soul s u r f e r

My Great Comet Experience

•as soon as I sat down I started hardcore shaking (like my mom was very concerned)
•Ingrid did pierogis for my section and she got to my row, we looked each other dead in the eyes (!!!) and she tossed one at me (they taste really good btw)
•also during pierogis I CAUGHT LUCAS’ EYE AND HE GAVE ME A LOOK LIKE “hey wassup” and I was SO HAPPY (more on Eye Contact With Lucas later)

Act 1
•PROLOGUE HAD ME SHOOK OMG IT WAS AMAZING (also I think it was here that I witnessed a moment where someone took someone else’s violin bow and it was adorable
•Pierre was adorable and the vocals were absolutely incredible oak is just WOW
•MOSCOW OMG okay so I love Grace she was awesome and THE LITTLE MOMENT WHERE SONYA AND NATASHA MAKE FUN OF HER IS GOLDEN
•Paul Pinto is literally everywhere??? I saw him hobbling on and it was hilarious
•DURING PRIVATE AND INTIMATE LIFE NICK LOOKED AROUND BEFORE “people enjoy me though” AND SAW ME SMILING AND HE WAVED AT ME AND SMILED BACK IT WAS AMAZING
•ALSO COURTNEY IS INCREDIBLE I LOVE HER
•Natasha and Bolkonskys was hilarious I loved it
•I CRIED DURING NO ONE ELSE IT WAS SO MOVING
•oh my god THE OPERA the first half was hilarious and beautiful and then ANATOLE OH MY GOD he walked down my aisle and I saw the kiss, it didn’t even look like a kiss it was more like a whisper??? Like full cheek to cheek contact and that’s somehow even better
•then he patted the knee of the guy sitting next to her (her husband I think) and gave him a look like “good job man”
•also the ensemble’s little opera glasses are adorable
•Natasha and Anatole makes me want to kill myself even more in person than on recording I was freaking out the whole time
•THE DUEL!!! LUCAS DID THIS LITTLE DUCK THING WHERE HE DID CHICKEN ARMS AND KINDA MOONWALKED BACKWARDS IT WAS GLORIOUS
•NICK WAS SO GREAT I CANT EVEN DESCRIBE IT
•HE SKIPS SO MUCH!!! LIKE HIS ONLY MODE OF TRAVELLING IS SKIPPING
•SO WAS OAK OMG ESPECIALLY WHEN HE GETS SHOT
•ALSO AT SOME POINT DURING THE DUEL (I think it was that) I TURNED TO THE SIDE AND LUCAS AND I JUST LOCKED EYES FOR LIKE 3-4 SECONDS IT CAUGHT ME SO OFF GUARD I STARTED IMPLODING AS HE STARED INTO MY SOUL
•D U S T. A N D. A S H E S. let me tell you about this sit down kiddies. OAK DID SUCH AN INCREDIBLE JOB!!! HE BASICALLY TAKES YOUR HEART STOMPS ON IT AND THROWS IT OUT OF A WINDOW!!! I started sobbing on literally the first chord
•Sunday morning oh my god Ingrid’s acting was so hilarious (especially “everyone sees a man”) also shoutout to T I M E F O R C H U R C H
•CHARMING!!!!!!! AMBER GRAY IS A GODSEND I LOVE HER IT WAS SO!!! CHARMING!!!! AHHH I LOVED IT
•THE BALL OMG Okay at this point I was in Full Freakout Mode and thought I couldn’t get any more hyped,,,, I was wrong
•THE DANCING AND THE ENSEMBLE ALSO THE!!! KISS!!!!!!!! I WAS SCREAMING INTERNALLY!!!!!

