sorry for the long rambling

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OK so keith and lances relationship in this AU ..this is gonna be long so get ready but it starts off when theyre younger:

and wow!!they are friends!!theyre best friends in fact they love hanging out with each other and playing together just being silly kids but then we hit the teens

this is where things get bumpy for them. Theyre still friends and still close(romantic feelings start to bloom),and they have big dreams of being the best dragon hunting duo the worlds ever seen!So they’re finally old enough to start serious dragon training

but it doesnt go all too well for lance……..

hearing that his best friend (and crush) doesnt think he can do the one thing hes been dreaming about since childhood?breaks his heart. And pisses him off

after this they get into a huge fight and lance just…doesnt talk to keith anymore. lance is angry at keith for lying to him, keith is angry at lance for just randomly dropping him without even giving him the chance to explain. 

in the end tho!after lance finds blue and keith finds out they’re able to finally talk and work it out and become friends again :,,) and eventually….eye emoji ..start dating 

more dragon au right here! & here

There’s a lot to say about Jingo, and I wish I was in the right headspace to really write coherently, but I’ve been sitting here with this text post open for about half an hour trying different sentences and finding that none of them quite fit what I’m feeling.

There’s a lot of anger in this book. It’s hard to notice, sometimes, because it’s also an incredibly funny and ridiculous book. There are a lot of jokes! But some of those jokes come to a sharp and unexpected point. That scene with Detritus and the Riot Act is hilarious; it’s got Vimes at his most dry and sarcastic and it’s got Detritus methodically picking up a man and using him to hit a bunch of other men. But it’s also got that sharp moment when one of the men claims that Klatchians have killed people, and Vimes asks “who?” and the man falters and says “…everyone knows they’ve been killing people!” and that’s such a familiar sounding phrase that it pulls you up short.

And any conversation between Fred Colon and Nobby is going to be hilarious, and there is nothing funnier than watching Nobby quietly make a fool of Fred’s casual ignorant racism. He doesn’t even have to try hard! But then: “You know we’re better’n Klatchians. Otherwise what’s the point?

There’s so much of that in this book. Little moments, that betray the frustration and anger behind the entire plotline. When I first read it, I was thirteen, and didn’t notice most of it. But I distinctly remember reading for the first time that scene between Carrot and Goriff:

“We can tell which way the wind is blowing,” said Goriff calmly.
Carrot sniffed the salt air. “It’s blowing from Klatch,” he said.
“For you, perhaps,” said Goriff. 

I’ve never forgotten that. That was how I remembered Jingo after reading the entire series and going back again. There are others that hit me harder now (the “they are us” passage in particular) but this was the scene that telegraphed perfectly to me the bitterness and frustration in this conflict, in watching it, in living it.

And then Jingo gives us what we all want so badly, the whole time, watching this play out. Vimes puts his foot down. He charges in. He arrests the leaders of the opposing nations. He arrests the armies. He stops it, he ends it. And there’s still frustration, there has to be, there’s no way everything can get better overnight. But he saw how stupid the whole thing was and he made it stop. There’s anger in that, too, because it’s what the angry part of us watching the conflict wants to have happen. We want to arrest the armies. We want to arrest Lord Rust and Prince Cadram and everybody like them. We want to end it, and we get to do that alongside Vimes. If only we didn’t have to put the book down afterwards.

I need to make some space for my own anger at the end of this tirade here. Reading the tags on some of these posts, a huge number of them echo the same core sentiment: “relevant.” And it is. It’s so relevant. And I’m so angry. Because it shouldn’t be. We shouldn’t still be here, watching the pebbles bounce. We shouldn’t feel an aching familiarity in the words of a bigot declaring that “everyone knows” something completely made-up, or in a family leaving their home because the people around them are claiming it doesn’t belong to them. Why are we still here. Why is this still happening. Why is this still relevant.

I’m extremely glad to have this book, as an excellent story and excellent social commentary, to be relevant in this time. But I still wish that it wasn’t.

my friend was upset tonight so naturally I decided to spam them with pictures of fish costumes and honestly I had a ball

so I’m gonna share them with you now. Get ready for a wild ride.

let’s start simple

real simple

“haha see I have fins! haha help me

lots of nemos going around

some of them more terrifying than others

it’s like he’s wearing horse blinders I’m

okay well this one has the colours I guess

are you serious

how many sexy fish costumes could there possibly - 

okay but surely - 

are you serious WE ALL KNOW YOU DIDN’T NEED TO GIVE THE JELLYFISH EYES

not sure how the fuck we’re supposed to feel about this one

BUT HEY WHILE WE’RE GETTING FREAKY

someone save him

give em the ol razzle dazzle

this is why NASA won’t explore the ocean

like what is this A DEMENTOR FISH?? IT EATS SOULS BUT ALSO FISH FLAKES???

alright let’s get back to some friendlier content

we agreed this one would be me

this guy’s just happy to be invited to the party

this one’s kinkshaming you

this one is very possibly my favourite

and these guys are the grand finale because I have so many questions?? But I don’t want a single one answered look at this. Fish on segways. Amazing.

