sorry for the horrible english


i don’t know it you know guys but there is a new really well made new blog dedicated for Dreamtale! it’s called: @dreamtale-au (by Joku). and tomorrow will be the anniversary! :D

i wanted post it tomorrow but i will be really busy so i have to post it today :’D.

Girl keep working you are awesome<3 i hope that everything will going better for you! sorry for horrible english<3 

more in those liks <3:

day 1 - day 2 - day 3 - day 4- day 5 - day 6 - day 7

anonymous asked:

hey, i saw that you accept prompts, soooo can you write a fanfic where killian asks emma for a baby after seeing david with neal or something like that? thank you sm (im sorry about the horrible english, it's not my first language).

I’ve done FOUR!!!! training modules today and my brain is turning into mush.

“There, that wasn’t so bad now was it?”

Emma’s ringing ears say otherwise, but she’s not her dad. Maybe this tantrum isn’t as bad as the others, but if it’s not she (thankfully) doesn’t have to be here all the time while Neal’s teething. David leaves Neal to the frozen banana and sits at the table with her. “Why not numb him up with a bit of whiskey?” Killian asks, still perched near Neal’s playpen.

Emma catches the scandalized look on her dad’s face and tries not to laugh as he says, “I’m not giving my child alcohol just because he’s upset!”


“Look, mate, you don’t dose him with it,” Killian explains, all too patiently. “Just dab it on with a finger, he loses the pain and sleeps like a–well, like a baby, you and the wife get some rest, and everyone’s much more cheerful come morning.”

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Anthems for Logan Sanders

Warrnings: Long, long post! (I understand your possible TLDR) Full of Logan Sanders, love to Logan Sanders, memes with Logan Sanders, paean of praise to Logan Sanders and other stuff like that with no objectivity. And probably very bad English with horrible mistakes. (I’m so sorry Logan! Q_Q)

Lately I saw some posts about that Logan is unappreciated. I love all of Sanders Sides but actually I have no idea why Logic would ever be unappreciated because he is almost my fav. I just don’t know HOW? Well, If someone is daring to say that Logan is underrated, I am going to present my point of view. Subjectively!

Everyone of them have their own music theme. The music which play when Sides show up. Cool music theme! (Roman have „The Blue Danube” MY FAV classical song, oh, boy!!!) but I like the most Logic’s theme because this is as well intriguing as funny! Fit to Logan perfectly. Everytime when I hear that, it makes me a happy human!

He is very elegant. Did you notice he has a two shirts? One with lion logo and one with eagle logo. I love his gesticulation nad his facial expression! Because… You know…

He likes to dress-up! Isn’t it cool?!

Look at him. He is so pleased the first question from Q&A went to him. Adorable! And his favourite book is „The Murder of Roger Ackroyd” by Agatha Christie. Awesome choise! Agatha Christie was great and Hercules Poirot is my fav detective ever ❤ Logan have a good taste! At least for me.

Logan love dogs stoo! I’m 100% sure his love to puppies is equal his love to Patton Patton’s love to puppies. Look at that! Love to dogs is logical so Logan love dogs.

And he love poetry.

Yes, poetry. He can choose the most romantic lyric. „Brush up your Shakespeare” gyus! I love him. If you think that was ‘bout Shakespeare you’re right. If you think that was ‘bout Logan you’re right too.

And since I talk about poetry! He did not let himself be defeated in rap battle. He rules! He was great! Nobody will forget it! Totally badass!

Nobody will forget how he won a debate. He used logical reasoning to show positives. Even without help Roman’s role - self confidence and Patton’s role - optimism. And even if someone use wonderful debate tactic like hissing at people!

The only person he can not beat is Morality. This is only one who can be his rival, they always need to compromise. Morality never wins too he is at the same level. And largely this is the reason why I call Patton my fav character from Sanders Sides. Only one who Logan can’t defeat.

