. I was working at Borders, I was a keyholder and manager of the children’s, young adult, and manga/comics sections, and I formed a young readers’ book club that met on one Thursday night per month. This was our second ever pick. I remember having such a fun time not just discussing it at the book club with others, but also reading it! It was just such a fun ride, and I was invested in the characters. And it took me completely by surprise - I went into the books with literally z e r o  expectations. And it just swept me up and consumed me!

These books follow Cammie Morgan, who is 15 at the start of the series, as she goes through her all girl spy school (hell yeah!) with her 3 best friends/roommates. She considered kind of a prodigy at the school, and her family are all well-known and master spies. She has to navigate the balance of learning at school, doing some actual active spy work that she is thrust into, and being a regular teenage girl with hormones and such.

The 2 main things that keep me coming back to these wonderful nuggets are the characters, and the story structure. All of the characters as individuals are well-rounded, unique, have their own personalities & tastes, and are just generally well-written. There is a great balance of personality types that keeps the books from being stagnant and makes all of their interactions varied. Yay! Also their relationships are complex, and Cammie’s relationships with so many different people - friends, family, enemies - are always more complicated than they seem. They are all precious cupcakes though. And I applaud the way Ally Carter writers her multi-dimensional and emotional characters.

As far as the story structure is considered, I will just say that I discover some new hidden thing every single time I read these books. It’s a series about spies, so you would hope there would be an element of mystery in it… and there SOOOO is! I catch a new “clue” or line of foreshadowing every time I read. And it’s fun and young at the same time!

I seriously SERIOUSLY  S E R I O U S L Y  recommend these books. Do not be fooled by their short length or how “juvenile” they may seem. You will feel the feels my friends. And you will be in the same boat as I am: spending 4 more paragraphs than you anticipated talking about books about teenage girl spies in a blog post.

What is one guilty pleasure book of yours??

Parler, il le faisait rarement. Il observait, s’imprégnait d’impressions et d’ambiances, souriait et se taisait. La vie se déroulait comme une pièce de théâtre qu’il mettait en scène avec soin.
—  Diane Broeckhoven, Une journée avec Monsieur Jules
(De buitenkant van meneer Jules)


Hello hello! My favorite season is nearly here!

You will notice that most of these are in the Historical Fiction genre. That’s because for me personally, I tend to read more of those books in the Fall because something about being transported to another time makes me feel cozy. It’s like being told an old story by a family member or something! There are a couple of fantasy books in there - Soulless and Infernal Devices specifically - that I would recommend reading in Autumn because even though they are fantasy, they are set in historical real world places.

I have read all of these, so if you want further thoughts or opinions let me know!

  • All the Light We Cannot See by Anthony Doerr
  • The Tenant of Wildfell Hall by Anne Bronte
  • The Infernal Devices trilogy by Cassandra Clare
  • The Girl You Left Behind by Jojo Moyes
  • The Storyteller by Jodi Picoult
  • Shadow of the Wind by Carlos Ruiz Zafon
  • The Parasol Protectorate series by Gail Carriger
  • The Nightingale by Kristin Hannah
  • The Remnant Chronicles by Mary E. Pearson
  • The Song of Achilles by Madeline Miller

Happy reading!

ok anyway, in im3, tony yells NO! right as, and maybe a little bit before, he fails to catch pepper’s hand (like as soon as that whole metal structure tilts), and not after. when rhodey’s falling in cap 3, tony yells NO! way before rhodey hits the ground, but not as soon as rhodey’s shot and starts falling

this makes me think of the im1 novelization: when tony uses the faulty flight power of the mark 1 to boost him out of the terrorist camp, he figures out mid-fall what his trajectory was and what would be the force of his impact against the ground or whatever. similarly, when that SI rocket lands right next to him during the ambush, the first thing he does is to consider the distance between him and the thing and he quickly concludes that he won’t be able to get out of the blast range

so now i’m emotional over tony’s seemingly preemptive cries of NO! in light of this thing where he’s constantly doing the math in his head. so for instance, with pepper, he’s ~relatively chill and reassuring and confident that he’s gonna catch her, up until that rig unexpectedly tilts – and that would be the moment when pepper veers off the trajectory tony had projected for her and he knows he won’t be able to adjust in time, so he starts crying out BEFORE we ever get the shot of him missing pepper’s hand. and then with rhodey in cap 3, he realizes rhodey is going down and goes back for him, and then the point at which he actually cries out would have been the point when the numbers clicked in tony’s head and he realized he wouldn’t be able to get to rhodey before rhodey hit the ground

and i’m in pain because if we’re to go with this, then we have tony grasping his failure before it even happens

