soooo ill



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HEX SIGN (2014) // UTOPIA (2015) // ELYSIUM (2016)

300+ followers celebration! (つ﹏⊂)

you think one of the ways kyoutani can truly calm himself down is to look at cute animal videos?

like!! when he’s really pissed and he goes and storms off somewhere to be by himself, he pulls out his phone to search for cute dog vines. and as he watches more and more he gradually gets a little more calm and even cracks a smile (and maybe lets out tiny laughs too omg) and then goes back to wherever he was before a little less angry, and tries to remember the cute animals from the videos.

Writing Ideas:
  • How EDAW undermines attempts to spread awareness;
    • Before / after photos: weight gain = cured, weight low = sick, therefore equating weight with severity of illness;
    • Soooo anorexia-centric;
    • “Sickest of the sick” / most extreme cases gain the most attention on social media but do not actually need more public awareness;
    • Competition and triggers result when explicit details, behaviors, and numbers are used in “recovery” stories: you don’t have to prove how sick you were in order to be an inspiration in recovery;
    • Feelings of invalidation via comparison by both the general public and eating disorder sufferers.

  • Making EDAW more effective in spreading actual awareness:
    • More focus on actual causes of eating disorders, ie. not social media or “diet culture”;
    • Little to no focus on weight or specific behaviors in the context of personal experiences, which are often irrelevant and an attempt at self-validation: are personal anecdotes of relapse even helpful?
    • Significant focus on OSFED and eating disorder sufferers who remain at “normal” weights or become overweight / obese;
    • Emphasis that recovery is ongoing after weight restoration: someone can look “healthy” but still be struggling immensely because physical recovery occurs before mental recovery;
    • Little to no focus on social media / diet culture as a cause of eating disorders and more focus on underlying issues;
    • Goal: Understanding the causes of eating disorders in combination with what recovery from an eating disorder really means, without numbers, explicit details, or shocking anecdotes.

  • Body positive in relation to eating disorder recovery:
    • Still places so much focus on body and weight
    • Perpetuates misconception that eating disorders are body image disorders that can be “cured” with body love
    • Possibly just treating a symptom of an eating disorder without encouraging further self-analysis: instead of refuting negative thoughts about weight or appearance, think about why those thoughts are presenting so strongly;
    • Too much emphasis on physical appearance / being beautiful: I didn’t develop anorexia because I didn’t feel beautiful, and feeling beautiful won’t “cure” my eating disorder;
    • Still very fatphobic: If your body positivity relies on convincing yourself that you’re not as fat as you think or that you’re “still skinny,” then your body positivity is still fatphobic.
  • What I’ve learned in recovery and in relapse after recovery.
    • The danger of claiming “remission” too early;
    • The importance of realizing relapses as learning experiences.

  • Maintaining an eating disorder identity in recovery via social media:
    • Body positive Instagrams with body checking;
    • Food photography / recipe blogs;
    • Always relating life experiences to recovery instead of focusing on those life experiences alone;
    • Running recovery advice blogs or similar;
    • Would you still love your stomach rolls, stretch marks, cellulite, etc. if those features weren’t receiving positive feedback for being “an inspiration” on social media?
    • Is your body acceptance reliant on external approval?

  • The danger of “before” / low-weight photos:
    • Almost always serves as self-validation of severity;
    • Can be motivated by the desire to “excuse” being at a healthy weight, as in, “I actually am uncomfortable with my healthy weight, so look at how thin I used to be!” or similar thought processes;
    • Obvious trigger to other eating disorder sufferers;
    • Serves literally no point though?
    • Again with equating weight gain with progress in recovery.

  • Fatphobia:
    • What is societal fatphobia?
    • What is internalized fatphobia?
    • What is fatphobia in the context of eating disorders?

  • Miscellaneous:
    • Thinking of calories as “happy points,” stretch marks as “tiger stripes,” etc. could be hindering the development of a “normal” perspective on food, weight, and body appearance?
    • Wanting to maintain a certain weight in recovery is inherently disordered, even if someone used to be overweight;

  • Harmful trends in the eating disorder recovery community:
    • So many..

A bunch of stuff I don’t feel like coloring/finishing 

anonymous asked:

I'm highly allergic to coconuts, so no thanks (・_・;) (I haven't seen that movie yet, did you like it?)

“i didn’t know people could be allergic to coconuts! well…i guess you can consider them from afar if you want.”

My v-day gift to you <3

valentines day is either today for some people or tomorrow. Anyway, since im not doing anything but working that day i decided to do some drabbles again. soooo ill put the rules and stuff below and you just create your request and ill work on them tonight and tomorrow. i’ll only be choosing a few to do so im sorry if yours isnt done :( im only one person haha. 

Don’t be ridiculous with your ask okay. like make it easy for me to write something on it lmao. 

choose a member, scenario, plot, if you want smut, angst, or romance in it. it’s easyyyy. 


1. neighbors. 

2. roommates

3. class mate. 

4. cool kid in school.

5. party

6. beach

7. Park

8. blind date

9. club

10. best friends


1. experimenting together (if you have a certain experiment in mind pls help)

2. making out / grinding / dry humping / thigh riding / (no actual penetration)

3. trying kinks (send me what kink pls)

4. rough, needy sex that involved alot of teasing before hand. 

5. virgin sex.

6. oral only. 

7. three some (add a member)


1. cheating (whos the cheater?)

2. other (pls tell me cuz i cant think atm)

you can add whatever you want to your request <3 I’ll try my best to write it how you think it haha. 

click me to send your request.