Maybe Logan don’t like the dad jokes but he definitely makes a puns. He makes a lot of puns („terrible humor”, „valorous choice”, „ants, aunts”)  and I realized that first time when I was writing polish subtitles to „Making Some Changes” video where translating all the puns and whole the idioms was a torment. I have a theory Logan is angry at Patton when he’s doing a puno r dad joke because Patton is just better in this „game”. Or because he takes everything literally and that confuse him! But…

He appreciates the role of each part of the personality. When Thomas is worried because the audition Logan offer to call Prince for Thomas’ self-confidence or Morality for Thomas’ optimism. Even if he don’t think Anxiety’s is needed, he knows that he is very important.

Some people just noticed that what I want to write now but this is too amazing! Logan in “Accepting Anxiety 2/2” was freaking awesome! He realized what is happening to them first, he knew that so early!

And that moment when he was screaming „YERKS-DODSON!” and circling in red a word „HIGH” on the chart. With looking at Anxiety who udnderstood him. Logan found the way how to tell something important to Virgil despite his problems with communication! He was GREAT! He was FREAKING GREAT!!!

I admire him, I love him, I’m amazed.

And very important thing. Logan is a Teacher. And role of teacher is teaching.

- He completes my vocabulary (in my mother language AND English!) just using a long, difficult words. If I want to understand what he is talking I must to check it. This is learning by fun!

- He refers to many interesting books like Roman refers to Disney movies and Patton refers to popular songs.

- He taught me a some psychology in “My negative thinking”.

- Finally he taught me last time about Yerks-Dodson curve – I checked it and I started to read about it. That was cool!

Logan Sanders is great Teacher, awesome Side of personality and SEXY BEAST. Tell him it from me Thomas, please. @thatsthat24

…If you wanted I can do anthems for other three. Would you like?
Part 2

anonymous asked:

OMG can you believe when he is in this beautiful shark tunnel instead of take a picture of shark he take a picture of Dan ?? And that photo?? It is not a easy angle to shoot and he had to wait this perfect moment to achieve this??? (Sorry about my horrible english)

ok but srsly. that photo. holy fuck. dan was gazing at the fish but phil was just gazing at dan and wanted to capture him in as beautiful a way as he could and then literally contorted his whole body to get the shot bc he’s just that committed and then felt the need to share his work with us and even respond (albeit a bit jokingly) to a tweet that acknowledged how especially good that photo is bc he is proud of it but mostly he is proud of being the one who gets to share his life with dan and he’s just basking in sharing dans beauty with the world and it’s still sort of subtle since it’s in a larger set of photos but the significance is not diminished bc phil so rarely shares pics like that of dan, it’s mostly just silly candids, and if he takes rly beautiful ones like that one on isle of man when dans in his fuzzy hat w his hands under his chin and the sun is setting behind him, then he lets dan share the photo himself, but this time phil decided to post it and it genuinely feels like he is basically saying look how pretty this boy is look at this sublime experience we had together and wow my heart is shattering

I've always had this crazy idea.

Once, Piper juice a joke to Percy, and when he realized what she did to him, he seek and chases her through the camp and Piper started to run away from him.

‘Come here McLean’ Percy scream while he went after her and Piper had nowhere to flee, until she saw two blondes figures walking distractedly to her, both seem to be talking about something, so they did not notice her or him, or what was happening, so Piper ran toward them and hid behind their shoulders.

'Piper, what happens?’ Jason ask when he notice that she seemed to hide from something … or someone.

'He’s coming for me.’ She whispers.

'Who?’ Annabeth asks again and then, heard a familiar voice.


'He’ Piper answers falsely scared while she is trying not to be noticed.

'Oh no, ma'am, don’t try to hide behind Annabeth and Jason.’ Percy confronts. 'Come here and face what you did!’

'I didn’t do anything to you!’ She answers while peeking out from the shoulder of her blondes.

'What’s going on here?’ Jason and Annabeth asked uncomprehendingly.