Stop Living In Your Mind

Something I dealt with in real life–always wanted to write a story about it, but it’s too close to home.

When your character meets with a stressful situation, they ‘fragment’ and retreat into their mind. The situation becomes a person they can reason with. Their loyalty, their honesty, their depression are all different people in their mind, with rooms and a maze of hallways. It’s like they can’t hear anything in the real world, and they’re just letting their ‘people’ take control.

ID #20272

Name: Fabio
Age: 17
Country: Austria

Hey there! My name is Fabio, I’m 17 (18 on March 25th 2018) I’m currently a bit lonely and it’ll be super nice to have a penpal to talk with. I don’t care if you have different hobbies or interests, I just want to try out something new.

Some stuff about myself:

x I’m from West-Austria, which means that I live 15 minutes next to Switzerland and Germany and two hours from Italy (I love traveling a lot btw (๑>ᴗ<๑)

x I really love learning languages (I speak English, German and a bit Spanish and Romanian), because it just fascinates me and I have no idea why.

x Reading books. If you like reading too, we could change some book recommendations if you want. I read German and English books, especially Fantasy, Thriller and YA-novels.

x The series I’m watching currently is called 13 Reasons Why and I’ll start watching Narcos and Game of Thrones soon. Oh, and I really like to watch movies.

x My music taste contains almost everything - from Reggaeton (Spanish music) to electronic music, Lo-Fi HipHop and chill music in general! I know, I listen to a lot of stuff but actually I listen to everything I want, the genres just vary a lot.

That’s pretty much it hahah I hope I didn’t write too much

Preferences: Ages preferably 15-18, any gender, country, religion and sexuality. Please no anti-LGBTs or racists or assholes in general ;)

kajuned  asked:

Hey, I'm curious. Is there anything psychologically different between Novel-Izaya and Anime-Izaya, and is there any difference between Novel-Shizuo and Anime-Shizuo?

Oh my, where do I even begin?

There are definitely things psychologically different from Novel-Izaya and Anime Izaya. 

(Fun fact - Anime is an anagram of Namie, I just mispelled it lol) 

I talked about it in this post some time ago. Generally, anime Izaya is made to seem invincible especially in the first season. And because they left out important novel scenes, there’s inconsistency in his character. For example, how did he get knocked out so easily by Slon while talking to Kujiragi when he had the advantage before? It was actually because Kujiragi mentioned Shizuo and Izaya ‘fell silent’. She spoke about Shizuo being a hindrance and thanked Izaya for landing him in jail. 

Whether he was worried about Shizuo or not, Izaya’s moment of silence and the description of his bad feeling shows that he’s not invincible even though he suddenly seemed to gain the upper hand. He was affected by his human feelings and emotions when Kujiragi mentioned Shizuo, for whatever reason. 

I took that as a Shizaya moment because it was very unusual for Izaya. But the point is, Izaya has human feelings and emotions that can render him vulnerable to unexpected consequences and is definitely not invincible, even though he may seem like it. 

This link was something the anime left out, the novels expands on this further with his conversations with other characters and the telephone pole scene where he punched a telephone pole as he thought of betraying Shinra. 

In retrospect Shinra, who lived confidently above this world, did invoke some jealousy in him.

Yet he was attempting to betray even a friend like that. Not a friend by Izaya’s standards, but a “friend”  as defined by most people in the world.

He’ll probably be mad at me if he finds out that I went to meet Celty taking the head with me.


