Wow this is just too much to take in, I’m overwhelmed with joy that Kit will be the first word in Lord of Shadows and will probably speak to ghosts!! Maybe Jessamine?! Lots of Kit and Ty! (That means Kit is coming to London with them!!)
fantastic beasts but like,,,,,,,, without the plot,,,,,,,,,,,,,, just two hours of my boy newt taking care of all the creatures in his suitcase- and maybe a sideplot about picket’s struggle to fit in with the rest of the bowtruckle,,,, no johnny depp no deeper plot no awkward romantic pairings just good old newt scamander and his magical creatures
When Scorpius arrived in that hellish other world he discovered he had the Dark Mark branded on his arm. He hoped that when he left it would go away, but here he is, back in his own world, hiding the scar from his best friend and his dad.
Am I allowed to blame one of the actors for a fic? This is one hundred percent James Le Lacheur’s fault. I wrote this after seeing her first show as Scorpius back in October. For those who don’t know, her Scorpius rubs his left arm during the conversation about the Voldy timeline in McGonagall’s office, and I’ve now seen that happen twice, so it isn’t a coincidence. It made me wonder whether the Scorpion King is marked, and whether that would affect Scorpius.
This is also @bounding-heart‘s fault for talking about Scorpius and Dark Marks recently. It’s time to finally drag this thing from the angsty depths of my iPad and unleash it on the world.
Do you have a take on Ryan's tragic backstory? (I know you said you actually have a nicer background for him but i thought you might have a dark version too!)
Anonymous said: What are some of your head cannons for FAHC Ryan?
didn’t set out to be what he became. Few children dream of becoming
devastation. It’s a trope that is thrown around in all kinds of media
– redeemable bad guy, killer with a heart of gold. How quaint. Like
most things, the real life version is so much darker.
something bleak and awful in a world renown mercenary who still feels
for every victim. Something inescapably tragic in finding
satisfaction in an act so personally distasteful. Because Ryan’s
never been cruel, exactly. Would never dream of torturing an animal,
of hurting a child. Doesn’t even enjoy the majority of the dirty work
he’s surrounded himself in. Which isn’t to say he doesn’t enjoy any
of it. Doesn’t get some level of dark gratification from his own
competence, from the fear he’s sown, the reputation he’s nurtured,
the safety he’s crafted from blood-soaked screams and scorched white
bones. There was a time when the Vagabond was truly as dispassionate
as they say, but since joining the Fake AH Crew the mercenary
certainly lived up to the gang’s notorious affinity for flare; Ryan
always was a bit theatrical, and the only thing worse than an
apathetic killer is one who can see the morbid humour in it all.
criminal career actually begins years before the Vagabond crashed
into being. Started like so many others; young and bored, too clever
for his own good and desperate for a way to prove it. He drifts into
a group who wanted bigger, wanted better, wanted a life society told
them was forbidden. It would be easy to say he got caught up in the
wrong crowd, pulled along in their wake, but it wouldn’t be accurate.
Ryan has been many things but never meek. Never a blind follower.
Ryan who could never settle for simply trusting what others tell him,
never believing in absolutes he hasn’t tested for himself. Not when
he could find another way around, a way under, when he could take the
problem apart and find a solution no one else ever expected.
he joined, he fit in, he rose and he flourished. Ryan wasn’t a killer
back then, criminal yes but not a mercenary; they were thieves
mostly, would posture and swagger and inflate their own egos but they
kept away from the big gangs. At least at first. Because sooner or
later things are going to go south and it wasn’t pretty when they
did. The group fractures, those who can flee back to their old lives,
or into the relative safety of bigger crews, and those left behind
have blood on their hands and a bounty on their heads.
a life isn’t quite as difficult as Ryan had anticipated. Awful, of
course, and not something he would do without necessity, but the time
for scruples has surely passed and if death is what it takes for the
last dregs of his gang to live then Ryan will paint the streets red.
It’s wrong, he knows. It’s bad, immoral, everything people aren’t
meant to be; it’s wrong and
Ryan does it anyway. Figures morality is all well and good but won’t
help at all if they’re all dead.
a while it works, their group is small but it’s solid, together they
were magnificent. Not that anyone cares about all that, not when the
story everyone knows comes after. Comes, of course, with the birth of
no real surprise that the prominent story surrounding the origin of
the most notorious mercenary in the country is as dark and
unforgivable as the man himself. A tale of betrayal, of protecting
his identity by wiping out all who knew him before the mask, making a
name off of the death of those he once called friends. It’s chilling,
horrifically fitting and almost entirely untrue; the crew dies, yes,
treachery as the hands of one of their own but Ryan is not their
man who traded away their lives for the right price was Ryan’s best
friend in all the world, close enough to call brother, someone he
trusted so blindly he’d let himself be beaten half to death before he
even thought about retaliating. The only crew blood on Ryan’s hands
was, it turns out, the most undeniably clean-cut case of self
defence, not that it matters in the long run. Not when it plays out
in the dark, out of sight, without witness. Not when he’s the only
one who walks away, the one who dons a mask and buries his name,
retreats from humanity and loses all semblance of mercy. Against all
odds Ryan managed to survive. The man he had once been did not.
story takes on a life of its own and the Vagabond does nothing to
stop it; he is, after all, a killer. People should
fear him, should run and hide and pray he doesn’t darken their doors.