'Your girlfriend dyed all my blue shirts … in red!’

'I didn’t do it!’ Piper would say in her defense

'Yes, it was you!’

'Piper, you would do that to Percy?’ Jason asks and also Annabeth looks with the same question in her head.

'I did nothing’ Piper looks at each of her two blondes with its huge multicolored eyes. 'I swear, Jason, Annabeth.’ And the two of them look at her and then look at him with raised eyebrow, as if they accused Percy for accusing Piper for something she didn’t do.

'Don’t use your charmspeak with them!’ Percy says outraged that they didn’t believe him.

'I don’t need to use that with these two’ Piper sticks out her tongue.

Finally, Jason and Annabeth get tired and left them to their fate, because both of them sound so convicentes as problematics.

anonymous asked:

(part 1) ur gonna roast me for this but im legit curious why mafia AUs are so bad? im asking in a non confrontational way, i get it romanticizing mafia is wrong, but i also believe that 1)most mafia AUs are a really toned down type of mafia;2)they do make for some interesting kinds of dynamics with fanart and with fics; 3)in a fic specifically u can create your own world and call something mafia and still make it so they don't kill innocent people but only idk members of other gangs or sth

(part 2) plus theyre a way to put ur charas in a completely diff context and see what theyll do. i mean i dont believe that writing ships in a certain context (like mafia) equals romanticizing that context. mafia AUs arent even my fav things to read (in fact i almost never do), im sure many ppl romanticize it and i obvs dont agree with that but im just trying to udnerstand bc i believe fandoms are a way to explore things that we normally wouldnt.

I’m not gonna roast you don’t worry xD okay wait let me check if I replied to this already if yes I’m gonna c/p because it’s half past midnight otherwise I’ll just go at it again wait *checks tags* fff obviously I don’t have a general post but anyway pls read this after you’ve done with my post and then this which is also choke-full of links. plus for a (not nice) laugh: here. AH WAIT I FOUND THE POST.

okay, so, let’s have it out of the way: I have nothing against mob aus or crime aus. I have a problem against calling them mafia AUs because in the US mafia = organized crime at large, in Italy mafia = ACTUAL EXISTING ORGANIZATIONS THAT ARE ACTIVELY HARMFUL. now that I introduced the topic I’ll c/p you the reply I gave to another anon who while discussing the issue pointed out that most writers don’t even know Italian mafia is a thing, which is pretty much on the same discourse so…

*The thing is - in the US it might not be enough of a deal anymore and I honestly do get why people make the mafia = regular mobsters, since the mafia was the first foreign organized crime being exported to the US via italian immigrants (sorry if this sounds horrible in English but I just woke up and I still didn’t have coffee) so I understand that mafia became the umbrella term.But the thing is that - as you said, these people don’t even know that there’s a mafia in Italy anymore or where the word comes from.

 I’m going to link to italiansreclaimingitaly’s tag about the mafia and its perception outside Italy because they posted about this extensively and it’s an excellent resource, but meanwhile I’m gonna do a very short bullet point list and about the topic:

  • Mafia might not be a big deal in the US, but it still is here. We have the beauty of four different mafias (Cosa Nostra - the Sicilian one, camorra which is the one in Campania but has tendrils spread everywhere, the ‘ndrangheta which is in Calabria and the Sacra Corona Unita in Puglia) which are all active [especially camorra and 'ndrangheta] and whose actions have direct impact (negative) on our economy and on our society. Actually mafias are one of the main reasons we’re currently economically fucked up, and if I start talking about how mafia culture keeps some areas literally backwards I could talk about it for three months.
  • There are still people who are killed for standing up against them. These days the most prominent personality is Roberto Saviano who is a writer who dared to put together a book documenting minutely the way camorra works and he’s been living under protection for years by this point. Like, they want him dead because he wrote a book. And I’m sorta sure that he was talking about leaving Italy and going to the US after years of sticking with it here because he can’t take it anymore but I don’t know if it was a taken decision or if it’s still debating it.
  • It wasn’t even thirty years ago that we had the stragi di mafia - in english it’d be something like the mafia slaughters, basically around the beginning of the nineties there were a number of bombs planted by the mafia targeting people who were trying to oppose it including judges Falcone and Borsellino, actually the anniversary of Falcone’s death is like… tomorrow. And they’ve killed people for way longer than that. Here is a list of only Cosa Nostra victims including the ones from the eighties/nineties. And people are still dying because of it. The slaughters I’m referring to are just the ones in the nineties which are enough of a number.
  • They also perpetuate a culture where if you testify against your mafia-employed relatives you’ll be shunned forever. There are women who testified against their families and couldn’t see their children anymore never mind that they weren’t automatically considered a relative anymore the moment they sided against the mafia. Some people have committed suicide after becoming witnesses also because our police force/justice system can be terribly non-supportive in this kind of situation so they got left on their own. Never mind that back in the day - it was the beginning of the nineties? - I recall at least a particular story of - I think, correct me if I remember wrong but I can’t remember the names for the life of me - where this guy testified against the local mafia when he either used to work for them or was forced to pay them the pizzo and in retaliation his six-year old (or five? Anyway he had a son younger than ten for sure) got kidnapped, killed and thrown into acid to dispose of the body. That happened in what, 1993? 1994? It’s pretty much yesterday. And now the camorra is doing the same - there’s a list here of camorra victims among which accidental passerbys that got killed because they were in the way which I can tell just by glancing is not complete. And I’m not even going into the 'ndrangheta. That is to say, here mafia still kills people and cripples our country.

Now, I get that it’s a word, but the point was: let’s say that instead of the Italians the Japanese came to the US first and the umbrella word for organized crime was yakuza rather than mafia and let’s say yakuza was still what it was originally in Japan while in the US it stopped being a big deal and people write yakuza!AU instead of mafia AU. Let’s say someone Japanese gets angry at that and goes like 'listen the yakuza is a real deal it does this this this and that and it’s a plague in our country so can you please at least look it up before writing your fanfic’, which is what had happened way back then when this whole mafia and fanfic thing blew up. A bunch of people told us to get over it because it’s just a word and if it’s a problem in Italy it’s not in the US so why should they care? Now, if we had been Japanese (or Chinese or Russian or Mexican) would they have said the same thing? Considering the general tumblr attitude I’m pretty sure they would have received either an apology or 'this is an important deal let’s keep that in mind’ with signal boost reblogs and stuff. 

It’s the fact that we should get over people not knowing that it’s still a real problem for us and that they can’t take five seconds to google it that is the problem imo. Especially when instead of mafia au you can just say mobsters au or tag it as organized crime and everyone is a lot happier, mostly because as the tag above explains romanticising the mafia is a good thing for them because it means they can act outside Italy with less stigma because everyone thinks that the mafia is dead or not relevant anymore, if I’m explaining myself. (And it’s active outside Italy - like, there was a mafia kill in Germany in 2007 where six people died (sorry the link is in Italian but there isn’t an English wiki page, if you look the city up you’ll find something probably) and it was because of the 'ndrangheta.

I’d really like to not get worked over it because it meant it was a thing of the past y'know, but the problem is that it isn’t and I’d rather spread some awareness in hope some of these writers look it up (because it’s a good thing that people know what mafia is since as stated they have tendrils everywhere - if you read Saviano’s book the entire first chapter is about how camorra regularly deals with Chinese import/export in Italy for one) than shrug and figure that since they’ll think everything is good for fanfic then it’s not even worth my time.*

Now, ^^^ that was the c/p-ed reply that should answer most of your doubts. What I didn’t address was:

im sure many ppl romanticize it and i obvs dont agree with that but im just trying to udnerstand bc i believe fandoms are a way to explore things that we normally wouldnt.

