I’ve been thinking.. John must felt guilt after what happened in TRF. I think he must felt that Sherlock’s death was HIS FAULT. And thinking that makes my stomach struggle.. because thinking that you were the cause or the motive of death of someone, and that “someone” it’s not only a random person, but YOUR FRIEND.. it is a horrible feeling. It does not allow you to sleep, a thought that is always present in your head… and I don’t even imagine the things that he was feeling at that time..
I mean, what was the last thing John said to Sherlock face to face?..
And I understand why he said that, Mrs Hudson had an accident, and Sherlock were all like: “Oh, Okay. Fine.” If I were John I would react the exact same way.. But then…
And that’s where John explodes and told him the last thing he will ever said to him before the fall..
He said that, because he thought Sherlock didn’t care about Mrs. Hudson, didn’t care about him, didn’t care about anything, in that moment, just for a moment John believed what everyone said about Sherlock.. “He’s just a sociopath he doesn’t care about anything”.
But surprise, surprise.. Moriarty’s final threat was..
“Your FRIENDS will die if you don’t *jump*.” Moriarty knew, even Mycroft knew.. Sherlock DOES care, that’s his weak, John is his weak, Mrs. Hudson, Lestrade, his FRIENDS. It was obvious, the people who did not realize that, only saw but did not observe.
So, John realised that something was wrong when the emergency call was fake, and then he ran unto Sherlock but…
Yes, OF COURSE, Sherlock jumped, it was the ONLY way to save his friends, because like John said: Friends protect people.
And John get it, he understood what Sherlock did and why, because earlier, he told him that he was a machine. In short, that everyone was right and he was only a sociopath..
That’s why he was asking, he was wishing, BEGGING to him not to be dead, because he was his friend and he, John was wrong, EVERYONE ELSE was WRONG, he wasn’t a sociopath, nor a Psychopath either, he was The best and wisest man that he have ever known.
And I think John thought that now Sherlock was dead because of that comment that he did on that lab.. And for two years he blamed himself for his death… That’s why I think Sherlock’s death was twice hard for John.. And maybe
that’s why he was so pissed when he found out that Sherlock was alive and he (Sherlock) didn’t contact him even once, so he was angry because he spent two years blaming himself..
writes books upon books of magic history, magic spells, magic theory
and, all the while, he doesn’t actually use his magic quite that much.
he battles, of course, but only when he has a job to do
if not, hes locked up in whatever inn hes staying at, writing more books on how to properly position your fingers to get the best expulsion of flames.
in battle, alexander doesn’t carry a physical weapon with him, other than a dagger. he relies on his magic most. he runs head-first into battle, but as he gets weaker, he retreats into the background to recuperate, then goes back in.
alexander’s favoured weapon is hand-casted fire magic.
besides writing and fighting, he is very interested in alchemy (mixing potion and health potions, specfically) and enchanting weaponry.
he wants to be a magic professor when he grows too old to fight.
he has been a soldier since he was born (basically)
knows his way around all types of weaponry, but prefers two handed weapons.
what? its just better.
he is really good with positioning and blocking, knowing when to move and when not to…
but he always forgets people can be behind him.
(he has specially made armour with extra back protection)
sometimes gets too into it during battle, and quite often ends up just flailing around and hitting literally everyone.
this is why he doesnt have a higher rank; hes severely injured rather important people on his side.
most likely to sneak out of the camp at night and listen to the sounds of the wilderness by himself. a moment of peace amidst the chaos.
john’s favoured weapon is a two-handed battle axe.
besides fighting, john likes drawing and dancing - he is always the one to start fire-side dances and whenever they have a break on a journey, he draws something in the nature around them.