Okay thank you for your time.

Ok I didn’t want to create a discussion but I feel like I really need to say this because it really makes my throat tie up. There have been a tendency to fling around the word “pedophile” towards people in fandom lately, and not in an appropriate way. Now pedophile is meant to mean a sexually developed person being attracted to someone that is not (prepubescent), but I’ve seen the word exclusively used at 20+ year olds people dating 17-18 year olds, or sometimes even teens at 18-19 for dating people two years their junior. These people claim they are trying to “protect the kids” by using this word like a slur, even though they’re often aware they are using it incorrectly.

Why do people use this word even though it’s fundamentally not at all what their cause is representing? For the same reason people bring up the holocaust or Hitler trying to win arguments - because it’s an incredibly negatively loaded word that just about everyone is sure to recognize as such, and they are trying to win points by pulling at the emotions associated with it rather than the actual facts of the situation.

Does it matter? YES. By misusing a word like this you trivialize VERY REAL child sexual abuse. An older teen is sexually mature and can initiate and even force these relationships of their own accord. A teen can be a sexual predator towards younger and older people. A child have not yet developed these urges or interests and would never ever take part of these activities willingly. While there can be a definite power imbalance at play with a late teen/adult turning it into an abusive relationship, it is not the same as the kind of fear that is used to keep a child silent about something they never wanted to be a part of. It is disgusting, is triggering, and it is disturbing to see these two being acknowledged as the same thing.

“So should you not use the word at all?” Uh, yes of course you can, in a situation where it’s actually applicable. You should however not use it in a way that makes is seem like any less than what it is, which is a blatant projection of power wherein one party is always forced into it with threats of hurt or rejection from their loved ones or something else fueled out of desperation.

i’ve been thinking about the psychic thing/knowing alex was gay thing and i have thoughts

and wow this ended up more undeveloped story like and also near to 1000 words i hate myself i’m so sorry and it is under the cut sorry mobile users, if you see this

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I know I reblog a lot of Arc-V but I’ve never said why it’s my favorite or why I’m so deeply invested in it.

I’ve liked Yugioh most of my life but the only series I got truly invested in was 5ds (I like gx don’t get me wrong but I was only there for the characters not the plot and I’ve never finished dm and I’m currently working on Zexal) and once Zexal started I started losing interest in the franchise (for reason I’ll explain below).

But then Arc-V aired and I was a apart of the fandom during the first twenty eps or so and I just remember all the hype around the series and for good reasons too.

For one we actually got to see the birth of a new summoning method and while we made to wait until 140 to explain why it happened I don’t think any other series explained how their summoning method appeared. If 5ds takes place around 30 from dm how did they transition from fusion to synchro? And then synchro to xyz?

Speaking of summoning methods I LOVE that we get all of them this series, one of the things that turned me off to Zexal was my love for synchro summoning and how it wasn’t there anymore but now they’re all here??? And some duelist can use multiple summoning methods??? Like god bless.

Back to what I saying about being in the fandom in the early eps, some of the theories that the fandom came up with were insane. Yuto is Yuya from the future, Yuzu is Shuns sister, Sora came from another world (that we got one right haha). And the guessing never stopped because I follow a blog that kept up with the series and all these crazy theories kept coming because they kept up at the edge of our seats and made us question and guess until episode 126 and 127. We were guessing since episode 7 about what the heck is going on. 120 EPISODES OF GUESSING. And looking back you can see all this goddamn foreshadowing like holy shit why didn’t I see this shit coming.

BRINGING BACK OLD CHARACTERS FROM OTHER SERIES GOD BLESS. Seeing Jack, Crow, and Asuka appear on the show is what got me to catch up with the series (so yea their propaganda did work). But also they did so much for the show. Like they helped expand upon each dimension and give more life to them without having to make all new characters. And at the same time they’re different characters??? Like they give you enough background information on each character to know they’re different from the earlier versions of themselves so old and new fans like them. I love this so much and I’m sad no future series will probably do this and will have to wait for another special event to happen for past characters to interact but it will most likely only be the protags.

THE DUELS. OH GOD I LOVE THESE DUELS. Another thing that turned me off the Yugioh was how each duel would be like 1-2 eps maybe even three and they would just stand there. Standing and shouting about card games (another reason why 5ds was my fav before Arc-V). But now they ride their monsters and jump and run in amazing fields or go back to card games on motorcycles. Duels are always moving and engaging and this series made me look forward to duels instead of skipping them.