aaaand as we say here in Italy, this is where the donkey falls (sorry we have weird sayings), because in theory there’s nothing wrong with that… except that in 99% of the mafia aus I’ve seen around the thing is that they’re supposed to be cute.

like, I see a lot of shit with TINY MAFIA BOSS STEVE ROGERS with RUSSIAN ENFORCER BUCKY (????? bucky isn’t even russian???) and the yoi thing I saw before had the japanese character being the leader of a russian mafia gang which is… like… guys it doesn’t happen it really doesn’t, and a lot of them re-use wrongly terminology taken from the godfather without context or knowing what the hell it means, and it’s always from the criminals’ pov and they’re somehow seen as criminals doing justice where the police can’t (???) and like… no. mafia bosses/enforcers/employees are bad people period, and at least here if you try to leave or repent they kill your family in retribution. like, not even ten years ago there’s been a woman who used to belong to a mafia family (or one colluded with the mafia) who testified and her entire town/family shunned her and she couldn’t take it anymore and… killed herself drinking acid if I don’t recall wrong. it’s not even special cases. this shit is not funny, it’s not cute, it’s not adorable and it’s not good fodder for your imagine your otp scenario (srsly I saw one like.. let me find it,

LIKE. just look at this shit. in a regular context, the enforcer goes to the show owner to force them to pay a monthly sum to their boss lest they destroy their shop and their lives and their family’s life never mind that mafia culture is deeply homophobic so the mafia enforcer flirting with the shopkeeper is like completely fucking out of the question. I mean, people here like to shit on the sopranos but that show was actually excellent representation of Horrid Criminals Who Were Never Supposed To Be Good People and the small arc that happened when one of tony’s friends turned out to be gay (closeted) was REALLY well done. btw, it ended that when they found out he was gay most of the crowd rejected him and thought badly of him until I think they killed him also for other reasons, but that spiraled from finding out he liked dick. and that’s american mafia that they actually based on well-done research of the culture in Italy it came from, I assure you that here it doesn’t work that differently. like. the shit above is so inaccurate and frankly offensive, it’s like… I get people romanticizing problematic stuff but the thing is that when you tell them that it’s actually offensive you get brushed off as ‘ah well you’re being too sensitive it’s just a word u__u’. now, I’m all for exploring shit we wouldn’t be into, but not like THAT, because that’s like mafia romantic comedy and that’s not how it works. now, you wanna do a fic where the mafia characters are deeply flawed and bad people and the police tries to catch them? fine, great, go ahead. you wanna do a fic where the enforcer above deals with dunno an entire life of internalized homophobia when he finds the shopkeeper attractive and feels conflicted over having to con money out of him and doing horrible shit for a living and maybe understanding that crime isn’t worth it and then he actually collaborates with the police and gets shit from about everyone he knows and loves for that? okay, awesome, go ahead. nothing bad in that.

but the shit above is not exploring things we wouldn’t/writing darkfic, it’s THINKING THAT A CRIMINAL ORGANIZATION WHICH IS STILL A THING IN OUR PART OF THE WORLD IS CUTE AND ADORABLE. and that only plays in their favor because it takes the bad aura out of the word and we really should not let that happen. like. that is what is bad about mafia aus and mafia discourse, that people don’t realize the mafia is alive and well and thriving and not a thing that doesn’t exist or a generic word for organized crime.

you wanna write the shit above? okay, CALL IT CRIME AU or mob au, not mafia au.

btw, add-on: idk if I mentioned it in the above post or not, but in case I didn’t, I said that people would balk at the idea of a mexican cartel au. sadly since then I’ve found out a fandom where not only there is one but it’s also extra cutesy and people apparently love it and it has a bunch of kudos/comments and idek I’m not even touching that with a ten foot pole but like… I’ve avoided it and everything that author wrote because to me it’s just… nope. like, nope. if you do mafia aus don’t make them fucking cute. (also: in the same fandom I had to mute a v. famous fanartist whose art I actually liked but did cutesy mafia aus and.. like… haahahhaahahahahaha nah sorry. can’t go there. nope.)