Izaya couldn’t help but laugh slightly as he pictured his only “friend” by the world’s standards getting mad at him.

There is nothing to be afraid of.

This is the way I have lived my life all along, he laughed as he thought  –

                                                                                                     Laughed  –

                                                                                                       Laughed –                                                                                                            
                                                                                                         Laughed –

He clenched his right fist and slammed it hard into the telephone pole next to him.

- Durarara Volume 9

This was a very important scene in Izaya’s character development especially after they showed his past with Shinra, his only friend. It shows Izaya’s conflict over his own desires which has governed the way he has lived all along and one of his only two relationships - the friendship he has with his only friend. Izaya was affected by a human relationship, and it really shows he isn’t some villain but just an abnormal human who is eternally true to his own desires (but is still affected by relationships like everyone else)

I’m working on a theory for Izaya’s attachment to humanity. It’s taking much longer than I thought since I lack the time to sit down and finish it. But I intend on showing how Izaya is actually very human. It will of course include reference to the Shinra stabbing incident as Izaya said himself it was probably the only thing that affected the formation of his personality in a significant way. I’ll also refer to the interviews about Izaya in his novel. So I’m currently integrating all the information together, both old and new about Izaya to formulate a theory that may explain Izaya’s attachment to humanity. You might want to look out for that if you’re interested in the psychology of novel Izaya. 

Other than novel Izaya not being invincible (both psychologically and outwardly), I guess another psychological difference would be that Izaya is actually a very private person. The impression I got from the first season was that Izaya was a very open person (not open-mindedness, as in socially open). 

But Izaya behind all his talk and interaction is actually very private. You don’t see it in the anime, but in the novel he thinks to himself a lot, reflects quite a bit, and generally is…very confident in his own identity internally. For example, Mikado’s first impression of Izaya was not that he was a weird person, but that he looked like an ‘intellectual that gave tuition in some remote district’. It speaks to the demeanor novel Izaya has that Mikado would form such an impression of him. 

Even though he might seem open with humans, Izaya actually keeps to himself a lot. Shinra said himself in his interview that Izaya’s not the type to stand in front of people. You can see that in both the novel and anime version of middle school Izaya. While he was portrayed like a rebel in the anime, in the novel he was just distant and enjoying observing humans. He was actually a model student, not a rebel, so that’s another difference in portrayal there. 

What a strange guy. 

I’ll just keep observing him in the future.

But I have to watch out. Getting too close to him might be dangerous.

So this is just a small scene when Izaya thinks as he watched Shinra leave to go home to Celty (though he didn’t know that yet). But even with Shinra Izaya is already distancing himself. He tells himself he can’t get too close to Shinra, can’t let himself be too affected and involved in their friendship. Perhaps he’s apprehensive Shinra wouldn’t satisfy his expectations, perhaps he just doesn’t want to become like everyone else - whatever the reason is, Izaya has, since young, kept a distance between himself and humans. So much that he has to be ‘wary’ when he feels himself getting closer to Shinra than necessary.

At first sight, he looked like a gentle-natured man of slender build, but his features had a relative sharpness in them, making him the perfect exemplification of the word “handsome”. He was smiling as if willing to accept anything in the world as part of him; yet at the same time his eyes shone without mercy as if he held contempt for everything except himself. The way he dressed was idiosyncratic, but it was hard to point at why. Overall, he gave an elusive and mercurial vibe.

- Durarara Volume 5

What are the implications of this? Well, it just shows how distant Izaya is from humans. And how he keeps to himself. Even though he’s handsome, it doesn’t matter to him, and he may only use his good looks for human observation and not any socialization. He has a stable internal perception of his love for humans, so he’s willing to accept anything, but at the same time he’s the only one who understands his love for humans so he holds a contempt for everything except himself. 

One reason why could be his tendency to keep things to himself and how he’s a private person. Like, he says he loves humans and declares love for humans but except with Shinra (and a reluctant Shizuo), doesn’t try to form any sort of relationship with them. He doesn’t try to connect to them in a way they can understand (maybe because he can’t because of his upbringing) and so they can’t understand him. And so he’s left with him only understanding himself and being shunned and outcast from society, which will naturally breed contempt.

