Masquerade III: The Rules of the Game – Part 5 (Jungkook x Reader x another BTS member)
One must know the rules of the game, in order to come and play.
!! If you haven’t, please read the first two sagas in this series: MASQUERADE & Masquerade II !! [There will be spoilers if you read this story first.]
Summary: With Club Masquerade’s original hosts “graduating” one at a time, it’s up to the newcomers to pick up the slack and keep the customers happy. And who better to take the reins than the notorious Red Mask’s prodigy, Jeon Jungkook. But things become a bit difficult when you come into the picture, with your desire to do research on the rules of love and dating through your experience with your host. Will Jungkook be able to satisfy your curiosities… or will someone else?
Jungkook x Reader x BTS member [Read on to find out who >:P] (ft. Jimin & Hoseok) CEO au, Host au, Cop!Kook au Fluff & Smut
A/N: Hey everyone ~ this one’s long again so I put another “Keep Reading” link so let me know if it isn’t working ^^ This is straight up SIN (You have been warned)…I’m sorry…Enjoy ~ and stay hydrated LOL.
say something had stirred inside of you after having sex with Namjoon would be
somewhat of an understatement. Rather than “stirred” it seemed that
it had been unleashed… unlocked.
There was a gnawing need inside of
you. Like that one time hadn’t been enough. Like you were intoxicated and
obsessed with chasing after the high, the pleasure, the satisfaction that you
had felt in that moment. But what worried you was that you knew that moments
and feelings hardly ever replicated themselves to the same degree, and to
expect the same feeling would be setting yourself up for disappointment. Yet
you still hoped; you still searched.
Every time you met with Namjoon, it
would end up with clothes strewn on the floor; your limbs tangled around each
other, like both of your bodies knew no other place other than each other’s.
When your frustration was so great,
you turned to Jungkook, who more than happily consented to your advances. He
was well aware of your feelings for Namjoon and of your great thirst and search
for physical intimacy. Most of the time, you and Jungkook would meet at the
Club, neither of you daring enough to initiate anything at work, not sure
whether it was something that crossed the other’s thought, and certainly not
wanting to cross that line.
Until one day, your growing heat got
the better of you.
As far as logical went, you always
thought your mind was in full control of your body, but it seemed that those
many years of tight reign had dissolved with a single taste of worldly
pleasures. And you couldn’t think of any reason to deny yourself, especially if
all the parties involved were on the same page and in the loop with everyone’s
desires and circumstances.
And so, seated side-by-side with
both of your backs to your co-workers, you and Jungkook were brainstorming some
ideas for improvements in marketing and advertising, which you had to pitch to
Mr. Jung and Mr. Park by the end of the week. You crossed your legs in an
attempt to dissipate the throbbing of your center as flashes of heated nights
with Namjoon and with Jungkook separately seeped in. Licking your lips, your
eyes flickered over to Jungkook’s concentrated expression and pursed lips. You
silently argued with yourself about the consequences of being caught in the
workplace and possibly pushing Jungkook too much out of his comfort zone,
especially when he wasn’t Nochu. But before your mind could register it, your
hand began travelling down to Jungkook’s muscular thigh.
Leo as Sailor Mercury Raph as Sailor Mars Donnie as Sailor Saturn Mikey as Sailor Venus
I’m so sorry! XD Please don’t hit me… >.<
(Well… These are just the paper sketches, who have been lying around here since a while… I’m not sure if I ever will draw them ‘neatly’ at my tablet…, but I didn’t wanted to hide this dumb crap from you… :’D *lol*)
(Btw… I wanted to draw another picture…, with Shina as Sailor Moon and Raphael as Tuxedo Mask… X3 But I don’t know how to draw Raph in this stupid costume… -.- Meeh…)
Sorry! lol I’ve been watching Guardians Of The Galaxy and Rocket is my spirit animal and I saw an opportunity and I took it.
About the paw pads on Judy. Before you make another comment, well, ah’hah, don’t, mate. For one, those are OLD drawings from a long time ago. Only 4 pictures were ever done where I put feet pads on Judy. (Regardless they were cute as hell) However I haven’t drawn feet pads on Judy ever since.
So before you come at me like, thinking you’re all clever, keep that in mind and read the description boxes. If you’re going to be stupid enough to say “omg bruh she triggered” I’m going to laugh at you the way Rocket laughs at Peter Quill’s 12% of a plan because I’m going to assume you have 12% of a brain :)
P.S: Guardians Of The Galaxy 2 is AWESOME. Rocket, StarLord, Gamora, Nebula, Drax, Baby Groot, Yondu, Mantis - all the feels.
Writing this made me realise how much I can’t wait to see his dork become a dad of my kids lol OKAY SORRY DON’T SHOOT ME but yeah a n y w a y s !!! Tweaked this a little and got carried away writing this, it isn’t thaaat much of a big fight cos I can’t bear to write about that /heh/ but I did try to stay within the angst genre so I hope you guys enjoy this (I actually kinda really like how this turned out) ^^
Pregnancy – the gift of life, a miracle, the fruit of your labour, the all so beautiful creation of another human being…or so they said.
And as much as you pictured yourself flawlessly gliding around your home or going out and about your daily life completing day to day tasks effortlessly, the sweat that was starting to form under your pits from the mere short walk out of the cab and into the elevator up your husband’s office even in this fucking cold weather was doing nothing to make you feel better about yourself in addition to the fact that he had completely forgotten about your doctor’s appointment despite reminding him just yesterday.
“Ji Eun!” Gray greeted you as you walked into the office. “Wow it’s been some time since I last saw you and…you got really pregnant.”