Miraculous Tales of Ladybug and Chat Noir - Grow-up!AU

What if their outfit will change as they grow up?

What if Marinette will never be able to confess to Adrien, but will continue to treat Chat as the street cat that he is, becoming more and more confident with him?

What if Adrien will remain the same cutie patootie, but will change in ways to appear because of his adorable daddy? What if he will become more like his counterpart of the anime version?

What if Alya and Nino will change too?

What if..?

You know, nyah (this is a redraw of a really old drawing what i did a long time ago)

sorry not sorry

btw, The jack clothing design is from here, I really liked it so use it in this comic

One more thing, I am currently doing a request of hamilton that someone left me a few days ago (if the person who asked is reading this, I will post tomorrow or Friday) if you want a request you can ask for it on my ask, honestly, I like it Much to do them, that helps me practice a lot.

(Thank you for reading and sorry for my horrible english)

Connie is not stupid. Maybe he just has learning disability!

Reading the manga i have discovered some things that made me think that. (the manga only, because in the anime is kinda different)

For example, in chapter 18, when Shadis says that he isn’t very fast to learn things and he often do mistakes in the operation, probably for lack of concentration. People who has learning disability is very slow to uptake and it’s very hard to learn for them.

His concentration is really weak, as seen when the trainees were training in hand-to-hand combat. People with learning disorder tends to be very, very inattentive.

and, when they recruit in the Trainees Squad and Shadis do the “rite of passage”, Connie errs the salute. When you have LDs, it’s hard to recognize left and right and it’s very easy to switch them.

Plus, in one of the last interview, he said that he was bullyied when he was a child, called “stupid” and often abandoned in the forest. He doesn’t have sense of direction. Another of the symptoms of LDs.

In conclusion, Connie is been mistaken as a “stupid” or a “retarded” only because he cannot learn in the same way as others. But, ranking eighth on two hundreds, he showed to being able to do things like others even don’t having the same possibilities.

Yes, Connie is really a genius!

Opinion about couples of Yuri On Ice!!!

I apologize before because my horrible English, sorry I’m not used to write in that language. ><


We started with one of my ships favorites.

V i k t u u r i:

To be honest, this is one of my favorites. The base of this couples is simple, the support mutual that is have, turning them in a kind of relationship that of would describe as “two lovers”.

O t a r i o:

 A beautiful friendship with a possible couple, not there nothing better.

S e u n g C h u c h u:

I like, but however I do not see where it began. Certainly a cute couple, but without any basis.

Y u u Y u:

In particular this couple I have nothing against it but you do not like me, I can say that it is pretty on the basis that the majority of the Fanfic, are presented both as a mother son. But it is certainly very interesting if seen from the point of view as a couple.

S e u n g S a:

One of my favorite couples, the SeungSa (thus the name), start with the fact that the Crush of Sara obviously is Seung-Gil. A couple missing to explore.

S a r a M i:

 Undoubtedly one of the couples need to exploit in a Yoi, during the anime it was demonstrated that these two got along well, but not to specify more your friendship leaves a world open to the possibilities of this couple. One of my unique ships yuri.

I like you | Kurt Wagner

Requested by anon:
“Can you just do something sweet with Kurt like you 2 are best friends but Kurt quickly realizes he loves you and starts getting all weird and shy and you start realizing you also love him too and then like maybe you find out he likes someone but you don’t know who and he asks you for advice but it turns out to be about you”
I know that it took ages but here is it, I hope you like it , even if it’s horrible.

(sorry for bad english)


Requests are open

Tell me if you wanna be added to the tag list

Originally posted by marvelmuggle

You and Kurt have been best friend for a long time. You instantly got along and became friends the first day Kurt arrived at the school.

