spark&fade

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leaders with magikarp hat

probably actual canon

Fading Light - Part 4 - 4/4

PART ONE  -  Chapters 1-6

PART TWO  -  Chapters 1-6

PART THREE  -  Prologue & Chapters 1-6

PART FOUR  -  Prologue   Chapter one   Chapter two   Chapter three



EPILOGUE

I can feel Mulder’s arms around me, just like when I woke up to the feel of him cuddled against me yesterday morning and the morning before that and the morning before that. Sometimes I am laid on my back and he has his head nestled in the crook of my shoulder, or resting heavily against my chest, sometimes we are facing each other and his arms are loosely draped over my hips, those long fingers just skimming the small of my back, unconsciously moving them against my skin even as he sleeps. And sometimes, like today, he is spooned against me, holding me against him with boneless, heavy arms that entrap me so completely that I couldn’t move even if I wanted to.

Not that I have any desire to try to escape.

For the first time in my life I awaken each morning with such a sense of belonging that I have to talk myself in to opening my eyes, so sure am I that what I’m feeling is just the vestiges of a beautiful dream, just like all those heartbreaking nights when I dreamed he was with me only to find myself alone, so consumed with yearning that I sometimes just wanted to lay on this bed and never get up again. Knowing that I would have to face yet another day where I had to deny to myself and to him just exactly what he meant to me, that he had somehow become my whole reason for being; for breathing; for existing. 

All those wasted years where we refused to acknowledge our intrinsic need, so blind that we didn’t take the time to really see just what we had become to each other; what we could be. Consumed with a fear that by allowing ourselves to be together, to admit all the yearnings that we had denied, we would become weaker and more vulnerable to those who sought to destroy us, when in actuality, being together just served to make us stronger; that the bonds that had tied us together for seven long years have now become unbreakable.

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pixelplumb0b  asked:

If you feel like it, please respond with five things that make you happy when you get this. Then, send to the last ten people in your notifications anonymously. You never know who might benefit from spreading positivity! 🌼 (not gonna be anonymous - why would I? )

Thank you!!

(queue breaking oops whatever)

1) Knowing someone genuinely wants to talk to you/sees something and knows that I’d like to see it. For example, my friend often messages me out of the blue telling me random stories from her day and last night she snapchatted me some random photos of her puppy because she knew I’d have liked seeing them (however i did the same back today with my dog and she left me on read so i’m kinda sad about that, it happens a lot :( )

2) When my internet actually works well enough to LET ME QUEUE POSTS. It’s so bad atm because my mum’s skyping my stepdad in Vegas and it’s taking up literally all of the internet which prevents me from even uploading photos despite having turned off the wifi on my phone and iPod D:

3) That I’m seeing Ed Sheeran in less than a month!!

4) Having great academic achievements. I don’t like talking a bunch about them because I don’t want to come across bragging but last week I got a history essay back and got 24 marks out of 25, the highest by far in all Year 12 history classes! I was pretty proud of myself.

5) Knowing that I’m (hopefully) getting my braces off in a couple of months! My teeth are almost fixed and I really can’t wait to see the finished result.