3:28 am

Another sleepless night, of the thoughts and memories that drown my head with feelings and emotions. I can’t even think straight, not now, not at 3 in the afternoon either. It just feels like every move i make is the wrong one, and there is no right one anymore. I just don’t know what to do. I miss you. I miss us. I just keep repeating it in my head.. One day, one day. Until then, my love, your place is waiting for you, as will I. 

You left me because I changed
I became too emotional to deal with
You said I was too draining to handle
But when I changed myself back, you said it was too late
And now that you’re gone, I’ve done everything to be someone you could love
I’ve gotten a better job, moved out of home,
Performed my music, become fun again and learnt to live without you
Done everything I can to prove to you I’m worth it
That I can do anything
To prove that I’m someone you can love.
Everything I do is for you
So you can see I’m better than I was
So you can see that I’m worth your time
So you can see I’m worth another chance
I can make you happy
—  Notes to her who broke me (#17)

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Number 119

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Aubrey

Aubrey,
Believe me when I say
You are more than just a dream come true,
An undiscovered planet in the universe,
An unforgettable memory,
An artistic craft,
A kind and loving fairy godmother,
A cherry on top of a cupcake,
A puffy and whimsical cloud at day,
A bright shining star at night,
A keeper of secrets,
A writer of her own story,
A queen of her own palace,
A listener of broken ones,
A melodious song,
A meaningful poem,
A wonderful dream,
A falling snowflake,
A paper and a pen,
A precious gem,
A wandering soul,
A beautiful work of art,
A pocket full of pixie dusts,
And, a rose full of thorns.
But most of all,
You are a diary—
An actual living one.
Thank you for everything that you have done
For me and for everyone else. 

Para sa’yo, Soulmate. Thank you talaga para sa lahat! @thechefdiary 

We live to love, but we choose ourselves last. Thus bruising the idea of love and constantly letting ourselves down. The practice of self love is never selfish. By centering ourselves, we put ourselves before or after no being which opens us up to an entire world of honest love.
Marry someone who lets you drink their juice, even after you said you weren’t thirsty. Marry someone who laughs at the same things you do. Marry someone who kisses your nose on a cold day. Marry someone who you can watch Disney movies all day with. Marry someone who is proud of you whether you earn £5 a week or £5,000 a week. Marry someone who you can tell everything to. Marry someone who isn’t afraid or embarrassed to hold your hand in public. Marry someone who lets you take over when decorating a cake. Marry someone who you can spend the day in Ikea with without feeling stressed. Marry someone who wraps you up inside their coat in the winter. Marry someone who accepts your fears and phobias. Marry someone who gives you butterflies every time you hear their key in the door. Marry someone who you don’t always have to shave your legs for. Marry someone who accepts you all day every day, even when you don’t look or feel your best. Marry someone who still puts three sugars in your tea, despite telling them “just two”. Marry someone who doesn’t judge you when you eat your body weight in cookies.Marry someone who waits with you to get on the train. Marry someone who gets on well with your parents and isn’t uptight about family events. Marry someone who calms you down when you get mad about stupid stuff, and never tells you it’s “only stupid stuff”. Marry someone who makes you want to be a better person. Marry someone who makes you laugh. Marry someone who treats you the way you deserve to be treated. Marry someone who you love. Marry your soulmate, your lover, your best friend.