The greatest thing this show has done for me is that it makes me happy and smile. Like unless the show is trying to make us suffer I’m smiling at it. It’s cute yet serious and plays this out amazingly (i.e. Jack v Yuya, Yuzu v Enjoy Guy, Serena v Yugo). All those duels either gave us great character growth, had an important underlying meaning, or great stakes, but they were happy, pretty, engaging duels and if I make a list of top 10 fav duels throughout the entire franchise I guarantee you at least half the list would be duels from Arc V. Anyway if I’m ever feeling down I just go watch this series cause wow it’s so happy and a shounen that’s not trying to be edgy.

And Yuya??? He’s such an amazing protag god I love my tomato child. His struggles and how he overcame them and actually kept the lessons he learned throughout the series. He’s my favorite protag in this franchise and in my 10 fav protags of all time. I’ll miss this boy so much but I’m glad he’s finally going to get to rest and be with his girlfriend.

There’s a lot of other things I love about Arc-V (better treatment of females, breaking usual roles of characters i.e. Reira being an amazing duelist who can fend for himself, Gonzengaka not being the butt of the jokes and being more than just “as a man” archetype, Reiji being an actual goal/rival and not being beaten within the first 20 episodes, ACTUAL LIVING PARENTS THAT ARE DECENT AND LOVE THEIR KIDS, etc) but I could go on all day. Yea it has its flaws but long series always do and I hope Vrains takes all the good stuff from Arc-V and expands upon them and fixes the bad stuff.

Anyway I love Arc-V and I’m so glad it exists.

Okay look I don’t want to be overdramatic... but.

Phil 100% means that she is everything to him. He has lost everything and everyone important in his life that he placed value in, and she is the only person who stuck with him throughout it. 

Early on, he lost his parents. We don’t know much about it but they aren’t around anymore like Melinda’s mother is. He would have separated himself from childhood friends and family when he joined the academy, to minimize everyone’s loss. Saying goodbye to his best friend from his childhood and teenage years would have broken his heart, but he would rather that than leaving without saying goodbye. He’s kind like that.  

Imagine Phil saying goodbye to the other set of parents who raised him. His best friends parents, telling them not to worry about him. They cook him one last meal for dinner because they always thought he was too skinny, and they tell him he’s always welcome. They watched this boy lose his mother and his father, but he’s finally found his true calling and they’re proud. 

When he died he lost Audrey, every agent he’d trained, the friends he’d made in the academy (minus a few with high clearance), The Avengers… the list goes on. Most people he’d known, he could never speak to again and it wasn’t his fault.

Then Hydra becomes an issue and he loses more friends than he can count. Fury leaves him. Garrett betrays him. The young man he saw some of himself in betrays the new family he’s made. Everything weighs on him because he has to be in charge now. He only ever wanted to be an agent. 

Flash forward and Jemma gets taken. Fitz is losing his mind trying to save her and Coulson can’t do much to help. He’s too busy. He finally loses Fitzsimmons as they mature into adults who barely need him. He feels like he betrayed Ward. The boy who needed the most help. If only he’d gotten to him sooner.   

Skye is gone and Daisy appears. Daisy leaves him again, she decides she can’t lean on him for support and he’ll never know why. 

They’re not trying to hurt him, but every time one of them is in danger, every time one of them needs a break, it kills him. Why can’t he have one constant in his life? He’s lost so much, given up so much for this. 

And then he looks over and sees Melinda. He can always rely on her to be there. She didn’t give up on him after he died, and she’s been his best friend since he left college. If he doesn’t have her with him, then all he’s left with are memories of people he once knew. He’d have no one to lean on. No one to share with. No one to care for. They need each other. She is his whole life because that’s all that’s left for him. Everyone else moved on without him. 

Update.

So I decided that I should update you after my post about being upset. I’m sorry if I worried any of you guys or brought you down. I felt like I should explain what it was that happened and get my thoughts out. 

So here’s what happened. 

I was talking to someone close to me (I won’t say who) about the tattoo I’m thinking of getting. I was discouraged because of the Septiceye Sam, as I will apparently regret it in the future. I explained why it means so much to me, and why it will always have a special place in my heart, but still it didn’t convince them. I was still told that it was a stupid idea, and that I was stupid for even considering it.

But it went beyond that. They couldn’t understand why Jack is my hero. They seemed to find it strange that someone I didn’t know meant so much to me. They think that others might too and even put some people off me. For example, they believe that any future boyfriend might be threatened by it. But you know what, anyone who really loved me wouldn’t see it like that, would take the time to understand and would love me regardless of what tattoos I didn’t or didn’t have.

I tried so hard to explain it, though, because I desperately wanted them to understand. Because Jack has honestly done so much for me. And I want them to be happy about that. But no matter how hard I tried, they weren’t convinced and things escalated.