“Hey…” You smile out of politeness, unsure if that was a nicer way of him saying that he has noticed the 16 pounds that you’ve gained now that you were into your third trimester but decided that you were too tired to even go into that right now. You didn’t even notice when you started becoming this cranky but with this belly getting in your way of everything, sigh…it was just hard not to. “Is Jay around…? He didn’t pick up any of my calls…”
Also (sorry to keep bugging ya) another tiny detail: when buster is counting up his $935, does the list say "$5 for cookies" at the bottom? Lol
You’re not bugging me at all, anon friend! AND YES IT DOES! Here’s a picture of the list, but it may be hard to read. The list apparently was Moon depositing a thousand dollars, but it seems he made a few small payments… one of them is for printing paper, and the other for COOKIES. Why is this little detail the cutest thing??
[skip this rambling of mine] Sorry to some of you who have been waiting for my post (tbh I
don’t feel my post is worth the wait, they’re just… delulu thoughts) and have been messaging where am I or if I
am fine etc… I disappear for a while bc
1. University/college assignments: it seems this semester my
professors/lectures try to kill us slowly, 2. I don’t mean to disrespect
anybody but there were lots of drama here, like “Kaisoo is dead/broke up/not
close anymore” etc and tbh those things made me sad, I’m already dying enough
bc of the papers I need to do to survive my student life, I couldn’t afford to
be sad bc my otp’s gayness wasn’t exposed in public like it used to be.
Erhm, yeah… again I remind you this is how I see things, it doesn’t
mean they’re true. I do not know these boys personally. I repeat: this is how I
see them, how I perceive them, and I’m deluded af so don’t take my words
Now, what I want to talk about is sexism (what?)
Yeah you heard me.
Not long ago Soo wore a gray long-sleeved shirt with a big
yellow embroidery rectangle patched on the front of his shirt (on the right
side of the chest area) and “gender equality” was
written on it, clear, bold and vivid. (I don’t have the picture but I remember the
uploader put #equality gender then #love wins on the tags)
And when Nini babysat Tae0h, he taught the kid to protect
women (he said something about; Tae0h needs to be strong like iron man so he
could protect his sister and his mother). (I don’t have the picture/gif, but if
you have watched the episode/have seen the gifs on his tag, you’ll know what I
am talking about)
This idea struck me when I read an article about S.K having
new curriculum which is teaching their young students about the dispute of “comfort
women” that existed during Japanese imperialism in Korea. (You can read the
article hereon Wall Street Journal if you’re interested).
It made me remember about how women are still treated in S.K
I’m NOT saying S.K is a sexist country (I’m not a Korean nor have I lived there, also my knowledge about them and their culture is not enough to label them with such term), I am also aware that there are many countries that are
worse than S.K about this matter (my own country is shit too about
BUT, still, there are many articles about how unequal women are
treated there (in S.K), thus it means we can’t say that sexism doesnt exist there bc it does. if it didnt exist nobody would talk about it on internet.
A quite famous blog channel (that shall not be named here) had
talked about this before; women are expected to pour drink for men, pretty
girls get dragged forcefully into clubs so they would attract more (male)
customers, it’s inappropriate for women to smoke in public but not for men, and
there’s “women must be pure and still a virgin” before marriage too (or so I have
heard, my country has this ‘rule’ too btw. And I think my country has it worse.
Basically here if a girl lost her virginity before marriage she would immediately
be branded as “slut” “second-handed girl” “don’t have any moral” etc… sigh)
In their dramas too, you have seen how the male protagonist would
yank the girl on the wrist to stop her etc.
We can also see it on the radio interview when nini rubbed
soo’s hand (when soo had that red hair),
soo saw the camera, pulled nini’s hand lower (did he tried to hide their linked hands behind the desk? lol)
it seemed nini rubbed soo’s thigh?
^^^apparently in the full video (of the interview) baek and a member of the girl group (it was not only exo who got interviewed at that time. and sorry i dont remember which girl group it was, my kpop knowledge is a bit shitty) participated in arm wrestling, resulted: baek lost, the girl won. AND THEN the host immediately said something like; “A girl should’ve been delicate/soft not strong/brute like that [you].” (sadly I don’t have the link but I swear to god I saw the clip on my dash, or was it on YT? hmm.)
In a different radio interview, Chen also had commented
about this. He was asked whether he wanted a boy or a girl as his future child.
He chose boy bc he thought having a girl is a worrisome. He said something like,
“So many bad things would happen to
girls, especially in this [entertainment] industry(?)” (same as above, I don’t
have the link. I watched lots of exo interview videos on YT a year ago)
Back to kaisoo. Remember this
Now connect the dots. Based on what Nini had said, I (and as well many other kaisoo shippers) take
that Soo isn’t quiet when Soo
is with him. We have been wondering what kind of stuffs these dorks talk about…
Imo these 2 talk lots about some deep shit when they’re alone
Ofc, they have their playful moments —
chen was like “chill the fuck out”
soo was like “no! lemme go”
look he only nudged chen
but with soo, he grabbed soo’s arm
— but, I think when they don’t always joke/play around all the time (duh) they
would talk about significant things [probably politics, ideologies, etc], not only just chilling. Imo their personalities fit the idea [talking about deep stuffs] bc they don’t seem to be the type
to gossip around, [at least not when they’re alone/together IMO].
(Idk prob they would gossip around when they’re not flocked together? like when they hang out with other people? – it had
been said that nini hang out with his buddies outside the group (you know who) often,
and somehow my mind can’t stop to think that they’re gossiping around when they
hang out ( bc his buddies seem to be the playful/teasing type, so I guess
they would talk more about lighter topics, but I could be wrong). GUYS gossip
too It’s not only women’s things to do.)