Act 2
•OH GOD LETTERS okay so I was kinda bummed that I didn’t get one but more on that later
•EVERYONE WAS SO INCREDIBLE I JUST!!!!! LOVE THEM ALL SO MUCH!!!!!!
•Sonya and Natasha was so jam packed with tension I LOVED IT the acting was so good!!!
•Sonya Alone made me start sobbing as soon as Ingrid opened her mouth she was so amazing!
•PREPARATIONS!!! Nick was yelling and it was adorable and Lucas was shaving and I loved it so much!! That’s one of my favorite songs
•THE DANATOLE KISS IS REAL IT IS GLORIOUS
•PAUL PINTO I SWEAR TO GOD HE IS SO HYPER AND ENERGETIC
•also Anatole and I were twinsies during balaga so there’s that
•THE CHOREOGRAPHY!!!!!!!!!! IT IS SO BEAUTIFUL AND AMAZING I WAS GRINNING LIKE A LUNATIC
•THE FREAKING ABDUCTION I LOVED IT
•I didn’t have a drink with me to raise but I had a bottle of makeup remover so I used that and I don’t think anyone noticed lol
•WHEN LUCAS DOES THE WHOOOOOAAAAAAOOAOOAOAOOAOAOAOAOAOAOAO HE HELD IT OUT FOR SO LONG!!! LIKE MAYBE EVEN A FULL MINUTE!! I’m not entirely sure he’s human at this point after that because OH MY GOD
•PIERRE’S LITTLE PART I LOVED IT
•I’m pretty sure here GRACE WAS WALKING UP MY AISLE ANS SHE AND I MADE EYE CONTACT AND SHARED A LITTLE “OH MY GOD!!!!” MOMENT SHE NOTICED MY JACKET
•WHEN MARYA STEPPED OUT WAS INCREDIBLE AND LUCAS DID THIS LITTLE “oh NO NO NO NO NO RUN AWAY” kind of thing it was great
•Grace’s In My House was a spiritual experience and made me SO HAPPY!!! SHES SO AMAZING!!! I mean??? Even through the anger you can still hear the compassion!!!
•CALL TO PIERRE You can hear how exasperated and concerned Marya is!!! Also the WHATs were AMAZING AND HILARIOUS
•FIND ANATOLE Oak was running up and down the stage Amber was in her underwear Lucas was sobbing it was glorious
•PIERRE AND ANATOLE!!!!!! The acting!!! I HAVE TOO MANY EMOTIONS!!! I think I actually felt pity and a bit of concern for Anatole which is something I’ve literally never felt before
•also when denee comes on and poisons herself is so amazing???
•PETERSBURG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
•Natasha very ill oh my god the acting and INGRID
•At this point I pretty much didn’t have any tears left
•Pierre and Andrey! Their greeting is adorable! It didn’t make me cry, it just left kind of a,,, cold feeling in my heart
•when Nick pushes Courtney aside broke my heart
•I thought I had no more tears left,,, I was wrong
•I started sobbing at the first notes of Pierre and Natasha
•Denee just sort of hobbled down my staircase and looked so defeated… and then hope!!! They were so sweet! It was so sad!!!!
•I continued sobbing through Great Comet of 1812
•it was so beautiful!!! The lights!! Oak!!! The aria!!! AHHHHHH
•I immediately gave them a standing ovation lol

Stage door
•So after bows I just got up and SPRINTED to the door, I got there before the barricades got set up
•I met some people who liked my jacket (more on that in a bit)
I brought my copy of war and peace for everyone to sign (and mostly everyone had a conversation with me about it!!! If you want convos at the door bring a copy)
•Everyone was so adorable I love them
•Also Grace confirmed that we had a Moment of “OH MY GOD!!!” And it was amazing
•so even after they took the barricades down the people I met wanted to stay behind and wait later to see if we could get me to meet Lucas
•so we waited for a while and eventually Courtney and Cathryn came out and they were such beautiful people I love them
•Lucas wasn’t feeling that well so he didn’t come out
•but!!! Bob the Door Guy to the rescue!!!
•HE GAVE ME THE LETTER™!!!

