sorry if its too long for you

  • [In the group chat]
  • Seunghyun: Where are you?
  • Jiyong: I'm stuck in traffic
  • Daesung: Just run right through them
  • Daesung: Scream, as you plow them down, IT'S GAME NIGHT! I HAVE PLACES TO BE!!!
  • Youngbae: I didn't know you had that kind of anger in you and frankly I'm impressed
  • Seungri: Guys WTF
BTS as shit I say in school
  • In honor that I'm officially in vacation
  • Jin: This place sucks so much I can't even enjoy my food anymore
  • Yoongi: It's confirmed, I'll kill myself
  • Hoseok: Shakespeare was bisexual and y'all can fight me on this
  • Namjoon: (To Jin) Say the English teacher is actually nice one more time and I swear I'm leaving you
  • Jimin: I just want to go home and cuddle my cat
  • Taehyung: I was genuinely trying to pay attention to math but my brain was more concerned on what color were dinosaurs
  • Jungkook: Look bitches I ain't doing all the work and also presenting in front of everyone okay, I'm shy, I dont like it, so can y'all just talk for five minutes without screwing all I did??????

Dr. Even warned that I would hurt more at about day three post-op because the numbing medicine he put in my spine would wear off.

It wore off. lol

Still, though, the pain is nowhere near what I was feeling before and for that I am eternally grateful. Words cannot express how much pain I was in for those last few hours before surgery without pain meds. There is a reason why I cried when that pain was finally gone.

What I’m feeling now is a very deep ache deep down in my spine along with some slight burning where the incision is. There’s some discomfort underneath me where the disc pain was, but I say discomfort as an overstatement. It’s like a 0.5 on the pain scale, so more of a “I feel something down there” than a “this hurts”.

I had to call Dr. Even’s office on Wednesday because my discharge papers said to call and report any coldness, tingling, or numbness in the toes, and the outer most three toes on my right foot are numb along with the heel, slightly in the calf, and all down the back of my right thigh from just under the cheek to the knee. When his assistant, Ambrosia, called me back (she’s the one who went over my MRI images with me last week and is super nice; I liked her a lot) she assured me that the numbness is completely normal and is just that bruised nerve healing (thank god!). The numbness will go away in the next few weeks from the top down, so my toes will be the last thing to get feeling back.

Then she told me the good news that since I was up and walking around so much with zero pain in my legs, I could go ahead and take off the compression stockings two days early! That made me SO happy because compression stockings are SO tight and uncomfortable! After getting off the phone I (carefully) sat down in a chair, stuck out my leg, and told my mom “Be my prince for me!!” so she could pull them off for me. She did so with impressive flare. lol

Thanksgiving was nice, albeit a little uncomfortable given that the numbing medicine started wearing off right before we sat down to eat.

Holidays are casual in my family and are more about spending time together than being fancy, so it’s always comfy clothes at the dinner table and disposable table wear (although it’s always themed and color coordinated to look nice) with a live floral centerpiece with candles in it. This year, though, my mom and I were never able to go out and pick out the table wear.

Because of this my mom jokingly said to me last week that we should just use some of the leftover 4th of July stars and stripes plates from Costco for Thanksgiving, and we had a good laugh over the concept before I said you know what? Let’s actually do that. Then we decided to go all out with the hodge-podge of leftover holiday things from years past, including an ugly turkey tablecloth that’s been under our buffet server since I was a child, last year’s Christmas napkins, and an old ceramic Halloween jack-o’-lantern as the centerpiece.

So for this year it was, behold:

Merry 4th of Thanksween.

Later today my bandages can come off, which I am very happy about. Right now I have a lump of gauze on my back under a waterproof plastic covering, and when I lean back in a chair or lay on my back in bed it puts pressure on the incision and is really uncomfortable. Hopefully the steri-strips on the incision are dry because then I can just leave the incision as-is, open to the air to finish healing. Dr. Even said the steri-strips would fall off on their own in a couple weeks.