Soo also had said this before.
sophisticated” Soo wouldn’t say this if both of them don’t talk about some
big heavy stuffs often. Often? Well yeah, if they only talked about heavy
topics once or twice, Soo wouldn’t have the “sophisticated” impression about
Nini (suho seemed to laugh at soo’s words choice tho lol it seemed he didnt believe soo? he did agree with soo tho [in the video], but i think he couldnt disagree even if he wanted to. bc then it would be unethical? if he did the topic would get dragged on and prob would make soo flustered. he just seems not to be the type to fluster/tease others? if it was baek or chen i think they would disagree just to mess with soo lol)
(Maybe this is me being delulu but Soo seemed to see Nini in
different light (different if we compare it with how other members view nini?), like soo was entranced yet proud at the same time about Nini? like he glorifies him? no, it’s too extreme, like… he sees nini in higher level?
bc not only he chose nini to be the mature and thinking in sophiscated one (i mean there are xiumin and suho in the group, why nini?),
soo chose nini to be the most handsome guy in exo (others voted for themselves but soo voted for nini thus nini won - nini had 2 votes, others had 1, soo had 0 bc he gave his vote for nini),
soo chose nini as the member with the best body in exo (even shindong said, “no, i mean between the 3 [baeksoochen] of you” he still didnt want to change his answer),
soo had said it twice that he would fall for kai [1st. bc of nini’s perfomance - this is in magazine interview i think? i dont remember , 2nd. would fall [in love] if he was a girl - exoluxion japan] (gdi low-key much)
erhm…im drifting out from the main topic, sorry.
What am I trying to imply in this post is that kaisoo might or
might not have discussed about how unfair women are often treated/sexism? I can’t
put a theory which one of them had the idea first/initiating the conversation about
this matter but my guts telling me it’s Soo? Since he wore the shirt first, then Nini
said those things (protect girls) later on
Sure, Soo might’ve just worn that shirt for fun. But remember
this guy has a good English pronunciation, seems to favor English songs,
watches quite a lot Hollywood mainstream movies. His English isn’t bad. He must’ve
known what that “gender equality” tag means when he decided to wear it.
And Nini too. Some of you might’ve thought that he said
those words to please the female fans/boost his image. But if he did, then why
he said that? He could’ve chosen others sweet words to make the girls squeal. Imo
he was genuine when he said those lines.
I think that’s it.
Sorry if this isn’t a “theory” about KAISOO IZ REALL but it’s
more leaning towards to how close they are. Bc imo people need to be really
close – especially people with KaiSoo’s personality [reserved] – to talk about
such deep matter like this (IFtheyDID talk about it*, bc this is just a theory
folks, im not saying this is true happened to them). At least I do. I won’t talk about
ideologies/principles to people whom I’m not close with (bc i’m afraid my view
would be judged or frowned upon or belittled).
Again, this is just how I view them. Thank you for reading. Sorry
for some mistakes, English isn’t my native language :)
I’m not sorry if this is too long, and too deluded, go complain at me and i’ll send you my sloth pictures collection.
SUE ME FOR BEING A DELUDED TRASH.
Roman: Morning :). Woke up thinking of you, have a nice day.
In my 28 years of life, I received good morning texts I could count on one hand. Most of them were from my ‘mom and dad’ when I went to college, serving as reminders of their love. I say 'mom and dad’ because I knew they were really just from mom. I knew her text message voice.
In my adult life, every 18th of each month I also received 'morning’ texts…from my phone company with the latest bill. And a couple of times from my first and only boyfriend.
So when I woke up the next morning after the night with Roman, feeling groggy and hating myself for going to bed after 1am, greeted with a text, I felt on top of the world. Untouchable. No one was going to ruin my mood. Because there was a guy out there and he was thinking about me first thing in the morning. And it wasn’t phenomenal because it was a guy, it was phenomenal because I had that effect on him. Maybe I’m not so bad after-all. Staying out late had all been worth it in the end.
Jen: Hey, morning to you too. It’s way too early to make me blush like that.
Roman: I miss your face when you’re blushing. Anything on the agenda today?
Jen: Lol I bet you do. Getting ready for work 😓
Roman: Oh snap, I’m sorry I kept you too long last night.
Jen: It was worth it.
Roman: Now I’m blushing.
Jen: Yeah right!
And he did the unthinkable. He sent me another text with an accompanying selfie, his bed hair strewn all over his crisp white pillow, his face flushed pink and an arm thrown over his forehead, as if he was just that casually good looking.
I had to compose myself before I could reply, tempted to save the picture so I could salivate at it at intervals during the day. I even had a close up of his tattoo; signs and symbols I couldn’t decipher. On a closer inspection, (I’m really not a stalker, I’m part journalist so paying attention to details is my forte. So don’t judge me. Thanks.); he had a scar that he concealed with the ink. That piqued my interest.
Jen: Well, hello good morning good lookin’.
Jen: Don’t act shy, you’re loving the attention. A blushing emoji would’ve been just fine, but I prefer the picture.
Roman: Oh, you do?
Jen: Yes. By the way, what is your beauty regiment? *takes notes*
Roman: Someone woke up feeling flirty this morning; where was this girl last night?
Roman: I like her.
FYI Romeo, I woke up feeling horny. Very horny, thanks to you and your delicious self; I had a dirty dream about you.
But I couldn’t text that; even though I knew he’d handle it well. He was Roman for goodness sake, the smooth operator.
Jen: She was on vacation.
Roman: I’m glad she’s back, can I talk to her?