So yeah!!! It was amazing and I loved it so so much and now I love bob the door guy and me and my friends are making plans to come back again!

a note on the chasing of dreams

  1. a dream is nothing but a dream until you take action— do not be alarmed, you’ve got plenty of time. leonardo da vinci painted the mona lisa around his 50s and van gogh finished the starry night when he was 36— you’ve got plenty of time.
  2. t r a v e l t h e w o r l d
  3. wake up and slow things down. today is going nowhere until you are ready. do not hit snooze, just pretend that you’re running late. get enough rest because skipping out on sleep is just as bad as a hangover except there’s no drinks required— pillows and blankets make great friends if you’re stressed
  4. b e p r o u d o f y o u r w o r k
  5. my manager constantly reminds me that even if this isn’t your dream job, strive to be excellent because you’ll never know who’s watching. a perfect opportunity may rise and you weren’t ready. a close friend of mine says that he’s always ready so that he never needs to be ready.
  6. t h e y w e r e r i g h t
  7. have enough confidence to beat today, even if you lose or fail— it’s quite alright. there is not a single success story without failure, as a matter of fact. a success story requires it of you.
  8. p u t y o u r s e l f o u t t h e r e
  9. look sharp, be sharp. you are going to be alright. this is your life and as morbid as this may sound, one day your death will arrive. life is a duality of chaos and order— yin and yang. you need not fret. your heart and soul usually sleeps at the same space inside of your brain. so smile more.
  10. y o u c a n d o t h i s
  11. I have faith in you.

anonymous asked:

what's the worst thing abt having scorpio moon? what's the best thing? something that stands out from other moonz

best:
-the phoenix effect; scorpio moons are usually the ones that - when suffered enough - rise up from the ashes, fully transformed into a higher, spiritual being
- have the potential to be one of the emotional wisest and most mature out of the moon signs 
- a v good ability to see the unseen: they have a thing for investigating deeper than others, even in topics the most are too scared to touch, that’s why they are the ones that can broaden other horizons and enhance other minds
- they are  ambitious and usually try to get what they want so that’s why they are really hard working! 
- scorpio moons are actually v kind souls and usually the ones to greet you with an open smile because they usually experienced pain thoroughly in their life (they only transform into this dark and negative form of the moon sign when alone, in front of others they usually try to act ‘normal’)
- usually v eccentric minds and creative!!

worst:
- t r u s t   i s s u e s 
- p a r a n o i o d   a f 
- tend to burn bridges with people which is not necessarily bad but sometimes they do not want to forgive or work on problems and do this in order to forget and proceed the pain faster
- dark, intrusive/obsessive thoughts might be common (but this is also common for pluto in the 3rd)
- letting go of pain, processing pain and getting over past sorrow: i m p o s s i b l e 
- forgive and forget.exe could not be found 
- they think life is a misery at least twice a day 
- c o n t r o l   i s   e v e r y t h i n g 

Metaphors for the Masses

Don’t tell me 

you don’t

u  n  d  e  r  s  t  a  n  d    m  e  t  a  p  h  o  r  s

                 “you broke my heart”


Don’t tell me

you don’t

g  e  t     p  o  e  t  r  y

               “I love you to the moon and back”


Don’t tell me

you don’t

k  n  o  w

what it is 

              to feel   l  i  g  h  t

               to feel  d  a  r  k  n  e  s  s


Don’t tell me

you don’t feel

what remains           e  l  u s  i  v  e

and                  u  n  d  e  f  i  n  e  d

and try to put it to words 

s o m e t i m e s.

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nameless2003  asked:

Okay, I think you're doing this so- How would Error, Ink, Fresh, Tale Gaster, And Tale Chara react to their S/O being killed by someone else?

the only ones i’ll take out of this group are Fresh-Sans, Tale-Gaster, & ADT-Chara, however one of our other Mods takes Error-Sans & Ink-Sans! - M.M.

Underfresh-Sans:

It’s almost inhumane, how quickly he finds out, & how little time it takes for him to find their killer. & at first, it doesn’t even seem like he’s mad. But then he starts to talk. Well now, friend pal chum homie palarino home-slice friendo home-boy that was not a b r i g h t i d e a. He usually hates having to cut loose in any sense other than the radical relaxation type, but in this case, just for them, buddy–he’ll take the plunge. So! He hopes they’re ready, because they’re about to have a totally untubular time.