And it caused us to fall out. I hate falling out with people, I hate fighting, so that’s what made me so upset. 

But do you know what? 

You know what cheered me up in the end? 

Jack. 

So this just convinced me even more that I want that particular tattoo. So they achieved the opposite of what they wanted, because I now I want it even more than when they spoke to me. 

I’m not gonna let someone else’s opinion, no matter how close to me they are, change my mind about what I want to do! At the end of the day, I’m an adult, and it’s my body. But not only that, it’s been thought through. I would understand if it was something not very meaningful, something I hadn’t really put a lot of thought into… but that’s not the case. Whether they understand it or not, it means a lot to me. 

So nothing will stop me getting it. 

And hopefully one day I will be able to show @therealjacksepticeye in person, to show just how much he - and the community - means to me and how much of a positive impact he, and you guys, have had on my life.

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Author's choice + yellow.

rubber duck | madzie | 500 words

Madzie lies at the bottom of the tub, gazing up at the bright yellow rubber duck floating above her. She’s too big to lay all the way down in the little tub, so her knees are hugged to her chest, feet propped up on the tiled wall. It’s still nice though. Everything always feels better underwater. It’s easier to breathe, as backwards as that would sound to most people.

But well. Most people don’t have gills.

She can hear Magnus pacing outside the door, obviously still upset. She feels badly, but it’s also partly why she’d come in here. This is the one place neither of them ever follow her, so she takes advantage of that, sometimes.

“Madzie, darling?” Magnus calls out softly.

Madzie closes her eyes. She hates how small his voice sounds. I did that, she thinks, her stomach dropping heavily with guilt.

She takes one last deep pull of water in through her gills, centering herself in the feeling, before slowly emerging from the tub. The ripples caused by her movement send the little rubber duck drifting away from her. He’s running away too, she thinks.

She hadn’t thought to grab her favorite bathrobe when she fled in here to hide, so she magics it in from her bedroom. She hasn’t quite mastered conjuring something directly onto her body, so instead it appears folded neatly on the counter and Madzie dons it quickly. The slightly too big hood (complete with floppy rabbit ears) falls down over her eyes. She hesitates for a moment before reaching into the tub to retrieve the duckling, tucking it into the pocket of her robe. It’s comforting.

She opens the door to find Magnus still standing outside, just as she suspects. With her bath hood drawn over her eyes, she can only really see him from the ankles down. She can’t really tell from his ankles whether he’s still upset with her, but she’s also too afraid to look up at his face.

“Have a good swim, guppy?” he asks her, just like he always does. She knows the familiar question is meant to make her feel better, but instead she feels worse.

“I’m sorry I messed up your potion,” she tells Magnus’s ankles, fiddling with the ties on her robe.

“Oh sweetheart,” Magnus says, crouching down to try to see her under her hood. “You didn’t ruin anything, okay? Potions are tricky things sometimes, but that doesn’t mean they can’t be fixed.”

She finally looks up at him then, and his steady gaze is gentle. Sincere.

“I’ll show you,” he tells her, reaching out a hand.

Madzie’s fingers rub idly along the smooth surface of the rubber duck in her pocket. Part of her longs to be back in the tub, submerged and safe.

But Magnus is still waiting, his hand outstretched patiently. She takes it, and the warmth of her small hand enclosed in his is instantly calming.

Maybe there’s safety on land too, as long as Magnus is there.

klance wedding headcanons

alright so a bunch of you asked for some klance wedding headcanons in response to the shallura wedding post and ho boy i am here to deliver 

(shoutout to @leg-defender again for idea bouncing with me!)