I didn’t text back a reply, instead, I made a bold move and called him. I dunno what had gotten into me to be honest, I was acting so out of character, barely recognisable to myself. I wondered if I was always like this, but never really got the opportunity to realise it, like I did with Roman. In some ways…I liked it too.
“So tell me about this girl,” he said when he picked up. I could sense his smile. His voice was at its best; rough, ragged and low.
“What do you wanna know?”
“Who is she?”
“Oh she’s just my alter ego, she comes out now and then,”
“I’m intrigued,” he said casually. “She’s a flirt huh?”
“Is flirt lack of a better word?” I said suggestively.
“Perhaps,” he said with a low snigger. Jheeze. “But I don’t want to be rude,”
“Which one is it? Dirty? Freak? Naughty?” I offered him the synonyms I knew he was going for.
“Oh, I mean…I was just going to say 'blunt’ but alright, I’ll take all of them,” he said.
“No you weren’t,”
He laughed and then sighed, “You’re right, it’s not a bad thing though, I hope I’m not being rude,”
“No, you’re not,” i said with a shrug. All along my hand was twirling my hair around the index finger like a smitten teenager. Boy if he could see me right now.
He opened his mouth to say something - I heard him stutter before he came ot with, “So you like those words to describe yourself?”
So was it turning into that kinda conversation? I bit my lip, summoning words and ideas to flood my flirting-creativity-block infested brain.
“I didn’t say that,”
“Mhh,” he let out. He laughed quietly again. “Alright, okay, I see…”
“What?” I said coyly.
“Nothing baby-girl,” he said, and I crossed my legs tightly, down girl, down.
I loved the sound of his voice when said that, 'baby-girl’, so casual and low, like it was a secret between us. I closed my eyes, yearning to hear it again.
“You really are a little rebel huh? All that shy shit is a front,”
“If you say so. Tell me all about it tomorrow night, on that date I promised you,”
My face lit up, my body sat upright at the sound of that, and every part of me became awake and alive.
“Oh yeah,” I said trying to sound so casual, but I probably failed miserably and shamefully.
“So I’ll tell you about my win, and you tell me about your alter-ego,”
“Say, 7pm? I’ll come pick you up, if that’s okay,”
“Yeah that’s fine. Where are we going?”
“It’s a surprise,”
“Mmmhh, dunno if I trust your surprises,” I felt like I was in a movie and a date was coming to pick me up to go to prom. I never got to go to my prom. I felt elated.
“No? What if it’ll change your life?” he asked with seduction tinting his voice.
I made up my mind, Roman was a seducer. A sex-God sent from up above to make women like me feel all giddy without even having sex.
“Then it’ll be the best I’ve ever had,” I said after consulting my new alter-ego. I had to give him innuendos too, keep the game interesting.
“Then we’re both fucked,” he concluded. I couldn’t agree more.
And just like the prom; I now had to figure out what the fuck to wear in 48 hours because for some reason, everything was last minute with him. —
“I am royally fucked!” I exclaimed the following day to Nyah, Deena and my other close friend Jessy as they gathered in my apartment to prep me for my first and official date with Roman.
“Why?” Jessy asked as if it really was that complicated.
“Why?” she echoed again.
“He’s too much, I don’t know how to handle a man like him. He’s just so sure of himself, ticking every single box and I’m worried that there’s something majorly wrong with him. This can’t be right, something’s missing, or maybe I’m too afraid that I don’t compare or wont live up to his standards,”
“Maybe after all this, you’ll find out he has a small dick,” Nyah said with a frown, she looked traumatised at the thought, despite her point being so irrelevant. “That would be heartbreaking, a travesty, tragedy,”
“Are you gonna find out?” Deena asked with a grin.
I had thought about doing it with him honestly, mainly because he’d woken up parts of me that hadn’t been aroused for a long time. I hadn’t had it in a longtime, I’d learnt ways to cope by myself and a few gadgets. But when asked, I didn’t know the answer. Would I give in to Roman just like that? Would I not though? Why? Especially considering how addictive he is, could I really even turn him down if the opportunity presented itself? But was that good enough?
I adjusted my skin tight leather trousers on my waist and shrugged, avoiding eye contact in case they read me better.
“I dunno, we’ll see I guess,”
“What if he asks?”
“Guys I don’t know, stop making me nervous, I’m shitting myself already right now,”
“You’re dressed for the part though, I mean those nail thin stilettos scream fuck me papi,” Nyah insinuated. She’s always had a dirty mouth so I wasn’t concerned.
“If I were in your shoes, pun unintended, I’d take him on,” Deena said thoughtfully. “What’ve you got to lose? Don’t get me wrong, we’re not getting any younger; you’re in your prime to experiment. And this man is hot, lay it on him hard,”
“I’m not gonna fuck him just because he’s hot,”
“Why else then?” Nyah asked with genuine confusion; eyes squinted as if trying to understand my logic.
I don’t think I’d worked it out either; I think I’d spent so much of my life being the good girl, trained to frown at things like this, yet deep down I really wanted to. I mean it helps me because I’m always single, and people (mom, dad, I’m looking at you) always ask “when are we gonna meet your boyfriend?” the nonexistent boyfriend. I’d go off on a philosophy about waiting for the right man and being a good girl.
I was conflicted inside though; do I give into what I want because I want it, even though it makes me like the women I’ve been trained to frown on? Or do I miss out and hold my head up high, even though that’s not what I really wanted, but feel good because 'morally’ I’ve made the right decision?
“I dunno, if he’s a good guy,”
“Well you’ve hung with him, and now you’re going on a date with him, so obviously y'know he’s a 'good guy’,”
She was right.