Undertale-W.D. Gaster:

It doesn’t even register at first once the news reaches him. He’s so deep in his work that it has to be repeated several times for it to actually get through to him–but most of those repeats are because he just…can’t get it. They’re what? …They were what? Needless to say it doesn’t take him long at all to track down their murderer & show them what the true meaning of “scientific curiosity” really means. He’s always wondered what the limits of the human SOUL were, & now it looks like he’s got the chance to f i n d o u t.

ADT-Chara:

How unfortunate. They really liked you, only for this to happen. Truly…they can’t have anything good in life, can they? They…they lose everything they love. & last time, they didn’t have the chance to fight back. But now, even without that power, they know damn sure that they’ve got the Determination they need to get the revenge they want. This time, they’re going to fight back. This time, they’re going to E R A S E e v e r y t h i n g.

leslietendo  asked:

SoMa, SteinMarie andddd KidLiz :'0?? ❤️

OMG Hello Leslie ! <3 The drawings only took around 20 mins and It’s obvious I barely draw other ppl than SoMa or Blackstar at times so XDD I hope you like it ;-;

SoMa: Soul x Maka

Forever OTP | OTP | Love It | Like It | It’s Alright | Neutral | I Honestly Don’t Care | BROTP| Eh | No Thanks | Dislike It | Hate It | NOTP


M Y  L I F E  R E V O L V E S  A R O U N D  T H I S  O T P  A N D  I ‘ M  S T I L L  A L I V E  B E C A U S E  O F  S O M A, O K A Y ? I  W I L L  F O R E V E R  S H I P  T H I S  O T P  E V E N  I N  H E A V E N.

SteinMarie: Stein x Marie

Forever OTP | OTP | Love It | Like It | It’s Alright | Neutral | I Honestly Don’t Care | BROTP| Eh | No Thanks | Dislike It | Hate It | NOTP

Ahhhh, the only canon ship in the SE universe ! (And damn they didn’t even put it in the freaking anime did they ???) Yes, I do find this ship cute and I love it ! I love how they’re almost like, older versions of Soul and Maka ??? I mean Soul is nowhere as mad as Stein but the similarities are there; Soul is still sane because of Maka and her wavelength, Stein is still sane because of Marie and her wavelength.

Hell, the same two ships have the same letters as their first names !

Kidliz: Kid x Liz

Forever OTP | OTP | Love It | Like It | It’s Alright | Neutral | I Honestly Don’t Care | BROTP| Eh | No Thanks | Dislike It | Hate It | NOTP

Okay, so…. To be honest I don’t hate KidLiz, but I don’t like it so much either. I mean, I can’t really see Kid in a relationship… Other than Maka, but even that is like, a 10% thing in my mind. I’m better with Kid alone basically, I don’t think he’s ready to be in a relationship yet because of his symmetry issues (”You gotta hold both of my hands” would be one of the major problems) so… Yes. That’s it. I’m sorry if this is a bit disappointing but yeah, I can’t see Kid in relationships. XD

Ask meme here !

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S i n g  f o r  m e, a l l  o f  y o u r s w e e t e s t  m e l o d i e s,
A n d  t h e n  l e t  m e  d r o w n  i n t o  y o u r  a r m s,  i n t o  t h e  s e a

Like light and dark

         Worlds apart

                    This fatal love was like poison right from the start

Their song [the sirens’], though irresistibly sweet, was no less sad than sweet, and lapped both body and soul in a fatal lethargy, the forerunner of death and corruption.”