That might be why Izaya seems mysterious and ‘elusive’ - because he’s such a private person. He’s more introverted in the novels, in that it seems natural for him to be alone with his thoughts. I guess you can kind of see this in Volume 5 where he’s shown to have stayed at an internet cafe alone while working on his plans for the city, left alone and walked away alone, he basically just does things alone.

Novel Izaya is also not in control of everything. Well you can see that in the anime as well when he got knocked out twice. But I mean, he’d move the piece that will give him the most advantage, but generally he’s open to any result. He just seems like he’s in control all the time because he accepts everything that happens (except with Shizuo). Because he loves humans unilaterally and doesn’t have any personal feelings or relationships with them (except Shinra and Shizuo) So again, he’s not invincible in his predictions. He does have some idea of how things will go and what he wants to see, but he’s less of a ‘mastermind’ in that sense. He’s still a mastermind, but has less of the ‘mastermind mindset’? In that he doesn’t expect everything to go according to plan. 

And I suppose novel Izaya is more sensitive. You don’t see it in the anime, but when he was left out of hotpot, it was mentioned he ‘felt more lonely than usual’. Tsukumoya said that he’s lonely but accepts that loneliness. And he was not happy at being left out of the events of Volume 4, which is part of the reason why he wanted the ‘city’s holiday’ to be over. He’s more human in that sense. Like, he’s a logical minded man, but he actually acts on his feelings quite a bit. He is affected by his feelings, sometimes even driven by them (like in the death match with Shizuo) and is definitely human.

Also, novel Izaya is more like a child. As in, there are various times in which he’s described like a kid having fun. So in that sense he really doesn’t have any malice. He just wants to see, like a kid discovering more about the world. Shiki agrees with this, in both the novels and his interview for Izaya’s novel. I’ll be expanding on this with my Izaya attachment theory in the future. 

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ID #60032

Name: Mari
Age: 19
Country: Italy

I’m not really good at introducing myself but… let’s begin! I’m just a normal girl who’s looking for her place in the world. Right now, I’m really confused about what to do with my life, and it would be great to have someone I can talk to about these kind of things, and open up a bit, so I can avoid drowning myself in my thoughts. I’m more of a listener than a speaker,but I express myself better with writing and drawing. I’d love making a new friend who I can discuss all kinds of different things with, from silly talk to deep meaningful conversations. I used to have a schedule full of things to do, but now I’m taking a long break and I feel like I’m becoming lazy. Among the many things I love there are: dogs, as I have a big fluf dork myself, animals in general, the sea, cooking yummy dishes, reading all kinds of things from comics and mangas to psychology essays and adventure novels , travelling , expecially by train, writing and making notes about everything that inspires me, reflecting on life and its poetry, magic, going to the cinema and watching all kinds of movies besides horror or stupid ones. I also love tv series such as Stranger things, the good place, castle, ncis, but most of all animation, in which I wish to pursue a career, and cartoons -between my favourites are Wbb, Miraculous Ladybug and maaaany anime- and drawing, of course, so it would be great to exchange opinions, advice and sketches with someone who loves art too. Right now I’m learning French and Japanese, but I’d really like to practice my french with someone,even if my skills are close to zero. Finally, I cannot live without music, one of the most crucial things in my life, and I love movie soundtracks other than various artists. If you read this till the end, you have to know that I’m looking forward to a penpal with wich I can share lots of thoughts about different interests, passions and a new culture, thoughts about life and very long messages as well such as this one as well as silly one who can light up the day a bit. I’m not so serious as I sound, really, and if you can tell me about new, interesting and different things, you’re welcome!

Preferences: Not really, just be a nice, honest and respectful human being, and sincere about yourself. Age maybe 16-23.

literally every time sportacus runs off without a good explanation
  • sportacus: i have to go!!
  • me: to do -- what? mop your floor??
  • robbie: i have to stop that guy!!
  • me: from doing -- what?? mopping his floor???