Fingers crossed that the strips are dry with no seepage from the incision (even though some seepage is normal). I want this to heal as quickly as possible so I can get back to normal! I still have deadlines to meet in the next couple weeks from holiday clients to Born to Shine, so I’d really like to get moving on recovery. Five solid weeks of this hell was enough.

anonymous asked:

Could you possibly write something with blackhat comforting his SO after they start panicking about their past abuser? i understand if it makes you uncomfy, but if you do write this thank you!

Anonymous said: I probably didn’t add to much details did I? I’m sorry. If you wrote something about how the reader is sometimes afraid of blackhat when he get’s mad and apologizes too much? Their abuser would verbally abuse them (and physically sometimes). Thank you once again!

OH MY GOD THIS IS SO LATE IM SO SORRY! you did give me all the details i needed, and hopefully you really like how this came out ‘cause i actually enjoyed writing this. though, I am a bit worried for you, if something is happening don’t be afraid to tell me anything about it, im here to listen. anyways!! here you go lovely anon!

TW: mention of abuse

It was a new and simply odd thing for him to understand. He couldn’t seem to wrap his mind around how anxious you would get around him, especially with his sudden outbursts to his idiotic employees, but surely you knew he wouldn’t hurt you, right? Well, yes, raising his voice was something he couldn’t really seem to control, even around you, but no physical violence. He wouldn’t dare lay a claw on you in such a way!

His eye locked on you as you sat at the edge of your bed. A fist gripping tightly onto the sheets and your other hiding your face. The room was dark and deadly silent, the sobs you trying not to force out occasionally making their way out your mouth. 

All he was really able to do was watch from the doorframe before returning back to the dark hallway, leaving you to be, closing the door without a sound. This was something he always did when he found you in this state. It confused him when he found you like that on nights you thought you were alone. To gush over him and exclaim over and over how much you loved him to then cry to yourself at night. Just the fact he didn’t understand what exactly was upsetting you was killing him, and don’t even get him started on the unfamiliar feeling he got in throat. It wasn’t some deep and evil chuckle but something else, and he wasn’t willing to explore more on what it was.

But, it was time to get back to his paperwork. Ugh, paperwork. Just the thought of it made his face twist into a scowl-


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“I did it for you.”

worship, an epiphany, and hair

midoriya roping todoroki into doing silly couple poses did you mean: my will to live

here’s a colored version of a thing i did for @van1llababy a while back! hope you like it joe!



text post sentence starters  /  original version here

  • “bro, you look so cute right now. dude, you are so fucking adorable.”
  • “wanna watch this murder documentary with me?”
  • “i may act like i’m sassy but if you’re mean to me there’s a 900% chance i’ll cry.”
  • “i may act like I’m clueless but actually know what’s going on at al times.”
  • “attention: i need attention.”
  • “i don’t have a nervous system. i’m a nervous system.”
  • “drugs? no thanks, the only ‘high’ i need is the natural rush you get from commiting a murder.”
  • “i think i’m subconsciously trying to ruin my own life.”
  • “why fall in love when you can fall on the floor and never get up?”
  • “i try not to sound like an asshole but it’s really hard because i am an asshole.”
  • “i don’t want to look 'pretty’, i want to look otherwordly and vaguely threatening.”
  • “i’m the nicest, sweetest, most rage-filled person i know.”
  • “girls are so soft and amazing and nice and beautiful and mysterious and complex and loving and caring. i don’t remember what i was going to say but i’m just gay.“
  • "i’d love to relax but that’s just not realistic.”
  • “contrary to popular belief i’m actually soft and have feelings.”
  • “this could be less hetero.”
  • “to be honest i just need a hug.”
  • “why can’t I be mentally chill instead of mentally ill?”
  • “this is it, this is how i die: lack of attention.”
  • “are we just friends or is this flirting serious?”
  • “i have this problem where i isolate myself from civilization and then get upset because i’m lonely.”
  • “i may be ugly but at least i have an ugly personality too. consistency is key.”
  • “i don’t wanna get involved in drama i just wanna know 103% of the information on what happened.”
  • “i am bysexual as in i’m not interested, goodbye.”
  • “i could win an olympic gold medal in being ignored.”
  • “fill your heart with bees. if someone breaks your heart then they have to deal with the bees.”
  • “i’m so tired of not being a multimillionaire.”
  • “i panic a lot of other places besides the disco.”
  • “which layer of hell do you think you’re going to?”
  • “my kink is being right.”
  • “my kink is being home alone.”
  • “you’re really sensitive for a selfish asshole.”
  • “i can tell myself to be heartless but in all reality, i have a big heart and can’t treat people badly, that’s just not me.”
  • “what about netflix and kill?”
  • “no offense but why does everyone hate me?”
  • “i’m a strong independent introvert who don’t need no social life.”
  • “why do i get struggles instead of snuggles?”
  • “if a conversation goes on too long without being about me, i’m out.”
  • “i’m small, queer and something to fear.”
  • “all this sadness is bad for my skin.”
  • “i’m cute and perfect but also unstable, violent and self-destructive”
  • “i’m beautiful and underappreciated.”
  • “she’s beauty, she’s grace, she’s me.”
  • “sorry for being awesome, loser.”
  • “is 'no’ an emotion? because i’m feeling it.”