🔥—— In search of healing - ‘The Compliance, Copulation & Consort’

    🔥——     Ever since Nidhogg’s final fall & the infamous Dragonsong War’s end things had turned…   P e a c e f u l   , needless to say. Dragons were no longer as hated as they had been before, the misunderstandings between man & dragon were settled, & peace was established. Not all of the race of man had accepted this new policy, but the hurting an another pacifist dragon had become almost   c r i m i n a l  . This all had made Brii much more comfortable being around mortal souls — but old habits die hard, & so did the fear she had always had towards humans still   l i n g e r   . Regardless of this new-found serenity in Eorzea, Brii still felt like she had to stay   t r a n s p a r e n t   , keep her secret safe. A shape-shifting dragon was nothing but an usual thing, considered the   f o u l   doings of the void, which in fact wasn’t too far fetched…

    Coerthas Central Highlands had actually  become a new favourite residing place for the dragoness — it had become much more understanding & safer place than it had been before… Never in her entire life did Brii think she would feel   c o m f o r t a b l e   in these freezing lands, ever again. Even though First Dicasterial Observatorium of Aetherial & Astrological Phenomena wasn’t fond of her presence — or any outsider’s for that matter — she was allowed to sit by the fire on the ground floor, & so she most of the did when she visited. It was always better than sitting in the cold snow, even though the cold didn’t bother her too much anyway…

     Material that used to be so hard to come by was now much more readily available — in fact, books about dragons were quite   p o p u l a r   now. Fact or fiction, both children & adults read them — & when someone wasn’t literate enough to read themselves, stories written on those pages would make rounds around the cities & settlements from mouths to ears. Brii found the books   e v e r y w h e r e  , no matter which library she visited, sometimes even from the streets.

     This was perfect time for her to begin researching about her own kin, & about herself alike, no one was questioning the curiosity towards dragons anymore. Even though the knowledge of this all was in her   b l o o d   , in her very   b e i n g   , she believed she had been mislead her entire life, blind & deaf like a new-born babe to almost anything else than the   r a g i n g   t u n e   of the Dragonsong. Why had this life brought Brii so much   p a i n   ? Why did it affect her so much ? Why had she done such   c r u e l   things to those that never deserved it, why had she given in to the temptation of vengeance, domination & destruction ? What exactly had taken control of her on that   f a t e f u l   day when she killed that poor woman, that woman whose body she now was the prisoner of — the void, or the destined purpose of her bloodline, or maybe something completely else ? Perhaps the wisdom written on these books could help her find ways to understand, ways to cope — cope with both her past, & future alike.   H e a l i n g   was needed, Brii was tired of suffering, it was long overdue she would research ways she could ease the   b u r d e n   laying heavy on her shoulders.

     A brittle book in her hands, ‘The Compliance, Copulation & Consort’ , Brii gently brushed every   d u s t y   &   f r a g i l e   page clean, as she hungered for the knowledge resting on their surface. Written by some man long gone, some of the writing was close to   u n r e a d a b l e   , eyes squinting in hopes of more   c l e a r   vision — the uneven flicker of the flame & the poor lightning certainly wasn’t helping either… Yet, even though some pages were completely missing & words smudged over, a page after page Brii could draw a clearer picture in her mind.

     Brii had expected to find at least some answers, but not as heavy as she came across merely a moment later: ‘A dragon cannot simply shut their ears to their sire’s call; to do so would cause them great   t o r m e n t   .’ Suddenly did her stomach feel like a   b o u l d e r   was dropped into it, colour on her face   f a d i n g   . She had felt this fact   l i v i n g   inside her all her life, the burning drive to please the elder representatives of her bloodline — Brii knew Nidhogg’s hold over his brood had been   a b s o l u t e   , she had been the victim of it herself… Although Nidhogg was not Brii’s sire directly, her ancestors & long deceased parents had been. & if nothing else… She still in the end was a distant off-spring of   M i d g a r d s o r m r   , the ancestral Father of all dragons. When Midgardsormr would call his brood for battle, no one could escape… Or could they ?

     Brii at least had tried, multiple times. So was this why she was in so much pain, all those years ? Resisting all those multiple war cries for   v e n g e a n c e  , from both Nidhogg & Midgardsormr alike ? Were they weakening her free will to remain peaceful ? Was there anything that could’ve prevented all that happened to her ? Was there anything that could’ve helped her remain   s a n e   ?