  • first off, the wedding is Big. because Lance’s family is HUGE and they gotta be involved in e v e r y t h i n g. they’re basically orchestrating the whole shebang along with the rest of the voltron crew. 
    • Lance’s family does a shitton of research on Korean weddings because they want to include traditions from Keith’s culture as well as Lance’s. 
      • An entire twenty-four hour day is spent with the whole team on computers, at libraries, calling old Korean friends and sending Shiro out to be the honorary diplomat. by the end of the day they could probably run their own program on the history channel.
  • Hunk, Lance’s mother, grandmother, and anyone else with even a fingernail of cooking talent are all on the Food Squad together because let’s be honest there is a lot of food to be made. 
    • nobody knows what kind of food Keith likes and they can’t ask Lance because it’s supposed to be a surprise so they have to send Pidge out for reconnaissance
      • Pidge has no idea how to navigate the situation and ends up trying to ask Keith what his favorite restaurant is in hopes of getting somewhere
      • his favorite restaurant is the Pizza Hut down the street
      • Pidge gives up and just tells everyone he likes traditional Korean food (which he does)
  • The “Bachelor Party” is just the whole original voltron crew having a fun night out of the town
    • they go to an arcade
    • Keith beats Lance in just about every game they play
    • minus the first person shooters and dance dance revolution
    • nobody beats Lance at dance dance revolution
    • nobody.
  • Hunk is pretty much Lance’s Maid of Honor, Shiro is Keith’s
    • Almost every single one of Lance’s siblings is a Bridesmaid/Groomsman
    • Keith doesn’t really have a lot of people to be his Groomsmen so Lance’s siblings take the position for his side too
    • They literally fight over who gets to be a Groomsman for Keith they all want to do it so bad
      • it makes Keith cry bc he never thought he’d be part of a big family like this and it just makes him Really Fucking Happy
  • Keith is kind of a fashion disaster and doesn’t know how to pick out what to wear so Lance’s five sisters immediately adopt him.
    • they spend the whole day shopping together
    • Lance has never seen someone get along with all of his sisters so well in his entire life
      • it’s actually a little freaky how well
      • Lance is Afraid
  • For the wedding Keith has his nails painted blue and Lance has his painted red
    • Lance’s little cousins do it for them so it’s kind of sloppy but it’s insanely fucking cute
  • Allura and Lance’s mom are the Decorating Dream Team
    • the whole venue looks like it just came off of a goddamn pintest board 
    • in the best way possible
    • Allura has added some more questionable decorations but what can you do
    • “Are those… goldfish bowls?” “Yes.” “Ok.”
  • Coran along with Lance’s like 98 year old great-grandmother are the ones who marry them
    • yes both of them
    • they both demanded to have the position so they had to share it
    • at first they didn’t get along so well but now they are best buddies for some odd reason
    • no one knows why they get along but they do so nobody’s complaining 
  • Lance starts bawling like three words into his vows
    • he can’t help it Ok it’s a Very Emotional Moment
    • the whole thing is rly sweet though because Keith just smiles Super Fucking Wide and wipes away his tears. Everyone’s heart in a 300 mile radius melts. If you weren’t crying before you sure as hell are now.
  • They kiss for Way Too Long during the ceremony. Pidge has to not-so-subtly kick Lance in the ankle and remind them not to suffocate eachother.
    • Lance is so getting Pidge later for that.
    • he never actually gets Pidge later for that.
  • The reception is really just One Huge Fun Dance Party 
    • basically everyone is drunk but in the best way possible
    • there is karaoke 
      • Lance forces Keith to come on stage with him and sing
      • except Lance chooses a song in Spanish and Keith has n o i d e a what he’s doing
      • the only part of the song Keith gets is this really slow line when he looks Lance right in the eyes and says “Besame, te amo”
      • it’s a one-hit-KO 
      • Lance is #gone
      • he forgets how to speak spanish altogether and just starts sputtering random words that translate to things like “my entire bathtub is green” and the spanish rendition of the happy birthday song
  • They all unanimously decide to eat the cake before dinner.
    • They wish they had an excuse for breaking out the cake before dinner but they don’t. The just really want to see the cake Hunk has been bragging about making for weeks.
    • the cake is so beautiful Lance starts crying again
    • honestly nobody can really blame him is is one hell of a cake
  • Shiro’s toast speech is like 10 minutes of roasting Keith and Lance for all the dumb shit they’ve done over the years
    • “I remember when you two had a contest to see who could eat more cheese logs–”
    • “Or the time when you both hung upside down so long you passed out and we had to take you to the ER—”
    • “And there was The Poison Ivy Incident last March–”
    • “Oh don’t even get me started on the Slip ‘N Slide race—”
      • “Shiro… Please…. Let Us Live………”
  • alas 20 minutes into the actual dinner a Huge food fight breaks out
    • It. Is. Chaos.
    • Everybody participates. Nobody is spared. 
    • Food is e v e r y w h e r e but honestly who cares they’re having a blast.
    • There is a running debate to this day over how it started
      • “Keith started it! With the potatoes!”
      • “I did not, it was all Lance and his stupid carrots!”
      • “Allura is the one who launched the peas,”
      • “Excuse me?! Shiro dumped the fruit punch”
      • “Only after Hunk threw the rice cakes!”
      • “Oh no don’t you drag me in to this–”
  • In conclusion, it’s absolute Chaos but it’s the most fun, exciting, Lance-and-Keith-like wedding anybody’s been to in like a million years and nobody leaves without a smile on their face and one hell of a story to tell.

Not really in the mood for ecchi mangas rn but I’m bored af, let’s see how bad this is gonna be-

Wait- so THE LADY ARMOR IS ACCURATE AND DOESN’T DO THE BOOB-ARMOR STYLE?! HELLO YES YOU HAVE MY ATTENTIO- no wait I’m not falling for that, could be like that one time with the anime lady’s basketball and have ““cutesy”“ weak moves and no actual powerful action-

*wheezes* ok you have 90% of my attention-

HELLO YES, NOW (combining the points from the previous statement) YOU HAVE

100%

OF MY ATTENTION

Why Jack is Not My Idol... But is My Hero

This is how I described Jack to one of my brothers, who doesn’t watch his videos. 