Kurt was the happiest person on the earth for finding a friend, but eventually friendship developed into love. When Kurt realized that he loves you, he had a big break down. He thought that you would have never liked someone like him in that way.

“Hey Kurt” you scream from the other side of the cafeteria.
Kurt turns around, and once he sees you, he opens his eyes wide, returning to his book. You walk towards his table and sit in front of him.
“Are you okay, Kurt?” you ask a little worried.
“Yes” he says fastly, his cheeks becoming a little purple.
“Are you sure?”
“Yes, I have to go now.”
Kurt stands up and runs out of the cafeteria, leaving a really confused at the table.
“Hey, Y/N”
Jean sits in front of you, smirking. You focus on her and when you see her expression, you roll your eyes.
“Just tell me already”
Jean shakes her head, amused.
“All I can say is that he behaves like this because of a girl”
You feel disappointment and jealousy starting to fill you.
“I gotta go”

You slam the door of your room and collapse on the bed.
‘Everything was going so well’
When you realized that you love Kurt, you weren’t so surprise, deep down you knew from the beginning. In the last month you were able to convince yourself to tell him what you feel because you couldn’t stand the weight of a secret like this.
A tear slips on your cheek and you close your eyes, hoping to sleep for the rest of your life.

You turn the pages of the book in front of you, without really reading them.
“Y/N, I need help”
You close your book and smile at Kurt.
“What can I do for you?”
“I-It’s a girl, I like her but I don’t know if she likes me too”
You take a deep breath and look at your feet.
“You have to risk and tell her”
Silence falls between you two and you feel Kurt shifting uncomfortably next to you.
“I like you”
You lift your head, confused.
“What did you say?”
“I like you”
You stare into his eyes, frozen.
You put your lips on his and pull away immediately, giving him a sweet kiss.
When you look back at Kurt his face is all purple and his eyes are sparkly.
“I like you too, Kurt”



6 and 33 please! 😭 

Hey! Sorry I’ve been M.I.A, I’ve been wanting to make this request longer, hopefully I’ve succeeded. Thank you to @paledreamzz for this request, I hope you enjoyed. Had to listen to some sad tunes for this one. Make sure you keep requesting, from the list or from your own imagination. 🌸 


‘Okay, Shawn this is getting ridiculous. Why can’t you just admit it? You screwed up!’

Shawn and I had been going back and forth with this argument for the past hour. It had been happening for the past few weeks, he’d constantly snap without an explanation. I knew he was under stress, but taking it out on me was hardly necessary. Now, he was caught by the paparazzi in a club with someone else. He’d been going off the rails for a long time, but because I was to ignorant to stop him, it’s come to this. 

‘Y/N, you have no idea what I go through every single god damn day with this type of shit! You know they’re waiting for me to screw up, “the next Justin Bieber, ready to make the next mistake!” If you believe this crap than you’re more stupid than I thought.’

‘No,’ I shook my head, pointing my finger at him, ‘you don’t get sympathy in this argument, not anymore! You don’t get to belittle me anymore! I’ve been putting up with it for far to long, I get to speak!’ I could feel my voice becoming hoarse. I was sick of the crap he’d accuse me off, for it only to be problems he’d create himself. ‘You messed up. You cheated on me with someone else,’ my voice cracked whilst I held back a sob, 'you broke my trust, I’ve let it slide so many times because I relied too much of my happiness on you and I’m an idiot for doing that. But, telling me I’m stupid believing the media because there’s evidence right in front of me? You’re ridiculous!’ I cried, feeling the first few tears stream down my cheeks. 

'Don’t act all innocent, Y/N. Admit it; you’d be lost without me! You’d be the same boring girl you were before I met you and made you important!’ I bit my lip, trying to hold back the next sob that was ready to fumble out. 