     The text was raising more questions than it gave her answers. The speed of her fingers turning the pages   q u i c k e n e d   , golden eyes desperately searching for a more in-depth knowledge & the further she proceeded, the more she felt the   p r e s s u r e   increase in her chest. Page ‘Consort’   d i s t r e s s e d   her. ‘Dragons can go into seclusion for centuries while carrying grief in their hearts. Ultimately, they are unable to bear the strain & it breaks something fundamental within them.’ By every word the book became harder & harder to bear, heart beating like it was about to   b u r s t   from her chest.

     ‘   C o n s o r t s   h e l p   i n   s a v i n g   o n e s e l f 
      f r o m   t h e   a b y s s   o f   i s o l a t i o n  . ’

     Hands fell against the barely clothed thighs in   d i s b e l i e f   , the covers the book grazing against the rough ornate embroidery of her dress. So…   T h i s   was the proof that was long overdue. & as the realization   f e l l   upon her, it felt as cold as the whistling wind of the blizzard outside, as if she wasn’t sitting inside at all. Even the warmth of the flame was in vain, as the dragoness   a v e r t e d   from its before so comforting embrace. She stepped out from the door way into the freezing snow & bent down on her knees, face burying iinto her palms. Never mind the damned book, now fallen into a small puddle on the ground, pages soaking with the water. If needs be, Brii would rewrite it with her own hands without a complaint… But now   i t   d i d n ’ t   m a t t e r   .

     So she had made it all   w o r s e   all along… Just when she thought she had been doing a right thing by sparing the world from her presence, it had been wrong. The more she had fought, the more she had isolated herself from the rest of her kin out of fear, the more she had invited the   h a t r e d   into her heart. She should’ve found kindred spirits within her kin siblings… She should’ve tried to desperately find someone to rely on, & not be alone. She should’ve tried to find a   c o n s o r t   . Though, there was no winning as part of the Nidhogg’s brood anyway, was there ? If she gave in, she would’ve been overwhelmed by the   r a g e   burning inside. If she resisted, she would turn unstable & mad.

     It all made sense now… Ishgardians   k i l l e d   Ratatoskr, Nidhogg’s closest sibling & supposedly his consort, & he went mad. The very blood of her murderers ran in the future Ishgardians’ veins. The city state of Ishgard was founded with the stolen strength of Ratatoskr’s eyes. Nidhogg had lost the one that had kept him grounded, & he was unable to stop the war due to grief of losing someone so fundamentally important to him. Many other dragons that wanted to resists Nidhogg’s anger had simply flown away, fled to other lands, whereas Brii was too   a f r a i d   to make such a massive decision… The grief of losing her parents so young — in fact, as new-born — had left Brii to stand alone,   c o n f u s e d  , unsure where she belonged, or if she belonged anywhere at all… Born in the middle of a Dragonsong War left an individual only so few of their own decisions to make, both man & dragon. The   s o f t n e s s   in her heart had been heavily contrasted with the destructive nature of the rest of Nidhogg’s kin, leaving only uncertainty & fear behind.

     & such memories made the last fragment of glee fade from Brii’s being as she wholly collapsed on to the ground, a muffled scream escaping from her. Cheeks so cold from the bitter wind of Coerthas got soon caressed by the uncontrollable flow of hot tears, & this time Brii had no intention stopping them from coming. Her heart now open to the truth & sadness, she wept — a first step of   s e l f   h e a l i n g   .

     But, even though it hurt… Was it that bad after all ? Nidhogg was   d e a d  . Dragonsong War was   o v e r   . & Brii was   f r e e   . Did it only take a simple realization from her — it was all done now, & she had no one controlling her ? That, in fact, it all hadn’t been her fault ? What she had done, what she had participated in. Briefly joining Midgardsormr when he called & perished, taking over Stone Vigil from the Ishgardians, eventually killing that woman whose body she now resided in. She hadn’t meant any of it, she had been controlled by some other force than her own   f r e e   w i l l   — Nidhogg’s anger towards man, whom she in the end ended up hurting herself. What for was she blaming herself ? For being too   w e a k   ? Then the rest of the horde was as weak as her, & that made no sense.