I was writing quickly, so I didn’t really word it very well but this is what I said:

“He’s awesome and really funny and watching him has made me smile and got me through bad days. And I’ve made tons of internet friends because of the channel as well. Not only that but his real name is Seán and he’s Irish, so he’s double awesome for that” - that’s one of my other brother’s names, and we have Irish heritage, so this was a little joke xD and I carried on:

“I don’t see him like a celebrity at all, and neither does he - one of the things that are awesome about him. He’s very humble and caring unlike some YouTubers. This may sound stupid but to me he’s more like a friend than a YouTuber.”

This wasn’t the whole conversation, and it was in the context of my future tattoo. I was explaining why having the Septiceye Sam as part of it was more meaningful that it first appears, that it is not just me “idolising a celebrity” - because that’s not how I see Jack at all.

Jack has never made me feel like he is a celebrity, on a pedestal above all of us. He’s always felt human. A friend. Equal to all of us. Which is exactly how it should be, as that’s what he is. What I love about him is that he hasn’t forgotten that, nor has he let us forget it.

But that’s not to say that Jack isn’t amazing. He’s a wonderful person with a big heart, who puts his all into everything that he does. He spreads positivity, love and happiness like no-one I’ve ever seen. He has the ability to make people smile through tears, to lift people up, to lighten up the darkness. He’s only human, yes, but he’s an incredible one. 

He’s the sort of person that I think everyone should be. Everyone should love like Jack does. I honestly believe that the world would be peaceful if everyone was as accepting, caring, humble and encouraging as he is. The world needs more people like Jack.

@therealjacksepticeye it might seem like I’m just saying this, but I honestly do mean it with all my heart. I wish everyone in the world had your kindness, your humility, your empathy. There are people on this planet who could learn a lot from you. There are people “higher up” in the world who don’t possess the admirable qualities that you have. This is why I don’t simply idolise you or anyone else - status doesn’t mean anything. I look up to you because of the person you are. You are not my idol, but my hero.

<3

A lot of the self dx people that follow me are here because they are trying to figure out what’s going on.
“Is it possible I might have ADHD? What do I do?”
They know something isn’t working as it is expected to, and they’re looking for answers.

Not attention.

My blog is and always has been about support and positivity for those who need the resources provided here. Whether you believe you have ADHD, have been prof dx, or have neurodivergencies that are similar to ADHD, you’re welcome in this space.

okay you know what pisses me off? the fact that every other love interest kara has had, it has ended because of things that happen have even to her and mon-el

with adam, she didn’t think it was meant to be because they were always interrupted (via kidnapping or other means). with james, it was the same damn thing. they were getting interrupted constantly. that led her to think that the universe was telling her not to do it, that she wasn’t ready and needed to focus on her

now, i’m not knocking that. i’m knocking the fact that that same shit happens with mon-el. their first kiss was under a poison/drug induced mon-el who pretended it never happened. their other “flirtations” were interrupted or kara showed obvious disinterest. and their latest “thing” was interrupted again. but kara will bend over backwards to make this work, right? because he’s basic straight cis white boy #3 and that’s who she’s meant to be with because oh don’t the cw just love their basic white boys who give nothing to the plot but take everything from the leading ladies and the men of colour who should be getting the screen time (and the girl), and also the lesbians

Hokay just something I had to get off my chest about CR ep. 85

I was talking with Zuka before the episode started, and she mentioned she had to work and would be missing it. I said, “It’s just going to be another breather episode after the Conclave arc - you won’t be missing much.”

BOY HOWDY WAS I WRONG.

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Why Michael’s death is really a game changer

Let me preface this by stating that I have not seen Monday night’s episode. I have no plans to watch it, or really any future episode of Jane the Virgin. I normally livestream JTV but this week I didn’t. I found out about Michael’s death by watching a promo for next week’s episode. 

I’m upset. I’m irritated. Mostly I’m just sad. I began watching JTV after the S1 finale. I had read EW recaps periodically out of curiosity because the premise seemed so bizarre, but after watching the S1 finale and subsequent S2 premiere is when I became hooked. My main hook was Jane and Michael’s relationship. I fell in love with them as solo entities, but their relationship hit me right in the feels. It was so genuine, so supportive, it felt as real as a fictional relationship could, like I could walk past them at a bookstore laughing about the next Angelique Harper. 

