real talk: i’m such a mess because of eurovision rn, honestly i didn’t like portugal, not bcs we came second, i think a lot of countries showed so much more than him. israel, belgium, austria, the nertherlands, croatia honestly i had so many faves and i definitely did not expect portugal to win. also i just wanna say i am so proud of kristian for reaching the second place, his speech had me sobbing like a baby. i hope he knows how proud bulgaria is with him and that we love him.
“I said I want to spend more time with you.. Or I’ll break up with you. ” your convict words got him surprised.
“Why (y/n)? What I have done wrong? I spend a lot of time with you! ” you noticed that he was getting a little nervous, and not in a good way…
“You don’t have time for our relationship! I spent valentine’s day alone and you didn’t even bother to call me to say at least one ‘I love you’! You know how much it hurts Jaebum!?”
He stayed there frozen, without words for the first time. He took a deep breath and looked at you, his eyes burning with anger.
“That is what this stupid fight all about (y/n)? You want to broke up because of this selfishness of yours? YOU KNOW VERY WELL THAT I HAVE A JOB THAT DEMENDS MOST OF MY TIME (Y/N)! WHY CAN’T YOU UNDERSTAND THAT? ”
You ran to the bathroom to cry yourself out. Jaebum really hurt your feelings with his words. You knew that he couldn’t spend all his time with you due to his busy schedule, but not coming home for 2 weeks and almost no calls from him, made you rethink your relationship.
“Jagi.. please come out! I’m calm now.. I promise I won’t shout anymore.. we’re both tired and…” You heard his voice through the door. Tears running down your cheeks.
“I want to broke up Jaebum” this time your voice was weak. It was a hard decision, but you were able to see that this relation couldn’t go any further the way it was now. His job was his life and his dream, not you, and loving him too much made you realize that you don’t want to stay in his way.
“What?! No!” Jaebum slammed the door trying to open it. You flinched hearing the loud noises.
“Stop it Jaebum! Just go away! I won’t stay in your way anymore! ”
He stopped and breathed heavily.
“Just open it jagi…” he seemed broken. You opened the door and never saw him like that. He had tears in his eyes but he had a sad smile with it. His arms wrapped you in a thigh hug, whispering soothing words in your ear as you cried in his chest.
“How could you say that? I would never leave you and you are part of my dream too. I love you, and I’m sorry. I’ll change and..”
“I love you too Jaebum. I’m sorry too. Let’s both change to get our relationship back on track!” You smiled at him and he kissed you sealing your promise.
‘I won´t talk to her, I won´t talk to her…’ Mark thought while sitting on the sofa off your shared apartment, his fingers moving in his legs nervously. ‘She needs to be alone right now.. But I want to make her stop crying! Aish! I have no idea of what should I do!” He ran his fingers through his hair, feeling useless.
You have been crying alone in your room for a couple of hours because of a fight you just had with your parents. They decided to move away to other country, without even talk to you first. You were sad and didn´t know what to do next.
Your face was lying on the soft pillow, and the only thing that could be heard was your quiet sobs and hiccups.
Mark, after a couple of minutes finally decided to go see you. It broke his heart to see you at this state and he wanted to help, but he wasn´t sure how to do it. Quietly, he sat on the bed and pulled you into his arms on a thigh hug. Mark kissed your forehead tenderly, a simple action that made you smile a bit for the first time today.
“Are you ok dear?”
“I´m a bit better now…” your voice was still trembling, but at least you stopped crying.
“That´s it.. Pretty girls shouldn´t cry like that! I like you more when you smile.” His big smile warmed your heart.
“You think they are abandoning me Mark?”
“They are moving on dear.. You have me now, and I think they already noticed that you don´t need them close all the time anymore. We have our life now, and they have theirs too!”
You breathed heavily and held his hand on yours. Mark was right. You were an adult now, not daddy’s little girl!
After a couple of minutes just cudlling and thinking, you decided what to do. Your boyfriend’s words helped you, and his quiet but lovings actions calmed your messy thoughts.
“Will you go with me apologize to my parents?”
“Of course (y/n).. Anything to make you happy” Mark them kissed you gently on the lips, before taking you to your parents house.
“(y/n)? Are you home?” Jackson asked while putting his bags on the floor. As the answer didn’t come, he decided to search for you in the bedroom. With fast steps, he reached your bedroom and saw an unexpected scene.
You were sitting on the floor, crying, with your cellphone placed right beside you.