     Darkness had fallen on Coerthas. Minutes would pass, the crying would continue, until the snow had melted under her body heat, her voice broke to a hoarse wheeze & there were no tears to spare anymore. So then, she lifted her blushed visage to the white skies, snowflakes kissing her skin as they fell. Invitation for healing was given, & Brii   a c c e p t e d   it.

     “A consort…” she thought to herself,   i n h a l i n g   deeply, eyes staring into nothing. Though the thought was scary, Brii was light of mind. All her tears were now spent, her fears fought, & maybe after this it was time to move on. & even she didn’t find a consort, she would at least find a   f r i e n d   … “So   t h a t   is why Hraesvelgr survived…” Because of Shiva. Hraesvelgr had found his consort, a love of his life that had entwined with his own spirit, & that is why he was able to resist both Midgardsormr’s & Nidhogg’s call. That had kept him grounded & sane.

     & so it seemed, that was all it took.   R e a l i z a t i o n   . & most of all,   a c c e p t a n c e   .

     Contrasting the deep inhale that was before, Brii now   e x h a l e d   , vapor elevating from her nostrils. Rising slowly on her feet, book still staying on the ground, the heaviness that weighed on her so hard before had gone, her body as   l i g h t   as a feather. Left standing, Brii had no intention to leave any time soon… This moment was to   s t a y  … & she realized how incredibly   p r e c i o u s   &   b e a u t i f u l   life could truly be if she were to be the master of her own fate.

     & this time, as her throat began to vibrate from a familiar hum, the tune of Dragonsong symbolized something completely else than it had before. This time, it brought   p e a c e   into her spirit instead of grief. & so it was time to move on.

anonymous asked:

i f o u n d t h e 2 0 1 3 w t n v f a n f i c o f y o u r s a n d a m g o i n g t o r e a d i t

i told myself i was gonna stay off tumblr until i finish this thing im working on but i skimmed thru notifs and seeing these asks legitimately put the fear of god into my soul

i mean, i guess not too. cuz like. i dont really hide my fics yo. it’s all still there on my ao3 and i just locked my homestuck fics because they are So Badly Written. ive only deleted maybe three fics but aside from that my entire fic history since 2012 is free to peruse, anon. even if….it fills me with dread……i was absolute shit back then….

i was fourteen let me live

im genuinely glad that that was you take away from this fic because it’s probably the only good thing in there. 

thanks for reading, i guess hskfjfhksdf. hope u had some ounce of entertainment from my overwhelmingly mediocre era

Sans/Reader and Sans/Frisk Master Post

I decided to create a list of sans/reader and sans/older frisk fics I personally enjoyed a lot (and it made it easier for my friends). I will also add in a few undertale fics I think that are awesome and not shippy. I’ll try to update the list as often as I can, but I encourage you to check out ao3 as well! Any fics that are Frisk/Sans, I’ll label with ~ since some people are uncomfortable with it and I don’t want to deceive anyone. Don’t forget to support the writers with a nice comment or kudos!

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Summer 2k16 has killed me

•first we get Pokemon go
•then the team leaders get released
•and I’m dying
•holy fuck they’re a l l so hot
•I’m crying
•BLANCHE AND CANDELA WILL RULE THE WORLD FIGHT ME
•NB BLANCHE IS PERFECT
•Spark is my dank meme lord son who’s a bamf
•then there’s fucking Voltron
•I didn’t know I needed that in my life
•fucking klance
•espisode 11
•not good for my heart
•P I D G E
•we need more hunk love
•then fucking Steven universe
•pearl in a t u X
•so perfect
•her ballad was beautiful
• F R E E! S T A R T I N G D A Y S
•smol baby shark Rin
•protective bf baby souske
•M A K O H A R U
•Nao-senpai
•cheer DANSHI
•my gay cheer boys whom I love SM
•days
•holy freak kazama is my love
•TSUKUSHI is the purest cinnamon roll
•my gay soccer boys
•I’m pretty sure I’m missing more
•I’ll update it if I find more shit that ruined me
•let’s not forget about tgddg’s day care AU
•this summer has been to much for me weak soul

@prcmiiise / / Day 251

O N E

     T W O

          T H R E E

When will he come back to me?