He killed a man who he loved dearly; what line was there left
to cross? What sin could be thought too great?
from distraction the Vagabond throws himself into his work, takes job
after job and sets to building the most terrifying image possible, a
reputation full of atrocities which grow with every telling. There
are no weak spots for his enemies to target, no useless emotions
dragging him down; they say he’s heartless, say he’s inhuman, call
him evil, call him corruption,
call him nightmare. Eventually Ryan grows used to the way people
shudder when they see him, confident in his talents and comfortable
with his image. He finally acclimatises to the way mirrors reflect
nothing but a cold black skull, and perhaps he couldn’t quite call
himself happy but he isn’t exactly
displeased with his life.
becomes cathartic in it’s own way, a sense of satisfaction born from
devastation, a sort of peace found in ruin. It makes him his own kind
of damaged Ryan knows. Makes him unfixable, maybe. Or maybe it’s that
thought in and of itself that condemns him, self awareness of his own
desecration, a self
fulfilling future of irredeemable wrongness. Either way he knows
there’s no going back to how he was. Either way he knows, deep down,
that he isn’t sure he wants to. Isn’t sure he’d take back soft,
harmless Ryan even if he could, even with the nightmares, the fear
and self doubt, the guilt. The glaring absence of guilt.
isn’t ashamed of what he is, of who he became. He can track his path
directly, has run his choices over and over in his mind and comes to
the same solutions every time; the Vagabond has always acted with
intention. Ryan has always done what he needed to, what he wanted to,
always evolved and advanced and overcome. So he isn’t ashamed,
but he’s not always proud either. Not always confident that a life
spent doing what is necessary rather than what is right is a life
easier now, in the island of misfit toys, the family of selfish
entertainment and bloodstained choices. Easier to justify the
savagery of necessity when it is more than just his own life he is
protecting, more than just his personal goals he is chasing. In the
FAHC Ryan has found the acceptance he never knew he wanted, rekindled
emotions he’d have sworn were beaten out of him in a dark alley all
those years ago. Like stitching together a ragged wound he’d borne
for so long he’d forgotten how to live without it; the scars would
never truly fade away, still twinge on the worst days, but all of a
sudden he’s faced with a life free of constant misery.
is no way to repay them for that, for showing him a world where death
and joy do not cancel each other out, soothing his conflictions
without changing who he has become, for kinship between the equally
wicked. Ryan knows
they believe he’d die for them, and he would. Would jump right in
with eyes wide open, just as self-aware as when he let’s Geoff make a
show of his obedience, let’s Jack drag him out looking for
ridiculously specific vehicles or let’s Jeremy tag in on a job he
could have handled alone. As when he slows down a new trick Michael’s
covertly trying to replicate or resigns himself to indentured
servitude when Gavin plays him like a puppet; affection clearer in
action than he could ever conceptualise in speech, trusting his team
they don’t seem to understand is the fact that, if they needed him
to, he would do so much more than die for them. To
die is nothing, is brief sacrifice, but Ryan would ruin.
Would create and destroy and conqueror. Were he asked to he would
tear down the whole world around them, set it alight and shelter them
from the blaze; a level of devotion that scares even himself when he
considers it late at night, beyond thankful for their ignorance.
Well, Geoff probably knows, something dark and thoughtful in his eyes
when he looks at Ryan, something deeply confident in Ramsey when he
commands the Vagabond. Assurance that no threat is idle, no harrowing
claim is merely theatrics, and that knowledge alone should be enough
to send Ryan running, to remind him of what happens when he lets down
his guard, but it doesn’t, not anymore. Not since he recognised the
clear display of trust in all that conviction, relishing in the
opportunity to prove himself worthy; eyes alight with dangerous
promise he now merely looks back at Geoff and has faith.
not perfect; no matter how happy he is with his crew Ryan will still
lose himself inside his own head sometimes, a place no other can
follow, no other can ever truly understand. For all he is the ghoul
in the nightmares of so many others Ryan never could quite extinguish
his own demons. After all this time he still goes back and considers
all his choices, still asks himself endless questions, gives endless
answers, constantly assessing his place in the world, his counts and
tallies, his debt. It’s how he reassures himself of the truth.