"Leave me alone, I’m tired,“
Luckily, my phone vibrated into a dance on my dressing up table disturbing the curious Q&A. I reached for it and saw Roman’s name on the screen.
“Answer it then,”
“Uh-hello, hi,” I said nervously biting my lips.
“Hi,” he said, his voice lighter and more chipper than I’ve ever heard it. Was he as excited for the date as I was? “You ready? My taxi’s just pulling up outside yours,”
“Ummm,” I looked around at the items scattered on my bed that were due to go into my bag at one point, I hadn’t finished getting dressed, neither had I finished my make-up. “No not yet, sorry?”
“I can wait at-”
“Oh no, come up, I’ll buzz you up.” I said without thinking, but realised it when I saw my girls’ faces eye me with surprise. I couldn’t take it back either, and I wouldn’t have anyway.
“Yeah, come on up,” I said before we said goodbye and I hung up. “Shit,”
“You are really fucked,” Nyah commented. Thank you for your valued opinion Captain Obvious.
“You guys gotta go sit with him and keep him company, please?” I thought. “He can’t be on his own, it’ll be rude. But please don’t say anything out of line, just act human.”
“I finally get to meet the man candy!” Jess said happily, leading the way out.
They scurried away into my living room and moments later I heard the door open and his voice. He was talking with them like he knew them; strings of sentences and laughing outloud. What the hell was really going on? I dumped all the stuff on my bed into my small shoulder bag and ran to my closet to grab my blazer and bag. I couldn’t keep him in there any longer with those vultures, who knew what they’d do to him. I examined my outfit for the last time and hoped for the best.
I shut the door to my room and took a deep breath and headed down the stairs. Jessy saw me first seeing as she was sitting facing the stairs. She smiled wide and big, then looked back at her congregation.
I snuck up behind Roman and covered his eyes with both hands. He laughed and placed his hands gently above mine, peeling them away.
“There she is,” he said, turning around in his seat, then thought better to stand up. He walked around the furniture and stood face to face with me, not shy about company, he checked me out and quirked his brow at me. “Jheeze, aren’t I lucky?”
“You look very polished,” I commented.
“Y'know, I kinda had to put in more effort. Don’t want you to put me on a Worst Dressed list,”
“You have a lot of other things that’d make up for it,” it just slipped.
“Glad to hear that, are you ready?”
“Alright then, shall we?”
“So, where are you taking our friend Mr…Roman?” Jessy piped up.
Roman looked at her, startled, for once.
“Better yet, what are your intentions with her?”
“And what time would you be bringing her back?” Nyah chimed in.
I rolled my eyes and took his hands. “Ignore them, they thrive on this, this is why they don’t have many friends,”
He laughed and raised his hand at them, “Ladies, have a good evening,”
“Bye Roman,” they cooed in unison like horny teenagers, their bad cop routine forgotten.
“They’re so embarrassing,” I said to him as we exited my apartment. “I hope they were not too much trouble,”
“Nah, only when you came,” he smiled and reached for the button to call the elevator.
Once it came and we climbed in and stood side by side. Silence fell over us as the doors merged shut as if we’d both been waiting for it to in anticipation of what followed. I looked at him. He looked at me. He stepped closer, closing the gap. He kissed me, I kissed him back.
“Can I tell you a secret?” he said.
I nodded wearily. I was too curious to pass up on it though. "Yeah?“
"It’s only been a minute, but I’m crazy about you,”
And just like that, he’d said everything I’d been feeling but couldn’t articulate into words. Was that even possible or real for two people to feel like that after knowing each other in that short space of time?
I couldn’t answer back because the elevator came to a halt on the 3rd floor and a family walked in. We stood next to each other in our little corner, our bodies in contact. I gazed up at him, hoping that I could tell him the same with my eyes. And I think he got it. He smiled.
He was right the other day. We were both royally fucked.
OKAY soooo go easy on me. This is literally my VERY FIRST fanfic. IM HELLA SORRY IF IT SUCKS ASS CHEEKS butttt I tried lol. Hope you like it though!
Max sat in the light of a single desk lamp. The glow was
bright enough to light just the table it sat upon.
It was a quiet and still night for the brunette. She decided
to stay home while her two best friends went out to another party. She wanted
time to go through her portfolio, and take a breather from all the shenanigans.
Flipping through the pages of various pictures, she found
her mind drifting away from what she originally wanted to do. She closed the
folder, and walked to the closet. She
reached behind a pair of shoes that looked like they haven’t been touched in
ages. Pulling through the cubby was Max’s stashed away photos in a disguised
As the group photographer, it was her job to document
everything. Every memorable moment- whether it was a piece she used to
playfully blackmail her friends; a souvenir from the many, spontaneous road trips;
or just a silly photo for nostalgia. Max took a minute with every picture. Remembering all the little details of how that
picture came to be.
She laughed when she
came across a photo of Rachel’s leg receiving some love by Pompidou, and the
girl reaching out for Chloe who would purposely keep herself just out of reach.
Another was when she and Rachel decided to doll up Chloe.
Max loved the bluenette’s pissed off face when they were
Towards the end of the stack she found a picture of the
trio. It was a simple group selfie. It was the day they got Rachel back. The
beginning of their friendship as a threesome. Max had to admit it. Arcadia
Bay’s sunset was mesmerizing. In this photo, they were all smiling. Especially
Chloe. Her two best friends right by her side.
Max ran her fingers across the gloss print. Every picture
The rest of her collection had a common theme: blue.
Yes- 25% of the pictures were of her childhood best friend.
Her blue hair always looked intense against the dull colors
behind her. Max admired how almost every photo of the blue headed girl seemed
so genuine. Her blue eyes always looked intense, yet soft at the same time-
even before the blue hair.