I scoffed, shaking my head. 'No! No, how about you admit that you fucked up! You cheated! You can lie to yourself, but don’t lie to me… I’m sorry I’m not the model type you want and I’m too boring to put up with your antics. If you want me to leave, I will, happily!’ I screamed at him. 

I wiped my cheeks fiercely, storming away from him into our shared bedroom. I walked over to my draws, pulling out my clothes and throwing them onto our bed. I pulled out my suitcase from under the bed, shoving my clothes into it. I lifted my head to see Shawn’s eyes watching me putting my clothes in my suitcase. 'Y/N, stop,’ I ignored him, still placing clothes into my suitcase. He thought I was joking, but I was dead serious. I wasn’t stopping, not anymore, 'Y/N, seriously, stop.’ I grabbed my handbag, shoving what necessities I needed to in it, tears still cascading down my cheeks. 'Y/N!’ He grabbed my waist, stopping me from moving anywhere. 'Please…stop.’ He pleaded. I sighed, closing my eyes, bowing my head down, clenching my handbag in my hands. 

'This is too much for me, Shawn. I just-I can’t do this - the fighting, arguments, you cheating, me forgiving you too easily…it’s too much for me, Shawn. You promised you’d always take care of me and make me happy…you’ve broken it.’

'I’m so, so sorry. There’s not a word in the English dictionary that can describe how horrible I feel about all of this…I can’t excuse my behaviour for these past few months. I fucked up. I used and abused your generosity and forgiveness and I’m sorry. Please, let me prove to you that I can turn this around. We don’t have to be together if it what it takes for us to work and for you to completely trust me again.’ He looked sincere, the most honest that he’d been in the past few months. He wiped away the tears that fell, but were just replace with new ones. I was truly hurt. I felt broken, destroyed…shattered even. I always promised myself I’d never let anyone treat me bad, but he did. Shawn did. And he’s realised his messed up. Big time. 'Y/N…I - I need you. I’m, so sorry - god I’m sorry.’ He kept apologising, resting his forehead against mine. He pulled the bag out of my hands, placing it on the bed before holding my hands, staring at me with such intent. 

'Shawn, how did we become this? What happened for us to become the couple we promised each other we weren’t going to be? We swore we never would…’ I squeezed my eyes shut, trying to stop the tears falling, but failed miserably. 

'And we still can be.’ He cut me off, 'We can still be the couple that works and stays together. We can prove through everything and every mistake that we can do it and make it. Just please, give me another chance… please.’ He pleaded again, squeezing my hands comfortingly. 'I can’t do this without you. If I lost you, I would be lost myself. Y/N, you’re my other half.’ I gazed into his eyes, watching him pour his heart to me. 'I didn’t mean for this to get so out of hand. I know it’s not an excuse, I can’t justify my actions, but I can with my feelings. I never kissed that girl, she kissed me because she knew it would cause this, would cause the paparazzi to go crazy and you to lose that last bit of hope in me. I love you, Y/N. I love you so much that it physically pains me to see you with a suitcase ready to leave, to pack up and walk away from me. This has been my worst nightmare and it’s happening, that I caused the best god damn thing to ever happen to me to leave me and hate me. Please, let me prove to you that I’m the man you deserve and need.’ 

I was completely stunned at what he was saying, since he hadn’t been honest with me for so long, that I was left speechless. I looked down at his hands, trembling a little whilst holding mine. I sighed, staring straight into his brown orbs. 

'Shawn, thank you for finally opening up to me. I’m heart broken we’ve had these arguments and it’s been ruining us. But…’ 

'But?’ Shawn asked, hope evident in his voice. 

'You’ve got one more chance, Mendes. Only one. You need to prove to me you can change and we can make this relationship work. I’m all in, and I need you to be too.’ 

'One chance is all I need. I promise I’ll be a better man, you won’t regret this. I promise.’ He pulled me in for a hug, kissing the top of my head and whispering sweet nothings into my ear. I closed my eyes, finally believing him after so long.