I loved Jane the Virgin. The writing was so clever, so funny and heartfelt, the characters were so interesting and their relationships were so well developed. But Michael’s death changes all of that for me. I thought Jenni Snyder Urman was a genius for creating this show, for taking the concept of this telenovela but grounding it, making fun of some of the tropes, never really going into the campiness that Shondaland shows (closest things to a soap these days) sometimes head into. But the unnecessary death of Michael Cordero Jr. takes that opinion away. THIS is campy. This is killing off people for shock value/lazy storytelling in the age of HTGAWM and Game of Thrones. If this was truly the plan all along then I’m sorry but you had a shitty plan. 

There was no valid reason for Michael to die other than it was the only way for them to put Jane and Rafael back together. You’re not doing it to flip Jane’s world/path around à la the pilot if theres a time jump. You’re killing Michael because you painted yourself into a corner with how lovely Villadero’s relationship was because it would be completely OOC for Jane to leave Michael AGAIN when she’s repeatedly chosen him over Raf. And the bullshit company line of “when we slipped that line in in S1, we were setting you up for Michael’s death”. Nope. That line could’ve meant that Michael would love Jane until his dying breath at 110. If we’re looking at lines, what about the one about his “illustrious detective career” in the pilot? 3(?) years as a detective where you were fired twice and never caught Sin Rostro is not what I would consider an illustrious career. Especially since Michael died after taking his LSAT. You being “stuck with a plan” even though you were able to prolong his death because you “loved Brett so much” is the HIMYM excuse of 2017. Not to mention the way you killed him was extremely weak. Michael is presumably no more than 6 months out from being shot, where he had major cardiac trauma and surgery. NO ONE is going to say to him “Oh you’re having chest pains? Let’s not brush that off until after your LSATs, we’re going to the ER right now. You were shot in the chest!!!” (Seriously the Jane we love would’ve done that)

Finally, I want to talk about how this really messes up the show. You’ve just severed your tie to Sin Rostro, which in the absence of this first half of the season, made the show a bit weaker. I really don’t care about Raf’s parent problems, or Xo’s career, I wanted Michael back on the force looking for Sin Rostro, protecting his family and getting that victory. Supposedly Michael’s detective friend will be the new tie to this investigation but again, he’s Michael’s friend, Michael is now dead and he has no real ties to anyone else the way Michael did. You’ve just lost a source of some good parenting storylines involving Jane and Raf’s co-parenting with Michael as Mateo’s stepdad. If Jane and Raf get back together there will be no parenting dramas for B-storylines as Raf will go back to his “what can I do to make Jane happy?” days. And do I even need to mention the loss of the bromance?

TLDR: I’m done. I’m sad that I am because I will miss this show, but you know what? Michael’s death just proved that this show wasn’t great to begin with. 

Why I Have To Meet Jack

You guys may well think I’m silly for writing this post, but I’m going to anyway. I have thoughts and I need to get them out. I’m a firm believer in writing down your emotions rather than bottling them up. 

Anyway. If you’re tired of my complaining about not meeting Jack, then I won’t blame you for scrolling away from this right away. Feel free, or you can carry on reading. But not only am I saying the obstacles that are in my way, I’m also writing exactly why meeting Jack matters so much to me. I’ve broken it down so hopefully it’s easier for you guys to read.

I know I’ve posted about this a billion times before, but I feel the need to do it again. I kind of stop thinking about it, and then something reminds me again. I see gifs from PAX, I read about people meeting him. I’m happy for everyone who does, but I’m reminded that it hasn’t happened to me and maybe never will. I feel selfish for thinking this, but I can’t help it.

Just wait, it will happen, I hear you say. But that’s easier said than done, for a number of reasons. If it was just as simple as being too young to go on my own or whatever, then yes, it would only be a matter of time. But it’s not.

First of all, I can’t afford to go to conventions (particularly so if they are in another country, and I’m yet to find one in the UK that Jack goes to). I currently don’t earn, and even when I do it won’t be much - musicians often don’t earn much at first, and I’m not making anything from YouTube “yet” (I hope I will but it may never take off for all I know. I can’t rely on it).

Then there’s my current mental state. Going to a convention would be difficult thanks to my wonderful social anxiety. Just the thought of the crowds, the people around me while travelling… And I imagine that travelling, and the convention itself, would take a lot of energy - possibly too much for my depression to handle. Maybe I could push through it to meet Jack, but I don’t know; would it be worth risking putting myself under too much pressure?

And that’s not all. Oh yes, there’s more. Getting to another country is difficult for me for another reason. I can’t do it by myself. Yes, I’m 21 years old and I don’t know how to go through an airport by myself. I feel stupid. Not just because I’ve never learnt how, but also I struggle with things like that. I always have. I’m particularly brilliant at getting lost. My anxiety loves it, not.