Max felt her heart flutter looking at the pictures. She
lingered longer on each one.
What were they? “Best friends” seems to fall a bit short of
what they were. Max couldn’t quite pinpoint what it was exactly. All she knew
was that she cared about Chloe. A lot. Probably more than she should. She would
do absolutely anything for her. Even turn back time- which she did. Over and
over. She did things she would never have thought she could do had it not been
in Chloe’s name.
They had been through too much to just leave it at that.
The brown haired girl neatly packed away her collection,
letting out a deep sigh. It was growing. It made her happy to know that she
soon needed a bigger box to accommodate the contents she kept within it.
She returned her special box to its hiding place.
Pulling herself out from the low place, her arm got caught
on the jacket hanging just by the shoe rack. Max instinctively shot her arm out
to snatch it before it fell completely off.
Slipping out from the pocket was a white slip.
Max neatly returned the jacket to its hanger before bending
down to pick up the paper.
A plane ticket?
It was a one way ticket to Los Angeles.
The girl turned her head back to the closet. It came from
Chloe’s favorite black jacket.
A plane ticket to LA? The departure was for Thursday- a
couple days away.
Max back to the dimly lit table, and sat down.
She remembered Rachel stuffing her purse before they left to
the rave. Max recalled where she remembered seeing the familiar bold, red banner that
stretched across the ticket. Rachel had one too.
Los Angeles. One way.
Neither of her friends brought it to her attention that they
were taking a trip to the entertainment capital of the world—without her?
Well, Chloe brought it up once before. She referred to
Arcadia Bay as the hellhole that she and Rachel wanted so desperately to get
out of. Los Angeles was their escape plan.
Max sat down and fiddled with the ticket. Why didn’t they
tell her? Why didn’t Chloe say anything about it? Why wasn’t she invited for
this one? Max felt like a lame butt for analyzing all the reasons why she was
being excluded. They weren’t exactly attached at the hip. They were adults they
could do whatever they wanted, and whenever. Then again, Chloe and Rachel were
known by all of Arcadia Bay to fuck shit up wherever they went. They’d shut
down the cool kids. Make the parties three times more fun.
Yeah, the mosh pit wasn’t her forte. Punk rock wasn’t her
style. But that didn’t matter to them right? To Chloe?
Max began to regret staying home while the other two went
out to live life. Her mind was now trying to convince her that she was the odd
one out. Rachel and Chloe are living up to their promise to each other to
finally get out of Arcadia Bay. That the last few months did not matter. Max
wasn’t part of that arrangement. She still isn’t.
No way, Caulfield.
There’s no way Chloe would ever leave without you.
The punk expressed in the past how Rachel had a huge impact
on her life. Her savior. Her angel.
What was Max? the “best friend” that abandoned her when her
father died. The person who was never leaving. The person who left her broken
friend, and let someone else pick up the pieces.
But she could’ve
called me too..?
The freckled girl placed her head in her hands. She was
definitely regretting staying home now.
As the night when on, Max began to let her mind wander some
So, what if they’re
going to Los Angeles without you, Max. It doesn’t mean anything.
She held the ticket in her hand reading the black lettering
over and over.
It was one way.
Does that mean they’re staying there?
As roommates, they all agreed to respect each other’s
privacy, but Max was a tad curious.
She opened up the door to Chloe’s room.
It smelled of weed and alcohol. She noticed two stuffed
duffle bags somewhat tucked underneath the bed.
Refusing to quickly jump to any conclusions, Max shut the
door and walked across the hall.
It wasn’t until she saw that Rachel too had most- not some-
of her things packed away even in boxes near the wall, did Max begin to tear
C’mon Max. It was
their plan for a really long time. But I’m sure they’ll explain in the morning.
It was past midnight when Max checked the clock.
Chloe and Rachel are usually out past dawn, so she wasn’t
The small girl was tired of doing nothing. Sleep was calling
her. As soon as she lay back against the cool side of the pillow, it’s like
life wanted to twist the knife in her chest. In the darkness of her room, Max
laid wide awake.
Her eyes were red from the tears. It only makes sense that
the two would take off somewhere together, and never look back at Arcadia Bay.
It was their dream they dreamt up together. Who was she to wedge herself
between the obvious soulmates?
Soulmates. Chloe was hers. But Rachel was Chloe’s.
What she didn’t get was why Chloe never told her. Was she
ever going to tell her?
Why keep it a secret?
Shuffling behind her bedroom door made Max’s breath hitch.
She quickly wiped her eyes. She pretended to be asleep.
She heard giggling and shushing.
She heard her door crack open.
“I forgot my bag at Justin’s place.”
“Of course you did. Take my keys. DON’T fuck up my truck or
I’ll be hella pissed.”
“When are you not hella pissed?”
The beautiful girl pecked Chloe on the cheek as she swiftly
bounded out the front door.
Chloe grinned from ear to ear touching her cheek.
Chloe peeked in, and just looked at her best friend
pretending to be sound asleep.
Through squinted eyes, as she faked her slumber Max watched
Chloe look at her. She was smiling.
The tall girl closed the door slowly, trying not to let the
latch wake her friend.
Max didn’t get a wink of sleep that night.
The next day, Max again wanted to stay home while the two
other girls went out.
“Max, c’mon. Come with us this time. Pleaseee.” Rachel asked
in her small voice.
“It’s gunna be a pretty kick ass party at Frank’s new
place.” Chloe chimed in.