“ You watch me bleed until I can’t breathe
I’m shaking falling onto my knees
And now that I’m without your kisses
I’ll be needing stitches “

a little something for @paperhats-and-evil-schemes‘s uh… his Paperhat series where Flug is a Souleater, you should check it out!!  I HOPE YOU LIKE THIS, MARK! and may the angst fuel your writing :^) <3

special mention to @drawinggheys who let me scream about this song to her endlessly, i admire your patience, i love you <33

hauntedtyrantqueen  asked:

OMG I love your icon so much, Sam looks so fucking good in that pic, like where do you find these incredibly photogenic pictures of Jared it's so fucking amazing, I could stare at it all day bro

Oh my gods. I know right?? 

Jared is photogenic in almost any picture. 

But like, do you prefer Jared in a suit? Because fuck, man. 

Or you know… Without a suit whatsoever…? (I die.)

What about his beanie and sunglasses?

Or what about the ridiculous way he stares at the camera sometimes? 

Jared… Sir… Please keep your lips and tongue under control. Just keep your damn mouth under control. 

Oh and hey! What about the stupid Saxx underwear thing? Because double fuck. 

And here’s an adorable younger!jared for good measure. 

There. I totally just filled everybody’s dashboards up with Jared Padalecki, but somehow… I’m not really sorry?? 

I think I accidentally destroyed and murdered myself too. 

I own none of these pictures or gifs. All the credit goes to the rightful owners. 

Feel free to add more gifs/pictures and maybe tag me please?? (you know… Tumblr’s suck-ass notifs) because this is one of the few things I don’t mind being destroyed by. lmao

Avatar Aang is, in every sense of the word, my hero. 

It’s hard to explain in words, but Avatar Aang has been someone there for me since I was a kid. I could literally write an essay on the impact he’s had on me, both spiritually and mentally. I remember as a kid finally discovering Avatar and immediately falling in love with Aang – he was a kid, but he was a hero too, and he had a way of being both those things simultaneously without blurring the line in between. I was a small girl raised in a toxic Mormon household with a violent parent, so seeing Aang fight and use bending in a way that wasn’t considered destructive taught me that I could be strong and protect myself WITHOUT using anger or violence as a source. There are literally so many things I learned from Aang, not just about violence or emotion or anger, but also about spirituality and mental illness and just. Being human I guess? I don’t know, I just really like Avatar Aang.


He can’t be edgy all the time though, right..? 

sometimes a Family is just one dad-joking Suit with a robotic arm, a secretly-soft ageless pilot with a dark past, two tiny traumatised scientists in love, and a self-sacrificing beautiful superheroine with no chill.


Saeyoung: Ohhhh, Saeran! I’m so happy! Thank you thank you thank you!!

Saeran: Yeah…you too. Happy birthday…idiot.

Saeyoung: Hey, let’s take a selfie with your new phone! Get over here!

Saeran: *sighs* Alright.

Saeyoung: Smile!

Saeyoung: This has been the best birthday EVER!! Thank you, Saeran…