And there’s more. Since I’ve started watching Jack, I’ve been at university/college so I haven’t had the time to go away to conventions. Once I leave here in a couple of months time (*panics*), I will be focusing a lot on YouTube, and probably having to find a job (yawn). And until I find one and have money, I can’t go even if I have the time.

This may well sound like I’m making excuses, but honestly… I’m really not. I wouldn’t. This is something I need to do in my lifetime, it’s a dream of mine. Jack is my hero. I have no reason to make any excuses. These are all genuine barriers to one of my life goals. Obstacles that feel insurmountable. And it breaks my heart. It breaks my heart to think that I may never meet the person who began to turn my life around. It breaks my heart to think that I may never get to thank him in person for what he’s done. It breaks my heart to think that I may never be able to hug him. He feels like a long distance friend - or even family, if I can say that. Jack means the world to me. More than he’ll ever know - but if I meet him, I can get closer to expressing it than I can from here.

I have thoughts about what I would do if I did meet Jack. I already know that I will make a folder or something of stuff I’ve made for him (fanart, poems, etc) and I’ll give it to him. And, of course, I’ll give him the biggest hugs he’s ever had. I’ll do my best to let him know what he means to me. I’ll tell him about how he’s inspired me and that my YouTube channel is beginning to grow thanks to him giving me the courage to make more videos. I was anxious to go on camera, but he made me brave, and now I love it immensely and want to do it for as long as possible.

Jack is not just a YouTuber to me. He’s been a counsellor when I’ve needed advice and someone to care. Jack has been a friend when I’ve felt alone, believing in me even when I didn’t anymore. He’s been a beautiful green light in the pitch black void of depression and anxiety, the hope I needed when mine was all gone. 

He’s been like an annoying older brother who makes stupid jokes to make you laugh - which means even more to me as one of my older brothers, who made me laugh a lot, is no longer with us. He’s been someone to watch playing games now that I can’t watch my brother play them anymore.

He’s been a lullaby when I couldn’t sleep, cradling me with kindness and wrapping me up in smiles and laughter. He’s been a soothing voice amongst the painful noise of life. He’s held my hand when I’ve been hurting, wiping away the tears from my eyes. He’s started to heal the cracks in my heart and mind. When I was starting to lose sight of anything good in life, having less and less reasons to smile, he showed me that things weren’t so bad after all. He taught me to genuinely smile again.

And Jack is the reason why I found this wonderful community, and have made amazing friends who have made me feel cared about. You guys have made me feel less lonely despite the isolation of social anxiety and depression. Without Jack, I probably wouldn’t know any of you exist.

Jack is my hero.

I need to meet him some day.

I have to.

anonymous asked:

It's easy to assume Michael would be the one that likes setting things on fire - he is the demolition guy and all - but honestly he's in it more for the boom and destruction. But Gavin, now, Gavin loves loves loves fire. Carries a lighter or matches with him at all times, has to sometimes be dragged away from the aftermath of Michael's explosions because he won't stop staring at the flames. (Bc I noticed how much he likes starting fires in minecract lets plays idk)

Oh yep absolutely, there’s a reason the two of them are considered to be the most destructive pair in the FAHC; a love of flame and destruction which, worse than matching, is complementary to one another. Where Michael is looking for a particular outcome, for the demolition of a building or the devastation of enemy supplies, Gavin is chasing reactions; wants to see what will happen, which objects will burn, how people will react, how they will fall apart. They’ll both make a mess when they don’t need to, will happily take the absence of direct orders of prohibition as tacit permission to do as they please, but Michael has certainly got a better handle on more or less sticking to the objective, keeping the damage at least reasonably relevant. He’s frequently found himself reigning in Gavin, laughing more often than not but still standing in the way of the brunt of Gavin’s more senselessly reckless endeavours; the way he holds matches right up against priceless artworks, stacks of cash, the way he always gets too close to the fire, never waiting quite long enough to light the blaze, endlessly fascinated by the way it destroys. 

And Gavin is fascinated, can get lost in the flicker of light, the crackle and roar, the mindless hunger. There are moments when his interest is less harmless quirk than it is actual concern; the absent roll of a lighter between his fingers when they could all smell gas, the bonfire of a police safe-house bringing down weeks of unnecessary scrutiny, Gavin’s odd fascination with stealing away to compromise the fire doors any time they enter property owned by other crew’s, habitual preparation for an attack they’re not even planning yet. There’s a reason Gavin’s rarely in charge of starting any fire they need for a plan, a reason Geoff always counts heads before giving Michael the okay to bring down a building, a reason no amount of mocking or complaining stopped Jack from installing 14 different smoke detectors in and around Gavin’s penthouse bedroom. Gavin’s not a pyromaniac, he doesn’t mess up jobs, he’d never risk a fire that would get someone else in the crew hurt; he can actually control himself no matter what the others think. It’s just that he mostly chooses not to.