Max thought about it for a second. She wasn’t in the mood to
party at all. Though seeing Frank’s new place did spark her curiosity. Max
thought about how Frank was “trying to turn over a new leaf”, and get into a
legitimate business. Besides, she did not want to be alone with her thoughts
again that night.
“Fine. But I’m not
smoking or getting wasted.” She shot a look towards the blue haired girl who
always tried to get her to “have a little fun”.
Chloe raised her hands in defeat, “Alright, whatever you say
Mad Max. I don’t care as long as I get to thrash with my two best friends
tonight.” Rachel and Max simultaneously cringed and teased the other girl for
making it mushy.
The party was real fun, Max had to admit. Too bad half way
through she realized she had obligations to attend to: her portfolio.
Back at her the apartment, Max spent a few hours rearranging
her photos. By theme? By medium? Maybe she should sprinkle in some photos that
show off her versatility?
As time went on Max began to run out of ways to adjust her
portfolio until she just ultimately gave up on it, and put it away. It was time
for a break.
Max roamed around the small space. She began to think about
the ticket in Chloe’s jacket. She returned it so it wouldn’t seem like she was
going through her roommate’s things.
She sat back at the table, lit only by the single desk lamp.
She sat there with the ticket in hand just like the previous night.
Max- they’re leaving
without you. It’s Wednesday night . They leave early in the morning. If they
wanted you to go with them they would’ve told you weeks in advance, right?
It’s already 9 pm-and
neither of them has told me anything about going to Los Angeles.
Max started to get an ache in her core. She was being left
behind. The more she thought about it, the more she wanted to cry.
She shook her head. She didn’t want to feel what she was feeling.
Heartbroken? It was making her physically sick.
Max sat in the dimly lit room in silence. Letting her
thoughts conquer her. Every now and then she let a tear fall, not even
bothering to wipe it away. She had an empty expression, with eyes unfocused as
she fidgeted with the piece of paper that fucked up her week.
She heard keys in the door but didn’t make any sign to move.
It was just Chloe.
“Hey I forgot something.”
She said without looking towards Max.
“You missed it, Frank got shit on by Pompidou. It was
hilarious. I swear that dog is my fucking spirit animal.” She mentioned as she
looked around for what she needed. “Where the hell did I put it? Hey Max have
you seen my black jacket?”
Max answered with silence.
Chloe stopped what she was doing, and checked on her friend.
“Yo, Maximus. You okay?”
Chloe took a step towards the smaller girl. She thought she
must’ve fallen asleep at the table.
She approached her gently. She had a feeling that something
was wrong. Max was way too quiet.
She put a hand on Max’s shoulder. “Max.”
She first saw the puffy eyes and the red nose. She had been
Chloe immediately pulled up a chair to sit by her friend.
“Hey what’s going on? What happened?”
Max avoided eye contact and kept her hands clasped.
Chloe followed her gaze to see what Max was looking at- her
plane ticket for tomorrow.
The tall girl dropped her head and sat back. “Shit. You
weren’t supposed to see that yet.”
Max simply nodded, still looking at the ticket, and not
saying a word. She feared if she tried to say anything she would surely cry.
The two sat in silence. Neither of them knew how to even
begin talking about it.
Max was the first to stand up.
Chloe opened her mouth to say something but Max cut in with,
“Your jacket’s in the closet,” her head bowed and away from facing her friend.
She began to walk back to her room.
“Max, wait. Can we talk about this?”
Max stopped in her tracks. She turned and with the most
genuine smile she could have made at the moment she assured her friend that she
didn’t owe her an explanation. Before the tears could fall, she entered her
room and closed the door.
Chloe sat there feeling like a total ass for not telling her
best friend of her plans. She didn’t know how to bring it up. It wasn’t a
secret necessarily. She just thought it wasn’t such a big deal. She, herself
wasn’t even sure if she wanted to go to Los Angeles. She just wanted to be with
Rachel wherever she went. She knew Max had her life built around Arcadia Bay at
the moment, still finishing up at the university here. She didn’t want to be
the one to get in the way of her path to becoming one of the world’s greatest
photographers. She was helping her this way. Right?
The tall girl forgot all about the party and the jacket. She
slid the ticket in front of her .
You idiot. You were
really trying to skip town thinking she would never notice?
I’m a bad influence.
She should be happy to get away from me. She doesn’t need my shit keeping her
The tall girl folded up the ticket n placed it in her jeans.
She snatched her jacket from the closet and headed for the
She stopped by Max’s closed door. Hand on the handle to the
Dude, she’s obviously
She took a step back and threw her jacket on the coat rack,
kicking off her boots. The parties can wait.
She lightly rapped on Max’s door.
A small voice called her in.
When she entered the space, you can feel the awkward tension
in the air. She closed the door behind her and sat against the wall.
“Aren’t you going back to the party?”
“Nah. I think I’m good for tonight.”
“I know you’re only staying for me. I’m fine, seriously. Go
ahead and have fun.”
“Well I wasn’t exactly asking for permission. Besides, I wanna just sit and
chill with Super Max”
Max raised her brows. “Chloe, you get bored in like two
Chloe paused, thinking, then finally agreeing. “Yeah but
it’s worth it.”
The conversation sat there for a second. The two girls
didn’t say anything for what seemed like hours.
“My ass is falling asleep.”
Max patted the comforter next to her. The punk girl popped
up and hopped onto the bed.
Max was focused on just twiddling her thumbs. There was no
sign that she was going to initiate any type of conversation at this point.
“So..” Chloe began, “We really aren’t going to talk about
Max looked at her friend with a blank expression. They
studied each other’s faces. Again only Chloe spoke.
“Are you mad..?”
Max again looked at her friend for a long moment. Chloe
examined her friend’s expression hoping she could find her answer there if her
friend wouldn’t outright say it.