O N E

     T W O

          T H R E E

                 F O U R

Maybe he’s not mine anymore.

It’s difficult to keep quiet and even more difficult to see that somber face. The eyes of angst and utter pain. Destroyed by something so real. She can’t even comfort him. She can’t say a word. Heavy hearts, broken souls. How much longer can this vicious situation trudge on? His face.

His face.

Those, melancholy eyes torture her. They make her chest feel tight, her throat feel clogged by something that she can’t explain. Closer, and closer she will step. That voice, that gentle, wistful voice.  He’s the only thing in this world that she would risk everything for. Dare she risk it? Maybe today, just this once…maybe today, “…Mike.” I think about you every day. I’m still here.

anonymous asked:

MARX SUFFERIN G WHEN LAZWARD HITS ON KAMUI AND KAMUI DOESN'T BLOW HIM OFF LIKE SHE SHOULD SHES NOT FLIRTNG BACK BUT STILL MARX CANT GET HIS WORK DONE OR LEAVE THEM ALONE BC YEAH ITW ONE SIDED FOR NOW BUT LAZWARD WORKS HIS WAY INTO GIRLS HEARTS

ok no but. Imagine Kamui being the flirtatious one. It’s not even that she’s casting a wide net so to speak its just that after being isolated and shit she doesn’t know where she fits on the sex-appeal spectrum so she flirts to see just how powerful she is (and it’s funny to see people trip over themselves bc of her)

She’s like the Indominus Rex but instead of murdering everyone she establishes dominance by making everyone flustered

and Marx is just. INTERNALLY SCREAMING BC KAMUI HAS SO MUCH GAME SHE IS A T E R R O R. He doesn’t even know until one day Laz comes into his office, face completely red, breathless, with this awed look on his face just like “Sir, with respect your sister has the most game I have ever witnessed” and Marx is just like “?????? I know she’s a good fighter I trained her” and Laz is just like “no I mean she is smoking hot like goddAMN no wonder people call her the dragon she is r u t h l e s s” and marx dies a little inside

and he just sees her flirting with f u c k i n g everyone. at first it’s just verbal. then she gets more bold, lightly trailing her fingers down Odin’s cleavage window leaving the poor boy on the ground, incapacitated. Then it’s parallel sealing to the maid class. Then after she establishes dominance she starts borrowing Camilla’s clothes, and she doesnt even need to speak anymore she holds her head high like a goddamn queen, paying no one any mind until at the last second she just glances over at her poor victim what that look and it’s over. they’re done. have fun waking up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat for years to come as you wonder just how good the Dragon of Nohr would be ya poor shmuck. Charlotte applauds Kamui and concedes defeat, hailing her as the seductress queen and labeling herself a devout follower in her stilettoed footsteps

marx lives half in f e a r that one day she will turn her sights on him bc she already got lil bro and he knows how weak he is for kamui he fucking k n o w s there’s gonna be no saving his poor damned soul. but he’s always so f r u s t r a t e d too because she never hits on him. Like???? Is there something wrong with him? She flirts with everyone else???? But with him she’s the serious and polite girl he’s always known. He thinks maybe she really does consider them family until the day Leon runs into his office to scream KAMUI NEEDS TO BE S T O P P E D before running away and spending the entire weekend in his room.

the real reason for this is, of course, because Kamui sees Marx as the “alpha” because he is her i d e a l and thinks she doesn’t have the experience/ability/training yet to even try yet. But as her influence and reign of terror spreads through Nohr she gains confidence. Eventually does something by accident that leaves Marx like Drake at the end of Anaconda