“Baobei! What are you doing? Why are crying?” Jackson almost jumped to your side hugging you and kissing your cheeks, trying to wipe away your salty tears.
“(your ex name) just called me.. and..”
“And what?” Jackson was getting angrier as he heard your ex name.
“Well he wanted me back, but I said no and he screamed at me and then we fought..” you were sad, because all you wanted was to forget your previous abusive relationship.
“I can´t believe that dick head called you again!” Jackson was burning with anger. It wasn´t the first time your ex called you, trying to make you come back to him, and he knew all the things your ex did to you.
“It´s ok now Jackson… I dumped him. Again.” You tried to smile reassuring your position. Your boyfriend’s expression softened a bit.
“I’m glad that you still want to be with me (y/n).. now stop crying or I’ll have to go catch that jerk and make him beg for your forgive!”
“OK OK! I’ll stop crying.. I don´t want to take you out of jail because of (y/ex/n).” You said as you smiled wider to Jackson’s happiness. He caressed your hair tenderly kissing your cheeks.
“That’s my girl!”
“Stop crying already! I already said sorry!” Jinyoung whined.
You guys fought over an stupid matter, but you were sensible because of the hormones of every woman ‘that days’. You were crying on your bed hugging you favorite teddy bear while Jr. tried to make you stop.
He carassed your thights and pushed you to him making you look at him in the eyes.
“Just stop babe.. I don’t like seeing you cry” He smiled and wiped your tears with his fingers. “Let’s forget that stupid fight and continue what we were doing.
You hid your face behind you teddy bear before Jinyoung could kiss your lips. He pouted and gave up, getting back to the living room to continue watching the movie. You felt bad. He was right, you should stop crying and comeback to the first movie night you guys were having in months.
Quietly you came back to the Tv room laying down on Jinyoung’s lap. He tried to ignore you but your intense aegyo was too much for him.
“Forgive me oppa?” you asked making you best lost kitten expression.
“I don´t know if you deserve…” He had a serious face, but it felt down a he laughed at your expression. “OK babe, I forgive you.”
Jinyoung was happy that you finally stopped crying, and, while you guys were watching another movie, he promised to himself that would never make you cry ever again.
“I expected more of you miss (y/n)..” Your teacher said as he gave you your math test. That day so far was being awful. One of the popular girls threw your stuff on the school trash can ‘by accident’, your grades were getting worse and your boyfriend was promoting his new album, which means that you wouldn’t see him for at least a whole month.
“I’m sorry Mr.(y/t/n). I promise I’ll get better grades next semester..” You got out of class feeling horrible. You took a deep breath as you walked down the hallway, getting your shoes on your locker and putting them.
“You really are stupid (y/n)..” one of the popular girls that hated you, said behind you.
“That’s nice for me huh? I’m glad that it’s not you the stupid one..” you replied with a bitter tone of voice. “Oh no wait! I forgot that the person who you get the test answers is me.. maybe you are the stupid one for copying me.” The words just spitted out of your mouth.
That girl wasn’t what you wanted right now, you just wanted your home and your boyfriend.
“What did you say?” She asked
“I know you heard me… Now get out of my way” as you passed, she grabbed our hair and pushed it with force, making you hit your butt on the floor.
“NEVER TALK TO ME LIKE THAT YOU BITCH!” She stormed out, finally leaving you alone.
After she leave, you feel tears running down your cheeks slowly. This day was so tiring, and all you needed was your bed to cry everything out….
In home, you opened the door and saw a bag on the floor near the sofa. It wasn’t yours, so that could mean only one thing: Youngjae was back.
You ran to your room and he was there, watching tv relaxed.
“Youngjae?” Your voice trembled
“Jagi!!!” He ran to you and caught you in his arms. You both stayed in the same position for some time, but the feelings hit you again, making you cry once more. “Jagi.. what’s wrong?” Youngjae looked at your face and kissed your forehead.
“I know something happened! Tell me!”
You couldn’t hide it anymore. You told him everything that happened in the last few days.
Youngjae, lead you to bed, singing some slow musics, calming you down and making sure you stopped crying.
“Never cry again if you’re not in my arms”.
Yep! Youngjae was really all you needed…
“Babe no! Come back here!” Bambam said as you ran into your room. “I´m sorry!”
You guys just had a little discussion when you ‘interrupted’ him while he was heading his way to the game night with the boys. But there was a tiny detail, it was your anniversary! You couldn´t believe he forgot, and even screamed at you.