Max inhaled deeply, and shook her head. She returned her
attention to her hands, obviously not wanting to take the conversation further.
Of course she was mad. She didn’t like that she was mad. She
didn’t feel right about being mad. Any time she let herself feel mad about it-
she reminded herself that it must be some kind of punishment for what she did 5
years ago. It wasn’t fair for her to be mad at Chloe for finding someone else
to make her happy. She knew Chloe was practically in love with Rachel. Wherever
she goes, Chloe goes.
Wherever Chloe goes, Max only wished she could follow.
“I’m just tired.”
Chloe knew that was bullshit. Though they were apart for a
period of time, no one knew Max Caulfield like Chloe did. She could usually
read her with clarity. Tonight, it’s fuzzier than normal.
“Okay.” She replied and got up from the bed not wanting to
press any more than she already has.
Suddenly, Max speaks up. Voice as small as her.
“I can’t keep up.”
Chloe stopped at the door.
“What?” She turned to see Max’s still in the same position,
still not looking directly at her. Her eyes were towards the ground. Even in
the dim light of her bedside lamp. Chloe saw a tear fall from the corner of the
shy girl’s eyes.
There was silence.
“You and Rachel. I.. don’t think I could keep up.”
“Max, what are you even talking about?”
Max continued hesitantly, “I mean you guys mesh together so
well. “ She was unsure of how open she wanted to be with the bluenette. She
knew her better than she knew herself, yet she was still nervous.
Chloe walked back to the foot of the bed and sat down. She
faced the door, but her body language told Max she was still listening.
“Sometimes I feel like I’m on the outside looking in. Then, I
see why everybody thinks you guys are such a kick ass duo. Because you are. I
Max’s thoughts began to swirl. She didn’t know where she was
going with this.
Chloe didn’t know where Max was going with this. The once
clear window to her best friend’s thoughts and feelings became foggy.
Max sniffled trying
to keep back the tears. She didn’t know why she was crying. She had been
conflicted with her feelings lately. Was this going to be the night she let
Chloe remained quiet.
Whoa. Wait a minute.
Is… Is Max.. jealous? Of Rachel??
Max didn’t know what she wanted to say next. Chloe wasn’t
saying anything, and that worried her. Does she know? I don’t want to make her
choose. I don’t want to be that friend. I like Rachel too.. but Chloe..
Max felt the tears winning. Her brain kept bombarding her
with the thoughts that prevented her from thinking rationally.
Of course she doesn’t
like you that way. You left her remember? Rachel is so much better than you.
She saved Chloe when she needed you the most. She isn’t chicken shit like you.
Chloe’s crazy about her. Just accept it.
Max cleared her throat and shook her head.
They already bought
tickets, Max. It’s too late. Just let her go. You had your chance. All you want
is for Chloe to be happy. So let her.
Chloe was still quiet, as she raked her thoughts.
I have to say
something. But what? God. Fucking think, Price.
Again Max saves her.
“You weren’t planning on coming back.”
It was a statement. Not a question.
Chloe shook her head as an agreement, and she felt a knot in
“Have a safe flight, Chloe.”
Ouch. The way the words left Max’s mouth stung like a bitch.
Soft, but it was laced with pain. She was tired. Tired of trying to get Chloe’s
Chloe took one look at her friend who still avoided her
eyes. She was leaning back into her bed. Getting ready for sleep. It was
Chloe’s que to leave.
Fuck- she didn’t want her to leave.
Max just didn’t know what to say anymore. She was so torn.
She didn’t want Chloe to stay trapped in Arcadia Bay forever. She didn’t want
Rachel to be pushed out of her life either. She wanted Chloe.. but she knew
that she couldn’t have it both ways. She also knew she would never make Chloe
choose. It wasn’t fair. Nothing is fair.
Chloe shut the door behind her. It was 1 am and she felt
like getting high as a kite. She decided otherwise.
The tall girl walked down the hall to her room.
Rachel wasn’t back yet. Her room was as she left it for the
Her phone buzzed. It was Rachel. She was going to spend the
night at Frank’s
OK so sorry for the long wait yall! ive been so busy with school n stuff! but i promised more pics and video! so here it isss! In the first one the camera man was filming me takin pics with kookie! hehe IT LOOKS LIKE IM SITTING ON HIS LAP LOL BUT IM RLLY NOT THO * i wish a was tho oops*
but anyways! he was also so sweet! he let us take that picture on the bottom with him! *sorry i look wierd jesus christ i was shakin so it was hard for me to smile normally*
sorry took keep yall waiting! theres another video on the way for you!
hopefully there will be a AHL season 2 WOOHOO! bts fighting! Miss you boys
I didn’t catch this the first time I watched, but I just rewatched TST on the PBS site and caught something in the credits. It’s nothing revealing, but there are some red letters in the credits, and reading them out:
We get “Six Napoleons”. nice
WATCH THE CREDITS TOMORROW. IF THEY DID THIS, THEY’LL DO IT AGAIN, AND MAYBE IT WON’T JUST SAY “THE DYING DETECTIVE” NEXT TIME.
Sorry about the shitty pictures my stream was pretty low-q
Okay so funny story & hopefully this doesn't come across as creepy, I don't mean it to lol. I've wanted to confess this for a while; 1st time I saw a picture of you on another blog, I thought you were a really hot/cute, androgynous girl (sorry haha). Then I found your blog & found you were a guy, but still felt oddly attracted. I never felt this before about another guy, so even if it is an experimental feeling, you popped my gay cherry, lol. So part of me has a big ol' gay crush on you. <3 ;)