“Go play games with your friends Kunpimook! They are more important than me!” You yelled at him, making him give up.
“I’ll be at my dorm then.. When you’re ready, go talk to me. Getting locked in your room, won’t help us resolve this”.
You decided to ignore him and buried your face in your soft pillow. Tears fell in your cheeks, wetting the white fabric. You really didn’t want to fight Bambam in such an important day.
As the time passed, you felt asleep deeply, forgetting your sadness. Just to woke up by a pair of arms circling your waist. The hot air coming from the other person’s mouth send chills through your spine.
“Why were you crying babe?” Bambam asked with his soft low voice.
“I didn’t want to fight… I just wanted a romantic night with you. But I over reacted to Kunpimook.. I’m sorry” you said while he pulled your body closer to his own. His lips left a soft kiss in your neck.
Bambam hated to see you cry, especially when he is the one who made you. He just wanted to see you smile again.
“No dear.. I am the one who should be asking for your forgiveness.. I forgot this important day and acted like a big jerk.. Will you forgive me (Y/N)?”
Your lips meet his, in a silence positive response.
“Jagi? Are you ok? What happened?” Your boyfriend tried to talk to you as you entered running into their dorm, going directly to his bedroom to cry yourself out.
“Why are you crying?” He asked again, closing the door to give you guys some privacy.
“I fought with (your best friend name)… I didn’t want to, but she/he just pissed me in a way I never thought she/he could!” you said almost drowning on your own tears. Yugyeom would be a bit lost, since he didn’t quite know what to do.. He prefered to not ask the motive of the discussion, just in case that it might make you worse.
“What should I do?” You asked hugging him.
He responded to your hug pulling your body even closer, kissing your forehead. He entered in a mental discussion with himself, trying to reach the better answer possible.
“OMG What should I say?? It’s better to stay like this or say something bad about her friend?”
“First of all, stop crying! I hate to see you like this”
You stopped and looked at him.
“Errmm.. now.. *he scratches his neck* I think we should forget that friend of yours, and have some cuddling time! Just the two of us!” He smiled, but it fade away when he notice your serious expression. “What? Was it too stupid?” He asks nervous.
Soon you relax and smile back at him.
“I think you’re just right!” You hugged him again, relaxing and stop crying.
Yugyeom breathed heavily, thinking: “That was close! But I never thought it would be that easy to make her stop crying.. Anything for my jagi!”
Sorry guys. Just had to get a few of these out of the way.
I’m expecting many mean comments (cuz I always get them) and I thought I’d simultaneously save those dealing them out from the effort and prove that they don’t have as many original ideas as they think.
1. What is Fall of the Hewn City? Did you just throw together every soap opera cliche into a fanfiction? Coma? Srsly?
2. What are you doing? Spend more time on Nessian! This is pathetic!
3. Has it occurred to anyone that none of this so far has anything to do with the Hewn City other than the fact that Mor went there twice?
4. SJM wrote in Elucien. You can’t just pretend that Elriel exists now.
5. Who is this random chick and what does she have to do with the plot?
6. You’re a trash writer.
Done now? Good. Maybe you’ll have to struggle to come up with some better ones. Here are my responses:
1. Yeah. I did. And it works, right?
2. You’re pathetic. Also, I do love Nessian but extra sections for them just didn’t work.
3. JUST WAIT YEESH
4. Yes I can. Watch me.
5. JUST WAIT YEESH
6. Yeah, I am. Don’t really care. Have a nice day.
Sorry guys, I just really had to vent. I was having a great day, my writers block gone and I was writing - though of course my brother wanted to hang out today so I couldn’t write as much as I wanted to - and I got to make homemade bread, which is my favorite food in the world, but in ended like this and now I’m in no mood to do anything other than lie in bed. I honestly hardly have the motivation to scroll through my dashboard… But I’ll get over it soon, I always do, and I hope to have a post up by Monday at the latest ^-^
The past few weeks have mostly been filled with Jelly related asks. Or just saying how you want to see More Jelly.
So I did the Outfit Challenge to focus more on Me. But then you guys asked for Jelly Anyways. Now that Jelly is Gone, you Still Ask for Her. Now asking for Tourmaline.
I only split her because she was doing something somewhere else and to pull focus to Me.
So..Why ask for Her when this blog is “Ask Tanzanite”. You guys should be asking Me stuff. If you’re confused about something about me, Just Ask It. If you want to see me do something, Go Ahead and Ask For It.
Just..let me have the spotlight in my own Act for a change..ok?